Monday, September 22, 2014
Reading Anne Catherine who describes the thread of selflies that is typical for an addict, although she calls it "breaking rules":
1. Before you enter the store you decide that no matter what you are going not going to buy a bag of your favorite candy.
2. In the store you find yourself in front od the candy shelf, buy the bag and change the decision into "I will only eat three pieces" and not open it until I am home..Rule one broken.
3. You decide that you will not open the bag until you arrive home, but when you are in the car you change the decision and open the bag and eat three pieces. Rule two broken.
4. When stopping at a red light, you decide to have three pieces more, but eat four. Rule three broken.
Rule 5-11 You continue to create and break decisions until the bag is empty.
Rule 12. You feel lousy and as a punishment/compensation you decide to skip lunch. You will pass the drivethrough fast food.
Rule 13. You turn into the fast food anyway rule 12 broken - deciding to have the smallest serving of a burger.
Rule 14 You order a doubleburger, big serving of french fries, a milkshake and a coke. Rule 13 broken...etc.
Me - I rearely make such a long chain - i fall when breaking the firt rule an plunge into eating it all...
But yesterday I observed the process as I lost my streak of absinence. GOing home from work I avoided the long lane with many car and took the detour that make me pass my food store. Obsession stroke and I decided to have meat, having read and heard about LCHF a lot during the day.
Bought pork and decided to eat it in two servings, on at dinner and one the next day. With lettuce and red cabbage, cooked without any syrup or chutney.
Went home and did that - swayed in cooking the cabbage without sweetening but persisted. Observed my brain starting to negotiate to cook the other half of the meat because "then I can start over tomorrow"
So - I broke my one week streak of fluid food only but I did not go into bingeing and stayed under my calorie limit. I only wish I had planned to get off that fluid only instead of falling off it... but alas, yesterday is gone and today I will do my best to eat sensibly and stay within limits.
Lost amazing 15,4 (seven kilo) pounds during the week of fluid, gained 2,2 (one kg) when I had some rich soup sunday and stayed with that even after eating that meat meal yesterday. I do eat a lot less meat since I tried to stop, maybe one or twice a motnh and that is okay for a beginner... yesterday was the first meat in september and it will be one time more today, then I will try to stay away for the rest of the month. Not that hard as I love fish and chicken that I still eat...as well a pure vegetarian.