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Becoming successful at consistency

Friday, December 06, 2013

I think one of my biggest flaws is my lack of consistency. I dream big and set goals, but after a little while, I never follow through. I've started learning so many different instruments. I've tried losing weight a hundred different ways. I've tried organizing my house consistently to only have a clean house for two days and then it returns to it's ever messy tornado of disorganization. I don't think that I'm a complete failure by any means, but it is always a nagging feeling in the back of my head. I always think about what it would be like if I could play a beautiful concerto on my keyboard, but all I know is chopsticks.

When I'm healthy, I will be able to cross my legs without having to be reclined. I will be able to crouch into a small ball and hug my knees. I will be able to fit through turnstyles with out having to lift or turn funny. I will be able to use my laptop on my lap. I will be able to find clothes in more places. I will be able to run to catch the bus and not feel like I just finished a marathon. When I'm healthy, I will smell fried food and not want to eat three days worth of calories in one sitting. When I'm healthy, I will not feel torn choosing a salad over french fries. When I'm healthy, I will not feel like the fattest person in the room. I will not first think about whether I will be able to do physical activities without hurting myself. I will be able to change in the locker room and not want to cover every inch of skin.

:) Take that donuts!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KITALYST 12/10/2013 9:26AM

    I want to be able to do some of the same things you mention so I totally feel you on those. Add to that the fact that I also have trouble staying consistent with food and household stuff. All too familiar.

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GRANDMABABA 12/6/2013 7:00PM

    Great success to you!

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CAROL494 12/6/2013 5:40PM

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Wednesday, December 04, 2013

I want to start exercising. I have Zumba for the playstation and for my dvd player. I have insanity and p90x. I need to schedule it in. How do I make time for that and time for my husband and I to watch our favorite tv show? I need to figure this out.


Another restart

Monday, December 02, 2013

I quickly gave up last time. Even with the family competition, we were easily distracted by our old habits. It's funny, because family is a great support and a great enabler. When you have a family full of dysfunctional eaters, it's easy to break new healthy habits before they even start.

I can't give up this time. I know I will make mistakes and have hard times, but I can't give up. I have to make this change real. I have to change my relationship with food and exercise. If I don't, I will die. That's right...I will die a slow and miserable death. Obesity and diabetes will be the weapon. I can't let them take me. I can't relinquish to the temptations and to the withdrawals. I need to overcome my addiction to overeating and my addiction to sugar. I'm so disgusted that I am 24 years old and a diabetic. I am so disgusted that I am so lazy and tired all the time. I'm so disgusted that I'm not a good example to my siblings. I'm so disgusted that I have not taken care of this wonderful body that God has given me.

This week my goal is to exercise 5 times and to take my new medication every day. I'm also trying to eat smaller portions and cut out soda.

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MARIANNMC 12/6/2013 9:17AM

    Strong blessings! I am thirty years older than you and am just now figuring out what you know now -- we only get one body, so we have to take care of it. I know you feel "disgusted" with yourself. Transform that angry energy into energy for self-encouragement. You're 24. You can do this. You can have a GREAT life.

I, too, had to cut out soda. At first it was hard...but now I love my tap water with lemon (and lots of ice).

You'll find your way!

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Family Challenge

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

My family and I are starting a Biggest Loser style challenge. The person with the highest percentage of loss wins $200 bucks.
We went shopping yesterday. I had made a meal plan for all of us to follow. I'm hoping that it can start us eating better. We are going to work out at least 4x this week for at least 30 min each time.

Jeff (my wonderful hubby) has got us started to phase out GMO foods and transistioning to organics. I had no idea the harm that GMOs cause. So I hope that we can learn to fuel our bodies with wholesome non-toxic foods. I want my body to crave healthy things. I need to crave exercise and activity. I want to hate sitting still on the couch munching on high-calorie/low nutrient foods. Here's to another try at a life-style change. Fingers are crossed for it to stick.

Wish me luck!

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AURORAMILLET 2/26/2013 5:55PM


It is great that you are going to work together!!


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CUPCAKE_PIRATE 2/26/2013 3:57PM

    You can do it! This sounds amazing :) How are things going with the organic/non-gmo? It's so expensive, seems like. I prefer to eat vegetarian, so I don't have to worry about the meat... but it's hard to stick to too ;) Oh, was that an excuse? Nevermind me! You go girl!!

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Back at it

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

Stress and excuses got in my way again. I was on a haitus for a while. Eating whatever, not exercising, not putting health first. I wish my mind could just turn on the skinny thinking switch. Skinny people eat differently. I feel like they have a much sounder awareness of what to eat, how much, etc. I need to stop being so hard on myself for failing, and just pick myself, dust my crumbs off, and get back to business. The weather is beautiful at the beginning of's time to kick butt!

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RDGISME 9/5/2012 9:33PM

    Don't give up, hon!! emoticon and boy am I workin' along side of you!!

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NEWYEARME 9/5/2012 7:02PM

    Don't give up!!!! You can do it!!!! emoticon

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