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Up 20 lbs

Monday, October 13, 2014

Up 20 lbs from my lowest SP weight yep I now weigh 186. It could be worse ...would really like to know why I get so close and then sabotage myself.

Back to basics for me

Maybe if I could learn to love myself, who knows.

Any insights welcome

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KALEWINE 10/19/2014 9:57AM

    I think most of us have been there. I think making lifestyles changes that are habits are what is key. Loving yourself helps in getting there.

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JYGETSFIT 10/14/2014 7:42AM

    I think learning to love yourself is key. I know that I have been up and down on this journey. Each time is another chance to learn a better way. I wish you all of the best.

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MIAMIRN 10/13/2014 7:57PM


Remember swimming? Maybe you'll give it another try. Have some fun and relax in a healthy way. Don't worry, be happy! emoticon
Glad you're blogging again.
Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. Lol. (The expression from the movie Nemo. Ellen DeGeneres as Dori) I guarantee if you watch it you will smile. Lol

Have a great night!

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/13/2014 10:20AM

    I understand this all too well.

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CRUISEGAL55 10/13/2014 10:20AM

    Yes, you must love yourself enough to know you deserve to be healthy. Focus on the health, not the scale. You were born perfect. You are still perfect.
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JOHNMARTINMILES 10/13/2014 10:03AM

    Yep, back to the basics, just like Willie said!

Make Today the Greatest Day of Your Life

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My first swimming meditation

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Yesterday was a golden day at the gym for me.
I am trying to practice present moment awareness and it does not come easily or naturally to me. But I thought.... Swimming, that seems like a natural place one could practice meditation/present moment awareness
Plus I have always loved the water. The freedom of it, the feeling of weightlessness, I just find the whole water thing delightful. Inside of my 58 year old self is a little 6 year old self that never wants to get out of the pool, never wants to come to shore when in the ocean.
So I just swam lazy laps....
And when I got to the end of each lap I said an audible thank you. I could do that as no one else was in the pool:)
I also sang a Kundalini mantra softly as I went along.
I could physically feel my level of joy rising.
I could feel a sense of wonder and contentment rising.
It was beautiful!
It was exhilarating!
The pool is an indoor pool. It has glass blocks that let in a lot of sunlight.
Well it was about 4 pm and the sun was starting to go down.
The sun was filtering through the glass blocks in a way that made them sparkle like diamonds. It was breath-taking. It was just so perfect. Just had to share with y'all .

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MIAMIRN 11/30/2013 11:10AM


How wonderful you have found swimming! I love swimming. I swim a lot all year round, because I live in sunny Florida. When the temperature drops too low for comfort, I swim at the local gym. It has a lap pool. While I love the outdoors more it's better than not swimming at all. I too, feel like I'm very young when I'm swimming. There's nothing better than swimming with your inner child. Lol.

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Just wanted to share something beautiful.....

Friday, August 16, 2013

“I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being.” —Hafiz

Have a illuminated day my friends!


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    Love the quote!!

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CIROHIO 8/20/2013 10:04AM

    emoticon love this quote thx for sharing!

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MILLEDGE2 8/17/2013 3:07PM

    Oh, I love this! Thanks for reaching out to share with us!

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MCQUEEN_STEPH 8/16/2013 9:18AM

    That is an awesome quote for the day! Thank you for that :)

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Gotta own it

Saturday, June 22, 2013

So I have been putting off weighing myself for a few weeks now because I have been afraid of what I might weigh after a couple weeks of slacking off....
Well I stepped on the dreaded machine this morning to find my weight indeed had climbed up about 5 lbs. Not as bad as I had feared!
My take away from this is that fear based behavior is my biggest enemy. Sticking my head in the sand is how i got to 231 in the first place. No more.
The scale, while we have never shared a warm relationship is good friend in that it always tells me the truth and will never lie to spare my feelings. I need to learn to be the objective observer of my own behavior, just like my "friend" the scale.

I have met the saboteur and it is ME!

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KCMAGPIE 6/30/2013 8:36PM

    I like what you said about ignoring the truth getting us into trouble! That is very apropos to where I am right now. No more sticking my head in the sand! Thanks for sharing.

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CHUBERASER 6/25/2013 2:56PM

    Like you, I had avoided the scale with a vengeance over the last few months (even though it is right beside the bathtub and I see it every time I take a shower). This morning I bit the bullet and stepped on. Gained 3 pounds since the last time I weighed in. Again, like you, not as bad as I thought....but still! The scale is not the enemy...I am my own worst enemy...because I let myself continue to let myself off the hook.

Thank you for being there for me and with me. You rock!


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KANOE10 6/22/2013 11:22AM

    It is good that you faced your fear and got on that scale. I like the quote that said the scale simply tells you what you need to do. For myself, when I stopped weighing myself is when I started regaining the weight that I had lost.

I am glad you are making the scale your friend and know you will be successful.


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Tears in cold weather- a cautionary tale

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Be careful or this might happen to you.....

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STEPBYSTEP_ 4/10/2013 5:29PM

    oops be careful!

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GINNABOOTS 3/28/2013 10:51AM

    So cute!

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GERARLAUR 3/28/2013 10:47AM

    This is cute!!

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