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No Longer the Cow

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

I've shared this story before but it's been on my mind a lot so I thought I would share it again.

I've struggled with my weight my entire memorable life. I've dealt with a lot of teasing, eating disorders, self esteem issues from my weight and other tragedies/things that have occurred in my life.

As a young adult though there are a few key events that caused me to come to the place I was in March of 2010. (My heaviest weight of 315lbs.) I had 3 children over the course of a few years. With each child I actually lost weight than gained a bunch right after. That wasn't my plan though.

Right after I had Connor I weighed in at 230 pounds. Not tiny but by no means not 315 pounds either. I immediately started eating right and running. Running has always worked for me fitness wise to drop the weight. I would run up and down the street by my home. It was approximately one mile to go there and back again.

One day while I was running a truck full of people. I'm not sure if they were guys or girls, I don't know who they were or anything about them. All I know is that they made mooing noises out of the window as they drove by while I was running. When you have been teased because of your weight so badly it made you hate yourself a mooing noise when you are out working hard to change your life is like a knife in the heart.

I came home and sobbed. I let them get to me. I gave them power they should have never had. I wish I could say I got up and went right back out and started running again but I didn't. I avoided working out and eating in front of people after that. I couldn't even go into a store, try on clothes or be out by myself at the store. I was terrified of what other people thought of me.

It took a lot of time for me to realize I deserved better. In March of 2013 I decided something had to change. I slowly climbed back on the horse. I had a friend who would go out running with me. I would only go out after midnight and only walk on the outskirts of town. When I jogged I would stop immediately if I saw someone was coming. Terrified they would make earthquake sounds or mooing noises.

After a very up and down roller coaster I finally have overcome a lot of that fear. In fact now I'm more self conscious if someone goes by and I'm walking instead of running. People don't control me with their words or actions anymore. I don't care what they think. This journey isn't about whether or not I get kudos from the world. This journey is for me. I am doing the work, I am proud of my accomplishments. I am awesome. I love myself maybe for the first time ever. The person I have become is the sum of all those moments but I will never be that girl who lets others tell her how she is suppose to feel about herself.

Be strong for you. Change your life for you. Follow after YOUR dreams. You deserve it. You are beautiful and You are Awesome!



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    Thank you. You are awesome too!

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3016DEBRA 8/6/2013 6:18PM

  What an inspiration you are...and yes, you are beautiful! emoticon emoticon

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GINNABOOTS 8/6/2013 3:00PM

    You go girl! You are so right and good for you to get to that point where you don't care what other people think and to love yourself. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PICKIE98 8/6/2013 2:48PM

    Good for you,, I actually thought you were going to write that you flipped them all off and kept on running! Since you never had the pleasure, I now give you permission to do it next time, WITH BOTH HANDS AND AVERY BIG SMILE!! NO eye contact, just both hands in the air and keep on running!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Heart Full of Gratitude

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Today I am thankful for my health. With a family medical history as long as mine I could have a lot of things wrong with me that simply are not. I've hopscotched my way past Diabetes, Kidney Disease, Heart Disease, Lupus, Fibromyalgia, and a whole myriad of other diseases and disorders. Every morning I wake up relatively pain free and go about my day without concerns of medical bills and hospital stays. For this I am most grateful. In my life I've seen a lot of people suffer but God in his graciousness has spared me thus far from a similar fate.

Yesterdays illness reminds me of how blessed I am to have almost every day pain free. For those of you who struggle with pain and illness I pray for you. Thank you for being an example of perseverance and strength in my life. My journey towards a healthier me is strengthened by your resolve to continue on despite the adversity in your life.

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AEROBISAURUS 7/1/2013 10:32AM

    You are strong! emoticon

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KACEYSW 6/27/2013 1:14PM

    Wow! You have an awesome attitude! Thanks for sharing!

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Death Abs

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

So I'm anticipating rock hard abs in a day or two. I had an epic workout yesterday followed by a night/morning of food poisoning. I don't recommend this combination (it's quite miserable) but I can feel every muscle in my mid section. When I say mid section I mean shoulders down to my booty.

Pretty sure if you looked it up in the dictionary my picture would be chilling next to over did it. But you live you learn.

Honestly I kind of feel like that sketch in monty python where they throw the guy in the cart and he says I'm not dead yet. Or possibly Wesley from Princess Bride... only mostly dead. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll be fully recovered and ready to hit the road again.



Tuesday, June 25, 2013

What inspires you?
There are so many things that inspire me. Music, friends, laughter, my family... I could go on and on. I love sharing these little moments on my facebook page.

It's the story of my journey so far and a great way I can share with everyone what inspires me and keeps me accountable. Feel free to pop on over and take a look. There are some pretty inspiring women and guys on my page. I can't help but be inspired every time I see how far they have come.

Also you guys inspire me. Your stories of success, your constant encouragement. Thanks for always being there when I need a word of encouragement or a little way to go even for the little victories.

So thank you all! You Rock My Face Off! :D

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ELRIDDICK 6/25/2013 10:44AM

  Thanks for sharing

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Not the typical come back....

Monday, June 24, 2013

Typically when I come back to spark after a hiatus I'm down on myself for not sticking with the plan. However, things have been changing.

Since November of last year I'm down 60 inches. I couldn't be prouder. Yesterday I completed my second virtual 5k. (Run where you are and post your times online.) I've ran 1 mile without stopping this month. I've been able to do push ups, play outside with my kids, go shopping in the "normal" section of the store. Goals, goals, goals are being met.

For the first time in my life we have some stability. We just signed a 2 year lease. That means by the time this lease is over we will have lived in this house for 3 years. That's the longest we've ever lived anywhere. That means it's time to actually decorate and set up camp. ;)

We have a lot going on over the course of the next week. Yard sale, cleaning/organizing the house, and lots and lots of working out. While my inches have been coming off I really would like to see some pounds drop as well. So I'm making a much more focused effort to drop some weight. Taking it one day at a time but that's the only way to live.

It's good to be back and have the keyboard under my fingers again. Can't wait to share with all of you the little joys of my every day life. :D

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ELMA1913 6/24/2013 10:05AM

    That is wonderful! Congratulations on your 60 inch lost. That is inspiring - thanks.

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JILLRY03 6/24/2013 10:01AM

    Wow!!! Congrats on loosing 60 inches!! That's awesome!! Good Luck with the rest of your journey!

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