Monday, March 10, 2014
1st I want to apologize to anyone I haven't gotten back to in the last couple days. I will be in touch soon - I promise!!
This week would be March Break...It's my one uninterrupted week with my older children...MY ONLY week that I get with my older children that is uninterrupted. Also we are celebrating the twin's birthday this coming weekend since theirs is really next weekend and the older boys won't be here. March break also means that I have an extra daycare child...great for pocket, but more crowded LOL. Another March Break tradition that we have started is that my Dad generally comes to stay for the week =] He enjoys seeing the kids all together instead of them all coming and going without getting much time in with them because they're at their Dad's or have to go to school.
Another BLC starts this week. I lost 5 lbs last time but sadly gained it all back again. I have my reasons and they make sense, but I'm not letting that be the case anymore. I've made some changes and it's stuff that won't be easy to go back to.
I have come to the understanding that my main focus at this moment should be more based on food. Exercise is important too, but if I'm eating the wrong stuff or eating way too much, exercise isn't going to help me...which is probably why I'm up and down on the scale constantly.
I tend to eat better when Dad is here so this should be the kick start that I need. Although Sat for the birthday party I will be ordering pizza (not cooking for that many people!! I'm not totally insane LOL) and eating cake. But it is only the 1st week. So I will have time to bounce back if I work hard the following days.
I have also come to realize that I'm still just standing still since my best friend who is several inches taller than me is now almost 20 lbs lighter than me. I've never weighed more than her!! I think her progress is amazing and I'm very proud of her, but at the same time I need to use that as a wake up call. I'm not at all jealous, she deserves her progress, she's worked very hard to get where she is. I need to put a more visible effort into myself.
I'm getting a lot better at treating myself in positive ways. I'm longing to buy nicer clothes and for the 1st time ever I want to buy a purse (I HATE purses LOL) and I'm going to buy myself cute earring and a matching necklace for mother's day for myself from the kids. I haven't wore jewellery in years because I worked in fast food industry and for those that don't know..that's a food safety hazard so no point in wearing jewellery for a day or two and then having to put it away again for a week, so I stopped wearing all that stuff and couldn't tell you wear any of that stuff disappeared to LOL. I have so many ideas of what sort of rewards I want to give myself now for each milestone...I'm just worried I won't have enough milestones to meet to get everything LOL.
It's getting pretty late so I should get going, but I will share my goals for the next 10 weeks the next time I blog =]
Have a nice night!!
Thursday, February 20, 2014
All in all I have no choice but to be proud. Winter will no longer be getting worse and signs of spring should be approaching in the next month or so with any luck. Oddly enough we're having a thunderstorm as we speak - that's not common...who has thunderstorms in Feb???
Daycare is going well enough. Not as comfortable with the financial end of it as I'd like to be but it's not as stressful as I feared it might be. However received news that soon I will be losing the one because they're moving over a half hour away so that they can take care of her great grandma. At least I'll have one debt paid off by then so I won't be relying so heavily on the space being filled.
The Lil Ones are adapting relatively well with their dad being moved out...in fact they don't really notice since their dad wasn't home much anyways. They ARE however struggling with getting into some sort of routine at their dad's and their dad has been calling me several times a day while he has them because he can't handle "being trapped" for so long. But that seems to be my only large amount of stress at the moment.
My older boys seem to be adapting well to the change and I'm not running into any issues at the moment with their dad either despite the conflict we had a few weeks ago.
The Winter Biggest Loser Challenge just wound down and I'm happy to say that I lost 1 more pound than I thought I could...I only aimed for 5 but hey - it's the winter!! Fighting temptation with Christmas and sales of chocolates for Valentine's Day and all the stress in between with Joe moving out - I'LL TAKE IT!!!
I have a couple weeks to prepare myself before the official start of the Spring Challenge. I'm into a much better routine and I'm catching up on a lot of sleep MOST nights. My scale has been in rough shape for a while but now I have Wii Fit so I'm tossing the scale and forcing myself to use the Wii to see my weight. Since I'm one of those people that KNOWS better but still has to jump on the scale regularly, this will help me get into a fitness routine because I HAVE to start Wii Fit to weigh in =]
I have regular "ME" time now and I also get to have time with friends on a regular basis now too =] Things are definitely going good again. This is the part where I usually say, "ok any second now...something is going to happen" but this time I'm not going to sit by and wait for something bad to happen. Instead I'm going to get up and enjoy the good while it's here. Yes bad things will happen, but why not enjoy it when it's not so bad??
I would also like to brag that I FINALLY have my room almost completely done =] It's taken over a year to get my entire apartment decluttered and I can safely say that by the end of the Spring Challenge, IT WILL BE DONE =] I currently have the majority of the stuff sitting in a closet now (yes it all fits in just the tiny closet now LOL...not overflowing out my huge closet LOL) and each time I get a chance to work on my room, I will pull one box out and go through it. I would like to have it all gone through by March Break so that I can set all my junk out on the one table outside and then post an ad on the swap group I belong to saying FREE first come first serve, anything left by the end of the week goes to the dump. Then I want to have a friend help me take the rest to the free trailer as well as have the one local person taht picks up e-waste to come and pick up all the stuff that needs to go but can't go to the dump (breadmaker, old cordless phones, breast pump that has already been used for 5 kids, etc). I find that having the clutter reduced has really helped me have a clearer mind and to just sleep more soundly, and to organize my time better. When you're not overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done, life seems so much more enjoyable.
I am going to change all my goals again and I want to really push hard this year. I want to show myself how strong I am on my own and that I can learn to love and appreciate myself WITHOUT having to have the approval of someone else. I'm excited to be this new me that I have been dying to be =]
It starts now!!
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