Tuesday, April 22, 2014
We have had a fantastic easter - summer weather really, yesterday people was wearing shorts and t-shirts!
I changed wheels from winter to summer and I am really grateful that I could manage. I had decided that my changing days are over, for the last three year I have gone to a workshop to do it, but when I did this in autumn, the guys said that I would need to have new summer tires, and I really can not afford that so I thought I change myself and drive on the old tires one more summer... and looking at them I do wonder what the guys meant, the law is that it has to be at least one millimeter pattern on them and my tires have more... weird.
Anyway, one of the things stiopping me from doing it has been that my driveway is a bit steep so it would be best to park on the street to do it - which means that I have to transport the wheels ... I have been postponing and in the back of my mind I have felt the stress growing - by law you are not allowed to drive on winter tires after 1 of may and guess who has gone to the workshop or made it herself one or two days late many times...?
But I did it on my driveway yesterday - put blocks behind the wheel, gave myself plenty of time and worked methodically through it. What usually messes it up is that some of the bolts break - the money I am saving by doing it myself is spent going to the workshop and having that broken bolt removed... but I managed to get them all loose yeaterday and I managed to change the wheel without catastrophees...yay me!
Daughter wanted to make cookies, good for her, not for me... sent most of them with her on the bus back to her father and put some of them in the freezer - but some of them were eten by me and those in the freezer will be a cobnstan threat until daughter comes back in two weeks.
I am really sick and tired of being sick and tired for the moment. exercise works well but the eating is not good... but easter is over and as it is the big sweets eating holiday in Sweden it has not been so bad after all - the cookies yesterday was the only wrong step - eating icecream and fast food on our "art tour" friday was ok.
Monday, April 21, 2014
So we went on that "art tour" and added a little selfie project of our own, taking selfies outside the places we visited... although it was half art places, half places to eat at...
I have now found and used the "collage" function in Picasa, it will be useful in the future!
We first had to stop at a store to by some yogurt for daughter who said she was straving..."I am a teenager mom, we need food all the time!"...
Then we stopped at a place where two wmen showed films, one had filmed, the other was the music composer. Very "artful" I have to admit that we giggled a little because we did not understand much only that it was very cultural.
Then daugther was hungry again so we went for a fast food restaurant - hamburgers and pommes frites...
An art exhibition where syrian refugees had made snacks, we had to taste some... the to a bookcafé that is famous for the pies they offer but we did not have any, only looked at the art that they also exposed and then went for our last stop of the day - an icecream café situated in a former church, right by the lake Fryken.
All this was a drive of 300 kilometres and took ua about eight hours. I am impressed by daughter who goes with me without complaining and stays away from her smartphone all the time we visit. There are a lot of people doing this every year but I noticed that most of them are whitehaired so itīs not somethinbg that young people seem to be that interested in.
The day after I rewarded her by driving her to town where she could join that game society we are in and spend all day playing games - not computer but "real" ones...
and yesterday borther had invited us to come and picnic in the woods - the subject from start was to do a long walk before having fire and grill, but my feet does not allow that for the moment and nobody else seemed keen either, so we just sat around and talked anbd roasted our hotdogs over the fire... I donīt know why I eat that stuff, it is not any good but I had two and considered it to be lunch.
Friday, April 18, 2014
Daughter came for easter yesterday - we started with going to a serenity sermon with communion. I have not told my daughter that I go to AA so I wonder what she thought when we arrived at church and I obviously knew more than half of the people there and we greeted each other with hugs and laughed a lot...there was no talk about AA but the atmosphere is very much closer and warm than when you meet "ordinary" people at a social event.
..and I was almost bursting with pride over my friends and over my daughter - my friends all were interested in her, shook her hand and beamed with joy over seeing her... and she told her name and engaged politely in any conversation, in sermon we sang together and she joined in communion and in the prayers and it was all really blessed,
The church offered a s small meal afterwards and we stayed and sat at a table with a girl who is... 23-24 years maybe and has been an alcoholic as well as a drug addict. She is still with nicotine - not smoking but using "snuff" - I think this is a special swedish habit it is like chewing tobacco although you put this powder under your upper lip... I did that some years many years ago and it is really hard to give up, since you can do it anywhere so itīs hard to avoid situations where you can use... but this girl said that she had been on adhd medication and than given up drugs, boose and medication - and gone inte compulsive eating and gained 25 kilos...then became an obsessed exerciser which she still is but she says that she prefers nicotine and exercise to food ocr drugs or alcohol... oh yes, she also said that she had been taken of the adhd medication because her heart had started to react...
As I have seen this girl transform in AA from a silent and "repellant" (?) person into a happy talkative girl, I really think that she is doing the best with her situation and I have great hopes for her. AND I thought it must be good for my daughter to listen to a "real" person, being very real and honest about things.
As we went home afterwards my daughter mentioned how cool this girl looked, her hair and her shirt was "so cool". Otherwise we did not discuss it but it is worht to mention that it is my daughters choice to come a long. I have thought from the beginning that I would just bring her, but she phoned berfor arriving and told me that wshe was had been having a cold and still had an aching throat, so I offered her to stay at home. But she said she wanted to come along, in fact she is a "little religious" (she said) and would want to go to church more often... and I said "why donīt you then, you live rather close to the church in your home town.
And she said she did not know how to behave and I just looked at her, rather pussled. Because before I moved I was working extra as a church janitor and she has been with me many times and ougt to be familiar with the thing. She also still sing in a youth choir - I think the problem is that she thinks it is a little too weird to go on her own. Her father thinks that religion is silly and would not encourage any "spiritual" actions.
In my evil heart I am happy because this is a way for her to protest by choosing "religion" she is beeing obsturctive but in a way that she cant be criticised for.
Anyway, the whole thing made me feel very good especially as we are going to be sort of pagan today, instead of going to church and reflect over the death of christ, we are going north on an "art round" - different people showing art in a region up north, I have three places I want to visit, one that shows music and film and two with painted art, one of the later is also offering a "café" with foods made by syrian refugees, love the project! And lov being able to take y daughter along and hope that she finds some of it interesting, maybe the film thing can be inspiring to her...
I also had a meeting with the woman I am working with standup comedy with, we are preparing for our next performance, which is the fourth oif may - I have come up with three minutes that I am pleased with, now I just have to rehearse it very thorughly... It will be my third performance, and hopefully a little less horrifying than the last time. I really donīt know why I am doing this!
Friday, April 11, 2014
I rarely get around to write blogs nowadays when I am finished with tracking and huddling and all the other things on spark it is time to go to work so it may be a bad idea to save blogging for last.
This week I have applied to be a part in a research about floating - the university was looking for people with anxiety problems and a friend in AA passed on the tip - I had to fill in a form with a lot of questions about my mental state and realised that my sleep is not as good as it used to be.
I have always had a very good sleep - falling asleep easily and slept for eight hours. Of course there have been times with anxiety and worry that has disturbed my sleep, and I do have sleep apnea, but all in all I have been great at sleepion.
This has changed during the last years - and I realise that I donīt sleep eight hours and my sleeping patterns are easily distrubed ... and the guy who is monotoring the research told me about the substance melatonin that the body produces but the production falls with age, that is why elderly people say that they donīt need as much sleep anymore.
But we do for health reasons (he said) and also told me about melatonin. So I researched it on the net - it is obiously common in the US but in Sweden it is only by prescription and according to all the research results I found it seems to be good that it is not free, as the effects from synthetic supplements are not that well proved.
But I did find a research about food from thailand - how food could help the body to produce more melatonin - and the research had found that pineapple increased the rpoduciton with 230 procent - so guess who eats pineapple... bananas increased the producion with 1000something and oranges was the third best... anyway I had half a pineapplefruit, went to bed early and slept more then eight hours... the reason probably being that I had not slept that well the night before but it amuses me to think that I am doing something good for my melatonin level so I will continue with pinapple for a while. Not my favourite fruit but ok.
The research is to float in a floating tank twice a week for seven weeks - with one weeks pause somewhere in that. I did float two years ago and really loved it, but the floating company was twenty minutes drive on the other side of town and it was winter and dark so I gave it up and decided to start again in spring - and by then the company had gone bankrupt. I have been looking for floating possibilities since, but have not found any.
It is interesting that I can stand floating, I do have a hard time with meditation, I get bored and restless after ten miutes or so, but this floating thing - I am in there for 45 minutes and it is totally peaceful. SO I start monday and I ma really looking forward to it!
And it is free, the only thing I have to do is to fill in that form and have my blood pressure measured (and it was great when he measured it this week)
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