Thursday, March 06, 2014
Iím so angry with myself. It has been two months since I got back from my Christmas vacation and I still have not gotten back on track.
Granted the last three weeks have been rocky ones. From having extremely bad allergies, to a severe cold, to a dental crown that cost three times what I was expecting, and thatís just the start.
But still, I havenít been able to find that groove that was working so well for me before.
My office is doing the Walk Across Arizona Challenge again this year. Last year I had been so gung-ho about it, pushing myself to increase my workouts so we could get a higher ranking. But this year the team has been so lack-luster about the whole thing (two weeks in and I still have team members who havenít bothered to register, much less log steps). Itís just, kinda sucked the Mojo out of me.
Plus Iíve started with the, ďTomorrowĒ bit. Tomorrow, Iíll get back to the gym. Tomorrow, Iíll log my calories. Etc.
Iíve wasted two months on ďTomorrowĒ.
Take today for example. Itís Thursday, before the winter break Thursday was my weights day. But this morning I woke up, and thought, well thereís a good chance Iíll be hiking up the hill after work today with the WAA team, so I can lounge this morning.
But what are the odds that the team will actually make it to the hill? Last time it was only my boss and I. Iím pretty sure he canít make it tonight. Thereís a better then decent, letís go with 99.999999999998% chance that I will be hiking that hill alone. So that means I gave myself 11 hours to talk myself out of hiking that hill.
Tomorrow, will give me more time to get people excited about. No they wonít.
Tomorrow is Friday, the weekís almost over; I might as well wait until next week, clean start and all. And that is what you said last week, and the week before, and the week before that. There is nothing special about Monday.
Tomorrow, Iíll be less stressed and better able to focus on the hike. Except that you wonít be, because there will be a whole new issue to be stressed about tomorrow and a good hard workout is a known stress cure.
Iím tired, exhausted, whiny, and none of thatís going to change tomorrow, because tomorrow is a fictional place that does not exist.
Friday, February 28, 2014
Ms. I-Hate-It-When-People-Come-To-Work-Sick, came to work sick and gave everyone a cold, me included.
Saturday, February 22, 2014
I have found my #1 motivation for weight loss, and it far and away surpasses the desire for a bikini body; itís called Diabetes.
Since Christmas I have noticed my cat losing weight. I took him to the vet and it was confirmed that he has diabetes. I now have to give him, twice daily injections. While heís not happy with me pinching his skin he seems entirely unaware of the actual shot.
However, it hurts me!
I have been so stressed and terrified that Iíll do it wrong, that Iíll hurt him, or he wonít get enough insulin, or heíll get too much, or that Iíll poke the needle straight through his skin, or that Iíll cause an infection, etc.
Itís just so hard on me because I hate needles and, I have learned, I hate giving shots even more.
There is a hope that with proper diet and insulin he might reach a point where he will no longer need the insulin. And that is my goal.
But it made me think about how I would handle this if Iíd have to give the shot to myself. I seriously donít think I could do it. Stick a needle into my own skin, I shiver and feel nauseous at the very thought.
My Uncle is a diabetic, and for many years has giving himself daily shots. He says it doesnít bother him. Heís never hesitated to inject himself. When his granddaughter visits she loves to give him shots and he never minds.
But for me, there just is no workout as painful, no exercise as time consuming, nor any health food as expensive as insulin injections.
Monday, February 17, 2014
So I have checked four grocery stores and three different drug stores and not a one sells, Slim Fast High Protein (20g of protein, 180 calories) anymore.
They all sell the original Slim Fast, (10g of protein 180 calories). They sell other kinds of protein shakes which are about the same with only 10g of protein and 200+ calories. One brand has 20g of protein but 360 calories!
But the biggest impediment has been taste. The few alternatives Iíve tried have been hard to swallow at best.
Still there are a few grocery stores and drug stores I havenít tried yet. And if all else fails I guess I could order it online.
Itís just very strange that suddenly it seems no one sells this particular brand of shake anymore.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Iím not a breakfast person. Iím up at 6am but Iím just not hungry until around 10am, typical. But I realize that breakfast is important, so every day I have two yogurts and a Slim Fast Protein shake. Itís perfect for keeping me full and it gives me a nice shot of protein during my morning workouts.
Well last weekend I learned my grocery store is no longer selling Slim Fast Protein, they are selling something called AdvantEdge. Itís fewer calories (Slim fast=180, AdvantEdge=100) and nearly the same grams of protein (Slim fast=20, AdvantEdge=17), but it certainly doesnít taste the same.
Maybe itís just something I will get used to. Or I should try their strawberry rather than the vanilla. Or Iím just grumpy that I had a routine down, that was working beautifully and the world went and changed it on me. But thatís life. Iíll give this a few more days and see how I like it.
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