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Blood pressure rocketing!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

If you have been reading my blogs for a while you know that I developed high blood pressure 15 months ago - and that I thoguh exercise and losing weight got it down to normal. I have to admit that I did not really believe it was me - I thought that my doctor fooled me a bit by giving me medicine agianst oedema that also worked for lowering blood pressure.

I was wrong - because yesterday company health was visiting and I checked my blood pressure for the first time since january... 165/90 far too high!! I have hardly been exercising at all since the middle of july...

The good thing is that I can obviously do something about this. The bad thing is that my low selfesteem makes me think that I am not capable enough to really do it...

I sort of panicked yesterday, felt really dizzy and imagining my blood pressuring against the artery walls looking for someplace to break through and kill me...

Today I am calmer and ready to start moving again... although it will have to wait a day or two, I am in deadline week and have so much work ahead of me and I also have a stand-up night tonight so I am kind of occupied...

Stand-up - it will be my eight time, I feel nervous and regret that I ever started... as usual the day before performance.

I have bought ten tickets (reduced price) and sent to contacts that live around the place where the show is at - two to each with a personal letter inviting them. I did also write that if they woulnīt/couldnīt use the tickets it would be good if they would give them away since I had paid for them... so far two people have mailed and said they are coming(with a guest), the other three I donīt know but there was not any obligation to answer so they might show up.

My daughter and nephew will come with me as well and yesterday my sister messaged that her board meeting had been cancelled so she will come with a guest also (she lives in the area) - this means that I am the fixer of eight persons in the audience... not bad because the place has room for 150 so eight means something... if all my invites works I will have managed 14 people, these are things I really feel proud of!

Now I "just" have to manage this long day with work, work, work and in between some rehearsal about tonights performance - I am still a rookie I "only" have to do five minutes on stage.

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LIVE_AMAZINGLY 10/30/2014 10:52PM

    To be having THAT MUCH fluid retention (edema) in your legs your blood pressure may have already caused heart or kidney damage. Maybe you should specifically ask to have those things checked on so you can be sure, and take more preventive measures before too much damage is done.

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JOYINKY 10/29/2014 9:14AM

    Nothing I can tell you that you don't know. Take care of yourself and good luck with tonight's performance. emoticon

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INGMARIE 10/29/2014 7:55AM

    Good Luck ,tonight with your performance. emoticon
Careful with the BP try to squeeze in a few minutes of walking here and there.

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2014TODAY 10/29/2014 7:12AM

    Maybe you can squeeze in just 10 minutes of walking or biking also on the days that you're still so busy. May give you a feeling of accomplishment. Plus ten minutes in the fresh air helps you to relax and clear your head, feel less stressed.
Doing just 10 minutes daily was the start for me to build a habit of daily exercise.
Good luck with your deadlines!

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CETANISTAWI 10/29/2014 2:55AM

    Good luck tonight! My blood pressure is very stress dependent. emoticon

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Have to figure this out...

Monday, October 27, 2014

It is really pathetic but two things seems to have stopped me being active on spark.

1) Reached top level of Spark Points. Collecting points has no purpose at all anymore and that made me lose this feeling of having to be consistant in signing in, tracking and communicating.

2) losing the huddle function - as long as it was there it made med visit five teams a day to huddle and to wite something on the message boards.

I know that I have complained about this before - but it keeps distrubing me that I do not have enough "drive" in myself to keep me active - I needed those functions to keep me going.

More disturbing as I am getting more end more convinced that I do need steady routines to keep mealthy, my biggest obstacle are my impulses to change things all the time. This spontaneous characteristic is of course also a source of joy and creativity but it stops me from sticking to my healthy plan.

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AKELAZ 10/27/2014 5:29PM

    A very interesting blog and thought-provoking as all your blogs are. Completely agree with JOYINKY that you need to figure out what's good for you here within the new format - the changes may not suit you you but you found your own way thro everything when you first joined and you can find a way through it again. In fact - I need to do the same thing for a very different reason - I'm so erratic as to when and what I do here - I either end up slumped in a chair Sparking for far too long when I should be moving - or - I don't get here at all/the time I give is too brief and I end up feeling guilty about how inactive I am where friends are concerned. I am trying for consistency and need to draw up a plan of campaign. Perhaps we both need our own 'JOYINKY charts'?

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INGMARIE 10/27/2014 8:02AM

    I agree with you and all others ,the huddle was a reason to check in, I am as guilty as you I do not check in in my teams as often.
You are also right about the creativity, so do not lose that.
Have a great week.

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JOYINKY 10/27/2014 7:37AM

    I agree with 2014TODAY; establish a "new" routine and adjust it as needed. I pared down to the two teams most supportive of my goal to stay more active. In line with that goal it enabled me to spend less time on the computer which was counter productive. I have a little chart. Log in, play trivia, update my page and status, check in on the "how are you today?" thread on the maintainers team (sort of like your huddle check in) and then check on my active friends. (You have been missed.) That's it; mission accomplished. Connected to two teams and active friends. Works for me. You will figure out what works for you! Hugs.

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PICKIE98 10/27/2014 5:34AM

    I absolutely agree with you about the huddles. I no longer go to all but three of my teams anymore. It was the huddling that got me there..It was the whole purpose of huddling!!

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2014TODAY 10/27/2014 3:32AM

    Glad to see you post!!!!
Could you maybe start over with the points?
Or start streaks to give you a feeling of competition?
How about agreeing with someone (me? someone else, a buddy) to post at leaste once a week about how you're doing with certain goals?

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Erasing games

Monday, October 13, 2014

Since summer I have played a game on my Ipad - "Pearlīs Peril" I did a lot in the beginning as I thought I would reach some sort of end, but after a month or so I understood that it is supposed to go on... for a very long time.

But I was stubborn and somehow determinated to finish it so I have been playing it very patiently, three times a day as the "energy" to play comes with timelimits.

And I found another couple of gameapps that I also found rather amusing and thought that they were innocent since I never started to spend any money on them (as they tempt you to do to be able to move faster forward)

Now it is time to realise that I am the same with "innocent" games that I am with cigarettes, whisky and food - I tend to obsess.

I started to think that I should erase them, but at the same time thought that it was better to play free games than to eat.

But now I will try to live with my empty soul for a while, with no distraction from food or games, teve is still "on" because I do have a daughter and even though we would probably have a lot of fun without teve, it is too big a step for now.

So all the games are erased from my I-pad and it will be interesting to see how I will manage.

I am on sick-leave with a severe cold - had gotten ready for work this morning when a sudden sneeze-and-snot-attack made me decide to stay at home. Reported two days of to work - and since then the sneeze and snot seems to have vanished. Weird. Normally I would really dwell in gameapps but they are gone...

In the absence of gameapps I will have to find something else to occupy my brain with...

I will not eat because the cold has paralysed my tastebuds, no use in dreaming about something yummy....

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SHKIRK 10/13/2014 3:22PM

  Games can hook you before you know it !! My grandson LOVES them. He spent all the money he made for his birthday upgrading apps ! As long as the games do not stop you from doing your healthy things I think you will be alright. emoticon Keep taking care of yourself so the "Sneezies" will go away. emoticon Have a GREAT day !!

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AJDOVER1 10/13/2014 1:52PM

    I hope you feel better soon!

I've been taking a series of online classes. I hadn't thought of it in terms of an obsession, though.

I would never apply the phrase "empty soul" to you. You are full of life and existence.

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AKELAZ 10/13/2014 1:22PM

    Those games are a sort of curse it you let them be. You should be proud that you've seen the trap and done something about it. I see how much they pre-occupy my grandchildren and suck them into another (false) world and wish my son and wife would limit the time they allow them to spend there. There are so many other real things to do - and I've always admired the way you try out new interests and the DIY that you do - never mind how much time you devote to your job, to doggy and to your daughter. Sure you'll find something new and better to do with your time - as someone said here downloading interesting books would be good perhaps. Once you recover from your cold you may feel better about things. I do hope so - will be thinking of you.

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GRAYLADY13 10/13/2014 12:19PM

    Addiction sucks us in doesn't. Being with my emotions is where I am currently finding my eating has been limitless. My diabetes blood sugar is screaming at me too. Sending you a sweet hang in there hug.

Get well and treat yourself to lots of loving care. I like to give myself a manicure, at home mind no need to spend money. I massage my hands and pamper with polish sometimes too.

Rearranging my closet is also something I like to do. Try on clothes that may fit now. Organize outfits. Look at making new combos out of what I have. Sometimes tradeing clothes with a friend too is fun. I also like to clean out and give away clothes I won't wear again.

Just some spend no money suggestions. I hope you feel better soon.

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JOYINKY 10/13/2014 11:19AM

    I've just never enjoyed the computer games and I'm glad as I spend too much time on here already! I see you as many things; but never and empty soul! You have so much going on in your life, writing to do, projects to tackle, etc. But, sometimes I feel that slump with the change of seasons; throws me off balance for a bit. Enjoy your downtime and relax or do something else fun. Hugs.

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2014TODAY 10/13/2014 9:36AM

    Oh! I hope you will use your brain to write blogs!

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INGMARIE 10/13/2014 8:33AM

    Enjoy the free time, I am also playing games, so now I have taken up Spanish and have less time for games.
Have a great week. emoticon

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LOPEYP 10/13/2014 7:22AM

    I have one game that I keep playing on my phone. i realize that i waste a lot of time doing it.
Perhaps you can download a book from the library to enjoy in your spare time.

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OPHELIE 10/13/2014 6:45AM

    Good for you! I seem to be doing the same "obsessive" game playing for a while, then I quit, but somehow find my way back...

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Sunday, October 12, 2014

... I think I set a new record for gaining weight - four kilos in a week!

Although I try not to despair over it, the explanation is that I had the last medicin on monday and it took until friday until I got to the pharamcy and fetched another ration of my oedema pills. I could feel the fluid assembling in my legs during the week and although the pills has started to work I can still feel my legs as a little swollen - I will see what the scale says next saturday, I did well with food so it should have been either a little loss or no change at all.

I have an irritating cold lurking - my eardrums moves when I try to breathe through my nose or swallow- these lurkings usually lasts for a month or two but I still prefer them to having a big cold for three or four days. Which - byt the way - I have not had for ages, I think it is all the ginger, turmeric and rosehip I add to my food....

I was rather content with my sixth stand-upp rookie performance - until thursday when the anxiety for upcoming event started (will be next wednesday) ALl the downgrading thoughts started "who do I think I am" "I am just ridiculous and not funny at all" - and then I came home and found a letter adressed to "crazy-funny... me" It was a pair of knickers... explanation is that I buy my (very expensive) knickers from a shop in that village where the stand-up club is and this underwear shop is rather famous all over the country and the owner was in the audience and I said " hey, Ylva, please laug because I have your knickers on...." and she sent me this pair as a thanks for the PR - which she surely would not have done if she had thought I was really bad... so my courage rose again and I am trying to keep the anxiety in a reasonable level.

It is raining really hard - I had planned to go cycling with doggy this morning and it is maybe fortunate that I did not because this heavy rain would have struck us a long way from home...

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LJCANNON 10/13/2014 12:41AM

    emoticon So happy hear the Edema Meds are Working!! I am sure that the scale will be headed the Right Direction next week!!
emoticon So glad that you missed the Rain Storm!! DH and I walked to the Store this evening as usual and we had been Home exactly Three Minutes when it started Raining like crazy, LOL!!

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CATHEMARIE 10/12/2014 7:23PM

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AJDOVER1 10/12/2014 5:08PM

    The number on the scale is not always a reflection of how well you've done with food -- that's not exactly what a scale is measuring.

How fun that your comedy was acknowledged with knickers! emoticon

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JOYINKY 10/12/2014 10:35AM

    The fact that you've had 6 successful performances and keep going back says a LOT! You must be funny! I've heard famous performers of stand up declare they still have the jitters before going on. You will know, in time, if it's something you want to continue to do.
That said, the weigh gain probably is the edema and it seems to me it must be dangerous for you to skip the medicine for days at a time. Something worth more careful planning in the future. Hope you are back in balance soon. Also hope your cold does not linger long. Be well. emoticon

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INGMARIE 10/12/2014 10:24AM

    See, you are funny, no matter what you think
The knickers Lady liked it LOL Awesome. emoticon

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Voice care

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

I went to a workshop for singers yesterday. I was relctant because it is hard to drive back to town once I have gotten home in the evening, but as I had signed up for it and as I did think that they would not have too many participators I pulled myself together, got up from the sofa and went.

And I am glad, it was really interesting. It was held in english as the leader was a rock singer from Ireland. It was interesting that she had moved from Ireland to London to attend London Music college and then lived in Wales for a while setting up her own company an making money by singing in pubs, at weddings, funerals and in bands occasionally. And then a swedish woman had seen some stuff from her online and phoned and asked if she would be interested in being the lead singer in a swedish rock band "Thundermother" So - now she had moved to Stockholm and was starting to learn swedish but had to wait for the immigrant permit (because then lessons are free)...

I found that my english is really good and I thank Spark for it - writing and reading here has really expanded my vocabulary and as for pronunciation we have all these english/amercian teveseries all the time - I am afraid my accent is no doubt more american than english.

Anyway, it was really interesting - the other attendants were mostly rocksingers in bands - and of course a lot younger than me - but the workshop was about voice care and vocie developement and I really learned a lot. I have planned to sing a little more on stage than I do now, the long perspective plan is to create some sort of show combining stand-up, accordian and singing - but the voice I have today will probably manage that - but as I have occasionally had problems with my voice during all those years of lecturing (and this singer told me that speaking is many times harder on the voice than singing) I am happy to have learned some techniqes for developing and broaden my vice.

Great evening - and I do love the irish accent!

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GRAYLADY13 10/9/2014 9:49PM

    Fantastic! You are so groovy. Hugs for going. Sprinkles of fairy dust for being you *"*"*"*"*"*"*" emoticon

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AJDOVER1 10/7/2014 10:50PM

    good for you. Thanks for sharing your evening with us.

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JOYINKY 10/7/2014 9:00AM

    Glad you got up and out! That's the hardest part for me in the evening; but whatever the attraction I'm always glad when I do. Glad it was a good session. I think we take our voices too much for granted; they do need care. I find mine changing since I am not using it as much; I don't like the change. Need to work on that. Enjoy your week!

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LOPEYP 10/7/2014 8:26AM

    Sounds like an interesting session.

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INGMARIE 10/7/2014 8:01AM

    emoticon That sounded like a fun evening.

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