Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Well, after my mini-slump in reaction to the news regarding my dance teacher and studio..............
I bounced back !!!
I realized I would not, should not, could not give up line dance/dance !
I realized there were lots of other options and opportunities ! I thought of so many that now I'm having trouble choosing what to do! I could offer to teach in garages all over my area.
I could organize a workshop for other local teachers to share info and make presentations to each other. I could sacrifice time and money and drive to another site where there are some very enthused dancers. I could organize a group of dancers that would do programs in schools & nursing homes. Or........I could go on the internet either with my own website or youtube and do lessons for others! I might be a sensation....(maybe I'm getting ahead of myself here). In any event, there are many things I could do and while making a decision about that, I intend to use my last remaining lessons with my teacher to the max!
I had a good day at work in the AM (p/t secretary) and really felt secure that was my right place. It even occurred to me that I am being given opportunities at my day job that might come in very handy with my dance mission (office organization, computers, setting up websites, dealing with personalities, etc.) ... not to mention that the extra money allows me to have my hobby and some fun money.
Also some things that pepped me up:
I saw the American Queen (one of the biggest paddlewheels) go by from my back deck.
That boat is beautiful, classic, majestic and inspirational just to watch go down the river.
I went on a boat ride and helped my husband figure out his GPS so we could figure out speed and mileage. What a beautiful day to be on the water. I enjoyed breathing in the fresh air.
I didn't have caffeine after noon.
I ate lots of vegetables and drank lots of fluids which helped me achieve a lower calorie intake and sense of fullness.
I took a 45 minute walk after dinner to enjoy nature.
I watched the first half hour of The Tonight Show. Jimmy Fallon is the best! I love that guy.
I ate grapes in the evening when I had a taste for something sweet.
I wore a red jacket, more make-up, jewelry, and red fingernail polish!
American Queen heading north on the great Mississippi River.
Monday, September 15, 2014
Today my activity level has been extremely good (housework, yardwork, walking, dancing). But then....woopsie...my eating seemed to get out of control and I started eating things that I normally wouldn't even be interested in and in a manner that is unusual for me. Finally I got enough presence of mind to ask myself......Why????? What is all this eating about???
I think I figured it out.....my dance teacher announced yesterday that she would stop teaching in a few months and close her studio. I guess I had lot tied up with plans to teach line dance for her and also got so much out of taking private lessons from her. Well, the private lessons can continue for a few more months anyway. True, I can continue to teach line dance to my friends on a weekly basis in a garage. But they are more into just doing the same dances from week to week and make it more of a work-out (not for artistry, performance, or technique). So........I guess I just feel like my whole "dance is my passion" plan just tanked. Apparently my motivation of eating right was really tied up with this whole lifestyle, "real me" , dancer vision I had been mentally focusing on. Somehow visions of dancing in my living room and garages for the rest of my life just doesn't seem to be quite glorious enough to capture my imagination. A dancer wannabe at nearly age 65 with no place to dance.... I live in a very rural area.
Consider my bubble burst. Dang.
Friday, September 12, 2014
I'm good when I can control my routine and environment........but when I have to cater to other's food preferences and needs that vary from my own, things go haywire! Plus there's the lack of privacy, personal time for taking care of normal needs, constant vigilance to make sure they are comfortable, no exercise time, and the disruption of my normal activities.
We get a lot of house guests because they love to come to the river! Plus we've been babysitting a lot. I love the people, but boy does it mess with the life that I have established and works for me.
I think we are done for the season. I am in recoup mode!
Thursday, September 04, 2014
So far this month, I have successfully tracked my food....the good, bad, and the ugly. That really was my goal. Since I have a pattern of trying to restrict calories for a few days and then follow with a couple days of being extra hungry and eating more, I have had the suspicion that I really need to eat more than I think I do. I need to make an honest appraisal of my food intake to make an assessment. Sometimes it seems like I have created a roller coaster style of eating. However, on the other hand, maybe my appetite just varies and ups and downs are normal. My appetite/calorie intake has been higher for the first 3 days of September, but then so has my activity level. This month is not about restriction or fitting into a plan, but more about awareness.
I have been doing at least an hour of cardio (Leslie Sansone DVD and line dancing) so far each day in September. This seems to boost my mood and make me feel energized, except for tired legs which I believe will get better as I am consistent and allow regular rest days. I dropped the Pilates and Yoga because I just really don't like that stuff. I tried it last month.
Everyone in my life seems to be making the most of the last days of nice weather and cram all kinds of activity in. Because we live at the river, we are getting visitors that want to enjoy the scenery, boating, and last of the swimming. Sure it's fun, but this tends to be stressful because of all the extra work for me and lack of personal, private time. I am trying to get better about this since getting stressed out seems to be a constant theme.
I am not sure if it is my personality or ageing or stress or some combination of these factors.....but I tend to get a feeling of being overwhelmed quite easily. I like to have a schedule that works for me and it seems that I constantly have to keep being flexible to accommodate others.
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