Thursday, February 20, 2014
All in all I have no choice but to be proud. Winter will no longer be getting worse and signs of spring should be approaching in the next month or so with any luck. Oddly enough we're having a thunderstorm as we speak - that's not common...who has thunderstorms in Feb???
Daycare is going well enough. Not as comfortable with the financial end of it as I'd like to be but it's not as stressful as I feared it might be. However received news that soon I will be losing the one because they're moving over a half hour away so that they can take care of her great grandma. At least I'll have one debt paid off by then so I won't be relying so heavily on the space being filled.
The Lil Ones are adapting relatively well with their dad being moved out...in fact they don't really notice since their dad wasn't home much anyways. They ARE however struggling with getting into some sort of routine at their dad's and their dad has been calling me several times a day while he has them because he can't handle "being trapped" for so long. But that seems to be my only large amount of stress at the moment.
My older boys seem to be adapting well to the change and I'm not running into any issues at the moment with their dad either despite the conflict we had a few weeks ago.
The Winter Biggest Loser Challenge just wound down and I'm happy to say that I lost 1 more pound than I thought I could...I only aimed for 5 but hey - it's the winter!! Fighting temptation with Christmas and sales of chocolates for Valentine's Day and all the stress in between with Joe moving out - I'LL TAKE IT!!!
I have a couple weeks to prepare myself before the official start of the Spring Challenge. I'm into a much better routine and I'm catching up on a lot of sleep MOST nights. My scale has been in rough shape for a while but now I have Wii Fit so I'm tossing the scale and forcing myself to use the Wii to see my weight. Since I'm one of those people that KNOWS better but still has to jump on the scale regularly, this will help me get into a fitness routine because I HAVE to start Wii Fit to weigh in =]
I have regular "ME" time now and I also get to have time with friends on a regular basis now too =] Things are definitely going good again. This is the part where I usually say, "ok any second now...something is going to happen" but this time I'm not going to sit by and wait for something bad to happen. Instead I'm going to get up and enjoy the good while it's here. Yes bad things will happen, but why not enjoy it when it's not so bad??
I would also like to brag that I FINALLY have my room almost completely done =] It's taken over a year to get my entire apartment decluttered and I can safely say that by the end of the Spring Challenge, IT WILL BE DONE =] I currently have the majority of the stuff sitting in a closet now (yes it all fits in just the tiny closet now LOL...not overflowing out my huge closet LOL) and each time I get a chance to work on my room, I will pull one box out and go through it. I would like to have it all gone through by March Break so that I can set all my junk out on the one table outside and then post an ad on the swap group I belong to saying FREE first come first serve, anything left by the end of the week goes to the dump. Then I want to have a friend help me take the rest to the free trailer as well as have the one local person taht picks up e-waste to come and pick up all the stuff that needs to go but can't go to the dump (breadmaker, old cordless phones, breast pump that has already been used for 5 kids, etc). I find that having the clutter reduced has really helped me have a clearer mind and to just sleep more soundly, and to organize my time better. When you're not overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done, life seems so much more enjoyable.
I am going to change all my goals again and I want to really push hard this year. I want to show myself how strong I am on my own and that I can learn to love and appreciate myself WITHOUT having to have the approval of someone else. I'm excited to be this new me that I have been dying to be =]
It starts now!!
Thursday, January 16, 2014
I've been trying really hard to stick to the plan but I'm officially burnt out. I'm still averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night and workouts are no longer making me feel great. I have decided to recover a bit before trying again because my joints are too sore to continue.
I've decided that since a lot of what's going on can't be controlled so for now I'm just going to aim to survive Jan. Then Feb when Joe is moved out and the younger kids are visiting their dad, I'm going to work on getting caught up on my sleep. I'm also going to get back into meal planning then too. Hopefully by end of Feb I will be feeling more normal again and I'll be used to daycare's routine so that I can figure out a good way to incorporate exercise back into everyday habits.
I knew this would be a really tough time and I knew that I'd be lucky to lose anything during this time. I'm going to just leave it at that for now til I can see what the next month holds for me.
Thursday, January 09, 2014
Yesterday everything was too out of sync to get anything accomplished during nap time. This is the kind of day that gets me down and I skip doing anything for myself and just focus on what actually HAS to be done VS doing the things I want to make my new priorities. SO that means I didn't work out right??
NOPE!!! As soon as kids went down for the night...I started up a video and did as much as I could handle and I felt bad for packing it in at 15 mins but my lower back had had enough and ceased up when I went to switch to another exercise.
Did I beat myself up for it??? NOPE!!! I had forgotten to get garbage tags and it was garbage night so when Joe got done work I went for a walk to the store and bought a few. Only a 25 min walk there and back, but hey, still counts. Although it was just after 1 am when I went out and between doing all the stuff that HAD to be done that just couldn't wait...it was 4 am when I was able to call it day =/ but when kids got up at 8 am I unleashed them to where their dad has been sleeping and he had to deal with them and I went back to bed. He wanted to borrow $40 from me instead of waiting one more day so I made him that deal!! I'm going to have to get better at remembering to stay stocked up on garbage tags because soon I won't be able to leave late through the night to get last min things.
Today I relaxed for 30 mins once kids went down for nap and then I "completed" a 25 min workout video. It's in quotations because I jogged on the spot instead of doing suicides for all 3 reps, but the rest I dug deep and sucked it up and I hated every second of it at the time when I was really feeling it, but now I feel so accomplished!! The suicides have been noted for next time and I will be sure to have the room arranged for it. I wasn't going to pause and rearrange the room so I could do that exercise for today. I've been doing my exercising in the main room and I have large foam mats down on my tile floor and the mats will slide if I do suicides on them and I could do them off the mats but today I cheated and just pushed everything off the mat into where I could've done the suicides LOL.
So the videos I've been doing are from the Body Revolution series. I've done Workout 1, Workout 2, and today I've done Cardio 1. I'm so out of shape that the target group of muscles don't feel the burn as much as the other larger groups do LOL. You know...the ones that help you balance and the ones that naturally support you?? Ya, sad to say I've been letting my muscles "rot", so to speak LOL.
Not going to be disappointed about what I allowed myself to do...going to use that as a unit of measure instead. In 2 weeks from now I'm not going to feel it as much in those large muscle groups and more in the other muscles that should be focused on for that exercise. I'm not going to HATE the last 30 secs of each rep because I want to quit more than anything LOL. I'm going to look forward to getting my workout in instead of forcing myself to just try it because I NEED this. Then in 4 weeks it's going to feel even easier!! And I'm going to start SEEING a difference!! And FEELING a difference in my clothes!! It's going to be great!! I WANT that new phone...I WANT to fit in those new clothes...I WANT to be strong so I can start training on the trail!!!
These are my choices and with them, I will reap great benefits =]
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