Saturday, July 20, 2013
I am half way through the BLC Challenge and although I am not any where near where I would have liked to be I am accepting where I am. Accepting, that is an odd word for what I am doing. I had surgery in May and was really excited about the timing of the BLC challenge starting just as I am released to resume all activities and exercise. I was doing great with the exercise up until about 2 weeks ago when my body decided it wanted to have a major set back. I have been hurting hurting to the point I often think it was just the other day when I had the surgery but you know I have a choice to deal with the pain and getting depressed or deal with the pain and do all that I can with what I have to work with. I am choosing to deal with the pain and do what I know I can do! I have met some really wonderful ladies on the Ivory Falcons and I would not trade that opportunity for nothing. I am not able to do any type of exercising because no matter what you do you have to engage your core and too much excess walking also triggers more pain but I can walk for 5 minutes at a time at a little less than moderate pace (that would be defined as slow but that's OK because I am doing what I can do rather than nothing at all). With that in mind I have come to see that I need so much more to focus on what I eat and to do that there is no pain involved (except for maybe my mouth not getting that chocolate cake with chocolate icing, that yummy creamy cold on a hot day bowl of ice cream OK OK enough teasing my taste buds for one night) which means I CAN do that so that is what I am going to focus on from this blog on! It's in writing so there is no turning back now and although it is easy to deceive those not really seeing me and knowing what my hand and mouth do behind the "web" I know and that is really the only one that counts in the end. I don't cheat on my taxes, I don't cheat on my wonderful hubby, and I didn't cheat on my school work (yep, I can remember that far back) so why cheat on me!?! I am by far way WAY too worth it for a moment of blissful yummy binging for a lifetime of regret...we ALL are! So next time you go to eat something that you know you shouldn't eat or the extra helping that you 'think' you want stop for just a moment and think of YOU and ask yourself if you really want to spend those calories on that and if you are willing to do the exercising to work them off. That food we eat when we know we shouldn't isn't thinking of us not one second and it's purpose is to only satisfy the person who benefits most from it....the maker (the one who reaps your money that you work so hard to sow) not the owner (you). This blog, it's all about me and the pep talk that I needed to hear because nothing I mean nothing tastes as good as it's going to feel wearing it! These next 6 weeks (praying that my sitting around doesn't last the whole 6 weeks) I am going to be more aware of what I eat, why I am eating and if I really want to waste the calories on something that tastes YUM but defeats my goal...I AM WORTH MORE THAN ANY YUM! (YOU ARE TOO!!)
So, it is just past midnight here so tomorrow is now today which means it is a new day with a new chance to make the right choices and any past choices well, they are just that past!
IS "IT" WORTH it? YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! I AM WORTH IT!!!