Saturday, December 07, 2013
I've been absent. I gave up for a few days. I have learned that I need new coping skills. So the first stress is financial. Since April, when we halved our income so my husband could follow his dream job, I've been in charge of the bills. I'm not very good at it. Steve made it easy for me, and most of the bills are automatically deducted from the account. I am in charge of grocery shopping. I would plan my menu, make my list and try to met the competing needs for my family. Which means food for Hannah, milk and meat for Jacob, snacks for Bailey and fresh veggies for me. I typically spend $300 a week, which includes all the hygiene and household products, cat and dog food. If I was out of money, the excess went on the credit card. So here is the stress. The credit cards are maxed. I sat down last week, and made up a budget. I need to seriously cut costs. One idea is to cut the gym. I haven't been going as much, since I hate leaving the house in the cold. But I don't want to give up on health. I own a cheep elliptical, and the plan is to get it back from the relative who borrowed it, and use it. I can also get videos from netflix. I will miss the social part, so I think my work out buddy should come to my house every morning for coffee. when the weather gets nice again, we can go for walks outside. I can bike to work, which will save money on gas. Another cut is my expensive supplements.They are $45 a month. We have given up eating out, which is good for the diet. I need to cut grocery costs. Gone is the nice expensive tea, and I'll drink the cheap and old tea that appeared in our cupboard a year ago. Steve is giving up beer, and expensive coffee filter bags. Gone is the snack food for Bailey. He can learn to eat the healthy fruit. I hate to give up my healthy food, but it really is expensive to cook a healthy meal, and then have alternatives in case the natives wont eat it. Steve says to cook simpler, with less ingredients. The problem is cooking is one of my coping skills. I love to find new recipes, shop for ingredients and create a great meal. My family doesn't appreciate it. So I have to adjust. Dinner is now going to be simpler, with less ingredients. More steamed broccoli, and baked chicken. I can still eat out of the freezer, we have some frozen fish, and a big bag of pinto beans. I can't cut the phone bill, we need a land line, and I parent by cell phone. We don't get cable, and the entertainment budget is $25 for netflix, and $25 for internet. I don't want to cut those. My medication co-pays are about $200 a month. I'm going to work with my doctor to get on generic meds, which are cheaper. I've cancelled the paper. Food is a coping skill, one I've been trying to change. When stressed, and cold like the winter, I want to eat carbs and fat. I can't give in. I can't give up. I have to continue the healthy side of life. My other coping skills involve money. I love a nice warm cup of starbucks. ( gone). I love a fresh new paperback. ( gone, at $9 a pop, and I can read two a week.) I renewed the library card. I need to learn to deal with stress without spending money, which causes more stress or eating which causes more stress. So while I am back, I am definitely struggling. I feel like I am the only one running the house, which is a pit. I wish my coping skill was to clean.
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
This is the second or third time I've had this assignment. Sparkcoach must know that I am still struggling. My diet saboteur is myself. I could so easily give in to sloth. I love food. I love good for you food, I love bad for you food. I tend to think that food will solve whatever ails me. I dislike exercise. My nature state is inert. So I have a lot to overcome. This season, Advent and the Winter holidays, I also have to overcome society. Everywhere is food. Everywhere is some celebration and social gathering that has a food component. Media isn't helping. Yes, I would love a peppermint mocha calorie bomb and a cranberry bliss bar. No I don't have a 1,000 calories to spare. The assignment was to come up with a plan to confront and deal with the sabotage. Everyday, I am going to work at it. Good food choices, time at the gym. Moderation to the social food. January will come soon enough.
Sunday, December 01, 2013
I love Advent. I love the calm, the holding ones breath while waiting for things to come. For Christmas presents, and the Christmas Eve Mass. today is December. A day to articulate my December goals, and have a plan to start my year, 2014, with a healthy push.
As always, I have the same goals. First- food. I will stay within my calorie range, measuring and tracking all the I eat. There are a few holiday plans that I have to watch for. Today is Steve's birthday party. The 10 and 11 will be birthdays, and I will go out to lunch with my friend. The holiday secret Santa cookie exchange. The two work Christmas parties. All of these center on food, and it occurs to me how hard this month will be to stay in check and have good blood sugars. But, I think if I watch and follow my plan, and practice moderation. I will be good. Second, is fitness minutes. I will go to the gym, 5 days a week, tread-milling at 3mph for an hour. I really need to crank it up, I feel like I've been coasting, and it's been a low priority. I am sure my work out buddy will appreciate the renewed commitment. Other smaller goals. i will wake up on time, and have the morning routine. i will finish my blog challenge. i will stay in budget for the month. I will continue my log in streak.
I found a quote the kind of sums up the renewed commitment. "No one gets it right all the time; you're not going to achieve success without paying your dues. Expecting things to be different for you is a one-way ticket to frustration, loss of motivation, and failure. " I have been expecting weight loss, moderation and fitness to come easy, because I want it. I realize I have to work at it, I have to put the miles in, and make the right choices, I have to pay my dues.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
So, here it is Sunday, and I am doing my weekly planning. First is the menu, but before i can plan that, I need to know what the week looks like for my children's world. Scouts, Key club, wait, there's no Church Wednesday because... it's thanksgiving week. My menu is a bit skewed. I have a dinner planned for Monday night, something that Jacob likes as Steve and Bailey will be at scouts, and Hannah will have key club. Salmon Fettucine. Tuesday, it's pork stirfry with brown rice. Steve tells me he is cooking a turkey at the daycare wednesday, and bringing home the carcas. So Wednesday night I will make carcus soup. I found spark recipes for the three meals up till Thursday, and saved them to my nutritional planner. Then there is this big black hole in my planner. Thanksgiving. My question to you all, are you going to track thanksgiving day?
I haven't decided. I've been in a bit of a rut, feeling the grind of measuring and tracking without seeing the scale move down. I will do really well for a few days, then have a 2,000 calorie day and the scale doesn't move. We had a holiday feast at work on friday, and I didn't track the day. It's very hard to track when you are eating other people's cooking and dont know the recipes. But thanksgiving, I know the recipes. Grandma Carvo will make the turkey, and the stuffing, and potatoes, and rolls. Same recipes she has used for years, and I can create them in sparkpeople to track. I will bring a side dish, most likely a sweet potato dish that isn't covered in marshmallows. I can avoid the pies. I will go for a walk in the afternoon to get my steps in. I think I will track the day.
I would be interested in knowing what you are going to do about the thanksgiving gluttony?
And then there's black friday. My child wants to go and experience the crazies in the world clamoring for more commercialism on black friday, and I think I will let her. I will be safe at home, it's steve's birthday and he has work plans, painting the daycare while's it's closed for the holiday. I will have a nice quiet day, shuffling Jacob back and forth to wresting practice. Jacob will be tracking his calories over the holiday. He has decided to wrestle at 195, and needs to make weight on the Tuesday following. he has to drop 5 pounds. I do not agree with the whole wrestling make wieght anorexia that his coach has inspired, but he is a big boy and what he eats is out of my control. At 6'4", 195 will look skinny.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Spark coach has me blogging about my goals for the next seven days. I have the same goals every day. First, to eat within my calorie range. I don't have the menu planned as we are eating out of the freezer till payday. Second, to make it to the gym for the next 5 days. Simple, right?
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