Wednesday, January 15, 2014
1/15/2014 @ 3:39AM - I have rediscovered my 'Start' page several weeks ago & have been spending time exploring it. I just tried to re-set my daily goals which turned out to be nothing but a major act of futility! I deleted the present ones only to find I have a very limited list of preset goals to choose from, many to most of which I simply cannot do b/c of the health issues I deal with 24/7 (some of which are stated in my first, & last entry here 2 years, 1 month, & 10 days ago, but whose counting.) I have been a member of SP for over 5 years now & have not been able to do one single exercise minute. Maybe I can track the ~ 3 - 5' in takes to get down the 14 stairs & out of my building, however, I barely do that on a weekly basis so what's the point.
Back to re-setting my goals that are relevant to me. Each time I tried to change/add a goal tailored to my needs I wasn't allowed to add it unless it had a "name & type'. What kind of gibberish is that??? Presently I cannot #1. Drink 8 8oz. glasses of water/day do to (this will mean nothing to most) b/c I was diagnosed w/ 'SIADH' in 2005 when I drank so much water that I put myself into 'water intoxication'. I was younger & more active then & really didn't realize how much water I was drinking. Fortunately for me at the time my doctor was a Nephrologist/a Dr. who specializes in diseases of the kidneys. Unfortunately for me my sodium level in my blood dropped so low I could have seized, etc. I queried my Dr. about how it is said one needs to drink 8, 8oz. glasses of water/day. Consider his point of view, his response was (paraphrasing) 'I didn't say that.' & he continued 'Any fluid is basically water that is flavored & colored'. Due to my inactivity, I use the urine method to guide my daily fluid intake. I also check labels for their sodium levels, not to see are they low enough, I need to check for them to be high enough. #2. I passed on 'fatigue' in my prior post so I guess there is no time like the present. I was diagnosed with a 'Sleeping Disorder' (totally different entity from Insomnia) & a 'Circadian Rhythm Shift (regulates one's sleep/wake cycle) in 2008. I totally shifted in 5/2009, simply put, my days are your nights & your days are my nights. It's bad enough to be out of sync with oneself but it is worse to be out of sync with everyone else. Thus, having a goal of obtaining 8h of restful sleep a night is not an option for me. I was also diagnosed w/ Fibromyalgia 1/2010 & while I do not have the typical symptom of generalized myalgia (muscle pain from head to toes)I still deal w/ pain just from other sources & my baseline went from tired to fatigue & I go from there. #3. Due to my mostly being inactive for assorted reasons, how am I to exercise 30' 3X/week? Believe me when I say that I prefer not getting on the floor as getting up from it is more than a bit difficult. #4. I don't cook. I can & have in the past but I just don't enjoy it & at this point I have too many days where I just simply don't have the energy or strength. Food shopping is interesting as I need to go with someone or have someone lined up that will carry my groceries up the 14 stairs. I have me, myself, & I & since we all share the same energy we don't do much. Needless-to-say, I'm not doing this aging thing very gracefully.
Well I guess I've said enough. It's a lot, however, I was venting... I don't think I'll be exploding now. Actually, it's ~ 5:00AM which used to be my bedtime. Presently it's anyone's guess. I used to write things down to refer to them later prn. Looks like there's something to be said for journaling or whatever. Unfortunately this doesn't come easy for me as you can tell by the date of my last post. I need to add that somehow I have managed to maintain my sense of humor, one always has to be able to laugh as it has it's own healing effects. Besides, a good hearty laugh really gives the lungs a good airing out.
Due to it's length, it's understandable that this will be passed by or maybe a mere skimming over. And that's OK. Any advice/suggestions/words of wisdom regarding re-setting my goals will be greatly appreciated & graciously accepted.
Were you to be so inclined, I thank-you for reading this. Take good care & be well.