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shift of thinking...

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

So, last week, I was all rainbows and butterflies and happy, right? I was eating well, felt good, had a great weekend.

Got on the scale this am, looking for my 2 lb reward...NOPE! Gained a half a pound....I literally laughed out loud!

Which brings me to this.

I felt better last week.
I ate better last week.
I moved more last week.

Is any of that diminished because I didn't lose any weight according to the scale?
Heck no. It just means my focus needs to be on doing what I need to do to feel better.

That's it. Its not a number or a reward of a number. Its just every day, eating well, being good to my body, my spirit, my whole self. As I do that, that is my reward. The weight loss is a bonus.

I'm not gonna fall into that trap with the scale. I will weigh on Monday because that is my accountability but I will not allow that to control my efforts.

  
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THREEE 7/5/2014 1:06AM

    THAT is so right...the scale is a TOOL, not the goal... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CANNIE50 7/2/2014 12:27AM

    How are you, Jan? I am proud of you for overcoming the irrationality of the scale, and focusing on the fact that you actually felt better. I have had the same experience as you, and have also laughed (it may have been a laugh tinged with just a hint of bitterness). I have no wise words. I have been thinking of you and wondering how you are.

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BIGMAMAT 6/20/2014 1:15PM

    Go Mama, Go!!! emoticon emoticon

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DAISY443 6/18/2014 2:46PM

    Yay!!!!!! Perfect attitude!

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PJH2028 6/17/2014 9:42AM

    YES! THAN KYOU. EXACTLY entirely what i needed to read and hear and feel today… after posting my "update". Do it for ME. Live better. Live well. clove

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/17/2014 8:26AM

    OMG, I did the EXACT same thing! Laughed my A$$ off when I saw a 3 pound gain. Yep, gained the same 3 I lost the week before, WTH?!? Whatever, I know I'm doing it right, and eventually, I will see it on the scale. You're doing great, just keep it going!

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NUMD97 6/17/2014 6:03AM

    Nicely done. THIS is what it is all about: Being the one in control, and not letting the scale dictate how we feel.

Thanks for posting!

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STEPH-KNEE 6/17/2014 2:28AM

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MELLYBEANS0919 6/17/2014 1:07AM

    Good for you! The number goes up and down for many reasons. Focus on how you feel.

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AAAACK 6/17/2014 12:45AM

    I love your attitude!

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JENNIERUN 6/17/2014 12:32AM

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thank you for this post! I need to remember that when I saw my scale go up today!!
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Victory over orange slices!

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Today my sister brought me over my favorite candy... Those sugary orange candies? I said thanks and put them in a baggy in my cupboard.

Then I cut up my watermelon and bagged that up along with some chicken to take to the races today. We will be gone all day so I wanted to be prepared and not eat crap at the racetrack.

I even had to go get ice and I got hubby some m and m's and I didn't eat any!!!

Yea, me!!!!!!!

  
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THREEE 7/5/2014 1:03AM

    absolutely, "yea you!!!" emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/16/2014 9:47AM

    WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!! That's a HUGE victory, way to go, I'm SOOOO proud of you!

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HGSGUY 6/15/2014 10:28AM

    You are in control! Empowering isn't it? Each time I maintain control over a negative force, I become stronger and find it easier to stay in control. Great job!!

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REMEMBER2BME 6/15/2014 6:23AM

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Great job!

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CANNIE50 6/14/2014 6:49PM

    Yay you! You show that sugar who's boss! emoticon

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4 dang good days

Thursday, June 12, 2014

This is the end of my 4th day. I can't tell you why I am doing things right or well, I can only tell you that I am. I am not trying. I am DOING! I am planning my meals and sticking to it. Every morning, I say I'm going to do something and then I do it. I have eaten salad for lunch and liked it. I have had fresh strawberries and pineapple to snack on and been satisfied. I added zucchini to my pasta tonight because I knew I needed more veggies. You know what?

I am proud of myself. I really am. For the first time in a long time, I am doing this for me..not because I SHOULD or that I'm going to power through it, but because I want to. I deserve to be good to myself. I NEED to eat right and I WANT to feel better.

I bought myself some new shoes because I'm worth it.
I'm tracking my food because it helps me be honest.
I'm here on spark because I need to and I love you guys.

4 good days. I'm happy with that.

  
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THREEE 7/5/2014 1:02AM

    see? more positive comments but telling us it is not necessarily easy...but back to the JUST DO IT...
thanks, kiddo

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/16/2014 9:48AM

    4 good days will turn into 14 before you know it! You DO deserve it! Well done Jan!

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PJH2028 6/13/2014 10:01PM

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Dang good indeed. Thank you for inspiring me. Grateful for two good days here. Yay

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CANNIE50 6/13/2014 7:20PM

    Reading this makes me happy emoticon

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DAISY443 6/13/2014 5:38PM

    Great job! and then there were 5, then 6, then it's a lifetime habit!

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MELLYBEANS0919 6/13/2014 11:41AM

    Wonderful. emoticon

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BRAINYBLONDE5 6/13/2014 8:42AM

    I am so PROUD of you! the confidence and pride in your voice is just so inspiring! 4 dang good days is dang good!!!!

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TREASURINGLIFE 6/13/2014 7:51AM

    Way to go!!!!!!!

- Michelle

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STEPH-KNEE 6/13/2014 1:38AM

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AAAACK 6/12/2014 9:33PM

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Keep it up - I love hearing this, it makes it all seem so doable!

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the last few days

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Well, kids, the last few days have been pretty good.

I'm planning, tracking, eating well and it feels good.

I'm shaky, but standing.
I'm taking it day by day, but I feel like I'm building momentum.
I'm not ready for any of this but I'm doing it anyway.

The things I used to do routinely, are foreign now, but I'm getting my memory back.

Thank you for all your support and for still being here yourselves!

As each day passes, I know I will get stronger and then I can start giving back to YOU guys, too!

On to TODAY!

  
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THREEE 7/5/2014 1:00AM

    you see how many who support you because you have supported them...some, i'm sure, even unknowingly...
you speak the truth...even during the hard and slip times...thank you for that AND thank you for STILL having an upbeat attitude during even those times...
keep at it ... I've missed you(my part not signing into spark as I should...it seems like june is my new year's day)


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DAISY443 6/12/2014 1:43PM

    Hang tuff, Mama!

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JITZUROE 6/11/2014 12:30PM

    Yes. And even as each hour passes ore getting stronger too. I can tell!
I'm going hourly these days myself.... : )
Bren

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/11/2014 11:47AM

    Way to go Jan, I know you can do it! One day at a time! *HUGS*

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AAAACK 6/11/2014 11:33AM

    My favorite line from this blog is "I'm not ready for any of this but I'm doing it anyway." I definitely need a big dose of that medicine!

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TREASURINGLIFE 6/11/2014 11:01AM

    One day at a time...that's about all any of us can do. Keep it up! :-)

- Michelle

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BRAINYBLONDE5 6/11/2014 11:00AM

    emoticon I know you are going to keep kicking butt!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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facing facts

Monday, June 09, 2014

Hello my friends. This morning, after returning from vacation, I weighed myself and logged it. It wasn't pretty but it is what it is.

It is a starting point, as is this blog.

I'm unhappy with my physical self. So today, I am going to log my food, drink plenty of water, eat all my meals at home and I'm going to do a 10 minute work out video. These are Things I can do today. So I will.

Here I go.

  
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JITZUROE 6/11/2014 12:29PM

    I'm proud of you!!!!
Bren

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LISALGB 6/11/2014 10:07AM

    Don't be too hard on yourself. You have had a lot going on. Now, you can concentrate on you!! You've got this!! I am cheering you on!!

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MICKEYMAX 6/10/2014 4:09PM

    wondeful! so good to see you and your flying cape!

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PJH2028 6/10/2014 9:18AM

    Yes!

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GRACEISENUF 6/10/2014 12:02AM

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HGSGUY 6/9/2014 7:56PM

    Ah vacation, know that issue!! But you are on the right path, it starts with day one!

All the stress and things to do to get ready for the wedding are behind you. You are a good Mom and took care of the Daughters big day, now it is time to take care of you!

Cheering you on to smaller and better things!

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SWEDE_SU 6/9/2014 7:13PM

    emoticon it's a great start! (and i'm right there with you…)

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DAISY443 6/9/2014 4:02PM

    You can do it! I have every faith in your abilities!

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TIME4CARRI 6/9/2014 3:35PM

    and so we begin! You've got a great plan and one good decision leads to the next. You already know what you need. You needed a break! This time is for you.

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CANNIE50 6/9/2014 3:23PM

    Ah, yes, reality - I know it well. Not always pretty or easy but facing it is so much more helpful than living in denial and make-believe-land. Right here with you, doll. emoticon

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AAAACK 6/9/2014 3:14PM

    At least you have a vacation to blame it on! But know this: I'm with you. I am starting again, too. We're in this together.

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MUSTANG_SALLY2 6/9/2014 1:34PM

    I'm cheering for you! Hope vacay was fun. Sending extra hugs.

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MAMADWARF 6/9/2014 1:10PM

    I am an hour in and so far, go good! lol... thanks, guys!

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BRAINYBLONDE5 6/9/2014 10:49AM

    YOU CAN DO IT! I BELIEVE IN YOU!

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GAELENEC 6/9/2014 10:46AM

    It takes courage to face yourself when you aren't where you want to be. You took the first step by starting. Give yourself credit for that!

Even small steps are way ahead of where you are when you don't try.

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TWESTEN1 6/9/2014 10:31AM

    Give yourself a break - you've been BUSY being mom of the bride and lots of other things! Sounds like you have a good plan for today - you'll do great!

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