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The Good the bad and the Ugly

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

You almost think I should start out with the good.. but I am starting out with the bad.. which is I have been so off track or at least I feel that way.. last week I did not go to th gym at all to be honest I don't like the new gym I joined and thank God it was a pay as you go gym because I am not paying for November.. I hate being tied into a contract and this gym offers the option to pay cash or credit and work out and be done but not happy with the set up my old gym I worked it out where they will bill me monthly statement and i will pay.. of course it is 5 bucks extra but for me it is worth it. but any how I did not work out I ate like crap and it go really ugly.. by the end of the week I was bloated and tired and out of it..

This week I feel I am getting back on track.. but truth be told I am missing something that is lost . oh yea my motivation my determination my drive to lose weight.. I feel like my efforts are worthless meaning the more I work out the more I am squeaky clean the more I feel like I am not getting any where I can go weeks of working out eating wright and the scale dose not budge.. its the truth.. but let me eat a slice or two of pizza and bam there is 5lbs on.. its a vicious cycle and I am spinning my wheels I feel like I am on my spinning bike which I am doing everything right getting good cadence and my form is good I am at a target heart rate but I am not moving.. well you dont move on a spinning bike but that is how I feel with my program.. so that is the ugly of it..

The good which I will end with.. is that I don't want to give up... I can't give up.. I really really need to this and I need you.. and I need some kind of help, peace, or smack in the head.. maybe all of it.. so I am going to keep going.. that is all I can do ..

Thanks for reading ..

  
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BILL60 10/23/2014 9:23AM

    My recommendation is..... #1 get out of your routine and invent a new one, whatever it may be. #2 Be patient. It's gonna take a while to get real results. Have faith in the process. #3 Log your intake of foods. We have a tendency to under-estimate our intake. #4 Perhaps the most important is love yourself wether fat or slim. I wish you the very best, you are definitely worth it.

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DTHOR6 10/23/2014 7:34AM

    The last part of your blog not wanting to give up. Hold onto that part! You can do this! Do you have to go to a gym? Can you maybe find things to do at home that is just as good? Maybe buy some of those exercise bands for the weights part and do different exercises at home for the rest? I abhor gyms I can't stand other people watching my fat giggle. So I have a gym in my basement. It has taken me years to get it all but I am happy with what I have. I know that isn't an option for most but there are things you can do at home that are just as good as a gym. Do you have a wii? I love my wii fit games They really get ya moving and sometimes even make you sore.

Just a thought.

Hugs,
Kim

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 9:49PM

    I wrote this awesome response to your blog and it got lost in cyberspace. Ughhhhh.

I'm in the same boat you are in MsAnita. Or at least I think I am. I want to be healthy and I am going through the motions, but the motions aren't enough to make me lose weight or gain muscle. My motions are just enough to make me busy. I have no feeling about the motions either. They just are.

So, here I sit, letting all of my years of hard work turn back to fat and flab. For real. I'm not exaggerating. It's exactly what I said I wasnt going to let happen to me back when I reached my goal weight, but I just don't feel like I have it in me to go work my ass off.

I'm maintaining and I am staying busy, but I'm for sure not happy with where I am at right now. We just have to keep plugging away until that spark turns in to a flame!


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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/22/2014 5:52PM

    Focus on the good! You are not giving up and that is awesome. Glad you don't have a contract with that gym, since you don't like it.

Motivation fades, but we just have to keep pushing on. Remind yourself WHY you want to lose weight and get healthy. If you're doing the right things and the scale is still not budging, then look for some non-scale victories.

Be proud of yourself because you are never going to give up!

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1CRAZYDOG 10/22/2014 11:02AM

    The last part about not giving up . . . that's the important part . . . and trumps the bad and the ugly.

It's hard to go thru the motions w/o the passion, the fire. Wish I knew how to fix that. But all I can say is keep doing it and it WILL happen.

Hugs and smiles. Don't give up!

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MAMABEAR372 10/22/2014 8:36AM

    You and me both. I know the feeling. The motions are there but the fire is not. I am glad you don't give up. And are sharing your feelings. Just try try again. You can't do better than the best you give today. Unless it is the best you give tomorrow. I guess we just need to practice our patience, huh?
I am standing beside you in this. Some how some way we will move forward with our own things we want to change. I believe in you! emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 10/22/2014 8:19AM

    Good for you not giving up.

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It' Going good

Monday, September 15, 2014

It seems like I only blog when things are going bad or I am struggling but sitting here writing this and I can say.. Things are going good.. I have been really focusing in my journey ad my steps to weight loss. I am not stress eating or picking.. I have passed up bad carbs.. and have eat clean for the past two weeks.. is there weight loss? well one pound.. I mean can I get any slower?? but its a pound and not a gain, I think too its because I was not working out much last week, it seemed that I had no time I mean I did get on my spinning bike for 20 minutes but that was it.. so tonight I am hitting the gym..

I am planning on having a good week, my meals are planned I am armed with good healthy food in the frig.. I know I can do this

Have a good week everyone

  
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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 9:48PM

    I wrote this awesome response to your blog and it got lost in cyberspace. Ughhhhh.

I'm in the same boat you are in MsAnita. Or at least I think I am. I want to be healthy and I am going through the motions, but the motions aren't enough to make me lose weight or gain muscle. My motions are just enough to make me busy. I have no feeling about the motions either. They just are.

So, here I sit, letting all of my years of hard work turn back to fat and flab. For real. I'm not exaggerating. It's exactly what I said I wasnt going to let happen to me back when I reached my goal weight, but I just don't feel like I have it in me to go work my ass off.

I'm maintaining and I am staying busy, but I'm for sure not happy with where I am at right now. We just have to keep plugging away until that spark turns in to a flame!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 8:25PM

    I wrote this awesome response to your blog and it got lost in cyberspace. Ughhhhh.

I'm in the same boat you are in MsAnita. Or at least I think I am. I want to be healthy and I am going through the motions, but the motions aren't enough to make me lose weight or gain muscle. My motions are just enough to make me busy. I have no feeling about the motions either. They just are.

So, here I sit, letting all of my years of hard work turn back to fat and flab. For real. I'm not exaggerating. It's exactly what I said I wasnt going to let happen to me back when I reached my goal weight, but I just don't feel like I have it in me to go work my ass off.

I'm maintaining and I am staying busy, but I'm for sure not happy with where I am at right now. We just have to keep plugging away until that spark turns in to a flame!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 8:13PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:33PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:31PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:28PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:19PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:19PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:18PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:17PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:16PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:16PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 10/22/2014 6:15PM

    I know exactly how you feel MsAnita. sometimes you just want to get of the hamster wheel and scream. For me, it's almost all a mental game. If I truly get off of my behind and do the work with the best effort possible, I see results. Thing is, I just really am not giving it my all. So instead, I'm doing my best to maintain until I get back in to that mental state that is required for me to lose the weight.
Honestly, I have LOST most of my muscle this year. The flab has returned and it's mine. I own it. I don't really like what I see when I look in the mirror, but I don't have my head in the game enough to really care.
I still plug along and do races and get some mileage in, but cardio won't keep you going. I hope you get to the point you need to. Be at to make things start happening the way you want them to!
Hugs and Love!

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CANDOK1260 10/12/2014 9:45PM

    yes emoticon this

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LUCKYDOGFARM 9/24/2014 3:12PM

    A pound a week for a year is 52 pounds!


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JANETRIS 9/22/2014 8:51PM

    emoticon Way to think positive!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/15/2014 11:57AM

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 9/15/2014 9:11AM

    You're doing great! Don't focus on that one pound...focus on how you are feeling! After two weeks of healthy eating, you must feel great! Keep up the good work, the weight loss will happen.

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FATSOO51 9/15/2014 8:20AM

    emoticon emoticon love to read a positive blog. Sounds like you are doing everything right...I need to copy you :)


thanks
Nancy

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I am on the right track...

Saturday, September 06, 2014

And feeling good.. thinking back to when I first started a healthy living journey and wanted to lose weight I just started doing it I buckled down I stopped eating the junk and eating in between meals I just started to do it and it worked... most of you now I have been struggling for some time I have decided that I need to do something what was I doing so wrong or not doing that caused me not to lose weight.. well I knew I was a little on the laxed side and it was hard to stop but I think my main down fall is carbs so I decided it was time to do a 6 weeks no carbs plan.. I decided to cut up any kind of bread, oatmeal, and carbs .. it was very hard this week, but I got threw it.. and I was worried that I would cave this weekend, which last night family ordered pizza like I knew they would but I did not partake in it. Today has been good too I have ate clean all day worked out and took the dog for a walk..

Do I feel I am on the right track? yes. and I fearful I might get off of it? oh yea but for now I am going to keep doing what I am doing because I am so amazed at my self for sticking to it and staying strong I think the longer I do the better I feel and I will stick with it longer..

Wow love this feeling ..

  
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SNOWYOGA 9/9/2014 10:23PM

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CAPECODLIGHT 9/7/2014 6:58PM

    Sounds like you are on track for sure. Fewer carbs, the easier it is to manage hunger and cravings.

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LUCKYDOGFARM 9/7/2014 9:13AM

    That's is quite the undertaking! I admit, I am a carboholic! I ogle bread at the store. I admire your ability to go carbless. Keep it up MsAnita!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/6/2014 9:33PM

    Good job. You're HERE and blogging, so if you catch youself on that slippery slope, we're here for you!

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Back too.....

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

Work,....my goals.... my healthy living plan.. today was day 1 I would count it as and it went well, work was good kind of went fast.. got right back into the swing of what we do in the auction department at our local Public Broad Casting Station. made a great breakfast. packed a good lunch.. hubby made dinner which was a chicken stir fry over rice.. well today was my first day of no carb or low carb I totally skilled the rice.. just at the chicken and veggies.. after dinner got back to adding in some fitness which I have not done in 4 days..

And now for the kicker of the day.. I have not wore my black dress paints size 16w since April.. now you all know I had a hard time over the summer I was dreading to put them on thinking no way go get the 18s and put them on I put the 16s on and they fit.. like they always did.. I was like "oh ok.. I will take that" made me smile..

Bring it on Day 2

  
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PAQTEQ 9/18/2014 3:12PM

    I'm eating Low Carb too. I have been having great success with it. emoticon

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JLPEASE 9/5/2014 11:17AM

    Way to go with the NSV!!
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CAPECODLIGHT 9/3/2014 8:51PM

    Have you ever tried quinoa? I just did this year and it makes a good sub for rice. It is not a grain.

So glad the pants fit - what a hoot!

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LUCKYDOGFARM 9/2/2014 11:59PM

    emoticon way to go MsAnita! You get down on yourself way too much! The power of positive thinking goes a long way!
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1CRAZYDOG 9/2/2014 9:57PM

    Wonderful! NSV!

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GEORGE815 9/2/2014 8:07PM

    Glad the pants fit. Rice is hard to stay low or no carb for the day.

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New Hope...

Monday, September 01, 2014

It has taken all of the day to get going on this blog.. I told my self this morning I needed to write it out about how August went and how I would like September to turn out.. and I just do not know why it has taken me all day to do so.. I guess I just did not want to face the truth and the truth is August was just like the other 7 months of 2014.. I did the same thing in the beginning of each month really thought how I wanted to have that month turn out.. and what I was going to do to have it turn out that way. lets rewind to January 2014 where it all started.. where I was kind of in the same place where I am now.. meaning the scale not moving, feeling a little overwhelmed with that fact, asking my self what did you do to change? and vow that I would do better, do this do that eat this don't eat that.. drink water.. work out bike more walk more talk more blog more.. each month I would vow that.. it's not all lost I did work at all that.. I did work out a lot I did ride my bike, I did walk more.. I cut out eating stupid stuff meaning extra helpings. or such.. and yet I still got the same results. NO weight loss.. each month I had a plan lose 7lbs. heck I wanted to have 30 lbs off by this date. I said that back in January.. not one.. gone up 2 down 1 up down 2 played with that all Spring and Summer.. I know I am only to blame.. I know what I ate my food plan was not squeaky clean I tried to eat clean which I would do for one or two weeks but carbs come back in and they are my killer.


I do not want repeat the past 9 months.. we only have 4 more months left of 2014 I know I might not lose the 30 but I need to budge some of it... I want to lose 30 to 50 but what I mostly want is to stick to the food plan that I use to follow, I know I can do it.. working out is second nature for me.. I have no problem doing it but I will admit when I am feeling defeated food wise.. my fitness schedule slacks.. and I have been slacking this whole weekend.. I did not do anything not even my knee strengthen exercise's which I am noticing that my knee is popping more and hurting.. (I have a displaced knee cap) and the physical therapist told me I have to do those quad exercise 3x to 4x weekly or I will have problems..

So this has me thinking.. I need to do this or my whole body is going to suffer I will only be back to where I use to be.. 330lbs. and I do not want that.. I cant go back.. I may not be where I want to be today but I am not where I use to be and I don't want to go back to where I was.. I need to keep moving forward I need to clean up my act and I am doing that starting now.. this Month has to be and will be different it is up to me.. no more slacking..

Thank you or listing to me.. I know I am not judged here..I know I can come here and pour my heart out not make any sense and ramble on.. it helps me and I am going to start doing what I need to do to get back on track.

Starting with:
Eating clean,
getting 8 hours of sleep
drinking my 80oz of water a day
20 minutes of spinning on my spinning bike.. in addition to work out 4 to 5x a week

I got more I should work on but I think if I was to throw it all out there it would be too overwhelming ...

so little by little I will do this.

Thanks..

  
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DTHOR6 9/2/2014 3:49PM

    I have no doubt that you can do it. Your mind is in the right place. You are so correct that noone here will judge you, we have all been there done that.
YOU CAN DO IT!

hugs,
Kim

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1CRAZYDOG 9/2/2014 1:10PM

    You definitely are not judged because ALL of us have BTDT. I for sure know **I** have.

You have a fine plan. Take the time daily to look @ it and resolve to take it a day-at-a-time. Being overwhelmed (and again, BTDT) sabotages our efforts.

HUGS and you CAN do this!

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ASHBUG1 9/2/2014 11:03AM

    anita this blog could of been written by me . it is exactly what I do each month, week, and day. and now im trying to start and keep to some goals for set too.
I hope it all goes as planed for you.


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NHES220 9/2/2014 10:17AM

    You can do this! Those starting points are great and will get you going. It is not too much too soon, they are manageable. Getting back on track is key. I know you don't want to go back to where you were, none of us do, too scary to think about when you've worked so hard to lose it. Hang in there! You can do this and your knees and the rest of your body will thank you!
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