The cardiologist visited with FIL yesterday and said that he is very anemic and malnourished. He prescribe an IV treatment that would replenish his nutrition. He believes FIL should feel better in 3 days and needs to be on the treatment for a week. so better news as well as FIL told the nurse to help him get better for his family. So it sounds like he hasn't given up yet. We have hope.
Off to Costco today to get supplies for family visit.
DH and I went to visit his father yesterday and it isn't good. FIL hardly recognized us and was in bed. The nurses told us that they called a cardiologist as his blood pressure was high. So the cardiologist will visit him today. He looks like he is ready to go home to his maker. My DH and I told the nurses that if that is what he wants and will not have a quality of life then we have to let him go. He is just so weak and refusing to eat as everything he eats he throws up. But he is so weak he can't even feed himself. The nurse also thing he is giving up. I shed some tears when leaving as he just looked so bad. But we are prepared for his departure if that is his wishes. We just want him to be comfortable. My DH called his sister and she agreed with us. I now am praying that he survives long enough to see his daughters when they arrive on Friday.
We also decided that we will not take the grandkids out to see him as he looks awful and most likely would recognize them. And he would be too weak to play games with them.
So not good news. Thank you all for your on going support, comments and thoughts.
It is always hard to let go. I remember letting go of my Father. So hard.
So the family starts arriving on Friday. That is when the two sisters come and then Saturday is when the two son's arrive, the DIL and two grandchildren. We are getting ready. Sure wish FIL would be ready...he was sitting up in wheelchair yesterday and we were told he likes the protein powder milkshakes. We were driving down one of the main streets in our village and saw this turtle...had to have it for the pool. We think the grands will have fun on it.
Another good report today is that I changed up my diet. I have been reading about this diet that is supposed to be good for autoimmune disorders and some people claim they have even been able to get off all the meds. I started it three days ago and am feeling pretty good. It is very restrictive and eliminates all foods that they claim can give you "gut" issues. It takes all grains, nuts, dairy, nightshade veggies, sugar, processed foods, etc. out of your diet. It really wasn't hard for me to do this as I have all ready cut most of this out of my diet. The big new thing to cut was grains and reducing the amount of fruit I eat. Well after three days there might be something to this as I have lost 2.5 pounds of the puffiness. So the cream of buckwheat cereal and the Greek Yogurt might have been making me have reactions and inflammation. I basically am eating grass fed meat and veggies. Not too hard to follow for me. And for me I will eat what ever makes me feel better...Food is medicine to me now. So feeling good today especially having a good night's sleep!
I do hope you all are doing great.
Have a wonderful day and great week
Geez, but it is hard. You all must be going nuts with me saying one day that FIL is doing well and the next not well. When my DH and I went out yesterday he was in bed and not even talking to us. The nurses are worried as he is refusing to eat and refusing to do the small little exercises the nurses put him through. He is so weak due to not eating. They have him on IV again so hoping that will pick him up again. My DH and I went to GNC and got him really good protein powder to have the nurses make him milkshakes. It is vanilla and we took vanilla ice cream. This protein powder must be for guys who are weight building. It has like 500 calories and like 40 grams of protein. We are hoping they can get enough in him to give him some energy. I don't know what else can be done unless they put him on a feed tube. But then we are not sure that is what he would want. And do people come back after being on feeding tubes? It is so sad seeing him like this. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I guess it's one day at a time with some days good days and some days bad days.
On another note, I lost 2 pounds over night but not the way I wanted to. I was up sick all night and throwing up. So that doesn't count. I am not sure what upset my system but I had some broccoli at dinner with my fish and for some reason the broccoli didn't sit well. I know it wasn't the fish as my DH had it as well and he was fine...but he didn't have any broccoli and had green beans instead. The good news is what ever it was I got rid of it and don't have an upset stomach this morning just totally tired from not sleeping. Additional good news is that we do not have anything on the agenda and I can rest and what mindless Tv. I might try and get myself together to go with DH to check on FIL but if not, my DH can go on his own. I know the 2 pounds isn't an accurate loss but I liked it but didn't like the way it came about ; )
Thank you Mobycarp for the reminder that it wasn't too long ago that I was striving for 110 as my goal weight. I like your idea to lighten up and accept anything between 105 and 110. When I was shooting for the 110 I thought I was 5;4" but recently was measured again and am only 5'3" Shrinking as I get older. So I am going to not be so hard on myself and the number on the scale.
I do hope you all are having a great Sunday.
Enjoy your day.
Thank you all again for your encouraging thoughts regarding both my FIL and my weight gain "problem".
FIL report was better yesterday. The IV is working again and they said he had eaten dinner. When I went to visit he was sleeping so I didn't disturb him. They said he had exercised which wore him out. The nurse also told me that she asked him if he didn't want to get well so he could sit up and visit when the family arrives next week. He said that he wanted to do that. The nurse doesn't think he is giving up. They also told me that he was cute now to 1/4 of patch for the morphine. So that is also good. I hope he gets his sharp mind back. Will check on him again today.
Now, what the heck is going on with me??? I am eating my normal foods when I want to take a pound or two off. Around 1200 calories. But I am still gaining. Today after eating on plan I was up to 109.5. My tummy is bloated and I am confused. My goal weight and where I feel good is 105 as I have very small bones. So I am going to talk to my doctor and see if it is the Wellbutrin anti depressant that I am taking. Funny part is if you look that up on the internet is says is sometimes causes weight loss. So leave it to me to have a body that does the opposite. Funny thing, I wasn't depressed to begin with when my doctor put me on the antidepressant but she wanted me on it to calm my type A personality and to help me deal with stress as stress can flare up my autoimmune disorder. But you all know that I will be depressed if all I do is continue to gain weight while taking it. Yikes. So will check that whole thing out. I don't think it's the small amount of prednisone (5mg) that I am taking as it never effected me that way in the past and I could still lose weight while on even higher doses.
So confused I am and even though I am trying hard not to let the scale dictate how I feel on any given day it still is discouraging. And I don't want to buy new clothes!!! Not a hold lot to chose from that I like here in our village. I would have to drive to Guadalajara to the mall to find things I like and then it's expensive. So somehow I will work this out and find a diet that will get the now 5 pounds off.