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Shocker!!!

Friday, August 29, 2014

Quite honestly, I thought the breaking news about Hello Kitty would be the most shocking thing I would hear today. Nope, not even close. The most shocking thing came from my coach's lips when he said, "OK, now we are going to run as fast as we can down to that tree."

What?

Did he say run?

Seriously? He thinks I can run?

Truth be told, I thought he was crackers, and I am not saying that it would be the first time I thought that (and probably not the last.) But, I thought about it. Can I run? When was the last time I might have done that? I will probably fall or trip and fall. This is a bad idea. All of these things and more went through my head.

I got a bit anxious, and told him I was afraid.

I don't remember specifically what he said then, but he lets me feel the feeling but not back down from doing it. I tell myself I am going to try it anyway. It feel really weird at first. I know I have not done this in a very long time. I thought I had forgotten how to run. I push down the feeling when I am moving that it sucks, that I am sucking at it. I whisper to myself I am not going to judge my movements; I am just going to go and I keep going.

To any other human besides me and Hadley, it might have looked like, "what the heck was that?" In that moment though, behind the building, I didn't care. I was moving in what amounts may be to a pre-run (my term for it) but I felt unbelievably good and happy in doing it.

I am feeling exhausted right now, but still smiling. Work has been a rough week, but I left there on a positive note today. I have to go back in the early morning for a volunteer duty, which I do genuinely love. This night's workout gave me some peace and hope in my heart. So much of it goes back to my coach who not only understands me, but uplifts and encourages me in a way that only he can.

I am taking my own advice, and starting from where I am. I getting it done, step by step, run by run. Every little thing is going to be all right.


  
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    That is amazing!!

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    That is amazing!!

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CARRAND 8/30/2014 5:04PM

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I haven't run in years. I wonder if I still can? Maybe. If you did it, why not me?

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KRISTA987 8/30/2014 10:08AM

    Congrats on your first run! The biggest thing is just getting over whatever thoughts are in your head and just doing it! It's great that you're pushing yourself outside of your comfort zone - this is when we see results. If we always do the same thing, nothing will ever change. You're doing amazing!!!

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MEBAZI 8/30/2014 9:59AM

    emoticon TO emoticon !!!!! emoticon emoticon It gives you more pleasure than food any day if you let it! I hate running, but I LOVE running!!! So excited for you!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Y O U R O C K!!!!

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You were challenged. You had doubts and concerns and voiced them. Your coach encouraged you and you did it. A WINNER not a whiner FANTASTIC
Very proud of you!!!!

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Shaking off the Negative

Friday, August 29, 2014

I've been having a few struggles this week - mostly at work - which is unusual for me. One bright spot about it is I spoke up about it, and my boss apologized to me. I work very hard and I was not feeling the love. Ironically on the same day as all of this was transpiring, I did get a $100 bonus in my check for a whole other reason. Weird.

I've decided while the craziness is still going on, I am going to coast a bit, and just dwell on positive things in my life until the rest falls into place.

Here are a few things I am grateful for right now:

1) Had a night off from the gym last night - gave me time to go get my hair cut.

2) Found out the truth about Hello Kitty (what do you mean she is not a cat?!!!)

3) While working tomorrow, I still have Sunday and Monday off.

4) I gained weight while on vacation, but my coach did not make me feel bad about it. Though I think I have him figured out, he still surprises me a lot.

5) No matter what is happening, my hubby never fails me to make me laugh.

6) My good friends - living all over the world - from California to Senegal - never matters how much time has passed over when I have seen them last - there is always a great and mighty love there.

Life is too good (and short) to be full of negativity. I am letting go of what might have been and re-focusing on what can be. It's up to me.

  
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FIT4MEIN2013 8/30/2014 11:12AM

    Not a cat? what is that about?

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KRISTA987 8/29/2014 9:34PM

    You're totally right, Life IS too short!

But Hello Kitty not being a cat?!!?!?!?!?! What a cat-tastrophy!
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DOVESEYES 8/29/2014 9:23PM

    Yay bonus and lots to be grateful for.

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CARRAND 8/29/2014 8:50PM

    I love your positive attitude!

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LISACHOSECHANGE 8/29/2014 8:09PM

    Life is too short. You are doing great dont sabotage yourself

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LACEYKYLE 8/29/2014 3:35PM

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MCJOYFUL 8/29/2014 12:57PM

    There really is so much tone grateful for in life. Good job focusing on gratitude! And congratulations on the bonus! emoticon

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KEKEIKO 8/29/2014 12:11PM

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Good for you for addressing the positives! I know it gets tough some times to stay on track and most of us are prone to getting down about it! $100 bonus...I say treat yourself to something just for you! An apology from the boss??????? Clearly you are respected and on occasion some people have to be reminded. Have a wonderful weekend!

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MEBAZI 8/29/2014 11:48AM

    Yes! It might take awhile for your weight to change, but you can change your mind in a split second!!! You ARE reaching your goals!!!! You are putting in the work! It is a process! And you are doing it!

And..... I read the article about Hello Kitty, lol! What the heck??? A 3rd grade little girl who took on the persona as a cat, but is NOT a cat.....smh... who knew??!!! Lol!

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Start from Where You Are

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I was checking out a friend's sparkpage, and I noticed they are just about 100 pounds less than what I weigh at this moment. Wow! That's a lot of pounds down, but interestingly enough, we all share the same struggles, often focusing on the can't instead of the can.

What can I do? What have I accomplished? I am trying to take this attitude with me wherever I go - to the gym, to work and at home. Life is worth celebrating!

Chairs. I could write a whole separate blog about this, but I have chair anxiety at times. God forbid I am supposed to sit in a plastic folding chair. Yesterday though I went to a meeting, and I sat in one of the conference room chairs without issue, and without the chair cutting off my circulation. Big score! :)

The shuttle bus. We were on vacation and I got in and off the bus. Yippee! The up and down the stairs bit is still a challenge, but improving! Yay!

Having success in the gym translates to other areas. I feel stronger, empowered and happy.

It is not all physical. It is mental and emotional. My work life feels like shaken up snowglobe lately, and my workout with my coach last night really helped to shift things into perspective. Sweat equity rules!

Maybe I am saying this part because I will be weighing in again in a couple of days, but the number on the scale is feedback. Tells me if I need to tweak something - do I need to work out with more intensity (like last night)? have a few less carbs? Whatever. I am driving towards the 399's and I will get there. If I don't make it, I'll know the fried gator was a mistake, I ate too many dinner rolls and perhaps that ONE night I had dessert while we were away - and frankly, was not that good, could have been avoided.

I am grateful for so many things I've overlooked before. I got up with a leg/foot cramp this morning at 5am, but I walked it off, and then got in the shower. I walked it off --- no crying, no screaming, just an acceptance of yeah my leg hurts and got up, shook it off and continued on. This buttercup sucked it up.

That's where I want to be - and I see myself moving towards that place -- where interruptions, unexpected turns and changes can come into my life, and I can just accept them, and roll on ahead. Woo hoo! Let's go!

#allsystemsgo

  
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NATURALLYME126 8/29/2014 5:54AM

    What a wonderful blog! Very well said, thank you for posting this. It was the reminder I needed.

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MCJOYFUL 8/28/2014 10:05PM

    You are doing so good! Keep it up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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68ANNE 8/28/2014 5:55PM

    You are absolutely right. It is just a number and we all have pretty much the same struggles. I think that in part, is what makes SP so successful

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AMARILYNH 8/28/2014 3:19PM

    Another great blog - I love seeing your progress! emoticon emoticon

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BEACHCALSIX 8/28/2014 1:10PM

    There are some really good stretches out there that will get rid of a leg cramp within seconds. I used to get really bad calf cramps and would just holler and cry but hubby showed me the stretch to get rid of it-It works! It's hard to describe in text but you basically just pull your toes upward extending your heel down and voila! usually the cramp disappears.

I used to fear plastic chairs too, I'm shorter than you so my weight was all compacted in my middle and behind on my short frame. So whenever I saw a folding chair I was always worried about it breaking (and one chair did break-I'll never forget it). It's super awesome that you are conquering all of these things!!
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MEBAZI 8/28/2014 5:30AM

    Wow. Love this blog. I love the realness. You are fighting for you! Keep kicking ass because you are doing amazing!!!! You are beautiful!!!!!!

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KRISTA987 8/27/2014 10:25PM

    The worst feeling: when you finally break through the guilt and allow yourself a 'treat' and in the end it's not even that good. I've totally been there!

Love that you're focusing on all the positives, it's the only way to be!

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KEKEIKO 8/27/2014 9:21PM

    You bring me to tears just learning of your struggles. I'm so glad you are overcoming hurdles and have the positive attitude to pull yourself up and keep moving. You are truly and inspiration sweet lady.
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SURVIVOR61 8/27/2014 9:13PM

    Mickey, you are on your way to becoming a Life Changer. Stay positive and keep us positive. You are doing an awesome job. If you really want to up your game plan, talk with your trainer about lowering your caloric intake by 50 - 100 calories or upping your work out intensity. Also talk to your Doctor first before doing anything, he or she will know the best caloric plan for your health. You are a Life Changer and I am so proud of you and all that you have accomplished!! emoticon

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DOVESEYES 8/27/2014 7:44PM

    Such a great blog positive in the face of what could be negative. You rock!!!

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NICOLERZ 8/27/2014 5:51PM

    You've made so much progress. I am happy to read your blog and see that you recognize and take pride in your achievements.

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DAISYBELLEKIA 8/27/2014 2:01PM

    Hi Mickey :)

I always love reading your blogs. You are so right, no matter what we weigh, all of our journeys to better health have a lot in common.

I get the chair anxiety. I don't have it so much anymore, but about 7 years ago when I weighed about 30-40 lbs more I sat in one of those plastic folding chairs for a financial class my then-fiance now-husband and I were attending. The only empty chairs were near the front and I guess I picked one that had a weakness. Yep, it broke. In front of everyone! LOL! One instant I was sitting in a chair, then there was a crack and the next instant I was sitting on the ground. Now I can laugh about it, and I do because it was pretty funny, but it was embarrassing at the time.

Also embarrassing to me, but also a sweet concern from the instructors, was the fact that after that session they always made sure they had a real chair for me.

I also use the number on the scale as feedback for tweaking what I'm doing. It's a huge help to me to monitor myself.

You are such an encouragement to me! I love your attitude and the way you are learning to look at all of life through this journey :)

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    Sounds as though you are doing fabulous. emoticon

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    You are doing great!

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You have a wonderful attitude! I love your blogs....thank you!

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GLORYB2014 8/27/2014 9:06AM

    Your title says it all . . . Start From Where You Are!
Thank you for sharing.
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    emoticon emoticon Okay okay Mar, I hear you! I'm off to zumba right now, no excuses!

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It's Good for What Ails Ya

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

When I got to the gym tonight to meet up with my coach, I noticed the training room was booked for a Zumba class. Uh-oh. While I held out a little hope that we might be doing an extended walk around the parking lot, I had a feeling I was about to rendezvous with my old friend, the octane. (a version of an elliptical). And I was right.

Did the first bit in 20 minutes (non-stop) and then had a break off the machine to do 10 more minutes. I had the option of going halfway to 15, then breaking, but Captain Mindgames talked me into pushing along to 20. I know there's a lot of science behind how my workouts go and how they are planned, but there's also more than meets the eye. When it comes to messing with my head, getting every last ounce of energy out of me, pushing me as far as I can go, this guy isn't just going on science. He has made it into an art form, including how he can needle me like nobody's business. Maybe this is why I have such a fondness for him. His take no prisoners, lay it all out there style pushes me, and pushes me hard.

Tonight for instance, I was sweating up a storm. I don't usually sweat this much in a session. My hair was dripping, my glasses were slipping off, it was hard to coordinate getting a sip of water (although, I really can't blame that part on the sweat.) I was huffing and puffing but as I was closing in on the 30 minute mark, I started to get that whooshy happy head. It's been some time since I felt the whoosh so strongly. It made me feel HAPPY. It made me feel empowered. It made me think, yeah, I got this. Plan the work and work the plan. No matter what is happening in my life, I owe it to myself to show up and to keep doing what I am doing.

My blog last night was a note to remind myself - the road is going to feel a lot tougher very soon - making a point of getting to the gym and doing my workouts is not always going to be easy - so I have to set myself up for success in any way I can. I am not going it alone, I have tons of support from every corner of my life, and I am accepting it from all comers. (This is a big change in attitude from a person who was always too afraid to ask for help.)

I'd promised hubby earlier if coach did not kill me tonight, I would stop and pick up cookies for him at the supermarket. Yeah, I did that. But I also spent about an hour wandering the aisles looking for things that I can eat (low sodium, low potassium) and are healthy for me. I did great! I got some greek yogurt, chicken, multigrain bread and other things that I can make for lunches and have for dinner. I am setting this part of the pan in motion by making breakfast at home, bringing food for lunch and having a pre-gym snack around 4pm.

This is one of those moments that I can stand up and be proud of myself. I know what I need to do, and little by little, I will get there. I am following through, because I am absolutely worth it. In all honesty, when I left the gym tonight, I felt outrageously good. I got this! #allsystemsgo

  
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BEACHCALSIX 8/28/2014 1:05PM

    emoticon emoticon I love it when those endorphins hit! It's the best feeling and you feel like you can conquer the world!! emoticon
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CARRAND 8/27/2014 5:04PM

    Your blogs are such an inspiration to me. I'm so glad you share!

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    You are worth it! Way to go!

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KEKEIKO 8/26/2014 11:17PM

    You are really doing fantastic and have a right to be proud. Keep up the great workouts as you are getting stronger every day.
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Setting the Course (Again)

Monday, August 25, 2014

I am in old territory with a new mindset. I am on the verge of my life getting way busier again, with work at the top of the list. When work is at the top, I frequently get pushed to the bottom, but I am determined to not let that happen to me this time around. This is always the time of year when my schedule gets amped up. Today's surprise, during my first day back from vacation, was one of my key staff is leaving for a new role --- which is great in many ways for both of us --- but there is that sense of doom of what it does to me, in the current quarter, and how do we overcome the deficit, while not letting service standards slip, and more importantly --- not letting work trump my gym life. It's going to be tricky.

Essentially, there is one way out of this for me. It may not be the only way, but I think it is the way that is going to work best for me. I need a plan, and I need a plan that I can stick to, and I need help in sticking to that plan.

Where am I from about a year ago, give or take a couple of months -- I am 65 pounds lighter, and significantly smarter in how I handle my life. I wised up last year and hooked up with a trainer and a coach. The trainer has shifted onto a new person, and he is nice enough, and can probably get the job done. I still miss my previous trainer oodles, but I am showing up and that following through and that's half the battle.

I've been away for a week, in the land of fried and barbecue, and among the nicest people on the planet. I was not stellar in my eating, but I did pretty darn good overall. Had some fried gator, fried catfish and even frog legs first night out, but afterwards scaled it back to have a big salad with grilled chicken more often than not. It pretty much became my standby meal. Got tired of it, but I am also still on the push for dropping beneath 400 before the month is over. So grilled chicken it was. I think I handled myself well. Also ate fruit, and other program fitting food, and moved around, so I feel okay about my week long adventure.

Much the same for the ensuing weeks. I need an executable meal plan, and back on a program at the gym. I know I need structure to keep things working in place, otherwise I could easily slip off the bandwagon - not intentionally - just with so many other things happening at this moment. I don't want to make it easy on myself to give up, and I know myself well enough to know that even with my great success of 65 pounds gone, I m a candidate for tripping up if I go off-line. I can't have that anymore. That is unacceptable. I have worked too hard to get to this place to give up now. I am all in and will do what needs to be done. I just can't go it alone.

  
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KEKEIKO 8/26/2014 11:27PM

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DYNAMICDEB53 8/26/2014 9:15PM

    Its all in the planning and you seem to working toward that. I have found the more I have things planned out especially meals in advance, on tracker and pre cooked, the better I can stay on track. Just make those plans and write them all down and keep track and you will be able to keep you more to the top of your list.

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SARAWALKS 8/26/2014 3:42PM

    Pulling for you to get that plan in place and have the energy to execute it!
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BEACHCALSIX 8/26/2014 11:32AM

    You are doing emoticon !!! Sorry for the stresses of work. we all have to deal with those and it's not fun at all. Hope everything goes well, have a great day!

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JANET552 8/26/2014 7:50AM

    Love the attitude!!

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AKCHELLE 8/26/2014 7:44AM

    Some days you just have to say, "just keep swimming."
Good luck on your journey.

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AMARILYNH 8/26/2014 6:45AM

    Oh my - losing a key member of the staff in the midst of your 'busy time' is stressful - sending up a prayer right now that you'll find a great replacement. Meanwhile remind everyone else that this is their chance to 'step up' to the challenge - the same thing happened me me a number of years ago and one of my other staff members really DID accept the challenge - praying this will happen for you as well.

Remember this - you are a stronger person than you were a year ago and your healthy eating/working out are the reason. A strong healthy person can accomplish MORE in the same amount of time. If the stress starts to get to you WALK AWAY! Literally - take a walk around the building, go somewhere private and do some stretches and twists - calm your mind and remind yourself how VERY capable you are! I always found that when I returned to my desk I was in a better mental place - the BODY movement really helps clear the mind!! Hugs, Marilyn emoticon emoticon

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SHRINKINGALISON 8/26/2014 1:14AM

    It is great that you are wise to the situation and can prepare yourself - you definitely need to keep yourself at the top of the pile! Good luck with sticking to your plan! emoticon

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  Marvelous Monday so Keep on Keeping on! emoticon

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DOVESEYES 8/25/2014 10:39PM

    I'm here for you. you are going to get to your goal!!!

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