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Wednesday, 10/29, day 1

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

My dear man is doing so very well,
waaaay better than anyone expected,
BUT,
we have both been through a major life-changing event,
and, so, there will be an adjustment period.
We are keeping the lines of communication open,
acknowledging our love for each other ,
and living in gratitude and appreciation for each moment of every day.
It's not as easy as it sounds.
We are very different people and have had very different experiences.
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LESLIESENIOR 10/30/2014 11:24PM

    I absolutely and totally understand what you are talking about. You are smart to acknowledge the challenge and not romanticize it. Thank you for sharing so honestly.
One day at a time.......maybe one minute at a time........ You will both survive and thrive!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 10/30/2014 10:58PM

    I'm glad he's feelin beter.

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JOANNANOW 10/30/2014 4:55PM

    So glad to hear he is doing well. Keep up the good work... communication is so important. Sending best wishes and hugs. emoticon emoticon

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MARITIMER3 10/30/2014 1:14PM

    I can imagine that there are difficult times. It was such a shock for both of you when a "simple" surgery turned out to be anything but. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time. Your love will get you through.
Hugs, Gail

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 10/30/2014 8:18AM

    Sending you love and emoticon

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BETHGILLIGAN 10/30/2014 7:56AM

    You have both been through a major trauma. It will take some time to find your new normal or slip back into the old normal. I guess this is a big adjustment for you both. As long as those lines of communication are open, you will be fine. Sending hugs to you both!

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GABY1948 10/30/2014 7:46AM

    emoticon so glad for all the improvements!

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NEW-CAZ 10/30/2014 4:01AM

    Good to hear Liz, give him my love and best wishes.
Keep positive!

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DOOBRIE 10/30/2014 3:35AM

    I'm glad your dear man is doing very well. I hope you can get some me time while you're looking after him. This must have been a very hard few months for you and you could probably do with a rest! Best wishes to you both.

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TWILAQ1 10/29/2014 11:51PM

    Wake up each day with your heart open.

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IAMBIZI 10/29/2014 10:51PM

    Day one...does that mean he is home with you? or in rehab? out of the hospital?
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    Sending good vibes your way!
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LKWQUILTER 10/29/2014 10:01PM

    Keep the faith. (((HUGS)))

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JANTHEBLONDE 10/29/2014 9:39PM

    I am so glad to hear your dear man is doing very well! I'm so happy for the two of you! You both are in my prayers! Sending you lots of hugs, Love and happiness!
Hugs and love,
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_UMAMI_ 10/29/2014 8:54PM

    The open door on your background page seems particularly symbolic now: as one door closes, another opens. Hoping it leads to wonderful things.
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All good with my dear man!

Friday, October 24, 2014

You all know I am an incurable optimist but I am not the only one blown away by my husband's rate of recovery this past week. emoticon
He has been in the hospital 37 days as of today, after serious life-threatening complications (3 different infections, including 2 in his spinal fluid and brain and also the dreaded c-diff) following a simple outpatient surgery on his back in early September. emoticon
A little over a week ago he could barely walk with a walker and was so confused and agitated they had him on strong drugs and a bed alarm to keep him safe.
He was unable to read or even write his own name.
Today he is walking, talking, reading (although there is some lingering vision impairment) and can write a bit.
His three hours of therapy per day in acute rehab and his relative good health have moved his healing along rapidly.
His therapists and doctors feel comfortable sending him home to finish his recovery and continue therapy on an outpatient basis.
He can dress and bathe himself and has regained control of all his bodily functions as well as
regaining ten of the forty lbs that he had lost since injuring his back on July 1st.
They would discharge him on Sunday except he is scheduled to complete his looooong course of antibiotics on Monday evening so they will keep him in until then.
On Tuesday morning the IV nurse will remove the picc line from his arm and I can bring him home (switched my babysitting days next week).
He will not be able to drive for a while as he still has some physical and mental impairments but those will resolve with time.
By the new year he should be close to normal, we hope.
Thank you so much for all your prayers and support and spark love throughout this horrible ordeal, my dear friends.
I have learned so much from this difficult time, the first time in my life I have ever lived alone.
I stepped up and was a great advocate for my guy when he was unable to do it himself, if I do say so myself.
I learned to run our household and manage the finances and even take care of my 90 yr old FIL and, eventually, even to take care of myself, too.
My local friends and neighbors took care of me, as well, and taught me that eating well keeps me happy and healthy and made me a better caretaker.
I haven't splurged on a massage in a few years but my old massage therapist messged me on FB and asked me to accept a massage, which made me cry and which I gladly accepted.
She gave me some tips for reducing the stress in my body, too.
So, thx, thnx, thnx, agin...will keep you posted.
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He would kill me if he knew I did this but I did take a few pics to share with my son who lives away and these are sort of before and after pics:


Notice the big difference in his eyes as the meningitis and encephalitis started to heal?
He still has a lot of healing to do, for sure, though, to be the man he was.
He has been to the brink of hell and back twice.

  
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LYNKIN 10/26/2014 9:19PM

    Wonderful news!!! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 10/26/2014 12:23AM

    This is so good to read! I admire how you're getting through this time with such grace and courage. Best wishes to you through his continuing recovery. Take good care of yourself.
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HIPPICHICK1 10/25/2014 11:31PM

    Such great progress he is making!! What emoticon news.
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I loved hearing that the experience has been rewarding for you.
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LESLIESENIOR 10/25/2014 7:59PM

    Fantastic news! It has been a wonderful lesson for us all as we watched you navigate such stormy waters with courage and grace!!!!

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LKWQUILTER 10/25/2014 7:17PM

    Prayers have been answered for you and David. I am so glad for you. (((HUGS)))

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PHOENIX40S 10/25/2014 9:08AM

    emoticon I'm am so glad that your DH is doing so well. You are a loving and strong woman.

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GABY1948 10/25/2014 7:42AM

    OMG I am praising the Lord with you! This is GREAT! emoticon

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BETHGILLIGAN 10/25/2014 7:42AM

    What glorious news!!! I couldn't be happier for both of you! He looks fabulous! I am so proud of you---you are much stronger than you thought and you were there for him as well as the rest of your family. You did it!

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HEALTHY4ME 10/25/2014 7:40AM

    OH what happy news. I am so so so thankful and happy for you both. It certainly seems he is well on the road to recovery! and so much quicker. Thank heavens that you had friends to help out and please let them continue to help you. Don't take on too much. Care giver burnout is a tough road to get back from too. You don't need that at all.
SO glad cos all those complications were all life threatening as you say and are hard to make a come back from, especially that many. Your man is so lucky as are all of you.
Thankful yet again and if another massage comes around take it... they can only help you!!!
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LEANJEAN6 10/25/2014 7:11AM

    Oh Gail---He looks pretty good after what he's been through--Good for you to be strong!

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MARITIMER3 10/25/2014 7:08AM

    I'm so happy for you both, take good care of each other, you are a special couple.
Hugs, Gail

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NEW-CAZ 10/25/2014 3:09AM

    Liz I cannot tell you how happy I am for you to see such a transformation.
The love and care you've given him together with all the doctors' skills have got him thus far and I hope and pray he continues to improve day on day.
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MAGGIEVAN 10/25/2014 2:41AM

    What a handsome man. I am so glad about the progress, for both your sakes. In saying this I am thinking about a programme of Opera where she said we are blessed when we look at life's problems not as things happening to us, but for us. You both have learned and grown. What a privilege dressed in pain and heart ache. Keep on growing!
Greetings to the handsome man.

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DOOBRIE 10/25/2014 2:19AM

    I think a combination of the unending love you have for your man and the wonderful care he has received since his infections, has caused this remarkable recovery. I'm so so very happy for you and delighted to see the photo of him with the sparkle back in his eyes. He doesn't look like the same man though! What a difference the weight loss has made to how he looks. I'm sure he'll be excited to be home and it will be great for you to have him back in the house, although more hard work I'm sure!

You have taken care of things fabulously while David's been out of action and I'm sure you will continue to do so. My very best wishes for his continued recovery.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 10/25/2014 2:00AM

    You are also an incurable romanic.

I see he's lost weight, too.
I'm sure you will take great care of him. Hang in there.

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JOANNANOW 10/25/2014 1:15AM

    Big joy! So great! You are such an awesome woman! So glad your DH is on his way to full recovery and with you by his side it will be as good as it gets. emoticon emoticon

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EDWARDS1411 10/24/2014 11:38PM

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SEATTLE58 10/24/2014 11:33PM

    I'm so happy that your dear husband is recovering like a champ! emoticon too, with taking such good care of him in the hospital and everywhere and I know that you will continue to do so. I'm wishing him and you the very best that life has to give you both, from here on!! You both deserve it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TWILAQ1 10/24/2014 11:33PM

    Joy!

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BOOKAPHILE 10/24/2014 11:08PM

    Wonderful, wonderful news!

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JANTHEBLONDE 10/24/2014 10:30PM

    That is fabulous news! I am so happy for you and your dear husband! That is awesome that he is able to come home on Tuesday! Woo hoo! I hope and pray he will be back to normal by the first of the year! Sending you lots of hugs!
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IAMBIZI 10/24/2014 10:20PM

    thank you so much for sharing. you are a wonderful wife and lovely lady. Stronger than you thought and you can be proud of that!
((((HUGS)))
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WATERMELLEN 10/24/2014 10:03PM

    Terrific -- so thrilled with this happy ending!!

And good for you -- for all you did. We just never know what we are capable of till we're called upon!

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Elizabeth - so so happy for you and your dear, dear, husband....you have done splendidly, and I am so proud of you....

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May the healing continue!

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The caregiver's dilemma

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

I have been overseeing the care of my dear husband for most of the 34 days he has been hospitalized from serious complications following a routine outpatient back surgery (3 different infections, including two in his brain).
I am ecstatic that he has been in an inpatient-acute rehab unit for a week now and making good progress, physically and mentally.
I am trying to step away at this point and give him ownership of his own rehabilitation (so far, so good).
He is truly on the mend.
He is eating again, walking (with a walker), and speaking fairly clearly in complete sentences.
Sadly, he still has significant cognitive impairments that he may not fully understand.
For example, he cannot quite dress himself, read or even write his own name!
He wants to come home and I want him home
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once he is at home my understanding is that he will be eligible for three hours of therapy a week.
In acute rehab he is getting three hours every day!
His first weekly plan review meeting is Thursday.
I will have to make it clear to the team before that meeting that I want him to stay as long as he is making such steady progress.
My dear man will not be happy about that!
I will try not to take it personally.
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LKWQUILTER 10/24/2014 3:45PM

    So glad that he is improving but like you, know that the more intense therapy is the best at this time. Sending good thoughts and prayers your way for you and David. ((HUGS))

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MEXGAL1 10/23/2014 5:48PM

    It is so good to hear he is getting better day by day. For sure it will be a long recovery and you are so right to keep him where he is for as long as you can. He will just have to accept it. I feel for you though as "men" can be such a problem with any ailment.
Best of everything to you!
Peanut

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AJDOVER1 10/23/2014 4:30PM

    I didn't see this blog earlier. I imagine the meeting has already occurred. Please let us know what unfolded. You're in my prayers. I hope it all happened in a way that didn't cause any hard feelings for your DH. Dealing with his cognitive impairment must be such a struggle for everyone involved. You need to take care of yourself as well.
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HIPPICHICK1 10/22/2014 9:58AM

    Wishing you both the best outcome possible!
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CHALLENGER15 10/22/2014 6:35AM

    I don't know if the meeting has already happened, but the pertinent people were instrumental in getting DB to voluntarily making the decision to stay - I do hope that is the case with you. I had so dreaded that conversation, and the dreading with thinking what might happen with him hating the idea was far worse than what happened. emoticon

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GABY1948 10/22/2014 3:37AM

    You have to do what's right....glad he is improving so!

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DOOBRIE 10/22/2014 1:30AM

    You know you are right Liz so don't worry.

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_UMAMI_ 10/22/2014 12:01AM

    I agree w/ 46SHADOW...I wonder if a lot of what your husband wants is just the normal home life he had before. To be home. With YOU and his loved ones. So understandable.

I wonder if there is a way to make him understand and enjoy his progress so far, and not make him feel dejected about having to continue the same routine...for a while at least.

Is there a way to make him feel that it is *his* decision?

Just putting out all my @$$vice----please ignore it. Of course, I don't know WHAT to tell you that can help. I just wish I could help.

-J

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TWILAQ1 10/21/2014 10:40PM

    You need to do what's best for him in the long run.

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EDWARDS1411 10/21/2014 10:30PM

    Indeed a dilemma, but ultimately you are making the best decision for him in the long run!!!
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IAMBIZI 10/21/2014 8:46PM

    yes have him stay as long as he can! There is a full staff taking care of him now when he comes home it will be just be you.I would see your grand children now that he is there, this is a bit of a chance to get some you time too.
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SANDICANE 10/21/2014 7:55PM

    Dreadfully hard when the patient cannot fully understand the circumstances. Be kind to yourself after you make your wishes known.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 10/21/2014 7:53PM

    Be strong Lizzie.

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BETHGILLIGAN 10/21/2014 5:27PM

    You are definitely making the right decision. It is for his own good and, right now, he is not able to see the big picture. Keep him there as long as you can--the more therapy the more rapid the recovery!!

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JANTHEBLONDE 10/21/2014 4:03PM

    I know you're honey wants to come home but he won't be able to get therapy every day if he comes home! I know it has to be really hard for you but I think he will get better faster if he stays in an inpatient acute rehab unit so he will be able to get therapy every day! I'm sorry you and David have to go through these difficult times! You and your honey are in my prayers!
Hugs and love,
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MAGGIEVAN 10/21/2014 2:37PM

    I understand, but the question is what is best for him and you know the answer. He will understand later. Take your strength from that. Hugs.

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MARITIMER3 10/21/2014 2:28PM

    I know that he wants to come home, Liz, but he needs to stay where he is for a while longer. I hope that your children can help you make him understand this.

Hugs, Gail

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JOANNANOW 10/21/2014 2:22PM

    What is best for recovery is best for David. When he does come home with the best outcome he can have ... you will be forgiven. It's tough love isn't it? You are such a strong women and this has been an ordeal that I can't even imagine. I am impressed and admire your resilience. I know you will push through this difficult time and still pull all the joy out of your home and family that you always have. emoticon emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 10/21/2014 1:39PM

    That's so difficult but at this point he can't understand what's in his best interests long term: and you can.

Maybe a short visit home for an afternoon??

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 10/21/2014 1:33PM

    Thinking of you my friend... emoticon emoticon

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46SHADOW 10/21/2014 12:52PM

    It sounds like your in a really hard place. i would imagine your husbands desire to go home may also be connected to his desire to want things the way there were before he got sick.
I think that you are absolutely making the right choice as this is probably the time for the fastest improvement in his condition. i would try to frame it to him that this is his opportunity to get better and that home will always be there for him.
Meanwhile, make sure you are treating yourself very well . When he comes home make sure you "gas tank" is as full as you can make it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NEW-CAZ 10/21/2014 12:38PM

    Liz I reckon he's in the best place right now- hopefully the more intense therapy will aid a quicker recovery. You are a strong and forthright lady and I would say tell them your thoughts and hope they can adhere to your wishes.
I'm sure David knows you're doing all you can for him. you two are SO close, the good vibes will flow and he'll understand.

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LESLIESENIOR 10/21/2014 12:18PM

    It sounds like you are so very right to keep him where he is getting the best services. I'm sure more will be revealed at the Thursday meeting. This must be very agonizing and challenging. You are in my prayers for continued strength, courage, and self care.
Your dear man is very lucky to have you. He may not understand now, the decisions you must make on his behalf, but he will eventually.
Sending love.

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HEALTHY4ME 10/21/2014 12:08PM

    Oh hugs, hard issues but omg yes 3 hrs a day for while at least will most definitely help. also 3 hrs week isn't near enough. But also...... once he is home, you are going to be working hard and it will become tiring very quickly unless you have family and friends to support and spell you off. I hope that his mind is able to process this and or you know that when he does get better, he will understand and .thank you for this. HUGs and so glad to know he is doing well still.
soft hugs for you both.

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Great day!

Saturday, October 18, 2014

My dear man had a great day today-
his 31st day in hospital-
now in an acute rehab unit-
bright eyed and clear thinking (relatively speaking)-
tired but eager to work on his recovery.
His mood was very stable and his walk was fairly steady (with a walker).
His speech was soft but fairly clear.
I know I should not let his state of recovery rule my mood and life but
OH WOW!
This was an amazing day.
Plus, we met a new doctor (a hospitalist) who predicted that David would recover most of his cognitive and physical abilities in due time.
We just need to be patient.
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BETHGILLIGAN 10/21/2014 8:34AM

    Wonderful news!!!! It may be a long road but you just do it a step at a time. There will be ups and downs but probably more ups as time goes on. I can't tell you how happy to hear this good news!!

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LYNKIN 10/20/2014 7:02PM

    Good News!!! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 10/20/2014 6:49PM

    Great to hear!
I wish you both well

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 10/20/2014 5:44AM

    So happy to hear you had an amazing day!!

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MEXGAL1 10/19/2014 12:58PM

    Oh that is simply great news all around. I know it will be a long effort that will test both of your patience. He is so lucky to have you as I know you will give him lots of love and support.
Best of everything to you Sparks buddy!
Peanut

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LKWQUILTER 10/19/2014 12:28PM

    emoticon That is GREAT NEWS!! Prayers are being answered and will be continued. emoticon emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 10/19/2014 11:18AM

    That is TERRIFIC news!!! I'm so happy for you!

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LEANJEAN6 10/19/2014 8:10AM

    You must be so happy!!!---

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WATERMELLEN 10/19/2014 8:05AM

    A great day indeed -- we are all rejoicing with you!!

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GABY1948 10/19/2014 7:02AM

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DOOBRIE 10/19/2014 3:26AM

    So lovely to hear this news and the new doctor's prediction. I'm not surprised David's state of recovery is affecting your mood - only natural. I'm glad he's in a good place where he can recover. Best wishes to him.

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NEW-CAZ 10/19/2014 3:12AM

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GOING-STRONG 10/18/2014 11:43PM

    So happy to hear a little good news! Yip!

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IAMBIZI 10/18/2014 11:18PM

    This is a great day. and of course things that happen to your man are going to affect your mood!
((((((HUGS))))))
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_UMAMI_ 10/18/2014 10:55PM

    Your joy is infectious! We need more of that!
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So happy to hear some good news from you, and hope there is more and more and MORE.
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Stay positive.

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TWILAQ1 10/18/2014 10:23PM

    That is EXCELLENT NEWS!

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EDWARDS1411 10/18/2014 9:37PM

    Wonderful news!!! And of course you are joyful - you deserve to be!!!
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JANTHEBLONDE 10/18/2014 9:22PM

    Yippee! Hooray! This is the best news I've heard all day! I'm so happy your honey had an awesome day! That is wonderful the new doctor predicted that David would recover most of his cognitive and physical abilities in due time! I am so happy for the two of you!
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46SHADOW 10/18/2014 9:10PM

    Yay!

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HEALTHY4ME 10/18/2014 8:34PM

    OH what great news.... so so thankful for you both and so happy. Now hope you can sleep a bit better this eve. I know how tiring it is to worry and care and hope and oh you know all that goes with it!!!! HUGS to you both !!!

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OURELEE1 10/18/2014 8:27PM

  Great great news All of you have been in your prayers

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MAGGIEVAN 10/18/2014 8:27PM

    Extremely good news. I am so happy for both of you. Thanks for sharing.

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I am beyond sad

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

I was warned that my dear man's recovery from the spinal bacterial infection, plus two other infections and encephalitis would be slow and long with peaks and valleys but after about a month now he seemed to be slowly improving, enough so that he could move to another hospital for 2-4 weeks of acute rehab.
David is still very flat emotionally but expressed happiness about the move.
He has not been sleeping well at all (like barely) and that is hindering his progress.
When they medicate him to get him to sleep, he is lethargic and sluggish and confused the next day.
And despite the meds, sometimes he still doesn't sleep much.
He tolerated about a half day of rehab on his first day yesterday (evals, really, they did not push him too hard) and then in mid-afternoon he just crashed....confused, exhausted, mumbling, would not/could not eat, tense and agitated.
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The social worker called me and explained what seems to be happening and how they are dealing with him.
She said he has months, not weeks, of rehab ahead of him.
They will work intensively with him and then set him up with therapy at home.
And she said he may never recover fully.
It is well and truly sinking in to me and I am overwhelmed.
I am sad and lonely and feel incompetent.
My family and friends have been a great support system but I feel so alone and unable to deal with all of it.
And, as if I needed more, Hurricane Gonzalo passed almost directly over my second home on Anguilla and there is some wind and water damage to our beloved Jasmine Villa and I have no idea how I am going to pay for those repairs.
Thank goodness I have my grandbabies to hold and cuddle with...
they are my reason to get out of bed in the morning.



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LKWQUILTER 10/17/2014 11:15AM

    Praying for all of you. emoticon

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LESLIESENIOR 10/16/2014 10:15PM

    I am adding my prayers and sending love as you navigate each day. Your David sounds so strong, as are you. I believe in the divine power of healing.
Sending a hug!

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HEALTHY4ME 10/16/2014 7:31PM

    OH man that is so much to deal with, my heart goes out to you both. I know as a caregiver that we get exhausted so fast and yet feel we have to go on. Please somehow take time for you, be it a bath, a good cry, an hour or two to do something that is fun. and don't feel that David wouldn't approve cos I am sure he would.

HUGS and we are all here for you, in spirit and in love.

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AJDOVER1 10/16/2014 1:48PM

    I'm here for you. Let me know if there's anything I can offer.
I can't tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your struggle here. You're in my prayers each day.
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BOOKAPHILE 10/16/2014 10:29AM

    I'm so sorry to hear this. You have every right to feel overwhelmed. Please be extra gentle with yourself. You are not incompetent. Know that many here care about you.

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TWILAQ1 10/15/2014 11:10PM

    One thing after another. I'm so sorry you and David are going through all of this. Have you considered acupuncture? An evaluative consultation, perhaps?

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_CYNDY55_ 10/15/2014 11:10PM

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IAMBIZI 10/15/2014 10:18PM

    oh
elizabeth..i amsorry tohear this.
I send good health and wishes your way.
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SHAKENBAKE 10/15/2014 10:16PM

    So Sorry to hear about the challenges Elizabeth. Know you are being thought of and prayed for. Waiting and trusting is so hard. Love you friend. hugs, Wanda emoticon

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EDWARDS1411 10/15/2014 10:06PM

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46SHADOW 10/15/2014 9:56PM

    emoticon In my thoughts and prayers.

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BETHGILLIGAN 10/15/2014 9:00PM

    Elizabeth, My heart is breaking for you, dear friend. I can feel your loneliness and sense of being overwhelmed. It touches my heart and, like all the others, I wish I could say or do something to make it better/easier for you. It will be good days and bad days. Slow progress, some major steps. It is a lot to think about at one time. As you adjust to your new normal, it will get easier for you to manage. Lean on family, lean on friends, lean on anyone who is close to hold you up. Cry, be angry, and then pick it up and give David a big smile and hug. He will be working hard to get back to you. Try to take it a day at a time (or just a couple of days at a time!). Know that we are all here to listen and support as best we can. You are in my thoughts and prayers as is David.

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_UMAMI_ 10/15/2014 7:47PM

    You poor, sweet woman, of *course* you are beyond sad. My heart breaks for you. What can you do in a situation like this, but feel sad and overwhelmed?
For the time being, I wish you some rest, peace and family comfort.
And we're here when you need to vent....it's about all we can do.
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JOANNANOW 10/15/2014 7:07PM

    So many hard blows ... you have had to face one difficulty after another. I don't really know what to say now. I went through a terrible time back in 1992 there were so many difficulties and my grand babies were little ones like yours. They needed me and oh my I needed them so much. Little kids are such a blessing, when times are good they shine like the sun. When times are tough they take your mind to the joyous moments of childhood. I am so glad that your grand babies are in your life now. I know that will help you cope. Sending you thoughts of hope and healing. Wishing David every good possibility and the strength to carry on. Take good care of your self emoticon

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WATERMELLEN 10/15/2014 6:33PM

    Very sad and overwhelming indeed -- you have been strong for so long and now need maybe a bit of a break and simply to let it all catch up with you.

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DOOBRIE 10/15/2014 6:31PM

    That's a lot for you to take in. I'm so very sorry it is going to take longer than hoped for David to get better. Take one day at a time. There will be up and down days for sure but as time goes on there will be more up days. Keeping you and David in my thoughts.

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GABY1948 10/15/2014 5:26PM

    I am SO very sorry you are going through this. Prayers continue....as I read more and more my heart sank more. I do know someone in MI that went through this and it was almost a year now but he is doing pretty well now....praying for same in your case!

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LATVIAN_SANDY 10/15/2014 5:04PM

    Oh my gosh - that is not good news at all. Praying for you and your family, and to a quicker recovery than expected. emoticon

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FORZACHANDMATT 10/15/2014 3:30PM

    I am so sorry you are going through this - my thoughts are with you!

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GOING-STRONG 10/15/2014 3:29PM

    Elizabeth, I don't even know what to say... this is so devastating. I know you have the strength to get through this... but feel so sorry that you have to. Life sure does throw out some curveballs when you least expect it. Hugs to you, R.

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NEW-CAZ 10/15/2014 3:24PM

    Liz, this is so hard.
To say you are not alone and you have your Sparkfamily would sound so glib, but we ARE all rooting for David's recovery and we ARE all in your corner sending love and positive thoughts, I hope it helps.

If I was closer I'd be there like a shot! You have been, and will continue to, be in my thoughts and prayers; the doctors and therapists are there for you as well as David so lean on them too- get as much support as you can from them

Hug those grandbabies

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WIFE48 10/15/2014 2:59PM

    Praying for you to be comforted in your time of need.

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MARITIMER3 10/15/2014 2:56PM

    Hi Liz...
Your blogs about David's illness and your struggles to cope reminded me again how important it is to be grateful for every good day. There are no guarantees, and a single moment can impact the rest of our lives.

Hugs and prayers. You CAN do it, because you MUST do it. Glad you have your grand-babies to cuddle to help keep you strong.

Hugs and prayers,
Gail

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MEXGAL1 10/15/2014 2:50PM

    I have been thinking of you and praying for you and your DH. I can't image what it would be like if my DH was in a similar situation. I would pray that he wouldn't give up like his father is doing.

I know you must feel overwhelmed and I am sure there is nothing that I can say in particular that would make it all better. Wish there was some way to make it all better. If I had a magic wand I would certainly wave it your way. And if I were closer to you I would see if I could come and help you out however I could.

Just know that I continue to pray every night for you and send tons of positive thoughts your way.

Hugs and more hugs to you my friend.
Peanut

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FIFIFRIZZLE 10/15/2014 2:28PM

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MAGGIEVAN 10/15/2014 2:01PM

    My dead friend, I wish I could help to support you but I am so far away. The only and best thing I can do is to keep you both in my prayers. Many hugs.

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JANTHEBLONDE 10/15/2014 1:56PM

    Oh my gosh! I am so sorry to hear the news on your husband's recovery! My heart goes out to you and your honey! Please don't feel so alone... you have your family, friends and all your spark buddies are here for you! You and your husband are in my prayers!
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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 10/15/2014 1:48PM

    Oh Elizabeth I wish I could be closer to give you a real live emoticon

To see our loved ones in that state is so difficult. I am sending my prayers and positive thoughts. I'm glad you have your lovely grand babies to cheer you up.

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