Friday, December 12, 2014
I am really glad to be starting a new challenge with my BLC squad of Sapphire Beauties this week. Our gang is genuinely supportive, warm-hearted and a very compassionate group. They are one of my lifelines and also give me a lot of support, while pushing our collective group to be more active and eat healthier.
This is a good thing. I prefer not to go it alone. Between my SP family, my coach Hadley and dozens of other supporters, I am doing as well as I can expect of myself. It is a hard time of year to stay on track (how many departments can possibly be having soirees this week?) (hint: all of them!) If you can get past the cooking and baking, then are still other obstacles - shopping to get done, house cleaning, and work deadlines. I have been stressing out from work a lot lately. I went through a reorganization last year, came out with a higher paying job (but with quite a bit more stress), and now they are shaking up my snow-globe again. More changes. Trying to adjust to go with the flow mode, but I will admit it is not easy, even for a self-proclaimed freewheeler like myself.
In the last two days though, what else has been happening? --Well, my coach, Hadley has stirred up a renewed sense of "I can do this." He cut me some slack this week and took it "easy" on me during the re-entry. Last night, we did some treadmill walking and octane. (The first few minutes of the octane portion began with me figuring out how and if I could get up on the machine. It has been a while.) My coach just waited me out and eventually I got up on it.
Tonight, we started on the treadmill to warm up and then moved to "running" - or as I often call it, pre-running. It is hard for me. I am fat (but under 400 pounds, huzzah!) and my body is just learning how to move again with these motions. So what though -- I am doing it, and when I am doing it, and meeting my coach's expectations, I feel like a badass.
That's what I tell myself while I am lapping the room. I want to stop and breathe (or lay down) but I want to keep going to see how hard I can push myself. Hadley asked me tonight to run as fast as I could to the far wall. I was self doubting, but willing to try, and that willingness made me move about 6 seconds faster than what I thought my all-out was. Making changes and not giving up is difficult at times. But when you feel your progress, when you know you are showing up and doing something, when you have someone who believes in you, and stays next to me, and says, "I have faith in you," I find the strength within to keep on going.
Monday, December 01, 2014
Been off for a few days --- and perhaps that is why stress seems readily available today at work. I recognize that when I am stressed, it is so much easier to chomp on something even when I am not even hungry. I have been trying to avoid this behavior today. I stocked up on a lot of candy for my students this weekend, and I unloaded ALL of it in their offices. Whew! That was a great idea, otherwise, I would have been chewing into that stuff.
I am building my mental and emotional strength right along with my increased healthfulness. It all take a lot of work though. I am keeping at it!
Monday, November 24, 2014
Here's a peek at today's menu, breakfast (at home) and lunch for later.
The oatmeal looks like it is overrun by the raisins and possibly is - but it was a small box of raisins. I don't like mushy oatmeal so I use very little water and nuke it in the microwave for a minute. I made my lunch while it was cooling and in those few minutes, it dried up a bit more and had the texture of baked oatmeal. Not bad, just was very compact. An hour after I got to work, I had the yogurt from my lunchbox. I know I have a different style (probably Greek) sitting in the fridge from last week. I might eat that after lunch, but before I meet Hadley at the gym.
It's another salad on the docket for me today. Spinach with shredded carrots, chicken (from an organic rotisserie chicken), some grape tomatoes, some cherries, and the last of last week's blackberries. Note to self: blackberries are best consumed during the same week of purchase, but they are still good enough for today.
See those pretzels in the top of the picture? Those are unsalted mini pretzels. Unsalted can be hard to find, but Whole Foods has them. My propensity is to eat from the bag, and be hapless about portion control. Not this time around. I bought the pretzels and also wheat crackers that can fit into my menu. I opened both bags/boxes and put them in little plastic baggies according to serving size.
Coincidentally, the serving size is the same for both 16 pieces. I counted 16 per bag. I put them in a little box to grab ONE Hats off to me. This is a new tool in my success kit. Woo hoo!
FIVE Good choices I have been making are:
1. Fruits and veggies are now the superstar of my lunch menus.
2. Balancing my potassium/sodium consumption
3. Blogging regularly and staying connected to positive people
4. Not letting social occasions throw me off track
5. Being mindful of how I am behaving
What good choices have you been making, sparkies?
Saturday, November 22, 2014
I have a weird relationship with jewelry. I really enjoy certain styles and pieces, but actually don't wear it all that much. I actually make it too, but that was born out of a desire to keep my hands busy and out of the kitchen.
In the last couple of years since my Mom passed away, my sister and I have started a ritual where every Mother's Day we meet at a jewelry outlet and buy ourselves some bling......because "Mommy would have wanted us to." That's the story we tell ourselves between a few tears, shopping and lunch. ha ha
I've always loved rings. But I never thought I could wear them because I have "meat-paws." Well until last year, I didn't know that I could buy a ring and just have it sized. Hold the phone! What? So that's what I did. This past May, I bought a ring called, "Lucky Stone." It is multi-faceted with several different colors. It is shiny - and doesn't photograph too well, because of the light/crystal I think, but here it is.
I put it on again this week, and lo and behold, it no longer fits, except on one finger - the middle finger of my right hand. Every other digit, it just slides right off. Not just loose, I mean off. This is a little piece of excitement for me. It is a sign of more progress! When we visit again this May, I am planning to get it re-sized again.
Wondering how much I cn shrink between now and then.
Saturday, November 22, 2014
I have had a truly amazing week. I stopped bingeing, turned over a new leaf and began eating healthy and did a version of running with my coach. The culmination of those things showed up today, when I went to weigh in and for the first time in recent memory, I weigh under 400 pounds. I am in the three's!!! WOO HOO!
This is epic. When I lose my next 70 pounds I will be closing in on the two's. I am over the moon about this, all of it. I had the doctor's office record my weight in their records today. I am officially down 70 pounds within a year. It feels great!
I had one of those moments, that was special today. There was one person who deserved to know first. I had a flashback to when I got engaged, years ago, that it was late on a Friday night and I did not want to wake my parents up at the hour, so I waited until the next morning to call them. While I was so excited to share that news, it felt only right that my Mom should know first. And just like today, I wanted to blurt it from the rooftops, but I had to tell my coach, Hadley first.
I called last night one of the best nights of my life. It was, but darn it, this is pretty darn good, too. Woo hoo!
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