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Darkness

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

You could call it a "funk". I haven't been attending all 3 of my crossfit classes a week. I've been eating whatever I want. It's a lull in my motivation, and a sadness from loneliness and loss. But it's okay. That's apart of the acceptance I have for myself.

I am not a problem to fix. And Iím certainly not defective. I am frickin' glorious. My darkness always circles back to the light. There is order to my chaos. My heart is broken on a daily basis and for that I am on-my-knees grateful. I am importantójust because. And I am not the only one. I . . . am . . . not the only one.

I'm entitled to be sad. To mope. To get angry. What I'm not entitled to do is stop living.

Acceptance opens our hearts to love. To give love and to be loved. Even to love ourselves. And I forget that sometimes.

"Everything has a crack, that's how the light gets in."

So long story short, I'm back to the world of living, with all of the joys and of course all of the darkness too.

  
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PEZMOM1 4/16/2014 11:35AM

    You can do this.

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SAMMI-SAM 4/15/2014 3:06PM

    Always count your blessings that you do have. There are many people out there that have it worse than you do! Pick up your head..... emoticon

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NOTGVGUP83 4/15/2014 2:48PM

    even though the darkness can suck us in for days, weeks, or what not I seem to also get a strength and motivation after lingering in it for some time. Glad to read you're back and ready to live life and embrace the good and the ugly! =)

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VALYNN26 4/15/2014 2:03PM

    Wow! I love this! (Could've wrote it myself). Thank you. emoticon

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Crossfit

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

It's been 30 days since I started crossfit (not including my 6 beginner classes-2 weeks total).

Start weight: 199 (this was after a week of binge eating and a huge nacho dinner)
Last weigh in: 191 (this was in the morning)

Arms: +1"
Chest: 0"
Waist (A bit above the belly button): 0"
Hips (around love handles): -1.5"
Bum: -1"
Thighs: -0.5"
Calves: +1"
Squat 120 lbs. Bench Press: 105. Clean & Jerk: 75. Snatch: 55.

I feel great! I notice a difference when I perform on healthy foods and no alcohol. I need to start drinking more water. I also love the community of crossfit and support!!! LOVE IT! It could see where people think it's bad on knees etc. I think my coach does a good job with the 6 classes for beginners instead of the 1 class like most. If you slowly build up and do the modifications, it's better. I feel it not in my knees but in my hips a lot. It's definitely not a one size fits all exercise program. Some people it just wouldn't work. I get that. I've always believe that with diet/food plans/lifestyles that it's a cherry-picking kind of thing. Do what works for your body!!

I just paid for my 2nd month! Lets see what I can lose this month!!

  
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SHOOPETTE 4/8/2014 11:16AM

    Warrior!

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PENNYLANE15 4/2/2014 12:08PM

    That's awesome!!! Keep up the great work! :)

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PEZMOM1 4/2/2014 11:26AM

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Little steps, BIG progress!

Friday, March 14, 2014

A big 'little' step that I've been trying to implement is eating healthy without being super restrictive. So the last 2 weeks, I've been eating paleo/vegetarian which is basically clean eating but I have 1 cheat day a week and/or 3 cheat meals. It's been super awesome to do this 'diet'. It's definitely an 80/20. I've lost 7lbs the first week and 0.2 this week (I traveled for work so I'm blaming that...more salt than usual). I've been doing crossfit 3x a week. Walks/runs 1-2x a week, and sand volleyball 1 hr a week.

I've been keeping busy and enjoying myself. I've been making desserts that are healthy a fulfilling my sweet tooth cravings. I haven't felt like I was on a diet at all. It's really a BIG change.

I still need to work on my water intake and maybe less alcohol (St. Patty's day is sooo close maybe I'll try this next weekend, haha)! I've been working on stress relievers and trying to get out my head so much.

All and all, I think this is working pretty well for me. I'll keep you posted on what next week brings!

  
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PEZMOM1 3/15/2014 11:34AM

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SHOOPETTE 3/14/2014 4:20PM

    Awesome, do keep us posted!

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GREGGWEISBROD 3/14/2014 2:21PM

    Sounds like you've found a perfect fit for your life!!! Way to go! :D

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PENNYLANE15 3/14/2014 2:11PM

    Great job!!! That's what weight loss/healthy living is all about....finding what works FOR YOU! You seemed to have found a balance of healthy and treats plus your workouts seem both fun and so different that it'll be easier to stay with it b/c you won't get bored! Keep up the good work!!

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My tight Jeans

Thursday, March 06, 2014

I have these jeans I wear all the time but they are tight on my thighs and I never button them because the button digs into my tummy roll (LOL...embarrassing). Anyway, I must have been sleepy because I put them on yesterday morning to go to work. All day I'd been wearing them and not paying attention...but when I finally realized. I HAD BEEN WEARING THEM ALL DAY AND THEY WERE BUTTONED!!! No jumping around or tugging them on...

That's exciting!

  
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PEZMOM1 3/7/2014 6:26PM

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FUNGIRL81005 3/6/2014 1:08PM

    AWESOME!! emoticon

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LHAMMOND810 3/6/2014 12:05PM

    Awesome! Such a good feeling!

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SHOOPETTE 3/6/2014 10:35AM

    totally awesome!

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EBERKSHIRE86 3/6/2014 10:15AM

    emoticon what a great feeling :)

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Bingeing

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Saturday, I fell down the stairs and overextended my tendon and bruised my arch. I've been keeping off it besides the normal walking. The swelling has gone down, and last night I played some sand volleyball. During it was fine, but today it's a little sore and swollen. Anyway, so I'm off of it till Monday. I postponed my Crossfit till then.

BUT!

Due to not working out, I think I started eating terribly and over-eating. I think the work outs were giving me the same 'fix' as food normally does. Now that I don't have my work outs, I've been turning to food. UGH! Luckily I have moments when I eat great! So it's not all been bad.

Saturday, March 1st I'm starting a paleo challenge with my friend Jenny. It will be 6 days a week paleo and 1 day of cheating. This way it's not so restrictive. If you've read my previous posts, you know I can't do super stricted! I think 1 cheat day will definitely help plus Monday is soooo close so I can get my fix through crossfit!

  
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SAMMI-SAM 2/27/2014 4:12PM

    My husband loves chips so there are 3 bags in my pantry... Cheetos, lays & Doritos.... I have always loved chips on my sandwich, to give it that extra crisp. Yesterday, after the gym I walked down to the store to buy natural chips. You know..... Baked & not fried ones. I put those on my sandwich & got that crunch I desired but now at least I know they have way less fat than the other bags in my pantry... emoticon

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VALYNN26 2/27/2014 11:08AM

    Best of luck! You can do it!

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14BLESSED1 2/27/2014 10:52AM

    Good luck and enjoy.

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LEKESHIA35 2/27/2014 10:50AM

  good luck. i am the totally opsite if i cheat i get throw off where i have to start over bc my day strt to 3 an 4 days

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JOHNMARTINMILES 2/27/2014 10:42AM

    It is not one day cheating if it is planned and accounted for.

Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life

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