Friday, December 06, 2013
I think one of my biggest flaws is my lack of consistency. I dream big and set goals, but after a little while, I never follow through. I've started learning so many different instruments. I've tried losing weight a hundred different ways. I've tried organizing my house consistently to only have a clean house for two days and then it returns to it's ever messy tornado of disorganization. I don't think that I'm a complete failure by any means, but it is always a nagging feeling in the back of my head. I always think about what it would be like if I could play a beautiful concerto on my keyboard, but all I know is chopsticks.
When I'm healthy, I will be able to cross my legs without having to be reclined. I will be able to crouch into a small ball and hug my knees. I will be able to fit through turnstyles with out having to lift or turn funny. I will be able to use my laptop on my lap. I will be able to find clothes in more places. I will be able to run to catch the bus and not feel like I just finished a marathon. When I'm healthy, I will smell fried food and not want to eat three days worth of calories in one sitting. When I'm healthy, I will not feel torn choosing a salad over french fries. When I'm healthy, I will not feel like the fattest person in the room. I will not first think about whether I will be able to do physical activities without hurting myself. I will be able to change in the locker room and not want to cover every inch of skin.
:) Take that donuts!