Wednesday, August 20, 2014
I had to get a physical for work today. They sent me to planned parenthood for it because that's where they said they'd pay for it. I had all I could do to stay there. I wanted to run so badly it wasn't even funny. I don't believe in abortions at all, never thought I'd ever be in a place that takes human life before it starts. I love my three boys with all my heart, I never would replace all the morning sickness, pain of labor, or anything since then for reasons that were beyond my control. Yes I do understand in times of certain situations but still it's a human life! How can anyone just do that? Especially to something they've created? I know there are some people who disagree with me, but weare entitled to our own opinions. I so desperately wanted to ask the doctor who saw me how she slept at night and even existed at all? As I sat waiting in the examining room I looked around at the things them had in there. One was a simple little rubbermaid square box with a lid on top but at the time it was underneath it, it had a papertowel in it, my guess was that was for an unborn baby. I had to keep myself contained from screaming out why? And crying in hysteria over it. Looking back on my tree labors, realizing my choice was right to bring my kids into the world and not destroy them. I may complain about them but I love them and wouldn't change anything. I guess it was an overwhelming sense of grief for the babies that had been taken that washed over me. I couldn't help it, I don't know everyone's circumstances and what goes through their heads, its definitely not a place I'd like to go back to. No ones gonna tell me any different either.