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Thursday, December 11, 2014

Hello everyone. I'm finally writing because things are settling down enough for me to do so. My dad took his last breath on November 16th with all of us by his side, while the priest prayed the Anointing of the Sick over him. My family could not have asked for a more peaceful and beautiful transition.

We were all able to spend his entire last week by his side and two days before his passing, after being unresponsive for a week, he regained full consciousness and was able to speak, laugh and joke with all of us. It was a truly a gift for us all to spend that final time with him.

Thank to everyone for your support and prayers for my family and I.

I'm still a bit numb but I have to start putting my life back in order. This last year of worry, stress and travel has left my body in a state of disrepair. Where better to begin to remedy that, than Spark People?

I haven't been on the site in so long I'm not sure where to start. but I'll just wonder around for a bit until I decide what I'm doing.


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JAZZID 12/14/2014 12:44AM

    Sue, thank you for updating us. About a week before my wedding, my dad developed complications from leukemia. He had seen me in my dress from the final fitting and the plan was for me and my husband to go to the hospital after we got married, so that he could see us and to take pics with him. However, he developed septicemia and died 3 days before we got married. It's great that you and your family were able to be with your dad in his final hours. So sorry for your loss. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon

~ Dee emoticon

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CLASSYLADYMAY 12/12/2014 8:52AM

    So sorry for your loss. !! Thoughts and prayers go with you and family. Always hard when you lose a parent.

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NELLJONES 12/12/2014 8:14AM

    I lost my father on November 11, 2001, so I know how you feel. Keep quoting him for the rest of your life. That way even people who didn't know him in person can know him by his words.

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PLATINUM755 12/12/2014 3:34AM

    I am so glad everyone had a chance to be with your dad before he passed...My condolences to you and yours! emoticon emoticon You've been missed!

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Oh, how the mighty have fallen.

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Had to write this entry about my pitiful attempt to do Cathe's Upper Body Pyramid chest with 5, 8, and 10 pound weights!!! Oh have I let myself go. I used to be able to match Cathe's 12, 15, and 20s!!!! I got through the rest of the workout using roughly half of Cathe's weights. LOL.

I suppose I let my strength training lapse when I got hooked on Zumba and when evening soccer started for my son, I couldn't even do that. I have started again but only with Kelly Coffey Meyers 30 Minutes to Fitness DVDs and they are wonderful but not quite as challenging as Cathe. I guess I've got some catching up to do.

That's okay, I'm excelling on other fronts. In my last entry I talked about getting back to (actually below) my Weight Watchers Lifetime goal quite by accident while eating intuitively. Well I got so excited that I decided to see what I could do with tracking.

To give myself a challenge, I actually had them LOWER my Lifetime goal. It's a bit scary because it doesn't leave me as much leeway on weigh in days but that's what I use WW for. Accountability. I tracked all last week and this morning, weighed in 3 pounds BELOW my new lowered goal weight. A 5.2 pound loss. Yippee!! emoticon

I'mmmm gonna keep this up.

Now here's the thing. Even though I advocate Paleo/Primal and carb controlled diets..... I can't really follow them. Apparently 40 years of eating disorders trump the invariable restrictions required by these diets. For me, they start out well but the restrictions inevitably trigger my ever lurking binge tendencies and it's not worth it. The knowledge that I gained while following/ researching these diets was invaluable and I still use some of the principles but a poster child for Paleo, I am not.

I eat intuitively (honor my true hunger with what my body asks for), track my intake (to quell any mindless eating that may occur) and use Weight Watchers to keep me accountable. It's not perfect but it's ME (73 pounds LESS of me I might add emoticon ).

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JAZZID 6/23/2014 11:35PM

    Hey Sue, glad to hear from you!... You are doing great my dear. Where ever you are in this journey is where you are supposed to be! If lifting the lighter weights is a challenge, they are still benefiting you... you will gradually work your way back. Kelly Coffey workouts are no joke either, they are tough, but not as long as Cathes, that's the big difference. Depending on how heavy you lift you and if you do longer premixes you can still challenge yourself.

RE: nutrition, I have started eating intuitively awhile back... I finally read a lot of the book that you gave me and it has really helped me. I still follow the paleo/primal diet because I have to be disciplined and it is actually enjoyable to me, that's he only way that I can follow it. I gained so much weight last fall and really hit "my rock bottom"... I have an addiction to sweets and I had to give them up. I am not saying that I will never eat another piece of cake, etc., but when I do it will be in a controlled situation and "when I want to" eat it, not because I am craving it! That's what the paleo/primal lifestyle ... thanks to you... has done for me. The paleo diet is also ever evolving and I recently just did the Chris Kresser's Personal Paleo Code, he has a different point of view than Robb Wolf and some of the others He fee;s that initially the paleo diet is great for resetting your body and trying to find out if any food is causing inflammation. However, after the eliminated foods, i.e, beans, white potatoes/rice, dairy, etc., are introduced back in and if they don't cause inflammation he feels that it is ok to eat them because every one is different and what can cause problems in one person will not necessarily cause a problem in someone else. So this is what I am doing. I am including, in moderation, because I am following a low/lower carb diet, white potatoes/rice, Kerry Gold butter, cream, Greek yogurt, sour cream... I will also add beans back in later when I lose more weight and if they don't cause any digestive problems.

So far with this reset, from April 1, 2014 to date, I have lost 17.4 pounds! ... from 176 to 158.6.... my 10% goal. I am amazed at the progress that I am making and I feel great! I blogged about my journey here:<

... check it out when you get a chance. Anyway, I owe it to you for convincing me to at least try the paleo/primal lifestyle because it is working for me and I finally feel in control of my weight issues. I no longer think of sweets like candy, cake, cookies as "treats", I now think of them as "toxic"... remember the video "Sugar, the Bitter Truth?" I look to satisfy my sweet tooth with fruit and 85% dark chocolate.

I could go on and on... I am glad to hear that you are finding what works for you, that is what counts. emoticon emoticon ... my next 10% goal is 142! emoticon

~ Dee emoticon

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PLATINUM755 6/22/2014 11:51PM

    I'm a dabbler too! (lol!) A little from this program, a little from that and guess what?!? It's working. Mix and match to find what works for you and yours. To borrow the phrase, have it your way! Keep up the good work and moving forward! emoticon emoticon

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Finally back at goal, by eating intuitively?

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Hi Everybody. The last month has been a bit hectic. My dad hasn't been doing well and last week I had to go back down to see him but he stabilized and I'm back now.

I took Turbo Fire with me and worked out a few times while I was there but I didn't expect to see any results when I got home. To my surprise, I went to WW this morning and I'm below my WW goal of 132. I weighed in without shoes at 129.8 !! I've been trying to get back to goal forever so I'm thrilled!!

The interesting thing is that my entire week in Florida, I was inadvertently, intuitive eating. I bought healthy stuff but didn't really eat much of it. What I DID eat/drink was the LARGE bag of M&Ms, Cheetos and Lays and the case of Schweppes Ginger Ale (NOT DIET) I bought the first day I was there. By the time I left they were gone. Don't judge, it was a stressful week, I was comfort eating.

Anyway, HOW did I lose those stubborn pounds eating all that crap? I fully expected to gain weight with all the junk I was eating so I just ate.

When I felt like, how much I felt like. I didn't eat 3 square meals. I rarely ate breakfast. I ate a big lunch and no dinner except for the junk most of the time. Totally intuitive. I certainly cannot discount the 400- 500 cals I burned in the 3 workouts I did but that's less than I'd been doing at home.

What is a further mystery (over share coming up) is that this was my pre-menstrual week in which I normally eat like a crazy person and gain but this time I lost weight. AND it wasn't water weight either because my body fat percentage also went down. Curious.

SO, this morning I worked out and didn't eat until I was truly hungry which ended up being 12:30pm. I ate a soda, a sandwich and some potato chips; about a serving and a half I would guess. I finished up with a 120 cal Fiber Bar and some gum.

For the rest of the day I had access to pizza, candy, chips and cookies (my usual weekend indulgences with the kids) and had no urge for any of it. At 6:30pm, I ate a strawberry and drank a cup coffee because that's all I felt for. I'm loving this!

I'm grateful for the past week because it reminded me how relaxing and rewarding it can be when I allow my cravings AND my body's hunger signals to make the decisions. That's really how I best lose weight. I only "diet" when I panic and it's much more stressful than trusting my body.

Now I will continue to go to Weight Watchers because it's free (Lifetime Member) and it's accountability has proven useful for keeping me in check. They do encourage healthy eating and they also have great recipes so there's that.

Well, let's see what tomorrow's numbers bring.

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PLATINUM755 5/10/2014 7:00PM

    Oh the beauty of pacing ourselves...we really do know when enough is enough...Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon

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ALLISON145 5/6/2014 6:07PM

    This is a really interesting point... I've been very successful losing in the past by watching calories but eating what and when I wanted... once I start to complicate things by trying to eat "clean" or removing foods from my diet, I get super stressed and hungry.

I'm not sure what to do about this though... losing weight would be great, but being healthy has to be the goal, right? I wish I craved fruits and veggies!


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JAZZID 5/4/2014 3:45AM

    Hi Sue. emoticon .

I am still following the paleo/primal lifestyle and love it. I just did a reset, i.e, pretty much starting over from the very beginning by eliminating caffeine, dairy, etc. Soon I will slowly reintroduce non-paleo foods that I want to eat and hopefully they won't cause any inflammation.

Eating this way has eliminated my sugar cravings and I have found that with the caffeine and sugar out of the way, I can actually feel true hunger and I am eating more intuitively instead of emotionally.

I also pulled out the book, "Transformational Weight Loss", that you sent me a few years ago, emoticon sis... and it is helping me understand the emotional/psychological side of eating.

emoticon on emoticon ... keep up the good work!

~ Dee emoticon

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 4/28/2014 2:29AM

    That's awesome! Congrats!

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    emoticon What you are doing works for you and you are keeping tabs on yourself.

Sorry for the stressful times. This too shall pass.

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What a Rush!!

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Just came home from back to back Body Blast and Zumba w/weights and wow, what a rush!! Loving it more each time I go and our instructor was spot on. Once you learn the routines you can just go for it and have a blast. I am burning crazy calories and having crazy fun while doing it.

I'm still doing weight at home because Body Blast is all high rep low weights. Don't get me wrong. It's killer, but I think I need more.

Since it looks like I'm staying, I've decided to invest in some dance sneakers which for my short wide duck feet is easier said than done. I was going to use that as my 10 pounds down reward but since I'm killing my knees trying to Zumba in cross trainers it'll have to be my five pounds down reward.

I found these shoes

and according to the reviews they are good for wide feet so I'll start there. They are not colorful and pretty like everyone else in the class but I've got to be comfy. I wear a 7 to 71/2 but everyone says to order up so....

I'll let you know.

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PLATINUM755 3/20/2014 12:25PM

    Great rockin' combo! You're going to be so amazed at how wonderful dance is for the body! Keep up the good work! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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IFDEEVARUNS2 3/20/2014 11:16AM

    I use this type of shoe for Israeli dance and zumba. They're great!

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SUNSET09 3/19/2014 10:36PM

  You go, girl! emoticon emoticon Those are cute and just because they don't have all of that color ot them, comfort is what it's about. I do Zumba as well as it's more like dancing with a routine to me! Sounds like you're on your way and let me "borrow" the shoes on your days off! That's my size as well!
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    Great price. You have small feet. LOL

emoticon on all that exercise!

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Rest Day

Friday, March 14, 2014

Okay, I went back to Boot camp yesterday and he was true to his word. He let me do as much or as little as I wanted and even had a sense of humor about it. It wasn't uncomfortable at all but again, taking Zumba after showed me how much I really don't 'enjoy' it. I don't look forward to it like I do Zumba an all my other workouts and that's important to me. I think it may be my last for a while. The good thing is that he is planning to a kickboxing class and he knows I'll be all in for that so he won't take it personally.

I'm taking a much needed rest day today but I'll be back to Zumba tomorrow morning. No one is more shocked than I as to how much I'm enjoying group exercise. Who knew?

Texting in the movies on date night with my hubby so I'd better go before I get busted.


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PLATINUM755 3/16/2014 11:31PM

    GO ZUMBA! (Well any dance form really, lol!) Glad to hear you enjoying group workouts and keeping your eyes open for more of the same. emoticon

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LADYGSC 3/15/2014 4:02PM

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    I think you gave it your all and that is commendable. emoticon

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