Saturday, May 18, 2013
I want to say a huge to everyone who responded to my last post!! I felt so much better after reading your responses! Of course I wasn't able to get to see them until yesterday and I had a busy day yesterday.
So the quick thing- as far as this stupid Facebook crap with my family it's not freaking ending, which is seriously making me mad. I live an hour away from my hometown and these 2 individuals are telling everyone back at "home" about this whole thing. Now I'm getting messages from other family members who, of course, have only heard what they have to say. In my opinion, the whole thing is petty and stupid and blocking them was the best thing I did, family or not. And I think it's very immature of them to be telling everyone about it. It's only Facebook! Good Lord, apparently they have no life and that's why they feel the need to interfere in mine and try and make me feel like crap. I just decided to ignore it ALL, because I'm not going to argue about it. It's dumb, petty, and just plain ridiculous. I am a CrossFitter, I will not be bullied! So, that's the update on that. Oy.
Ok so onto better things... CrossFit!! I am feeling much better about it today, and ironically, ran into one of the other chiros who is in my class in the store today (the original shoes I bought for CrossFit didn't hold up at all, so I returned them and got myself a pair of awesome Converse shoes, which I'll post a pic of) and I told him how I was feeling. He was so incredibly nice and got where I was coming from. He's a runner and he was expecting this to be a much easier workout than it is. I found that true for myself as well, because I used to do Zumba and the elliptical and really any machine in the gym and I start this and I realized I'm not nearly in the shape I thought I was. LOL And I'm finding out as I get to know people that everyone is really in the same boat, regardless of size. And that makes me feel so much better! We went to the free class this morning and it just helped a lot. The 3 things my chiro left me with today was that you're only competing with yourself (and I know that in my head, but I'm so freaking competitive), think about where I'll be 6 months and a year from now, and that I'm doing more difficult workouts than most people period, even moreso with people around my weight. So that made me feel so much better. I think I need to hide my scale because my weight isn't moving at ALL (it keeps fluctuating between 210-212, it's driving me insane!) but I know my body fat percentage is going down. I'm not going to update it until I see the chiro next, because their machine is more accurate than my scale, but it's moved on my scale so I know I've lost some. Yay!!
My trainer is REALLY good about scaling, actually. For the HSPU he had me get up on one of the boxes and had me do pushups off of that. It was super hard, but there was another girl doing it too so I didn't feel so bad. LOL He's always helping me scale things, which is really nice. I'll just look up at him and say, "Ok, are you freaking insane?" and he shows me. LOL Ah yes, I forgot to add that I do always give 100% and I push myself (or try to anyway) so I really think I'm doing the best I can do. On a usual week now I'm doing CrossFit 4 days a week! It really fun going on Saturdays because then the hubby and I go together and it's fun. Oh and on Memorial Day we're doing the Memorial Day Murph (in honor of a fallen Navy Seal) which includes: run 1 mile, 100 pull-ups, 200 pushups, 300 squats, and then run another mile. Yeah, we are insane. LOL I'm going to die when I'm done I'm sure.
SKINNYINMYHEAD thank you so much for the article! Like I said, my trainer is really good at scaling and that article REALLY helped me. I'm definitely going to send it to my hubby because he has to scale a lot too. If you see the pictures of us in my photo gallery, don't be fooled. He's totally "skinny fat." Despite the fact that he is at a healthy weight and I'm not, we're pretty much on the same fitness level. In a lot of ways I'm better because I've been working out on and off for the last 5 years and he hasn't at ALL. I'm determined to beat him. LOL Well in the end I won't be able to lift more weights than him, just because he's a man, but I can still do better. LOL
I can't forget! I owe SCENIC_ROUTE a list! Ok things I couldn't do 10 years ago huh? Well I never EVER thought I'd be an exercise and health nut or that I would love Zumba and CrossFit. I used to hate exercise!! CrossFit has shown me some of the things I can do and things I thought I'd never want to do but I now want to do (like climbing a rope!) I can now do "man pushups" and jump pull-ups and am lifting more weight than I ever did when I was weight training in the past. I'm only going on my 3rd week of CrossFit so my list is short, but it will get longer!! I feel awesome now just typing that little bit! By the way, I don't know yet if I can have butter, but I did buy some ghee to try!!
Oh and people asked about recipes last time. One of them (the Paleo Brownies) I don't think I'm able to give out because I got it out of a book. But if you are interested in the book it's "The Primal Blueprint Cookbook" by Mark Sisson. There are a ton of good recipes in that book!!
Now the pizza... I got the recipe for the crust here: cynthiaunderground.tumblr.com/post/1
Then for the sauce I used a can of tomato sauce and a can of tomato paste, simmered them in a pot together and added whatever spices I felt like. For me it was basil, oregano, and Italian seasoning.
For the cheese I used Daiya cheese substitute. My tummy like it! For pepperoni I used uncured pepperoni and then we added whatever veggies we wanted! It turned out so good!!
OMG and in speaking of cheese... I bought this stuff that I thought was goat cheese. It was in the goat cheese section. Find out later it was half goat and half dairy! Of course, I got freaking sick. Totally sucks! Argh!! I used it when I made pizza the second time and now I can't even have my leftovers. Boo!!!!
Ok here are the pics I promised!
And here's me in long socks as we were working on rope climbing that day! I felt so dorky! LOL And yes, this is at my CrossFit gym!
Well I think that's about it. For now anyway!! Thank you everyone so much again for your support, it means so much to me!! I'm feeling so much better now!!
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Ok, so today has been an awful day. Today at CrossFit we learned a lot of new stuff and a lot of it I couldn't do without SOME kind of help. We were learning handstand pushups and climbing the rope. I am the fattest one in my class easily and everyone else is SO much fitter than I. I'm pretty much in a class full of runners. I mean, everyone is great and nobody makes me feel fat, but I know it. I'm not a moron. It's so frustrating when I felt that I was at least somewhat fit and I'm finding out that I'm not at all. I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to anyone else, but today was so emotionally taxing. It hasn't helped that I stopped taking my antidepressants (which has actually gone well!) But the biggest part is that two of my family members have been harassing me on Facebook over how I stand over a particular issue. I'm not going to say what the particular issue is, as this is not the place for it, but these two family members have been harassing me about it for months. Today I finally defended myself (I was ignoring it before) and all of a sudden I'm a "bad person." Needless to say, I ended up blocking them both as I do not need negativity in my life. I have no room for it and I will not make room for it. Still it was hurtful and didn't help the blow my self-esteem had already gotten at CrossFit. I was simply not in the mood. And I didn't appreciate being bullied by my own family. Definitely not cool. I could say so much more about it, but I better just shut up now. LOL
Then to make my day worse, I ate some cottage cheese. OMG I can no longer process dairy. It made me sooooooo sick. I tried to take a nap, but I just couldn't sleep. I imagine I should sleep well tonight though.
So that's been my day so far and it all happened in the MORNING. It's been a rough one and could use some support. Thank you for listening (or reading, in this case!)
Monday, May 13, 2013
Ugh! I meant to update sooner! I didn't realize it had been so long... Oopps. LOL
So Crossfit is going well! Today started my second week. My stomach was killing me on Thursday so I made it up on Sunday, which means I went to CrossFit on Saturday, Sunday, and today! I'm really glad I have tomorrow off, I can rest. Yay!! I am really enjoying it though, even though it's very hard, difficult, and sometimes I want to die, but I love it. Everyone is so encouraging and great and I'm pushing my body to do things it could never do before. It's awesome! The only issue I'm having is that my weight loss has stalled. My chiropractor/trainer told me it's because I'm gaining muscle but I'm losing fat so that's why I'm not showing a loss yet. He said it'll take some time. So as well as tracking my weight, I'm also going to start tracking my body fat. I think that will help.
So Paleo is also going well. I did stop eating potatoes and as a result I went through serious carb withdrawal. I was like a crack addict! All I wanted was pizza and tacos. So, with the help of my chiro and some recipes I found on the internet, I made Paleo pizza! I was so proud I took a picture. Here it is!
It was absolutely heavenly!! I had leftovers for lunch. I'm definitely going to make it again! I also found a recipe in one of my Paleo cookbooks for Paleo brownies. Hubby really wanted me to make them, so I did. I was a little skeptical but they turned out awesome!! IMO they tasted as good as a "regular" brownie! And I'm not eating them all the time either, which is major progress. LOL I'm finding out you can make just about anything Paleo, you just have to plan ahead and actually MAKE it and not use convenience foods. My birthday isn't until December but I'm trying to figure out how I can make a birthday cake. No more ordering cakes for me! (Or much of anything for that matter! LOL) I know I'll find something and it will be pure awesomeness, and I won't feel guilty for eating it!! I feel we're really getting the hang of Paleo now and really starting to have fun with it. Now it's more like an adventure!! Since starting CrossFit and Paleo I've stopped 2 of my medications and am now only taking 1. It feels great! If I can just stop taking the stuff to help me sleep, I'm home free!
Oh and on a more personal front, I'm going back to school starting this summer! I'm really excited about it. I'm going to finish my degree in graphic design. I'm currently trying to get into work study, keep your fingers crossed for me! When all is said and done, I want to get into either web design or advertising. Or both!
Well I think that's everything!! I hope everyone is having a happy, healthy day!
Sunday, April 28, 2013
So ok, I'm signed up for the next On-Ramp class which starts May 6th. However the one I'm going to go to (and my hubby has already graduated from On-Ramp) has an open gym on Saturday. I went with him and I loved it! Did it kick my butt? You bet it did! But it was so fun and everyone was so nice and encouraging! It was so great! I am sore today but it feels great! I also got a lot of things done around the house today, things I've been meaning to do for months. So that feels good too!
Tuesday will mark 2 weeks of Paleo! I'm still going strong and I'm doing very well. I did notice I was leaning too much on potatoes, so I'm not buying anymore. Tonight for dinner we went to Moe's and grabbed salads. So delicious! One of my favorite dinners for sure! Yum!!
I hope everyone is having a happy, healthy day!
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