Saturday, February 22, 2014
...Or not so much.
Remember a few months ago, when I was so excited that I had a new goal date. Something to look forward to.
Something that I gave up when I got my job.
Yup, today was Adam's wedding. And to be honest, I totally forgot all about it until I asked my mom where dad was. Of course he was at Adam's wedding.
And I so wanted to be there.
I really wish I went.
And I remember my goal, that I wanted to be at today.
And I am not even close to it.
I have no idea how much I weight, but I do know that my clothing aren't getting tighter which is a good thing, but not getting looser either.
I also know, that if I keep up my low carb/keto thing, I might be closer to the 120's, by now.
I stopped eating well on my birthday, and I never got back into it.
I know that needs to change, and with my schedule finally "normalized" I can get into a routine once again. But it's hard. I'm tired because my job is physical. I am tired because I am still messing up because I was never really "trained." I am tired because I just can't sleep because I'm sore, and hurting, and my allergies are still bothering me.
Tomorrow is a new day though. It's not only a new week, but it's my "Friday." Monday is now more like my "Saturday" and I have a lunch date with my dad for every Monday here on out.
Here's my plan.
Sunday and Fridays are my "rest" days. I go in late, 30 minutes before opening, but I really don't have to clean. It's purely front desk stuff those days. I still will get a bit of a work out, especially if I have to find a vet tech on 22 acres, but mostly it will be basic desk duties. Monday and Tuesday, which is my "weekend," I will workout. Monday is the day I go out to eat with my dad. Hopefully I can make wiser choices. Less carbs, more veggies type of deal. I also hope to work out Monday and Tuesdays. I also have been neglicating my household work, so that will be factored in probably on Mondays. Tuesday are both DVR show and bank days, well every other Tuesday for the bank. I rather take two checks at once, than one. I also plan on making food on Tuesdays. Things that I can make ahead of time, and just make in the microwave or oven when I am ready. Also I need more lunch ideas.
I also plan on Sparking more. So that means bringing my computer into work, or something like that. Never have I ever desired a table, until now. I never thought I would have the need for one, but I wouldn't mind having one now. Maybe I should look into one as a "reward" for getting a job or something. Especially now that I have more than 2 digits in my bank account.
This leads me to a completely different realm of cooking once again. I know how to make things that I can eat right away, but I am not good at making things ahead of time, which is a new challenge.
As far as working out, I am very sore, so I will probably just focus on cardio for a while. And since I have only played my new Zumba once, I am looking forward to getting my groove on, once again.
Since my job is so physical, I don't know about any ST. At the very least no ST on Tuesdays. I do a lot of heavy lifting, like dirty litter every day, 50 pound litter bags, 25 pound of food, a full mop bucket. I also do a lot of walking, stepping up and down stools, squatting while cleaning. Lots of up and downs. If I get sore by working out, that could effect my working, and getting done fast is the priority.
As far as my job, things are hard. I never got fully trained, at least not by anyone worth training me. So I am still making basic mistakes. I know it's not my fault, and I understand that I just haven't been trained, but it's still hard on me knowing that I messed up. I love my job, I want to keep it. And as far as I can tell, I am doing okay. I also know from stories about previous employees, that you really have to screw up, and even if you do, you still might not be fired. I am replacing someone named Junior, a girl that evidently got away with murder there. I am understanding, that it's no big loss that she's gone. And I am understanding, that most people are thankful that I am staying.
I even got a key the other day, despite not being on payroll and still going through the temp agency. I do love the job, but I do understand why they go through people so quickly. They don't have time to get the proper training we need, and the kennel staff is so far removed from the office staff that communication is a huge issue. I also realize that there aren't really any set way to do much of anything here. I mean there is a process, but it's not like it's a set process throughout.
At least my screw ups are huge. I am getting done with my work on time, and making the head people giggle because of my conversations I have with the cats. I also realized I have a ton in common with the majority of the people. There are even a few knitters in the group, and one person has archaeology as a hobby. Most there are huge geeks over some random "fandom" like Doctor Who, Game of Thrones, Marvel, or Harry Potter.
Well, that's about it I guess. Just a lot work stuff on my mind, so not a lot of room for other stuff. My allergies are still bad, and I am dreading the time change coming up. So I am actually off to bed, at 9:21pm. Gosh I feel old. I also need more Bengay.
Well have a good night, and hope to see more of you guys in the future. I promise I am not going away, just adjusting to, well life. Something I don't have much of.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
First off, sorry for being away, and not keeping up with you guys. To be honest, I have been so busy, all I have time to do is sleep! I have been thinking about you guys, hoping everyone is doing well, so it's not like I completely abandoned you!
Tomorrow marks my first month working with the shelter. It's been busy, but I think I am made the cut. I have lasted not only a month, but through some really crazy people. Plus I think I made the cut with the rest of the staff. I am not the biggest fan of all the phone calls, but I'm getting better. The amount of cats are low, which is good because we have a bit of a litterbox shortage, as weird as that sounds.
I really love my job, but it's Tuesday-Sunday working. I go in late on Fridays and Sundays, so this is my first "normal" week schedule. I go in at 10:30 on Fridays and 11:30 on Sundays. But I can't workout before because showering would be a pain in the butt.
Working out has definitely been put on hold. Which is fine since my job is fairly physical. Trust me, it does not pay to have sore legs when you spend 2 hours squatting to clean litter boxes and water dishes.
On the food scale. Well, I could be doing way better. And I plan to do way better soon. I just am tired of my old food. And when I don't have time to cook, it's hard to eat keto/low carb.
I have so much more respect for people on this site that have full jobs. I mean, dang! I get why my mom comes home and falls asleep in the chair. I understand why a hot pocket is so much more tempting than taking 10 mins to make some low carb. So basically, I am getting carb loaded everyday.
But my pants still fit. Well they aren't tight...they could stand to be half a size smaller. But they aren't fitting different which is the main thing.
I am basically just going to eat whatever for the next few days, then hopefully next week, get all fancy again. Will I be keto? Probably not, though I love it. It's hard when I don't have 2 hours a day to make stuff. I will be going low carb again. Incorporating some of my favorite low carb and keto recipes, as well as normal foods. I just don't know how my keto foods keep. I never tried to see if my keto cheese its are good a day later. Packing lunches suck.
Well, I really don't have much to say. Just that my food sucks, my workouts are nonexistent, but my weight/size is okay. My mood is good, if not a little stressed, and I am worried about all the future crap.
So that's it. Hopefully next week, you'll be hearing from me more. I am planning on getting more active on here as well as durning my weekend (Monday and Tuesday). So hope everyone is doing well! Have a good one!
Saturday, February 08, 2014
Wow have I been busy.
Yes I did have both Thursday and Friday off, but to be honest, I wanted nothing more than to lay in bed all day and catch up on my shows. Which is exactly what I did.
This "week" will be the first week of my more or less "normal" schedule. I will get Monday and Tuesday off, and work the rest of the days. Morning times are a bit up in the air, but at least now I have a better idea of how things are going to go.
I feel really bad about not keeping up with you guys, but hey, such is life. Hopefully it will get better as I get more use to things.
On the upside I am not gaining any weight. On the down side, I am not really eating keto (more like, "lets see how much sugar and carbs Misha can cram down her throat today"). Nor am I loosing any weight.
I am also under a lot of stress, basically because I screw up everyday. If Lindsey catches, it's fine. She has a great easy way of saying that you screwed up without making me feel like a loser. On the other hand, on Wednesday another employee told me I screwed up and I started crying. I am blaming PMS for this one.
I take things really much to hard. I know this, but stopping that little voice that tells you that your are a loser, that you suck, that you can't do anything right...is super hard. Any advice on how not to take screwing up so hard?
Other than that, I really like it. I do mess up everyday which makes things hard...but I am not really being trained either. Jon, the cat care person was on vacation, Sammy the other front desk girl as moved and only worked there for 2 or so months. The majority of the people haven't been there for much longer than 2 months I have found. I hear a lot of things about people just not showing up for work. How the just quite and leave the place in a bind. I don't want to be one of those people. But let's face it. I'm an agoraphobic going from 0-60 in nothing flat here. I am bound to have some major stress.
Plus things around the house have gone to H.E double hockey sticks. The Christmas tree is still up.
I have to work Sunday, which is the one day my mom is off...so nothing much is getting done. My dad is complaining that I can't go out to eat with him on Saturday. And I am missing my Sunday lunches with the 'rents pretty bad.
But I do love my job, for the most part. Some things are hard since I am not getting trained really. I love the cats, but there are some sad things going on too. Plus I don't get the time I need to really clean, which sucks because shelters have tons of bad things going around.
So that's my update. Now, off to make my lunch, then to work. Tomorrow I work from 11:30 to 5. Then Monday and Tuesday off. Since I am not doing any of the cleaning today or tomorrow, I hope I can do some Zumba on Monday and Tuesday.
Though I do have tons of errands to do. And I need a crap ton of things.
Having a job is fun, but hard. I like it, but I don't. Hopefully it will get better, but I don't know.
Oh well. So that's my update. Sorry it's been so long. Hopefully this week I can get back on track now that my schedule is more stabilized!
Monday, January 27, 2014
Hey guys! I hope all of you are having a wonderful Monday, I know I am. Today is my day off! WEEEE! So I guess it's like a weekend for me? Though it is just today that I am off.
As many off you know I suffer from social anxiety making it hard to deal with certain people as well as doing every day tasks like leaving the house. Recently I did get myself a sweet job where I get to take care of cats at a local shelter and run the front desk.
It's busy, overwhelming, and evidently a high stress job. I have found out that many people don't stay long, and many many people just up and walk out. I keep hearing phrases like "if you stay" very often. I am dedicated to this job, even though it's not a high paying position, and I will have to probably rely on my parents for the rest of their lives. I enjoy working with cats and kittens. I like helping the "lost cause" cats that no one gives time of day too. And I love seeing other cat lovers like myself get a new family member.
I have been working very hard and the adjustment has been rough. I am not working out at all, but my job is very physical. In the mornings I squat the majority of the time I'm cleaning. I lift heavy bags of old litter, new litter, cat food, and full mop buckets. I play with the cats, then take phone calls once we open.
I do like it...but there is a ton to take in. I know the majority of the front work will come with time and practice. But I feel a lot of pressure to get it down this week. Why? Well Jon, the other cat adoption person as well as the person that is more or less training me is going on vacation the first week of February. The other front desk person, Sammy is moving to Oklahoma on Feb. 2 as well. So it will be me and Lindsey the woman who hired me. It's a little scary to know it will be all up to me in by Tuesday of next week.
Today is my day off though. And instead of using it to work out, I am using it to get things done. With my job comes one big draw back. I won't be able to make the wedding on February 22. February 22 is the fourth Saturday of the month, and thus the vaccine clinic is being held. It will be busy so I doubt I will be able to take the day off. Plus with the lovely, "if you stay" comments floating around, I feel like I have something to prove and don't want to take a day off this early in the game.
So today I returned my shoes. At least I got 60 bucks back, right? I don't even get my first pay check until February 2nd, and with so many upcoming costs, it's going to be hard to build up my bank account like I want. I am basically working on laundry, dishes, and other chores today. I even made a Tibetan Buddhist Mala for help with mediation, which I will begin to do in hopes of reducing stress and anxiety naturally.
My cat is taking me working a bit hard. At first I though she was put off by some phantom cat scent that is left after my shower, but now I think it's just the fact that I am not home. Usually she is more than happy to sleep in my parents bed, all snuggly under the cover. Now, since I am home today, she is making sure she can see or hear me at least. Hopefully in a few weeks, my schedule will get more normalized, and she will be able to get that I'm just gone for certain days. She was super confused yesterday though.
I am still eating low carb and still in keto by some miracle. I might not have enough energy to work out, but at least I am still eating like I should.
Wednesday will be an exception because it's my birthday. I'm lucky that it's only a "half" day and Thursday I will have off. I am already planning normal Pizza Hut pizza and cake from a bakery. Hehe. I am splurging big time!
Even though I am still in keto, I haven't lost any more weight. Though I haven't gained either. I really didn't want to lose my progress, or stall my weight loss with my job, but it looks like I am going to have to get use to things before I can start back up with working out again.
I really was hoping to be firmly in the 130's and not this 139/140 stuff though. My pants are getting looser, but I won't know if I lost any inches or if it's just stretching until next week, when I measure again.
In all honesty, I really don't see myself working out any time soon though. I would love to play my new Zumba on Thursday, but there is just so much house work that needs to be done since my mom and dad don't do anything.
Oh well. Sorry my blog was all over the place. I had to stop several times to do laundry or something else.
Hope everyone is good! And hopefully talk to you soon! Maybe Wednesday on my birthday after work I can play some Zumba.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Well last night my allergies hit...again. Now, normal people who have seasonal allergies are sneezy and maybe stuffy. I look like I have the flu.
I took a Clartin, because that seemed to be working and two Benadryls last night.
The majority of my night I wasn't asleep. I swear the Benadryl didn't even work on me. I just couldn't breathe. Top that off with the fact that I was beyond tired, which means I didn't sleep. I don't know why, but I can't sleep well if I am over tired, you know?
So I woke up this morning completely out of it. Tired, sneezing, stuffed up, the whole nine yards. Not a good start. As I am getting ready my mom asks me to run the dishwasher. I was super confused because the dishes were clean, but my mom decided to "help" and put the dirty dishes in the dishwasher. So I had to run it twice through. I was waiting for the morning to put them up, but I guess it serves me right waiting a whole half a day. I loaded up on allergies meds and decongestants in hope the allergies wouldn't be so bad.
Today was pretty eventful at work with the fact that it's the spray/neuter day. So the morning was full of kitties and puppies (of all ages) getting fixed. The cats we got in also got fixed, so it was easy to do a full cleaning. A volunteer handled the kitten room while I got more experience in the adult, Kitty Condo area. We only had two of the rooms occupied, so we did a full clean down of the empty ones. It was a lot of deep squatting.
After that it was time to do the dishes and clean some cat carriers. Would have been fine had it not been outside, with well water, in 39 degree F weather! I shudder to think what tomorrow will be.
I got some more experience with adoptions and forms and all the front desk. It's a bit overwhelming, though I am learning a lot by just listening to others take calls. I did answer the phone, totally forgot what to say and was so confused on how to transfer. It was a bit of a messy phone call with all that went on, but at least I know how now. And I just need to remember to have the binder in front of me!
It was slow as far as animals coming in and visitors to the shelter. So we had some down time that allowed me to look through the binder. I basically am not trying to retain any of the information in the binder, but just remember where to find it.
After work, and another 5 degree down, I came home. I just don't feel like eating. I tried to eat something but I ended up only eating pickles. Weird I know. I had some "hot coco" as well. Right now, I just want a nap. But I really should take a shower first, and I hate sleeping with wet hair.
So no workouts for me. I just don't feel up to it. My allergies, though not excatly cold or flu like was enough to drag me down. I am not trying to make it a habit though. I want to get into the idea of working out when I get home. Since I am not a morning shower person, I really can't do it then.
Well here's hoping I can fix some dinner. At least the dishes are unloaded....
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