Friday, April 04, 2014
My kidswant to color eggs. I want them to do it naturally. Who has naturally colored eggs successfully? Please guide me.
Thursday, April 03, 2014
Yes, my first in about 10, 13, maybe 15 yrs. I am great about my ob/gyn appts, but a regular physical why bother. Well, I got called out by my kids. I make them go ever year it is about time I go.
I went and it was not like I excepted. The only current concerns the PA has is my obvious knee issue. My knee cap is sitting to the right. Plus, I have a tender lymph gland in my throat. I have had the discomfort for over a year. He will recheck and then more than likely send me to a ENT.
I go back in about a week and a half to results on my bloodwork.
I asked about what would be ideal for a goal weight. He said to get my BMI to 24.5 and that would be good. Which is about 130-135 (5-10lbs).
He also questioned a pocket of fat or something on my calves. I told him it might be lose skin from the 60+lbs. He goes okay that makes since. He was impressed I was 60lbs heavier.
In the short, I need to get my knee looked at and drop about 10lbs for my age, height, having had 3 kids, and no plans on getting lose skin removed.
Time to rest I am really tired and trying to eat smart as I have to fast from 9PM - after 10AM. I think after my bloodwork I will treat myself to Panera for brunch.
Gos bless y'all
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
This is my test from God for the Lenten Season.
Some people stash fabric, others yarn, scrapbook supplies, and other various stuff. I have a stash of coffee!!! Yes, I love coffee. I drink all kinds in all forms. Drip, percolators, k-cups, espresso forms....I love it all. I am not ashamed of my stash. For thise who are worried 90% of the coffee is decaf.
Big thanks to my hubby for helping me build my stash. Only sad part is I have coffee up for Lent along with candy. I could not pass up a good deal when each cup of coffee is under $.50 a cup...dude!!!
Plus, if you look you will see a gold box on the upper left hand side. It is a box of Lindt truffles I am saving for after Easter Mass when I can enjoy a cup of coffee and a truffle with my kids. Off to the far right corner are mini boxes of flavored coffees dh and ds found for my drip coffee maker.
Please do not judge...LOL
Dh's truck we picked it up 12/31/13 and I have enjoyed being a 2 car family. I just hope we continue to be a 2 car family for many years to come.
Dh hung my new curtains. I tried, but with my knee I could not brace myself on the ladder and twist to use the drill and stuff. Plus, he is batter at this stuff than I am.
kids having fun making cupcakes with daddy
I updated my backslash in the kitchen. Sorry I did not put away the meds from this morning. I wanted tile, but lets face it really pricey and time consuming. I found these last week at my Target for $12.99. Some read Jave, Mocha, Latte, Coffee, Joe, I heart and a coffee bean and others just have designs. When the kids they thought I painted the coffee cups on the wall. Dh, who knows my skills, thought I stenciled them on...NOPE!!! Just a few stickers and a rulers and well I did not want to do housework. LOL
Hope you like the pictures. I was suppose to be resting away a headache, but I am afraid I would fall asleep and miss the kids at the bus. Off to get the kitchen table ready for homework.
Love and Blessings
Sunday, March 09, 2014
Today I got a wake up call. Well, actually all weekend. I did not make it to church this morning, but I did watch it online. It makes life easier than fighting with ds and dd2. Anywho, the homily really hit home today. The Fr. was comparing cheating on homework, flirting, cheating on our diets.... are all examples of Satan tempting us like he tempted Jesus in the dessert.
I have been endlessly tempted and playing with food. Today I realized it has been Satan making me feel like I have been and turning to my old habits. Now, I have turned to food for comfort since I started this journey of a healthy lifestyle. I have always been strong enough to pull myself out. This time I have been drowning in pain, sadness, SELF PITY is more like it. I have felt worthless, unwanted, unloved by people, but I know it is not true.
Yes, my kids really test me.
Yes, I am lonely some days.
Yes, my housework is endless and there are days I have no idea where or evennhow to tackle my list.
Yes, I had a crappie birthday, but at least I had a birthday. I could always be pushing up roses.
Yes, dh messed up and he was been doing his best to make right. I have to forgive him. I have mentally and I now I have to verbally.
My mom made up for my bad day leaps and bounds. I can not wait for her bday and show her how much I love her and appreciate her making me feel worth while.
My bday was 2/18 and it is 3/9....too many days of self pity. I have never been like this in my LIFE. My mom would be ashamed of me. I am ashamed of me.
I have learned I am not alone.
I am not the only mom who struggles with their kids, knee issues, endless housework, and simply LIFE.
Best of all I have an amazing husband. I have three pretty healthy kids. I am never without important things. ie money for doctors, food on the table, a roof over my head....tou get the picture.
I have kids who in their way do,love me I just need to open my eyes more. I need to stop being the mom I am not meant to be. I need to slow down and taking life and enjoy my kids more. i appreciate and love how hard my husband works. I just need to be more vocal and not let things bottle up.
I am to the point food makes me ill after I eat. What is worse...I have not enjoy all of the foods I consumed. If I one more cookie that is not from Kashi. or on more pizza with a thick crust, or one more day without my 10glasses of water I am going to scream!
I am pushing the reset button tomorrow morning and I need help. I need to be held accountable. My goal will never be reached if I do not stop this self pity party. I need to start making sure the food I eat will be what is best for my health. I will step on the scale and I know I have put on more weight. I can tell with my jeans and I am mad at myself. In four years of this journey I have never taken this many steps back.
I feel this is the best time to really focus on my lifestyle and my health. Lent is in full swing and if Jesus can fast for 40days and night, then I can clean up my eating this season.
I never thought giving up coffee would be so hard. I have done it before, but now when I need it for comfort it is gone. I have not turned to coffee, but I have turned to the amazing cookies I made the family, I have turned, to nasty cup cakes (they were gross but I ate them and hated myself afterwards).
My wake up call. I have used my endless knee pain as a crutch and I am tried of it. I am calling the dr tomorrow and asking if I should be concerned. I do not think I do, but after doing yoga back to back for 4 days I have spent most of Friday and this weekend rest my knee in endless pain. I need to figure out what is going on and move on from this pain.
I thank you for reading my confession. My wake up call of some sort. I was meant to hear the homily today. The Fr., though not mine, really spoke to me through the TV and I am grateful for the call.
Praised to God for forgiving me and my many MANY faults. Now I must forgive my husband and myself and get back on track.
Love and Blessing to all.
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