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Remembering What's Important

Monday, September 15, 2014

If I were to let work define my day, I would say it was crappy, but even then that would be pushing it. For inasmuch as I felt overwhelmed today, and had a teary meltdown in my boss' office, my day was chock full of surprising and up lifting moments. The enormity of my current role at work started to stand out when one of my staffers moved to a different group. So then I was doing her job, plus mine which was imbalanced to start with, but then tipped over quickly. Add in me misplacing one of my meds (serotonin based) and I was on the edge. Last night, I went to sleep with a lot of pain, which I convinced myself was another kidney stone, and by the time I met with my boss, I was ready to crack, and I did. (the meds have since been located...in plain sight).

There are shifting sands at work. My job is safe, but everything around me is very fluid, and I need to go with the flow - even though I feel like I cannot keep my head above water. It is apparent to everyone that I am doing way more than my fair share, but I have to push through until we transition into something different. It is not easy. There were bright spots all through the day though, where multiple (unrelated) people called me "the nicest person in the universe," etc, for doing them the tiniest of "favors." If I am in the position to help someone, it is easy for me to assist, and people always appreciate it.

Between the exhaustion, pain and overwhelm, I decided to sit out tonight from the gym. I went to Trader Joe's instead and had the nicest cashier ever. I dubbed him the King of Friendly while he was ringing me up, and he told me his first little one is due to arrive in 29 days. The happiness was floating off this guy. Loved it. Pedro. There will be a follow-up letter to Trader Joe's about his awesomeness once I recover from my workload. Hopefully, I can get it out before the baby is born. I am due for a return trip to the gym tomorrow.

Across the pond, celebrating his bday with family, my coach sent me a pic of a family outing. Instant smile! It is lovely to be thought of and I appreciated the gesture.

Hubby left me a little box to cheer me up. I didn't notice it until after he went to bed. The adorableness of it just melted my heart.

Work is taking it toll on me in the short term, but I have such goodness, love and support around me that I cannot help but keep trying and moving ahead. Work can be crappy, but life is good. Just remember what is important and don't sweat the rest. Everything works out in its own time.

  
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When It Clicks

Saturday, September 13, 2014

It's becoming a matter of choice for me. Every choice has a consequence and has the potential to hurt me or help me. This is what has been subconsciously happening to me lately. I am not letting things fall into place. I am making choices and then things are falling into place.

Case in point - choosing a restaurant to eat dinner. Normally we drag this conversation out with no one wanting to make the decision. Now though, more and more, what I eat is becoming more important, so I picked a place with a salad bar. (I am trying to overcome veggie deficiencies). I am on the salad bar line, should I have the creamy salad dressing or the vinaigrette,...the croutons...or not. Each choice does not have to be perfect every single time, but the more I can make a good choice that is in line with my goals, the easier my path is going to be. (side note, I had the vinaigrette and no croutons)

Sometimes, you just want the chocolate mousse and there is no going around it. It didn't happen that way today, but let's say I was in Sardi's in NYC, I am going to have that mousse. Pick and choose what's important, and then make that choice, for you.

We grocery shopped and I made a lot of positive choices there. I thought about a bagel, which I love, although they are strangely on the tasteless side. I talked myself out of it. I won't always but I did today. I am still working on paring off those vacation pounds. I made a little progress, almost halfway gone, but geez louise, it is much easier to pack them on then take them off! That is helping me currently with those choice selections. I want to be along further than I am, but I am going to have to work hard to get there.

I'll tell you what though, things are starting to click, and I am improving. Mentally, along with the rest of me. I am in the middle of a rejuvenation for myself. It is a great feeling to embrace yourself as you are, warts and all, but still see yourself as beautiful and be open to change and improvement. That's right when I am now. I love my life. It may not be perfect, but it is perfect for me.

p.s. for those who asked on last blog, I lost 3 of the 7 vacation lbs.

  
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1STBUCKETITEM 9/16/2014 1:30AM

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IMALOSEIN 9/15/2014 9:19PM

  It really is all about choices, right?! So many temptations.. but we have to choose wisely and that's not always easy to do, but fortunately blogs like yours and sparkpeople keep us motivated...thank you! emoticon

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KARENCOMMIT2FIT 9/15/2014 7:17PM

    Thanks for sharing and congratulations on your choices, it is not at all easy to make those choices.

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EMMACORY 9/15/2014 4:16PM

    emoticon on your choices. As we know we are all a work in progress! emoticon

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LITESTORMX2 9/15/2014 1:29PM

    I often think the same thing about it being so much harder to lose than to gain. There is an awful lot of sweating and movement that goes into each 1/2 lb I drop on the scale - who wants to keep doing this over and over? emoticon You're doing great!

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    Yay you!!!

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    Way to go! Continued success to you.

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    You're the STAR today. Great to see your blog in the Spark Mail, where it is read by one and a half million people, so says Spark Guy.

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    emoticon on losing 3 of the 7 vacation lbs! The rest will come off with time! It sounds like you made some healthy food choices at the store and when making the decision on where to go out to eat! Sometimes going out to eat is the hardest when it comes to eating healthy, but you did an emoticon job! Keep up the emoticon job! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAYBER 9/14/2014 9:40PM

    CHOICES we make them everyday if it is to be it is up to me
One day at a time love prayers peace God Bless
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LIVELYGIRL2 9/14/2014 9:29PM

  Sometimes I eat real good going out. Other times the choices are more limited. For example, I had a coupon from my birthday. It's been in the 90's for about a week. I was going to have frozen yogurt or sorbet. The girl kept offering me a taste. The supposedly was awful. I mean taste yuck. So I did have praline and cream , A little kids size.

My husband took me out. The salad was huge. It was taco salad. I was thinking I should take half home. But then the shredded lettuce would be all wilted tomorrow. So, I ate I tall, but no dinner latter. I'm full.

I have overdo stuff the last couple of weeks and tomorrow is a new week, with more activity to work off the few extra weight.

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PJB145 9/14/2014 8:38PM

    In life and in our WL journey it has been and always will be about choice. I am glad yours are working for you.

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NETGYRL 9/14/2014 6:21PM

    Great blog. There are definitely some calories that are "worth it" and those that are not. I love your choices! Keep it up!

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Some days those healthy choices are not difficult and other days they can be hard to deal with.

You're winning the battle and it's okay to sometimes indulge a little.

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ACRAIG921 9/14/2014 5:33PM

    Well said. Thanks for sharing :)

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JSEATTLE 9/14/2014 5:25PM

  It is so rewarding to actually be FEELING that your choices are making a difference. Keep it up, each day is different. You hit it on the head here, we make small adjustments along the way, according to the situation.

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  good blog

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JANET552 9/14/2014 4:41PM

    Good for you and thanks for sharing. I need some inspiration!

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MOONGLOWSNANA 9/14/2014 2:53PM

  Celebrate good times, and make good memories. Good choices will be rewarded. Keep the faith!

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MARYJEANSL 9/14/2014 2:45PM

  Good for you - I always think that every little good choice, however small, is worth celebrating.

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 9/14/2014 1:10PM

    I went to a restaurant for lunch yesterday. There weren't many good choices on the menu, but I picked a salad with smoked chicken and candied walnuts, and it was covered in grated Parmesan. It came with a tomato vinaigrette dressing. I enjoyed it, but the walnuts, which I knew were high caloried, although crunchy (which I like in a salad) didn't have much flavor, so I left most of them, at least the ones I could find. I also didn't eat all the chicken, because there was so much of it. I probably ended up eating about 2/3 of the salad. I could have eaten it all, but why? It wasn't that tasty, and when I realized there was no great flavor in those walnuts, I decided they just weren't worth all the calories. We are responsible for our own choices.

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CELLA_P 9/14/2014 11:23AM

    You're a master! You've gotten over that "all-or-nothing" thinking hurdle; you know that you needn't forever say no to a really great, special treat. No doubt in my mind that you can - and even that you will - do this! emoticon

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KRISTA987 9/14/2014 10:52AM

    You've totally got this! It's all about making once decision at a time. Do what's right for you at that moment and don't be afraid to indulge every once in a while. Those vacation pounds will come off. Just keep working it!

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SHERYLP461 9/14/2014 9:30AM

    Great blog, living in the now is so important. Right now I choose not to have that bagel. Right now is all I am worried about. When the next choice comes along is plenty of time to worry about that new choice.

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Change is in the Air

Friday, September 12, 2014

Today was the culmination of a long and tiring week at work. Whew! My time in the office is over for a couple of days, but I brought a giant pile of work home with me to accomplish before Monday. It is quite all right, though some would frown on this practice.

Prior to last year, I would spend MANY late nights in the office. I barely felt like I could keep up yet I refused to surrender. The person who made me stop this happens to be away this week, so if he were around, I would be working out with him, not burning the midnight oil - it's my coach, Hadley! It's good he is away, getting a break and a chance to celebrate his bday with his family - and gives me a bit of time to catch up (hopefully) before he gets back. When he does return, my late work nights (at least on Weds/Fri) are over, and we are going to get right back into it.

I've had some good workouts this week, mix of weights and octane, and I will do more octane this weekend. I am ready for it. I need it. While I have not weighed in since I came back from vacay in late August, I feel I should have lost something by now. I need a peek-a-boo at it as a gauge. It would be nice if I lost the whole shebang - 7 lbs, but we'll see. I am still driving towards 399, and then my following milestone at 380 - which will be the second 10% loss.

In the meantime, I am eating less food, and stopped eating fried food. My cheese snuck in last week, but I recognize I feel so much better without it, that I will steer clear. I am not sure if I will leave the dairy bandwagon all together yet, but it is possible. I am rolling with the flow right now.

This is a good stance because there may be more significant job changes coming my way. I am completely secure in my job, but the dynamics of it seem to be changing greatly. I just need to be ready for it. and I am.

Busy weekend ahead: will see hubby in the a.m. (one of the first times all week), we will go out for breakfast, drop my car in the shop, go grocery shopping, to the post office, to the bank, visit my MIL, and somewhere in all that I may sneak in a weigh in and a visit to the gym. WHEW! After working the last 2 wknds, I am really happy to be off!

Hope you all have a great weekend! Woo hoo!

  
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68ANNE 9/14/2014 1:33PM

    You are a dynamo!

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68ANNE 9/14/2014 1:14PM

    I love reading your busy blogs..... you get so much in.
Sometimes I get so overwhelmed by the sheer amount of what I should be doing that I do nothing. Ugh
You do help me get going though

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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/13/2014 6:04AM

    i am sure you would have lost weight the way you have been working out.let us know how you did when you do weigh in.also donīt forget to get your measurements as when doing weights etc that is more important than the scale.try not to work too hard at the weekend.have fun.take care and keep smiling emoticon

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    Hope you have a great weekend with your hubby!

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Celebrate Life

Thursday, September 11, 2014

For many, myself included, today marked a significant and terrible event in our lives. People say "never forget" as if that is some kind of option. Years ago, I would have had a much different outlook on this day. I would have been morose, and avoiding contact with others. But I am not that person anymore. Today, and every day, I celebrate Al, my friend, and honor his life, by living mine, in the way he did - joyfully, lovingly and with non-stop laughter.

A couple of years ago I came up with the genius idea of having a news blackout day. This helps quite a lot. I have no need to relive any of it. My tribute to my friend today was even though I have been sore from back to back arm workouts, I went to the gym tonight. YEAH!!!! We worked on legs which I usually reserve for Hadley time but since he is away, I figured it would be a-ok. I brought it up to my trainer.

We started off on something called a hack something, sort of like a leg press laying down, and its sidekick, same thing, but leaning on the apparatus in a semi-seated position. This made me feel very uncomfortable, and I made us move on.

We moved to the more manageable calf raises while seated, leg curl, leg extension, and a different version of the leg press. I could do all those. Think I am feeling it in my back right now, but overall not too bad. I channeled Al when I need an extra push to make it.

If there was ever a friend who was a thousand percent behind me, it was my friend, Al. He was a cop, and very into fitness, and he frequently encouraged me during moments of where I would start. He had an outrageous sense of humor, was a big prankster, and someone I will miss to my dying day. In the meantime, though, I am not dying now, and the very best way I can remember his presence in my life, is by being the very best me. That means, I keep fighting for every bit of fitness I can get, I avoid letting work consume my life like it seems to be doing lately, and I keep going no matter what.

I choose to celebrate life, and strangely enough, it happens to be my own.

  
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KRISTA987 9/12/2014 9:11PM

    Great blog! I love that you have turned something that has the potential to be so sad into something so inspiring! I'm sure your friend is still cheering you on and super proud of everything you've accomplished! Thanks for sharing his story.

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KEKEIKO 9/12/2014 11:53AM

    Living life to it's fullest in remembrance of your friend is a nice tribute.

I agree with not dwelling on a horrific tragedy however in the same breath I like to give a moment of my time to acknowledge the loved ones who's lives were changed due to losing a family member or close friend.
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RHOOK20047 9/12/2014 8:19AM

    What a great way to honor your friend. Keep up the good work. I used to watch the news in the evening when I came home from work, then before I went to bed. Now the news is so depressing that I only watch before I go to bed. I have been taking an hour for reading or meditation after dinner instead of the news.

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MCJOYFUL 9/11/2014 10:23PM

    What a wonderful way to honor him!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 9/11/2014 9:54PM

    my friends niece was in the airplane that the passangers tried to take back.i never knew her but i saw the effect it had on her aunt my friend and her family.it was a deep rooted shock which alot of people still feel today.i love your attitude on it.i think when things like this happen we should all appreciate our own lifes more and try to make the best out of our lifes.we should always live for today as who knows what tomorrow might bring.thanks for shareing.take care and keep smiling emoticon

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I danced tonight

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

at the gym! Yes, between sets my nutty trainer and I were cutting up and doing some moves. This is beyond my comfort zone, but I realize my comfort zone is expanding.

Tonight's workout featured some of the same body parts as last night - arms, triceps, abs, I guess. I don't know what the trainer has me doing. I am not sure if he makes the names of the exercises up or if these are common terms - such as - wood chops, driving the bus, salt and pepper. All involved resistance and range of motion. Something is working. I am feeling happy and energized in a way I haven't in a while --- I know that is because I am building consistency again, and not letting work derail my efforts by keeping there for many hours.

My energy - even at 9pm at night is spinning off me. I am happy, proud and ready to go back and do more tomorrow. My coach (Hadley) returns in just about a week. He is abroad visiting his family, and he is still sending me encouraging messages. You can't help but love a guy like that.

I interspersed bouts of walking faster tonight with my regular pace. I am going to try to do this regularly. Intervals have really helped me in the past and it is time for me to do more for myself. I am really happy with myself! WOO HOO!!

  
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    You make me smile!
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MEBAZI 9/11/2014 4:41AM

    I can feel the happiness beaming off of you!!! Amazing progress!

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DETERMINEDJANET 9/10/2014 10:53PM

    So helpful when the trainer is encouraging. I love Rocky's texts/emails of encouragement and that high-five at the end of our time together to say "job well done" is nice. Enjoy your dancing!

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