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Battery of Test

Thursday, April 10, 2014

I have been down in the dumps for a bit. I went to the doc and have been through a battery of testing and lab work done...

**I'm not pregnant!** YAY!!!

However, I'm developing fibroids inside of me... The doc wants me to see an OB/GYN... The doc thinks if I have a hysterectomy, I might be better off.

**Shut The Front Door!!! Um, Hello! I have yet to have a pregnancy. I'm not nor will I ever give you my permission to have a hysterectomy! I will be having children on my own if need be... I cannot consent to doing that procedure without at least trying for 5 years straight on getting pregnant. Now, IF I am able to have a multiple pregnancy (twins or triplets), then I might consent to having the procedure done. Until that time... HECK FREAKIN NO!

I'm stressed out, tired, my diet has gone to the dogs, my weight is at a stand still, I'm seriously thinking of dropping out of school 5 classes away from graduation... I will need to get a second job...

I just hope things turn around before June...

  
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DEB62BIE62 4/11/2014 9:17AM

    Hope things turn out for you.

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DNJEN471 4/11/2014 12:01AM

    Sorry! That sounds stressful. Hope everything turns well with the dr.

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Dr. Appt

Monday, March 24, 2014

I have made a request to see the doctor. I hope to hear word by Wednesday as to when my doctor's appointment will be. It will be nice to find out what the heck is going on with my body and if I'm pregnant or not...

I hit a mental block mode. My brain feels fried, like I no longer care what happens as long as I can sleep my days away. My family is worried that my anemia is acting up again and might require another hospital visit........ Geez!!!

I just want to feel better and soon.

I'm going back to bed, Nitey Nite.

  
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JOHNWBROCKSR777 3/24/2014 6:08AM

    Hope you feel better soon...

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Not Issues... A Subscription!

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

I went through Finals week… I may have flunked both my classes… It’s not from a lack of trying, but a lack of understanding. I get my grades this Friday to see if that’s what happened. If I failed both, then I have to pay to retake them… Regardless, my new classes begin on St. Patrick Day’s.



I have been feeling ill these past few weeks…

I have been craving spicy food daily for over 2 weeks. All last week, I was eating spicy food morning, noon and night! Please understand, I do not like spicy food. I may eat spicy food once every 3 to 6 months. Yet, it’s usually a plateful of food (like Buffalo wings, muddogs/crawfish, or gumbo) and that’s enough to satisfy my craving. I am eating Mission Burrito’s Mushroom Burrito Bowl, no tortilla, with rice, no beans, spinach, lettuce, cheese, sour cream, onions, pico, and lots and lots of Cilantro Ranch sauce. For 3 days this was what I was eating… If I eat at home, I’m pouring Valentina sauce over everything on my plate.

I have been craving lemonheads candies… I maybe eat a small handful of these once every few years. Sadly, I have eaten 3 movie boxes over these past 4 days…

Since Friday, I have been awake for about 9 hours total… Let me give you a rough idea of 120 hours’ time, I’ve only been awake for about 9 hours of it. I have been awake now for almost 11 hours for today alone.

Hot and cold flashes… Like my toes are freezing, but my body is burning up or vice versa.

I’m gaining weight, enough to be considered noticeable.

I’ve drunk enough water for a caravan of camels to drown in…

My stomach is upset to the point of internal issues from both ends… I’m keeping it G-Rated.

Certain parts of my body are sensitive to the touch… Which bothers me immensely…

I’m breaking out in pimples and noticeable hairs…

I cannot smell for nothing normally… It has to be a strong or offensive smell for me to smell it… Like animal poo, stagnate smell of the trash can, or perm solution type of smell… So, if I tell my sister, “You reek of oranges!” She just stares at me, “ChenCh, I had an orange at lunch. It’s been hours since then and I have eaten other things. Are you preggers?”

Ummm… FML! I might be pregnant!!!

I haven’t taken a ‘take home test’. Let me rephrase that, I refuse to take a ‘take home test’. They don’t work for me… In Example, Last time I took a preg test, it came out negative. It was a month later, we (hubby and I) found out I had miscarried and needed a DNC to remove the child. I was pregnant at the time of the test, but the baby had already passed at that point in time. So, ya I don’t trust those things. I would much rather do the blood tests, than the pee test…

By my calculations, that would put me at 12 weeks give or take a week…

That would also mean it is JR’s…

I admit, we haven’t been safe…

Spare me the guilt trip… I’m already kicking myself!

At least we haven’t fooled around with other people during our split…

I just pray for a doctor to confirm, I’ve been ill and not pregnant…

Oh, and JR knows what’s going on too.

And he’s scared to death.

Until the doctor’s visit, the most I can do is pray right now...

  
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PICKIE98 3/22/2014 8:09AM

    Holy Crap!!!!!!!!

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HELLOADDISON 3/12/2014 8:09AM

    Wow you have allot going on right now! I wish things work out for you! emoticon you can get threw this! Hang in there! emoticon

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CHRIMSONFYRE 3/12/2014 6:52AM

    Sounds like things are hectic now, but hang in there. Things work out the way they are supposed to. emoticon

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Date night with JR...

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I have been chatting cautiously with JR. He wants to apologize over dinner for ghosting me... Like an igg I agreed to let the man speak... So, officially I have a date with JR this Thursday night. I am making him suffer by taking me to either the Cheesecake Factory, Eddie V's Prime Seafood or Taste of Texas. All 3 locations do ask that you make a reservation prior to going... {Cheesecake Factory and Taste of Texas are a little more lax in enforcing that rule.) He said he was okay with that. Since I believe in visually torturing the guy on what he missed out on... I have bought this beautiful little black and leopard print number for our date...



I will be wearing a mini cami, wrap, shawl or cardigan-thingy with this outfit... But, talk about being super sexy in this dress... I picked it out, knowing that JR will be drooling over it. Insert Evil laughter... lol. I plan on making him pay dearly for hurting me and breaking my heart. I'm going for femme fatale or evil temptress, not cranky witch with a capital B or pyscho stalker... I just want to understand how badly he hurt me and that I deserve better. If he wants to man up and commit to a relationship, then he needs to work to gain my trust, respect, and loyalty. He's gonna hafta work super hard to get accepted again by my family and all too.

My cuz is hilarious... He wants to "lay the smack down... on his pansy bum." I told my cuz's mom to check him (have a conversation with him). She told me, "He's just worried about you girls (referring to my sister and I). Especially since you both have been hurt by your ex-husbands*. He want to make sure the guys that come to the house are respectful and treat you the way a woman should be treated."

I'm about to be 35 in a few months. My cuz just turned 35 on New Year's Day. (Yes, we are 6 months apart and he is older than me.) I have had way more dates than I want to admit to... I know how to handle myself in almost any situation regarding whom I date.

My sis is a different story... She rarely dates... I can understand his concerns for her...

Anyways... I guess I'll be on here Friday to discuss the date and anything else that happens in the next 48 hours... :)

Have a wonderful day.

  
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MOTTAMAMALOU 2/26/2014 4:34PM

    Good Luck!

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The return of JR.....

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

I wish I was lying about this title...

Sadly, it's true.

JR is back...


But he's on lock down with me...

I'm in the process of talking with him...

Yet, I don't trust him 100%.

I don't trust myself alone with him...

I sure as heck don't trust him with my heart...



My heart yearns for the feel of his lips upon mine...

For the warmth in his arms...

Being able to inhale his cologne.....

I know these are all unresolved feelings that I had from our past relationship...



In some ways, I never really got over him.

Maybe giving him a 2nd chance would be good...

or it could be worse...

I just keep praying that I can and will make it through this situation...

  
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MCYNDYM 2/19/2014 2:23PM

    DC, I have been talking to him. I wanted to know why he ended the relationship in the first place

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DCWILLIAMS831 2/19/2014 12:11PM

    Are you settling because you don't believe someone else will care for you? That's the key to determining whether to take him back. I was in this situation for many years - until I realized my worth!

You should not allow someone to not give you the best of themselves - and you certainly should not share a significant other with anyone. Could the destruction issues from the past put you off track for achieving your goals to be a better you? If so, maybe it's best not to revisit the relationship!

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