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Of weight-loss frustrations and other things

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

I've been doing great these past two weeks, except that I had been sick during most of that time. I've lost very little weight this past week and with official weigh-in looming ahead before the big holiday, my scale has stopped moving.

Sure, losing 10 lbs in a two week period of time is a huge accomplishment, but I kind of feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser with my chance to stay on at the "ranch" balancing delicately upon my weigh-in.

Right now, I stand at exactly 10 lbs away from where I was this time last year. It is frustrating to think that I got that far, and screwed it all up this summer. Why do I do this to myself?! I don't know.

But I did reach a milestone. I'm ready to move beyond 20 minutes on the treadmill. I could have last night, but my legs were already screaming at me. I gave myself an early Christmas present of an iPod Touch and have downloaded some fitness tracks. While it isn't a fitness track, I've found that Bon Jovi's Greatest Hits works just as well as any of the other tracks.

I hope you all have a great holiday week!!!

  
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JUSTME29 11/25/2014 10:23AM

    I love Bon Jovi. There isn't a part of life that can't be improved by Bon Jovi, so even though it's not technically an exercise track, it'll do.

Try not to think of it as 10 pounds in 2 weeks and then a stall. Think of it over a longer term. Look at it in a 10 week window - it averages out to a pound a week and that's totally respectable. Even if the scale isn't saying what you want it to, increasing your stamina is a good think.

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BA5454 11/25/2014 8:07AM

    Bon Jovi has some great tunes for rocking out in the cardio room. Is there a contest you're doing (other than the Teddies) that makes you feel like your on the Biggest Loser? 'Cause that's a horrible feeling to have. I say this as a friend--try not to beat yourself up about what happened during the summer--it's done and gone, in the past--look to what you can do and work off that. Advice I'm trying to follow myself ;-).
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A big win

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Well, I just finished my first full week of Onion Camp. I learned quite a few lessons this week, including how much sugar and carb withdrawal can effect the mood (I'm bipolar). It was NOT pretty to say the least.

But I also learned after the fact, that I wasn't getting enough protein which was feeding my mood swings and irritability. So, yesterday, I added in protein drinks (100 calorie EAS protein drink in chocolate...tastes pretty good, too). Today I feel more "stable".

I also started adding back in cardio yesterday by using what the trainer lovingly calls "The Beast": The elliptical trainer. Yesterday I got 15 minutes on it, today only 7 1/2. I did supplement it with the bike as it was my legs, not my heart, that gave out. Need to build endurance on that thing. Any suggestions?

With that, fully clothed and fed last Monday night (boots and a heavy sweater) after a full meal, I weighed in at 217. Fully clothed with sweats and tennis shoes on and after breakfast, I weighed in at 209 (I weighed in at 204 this morning buck naked before eating or drinking anything). I also lost 5" overall (inch off chest, waist, belly, and hips, and 1/2 inch off arms and thighs). I think that says quite a bit...I did it! I really did it!

Now that the hardest week, IMO, is over, I'm ready to conquer this next week. Tomorrow I add in weights to my workout and will continue to build up my endurance on The Beast.

  
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CATIATM 11/22/2014 10:31PM

    Wow! Brenda! You are doing great!!! emoticon

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GRACEOMALLEY 11/16/2014 9:13PM

    Oh my gosh Brenda! You are doing so great! We are so pleased at your success! BRAVO to you!
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FLORIDASUN 11/16/2014 4:17PM

    Fantastic...you are SO doing this Brenda...I'm VERY VERY pleased as punch proud of you! Goooooooo little bear....gooooooo! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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STRONG_SARAH 11/16/2014 3:01PM

    Keep going! The hardest week is when you stop losing and hit a plateau. That's when you have to dig deep in yourself and say "it's only temporary, I can get by this!"
You're off to a great start. Congrats!

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The anatomy of weight gain (Photos Included)

Thursday, November 06, 2014

Today, I made an important step in attempting to shed the pounds I've been so frustrated with over the past 6 years. I joined a group called "The Onion Factory" in Anderson, Indiana. My "friend" suggested it after I had confided in him that I wanted to lose weight. He was relentless in his pushing me to contact this group after his mom, sister, and ex-girlfriend had all seen positive and amazing results from being there. So, Saturday begins that journey.

But how did I get here...in 1995, I had the figure of a healthy 27 year old doing work at children's homes as a missions trip. I was a size 8, happy, healthy and ready to take on life:



Even as recently as last fall/winter when I hit the 50 lb mark and a healthy size 14 hanging on the verge of a size 12. I again, was healthy, happy, and ready to take on life.



And as of October 2008, I was a size 10 who was in love and content in her choices. But that is when the weight started to come on. My thyroid went kaput and the weight came on viciously...starting with a 30 lb increase in a matter of a month.



But here I am (on front right) post cancer operation and the weight at 208. It needs to come off. And it needs to come off now.




I'm praying for encouragement, determination, discipline, and will-power during this time. I'm really doing it this time. No more excuses. No more blaming it on the thyroid...I lost 50 lbs with that thing. No more blaming the drugs the doctor has me on...I can beat those, too.

But most of all...I need your love and support!

  
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FLORIDASUN 11/16/2014 3:58PM

    You KNOW you have your Teddy Bears undying support and love! I hope The Onion Factory is JUST what you need to motivate and boost you into the beautiful Brenda that you are...TODAY, yesterday and always. You are JUST as beautiful as ever but I truly understand your desires to lose some poundage for your health and happier state of mind.

I'm here for you girlfriend...you can SO do this...every day in every way...do it for YOU!

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CATIATM 11/11/2014 1:58PM

    I hope the Onion Factory is just what you need, but seriously - you're gorgeous as your present weight, too. You're a beautiful woman, and I know shedding some pounds will make you feel better and enjoy life more. emoticon

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RAWCOOKIE 11/7/2014 1:19AM

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I don't know anything about The Onion Factory - but it sounds like fun to me! Peeling off the layers & shedding some tears along the way maybe? I might even have to Google it! Go for it! That posture you take up in each of your photos indicates that you are a determined (if perhaps impatient at times?) person - set your mind to it, and get on with it. Spark People's system of encouraging us to keep taking small steps towards health are the key to long-term success. You are taking a great step here. Do let us know how it goes on Saturday.

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/6/2014 10:54PM

    I know how tough it is - the support is here

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SVELTEWARRIOR 11/6/2014 10:46PM

    I have no doubt you can do this!!!!!! I hope you know by now that I am here to support you in any way I can.

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GRACEOMALLEY 11/6/2014 6:48PM

    emoticon You most definitely have my love and friendship and support. It isn't easy, but it is possible! Keep faith in yourself! I believe in you - and me and US!


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PUPPYWHISPERS 11/6/2014 9:15AM

    I am here to support you in any way you need. I believe in you, and I know you will get there.

My advice--try to stay positive, and when you start thinking negative, push yourself out of the funk and negative thinking. You have to fake it till you make it, and after awhile, it will become a habit.

Lean on your friends, and let us know what you need.

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MARYJOANNA 11/6/2014 5:31AM

  Thyroid medication should help to get your thyroid under control.

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Getting Mental

Sunday, November 02, 2014

I was reading an article about how we need to get mentally prepared for weight loss. This got me to thinking about where I am mentally when it comes to not only getting myself healthy, but in life in general.

I've been struggling with mood lately and the mood of late is lethargic, uncaring, and unwanting. I do not want to participate in anything right now, and that is not the mind-set that I want or need right now.

So, how do you get your head back into the game? Good question, and I don't know. I honestly don't. The article suggests sitting down and making a list of the negative aspects of staying your present weight. This could include increased health risks, low energy, and not looking your best. In any way you look at it, the list of negative could make one cry...and it does me.

I have no intention of living at this weight for the rest of my life. I am only 46 and have been in the hospital this week for chest pains. They did an EKG, a chest x-ray, and other tests to find nothing wrong with my heart. So, that leaves one thing left...my mental state.

I think half of my mental states DOES have to do with my weight. I so want to be healthy and thin again. I was there once in the not so distant past. I lost my self-confidence when I gained this weight and I want to gain it back. But I hate going to the gym looking the way I do. Imagine that...going to the one place I need to be and hating myself while there. Something has to change...and it is my mental mindset.

  
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FLORIDASUN 11/16/2014 3:54PM

    It is a battle this mind set! BUT...once you can talk yourself into just DOING it...you feel so proud and accomplished that the next time is a teenie weenie bit easier. I have to literally HURL myself out the door in the early a.m. to get my walks done. But once I'm actually out there...I feel great and am so happy I made the decision to go. Once I get my 2.5 up to 3.5 miles in I feel GREAT and SOOOO accomplished once I come back home.

I'm cheering you on dear Brenda...you deserve the BEST life has to give you...the absolute BEST! Get out there and DO it! emoticon

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CATIATM 11/5/2014 9:19PM

    I hear you. I'm trying to get myself to a place where I understand that I'm killing myself in inches, and so much of my unhappiness manifests in my unhealthy eating. Getting it under control will help me in every other aspect of my life. ... But I'm not 100% there yet.

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BA5454 11/3/2014 12:07PM

    Yeah, I hear you about the mental part. I think it's the hardest thing about losing weight. But I try to take it one day at a time and move on from there. Hope you find your balance soon--and guess what, nobody cares what you look like at the gym, you're all there for one thing--to get fit! I used to have a big gym phobia until I got to the point where it was impacting my getting healthier--it's not worth it. Go! You'll be fine ;-). And if we lived near each other, I'd take you myself!

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/3/2014 6:30AM

    It is so true that we have to mentally be in the right mindset but sometimes that is so difficult - we know you can do it!

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SVELTEWARRIOR 11/2/2014 11:24PM

    Is there any way I can be of help?? If you feel uncomfortable going to the gym right now workout at home…….Spark has a lot of videos. Start small and work your way up and your confidence will build.

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AJB121299 11/2/2014 11:59AM

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On a slow train to nowhere

Monday, October 20, 2014

I've been sparking for about 6 years now. One of the things that I've been proud of is losing 50 lbs in one year. However, the scale has started to creep upward, and I've gained back almost 20 lbs of that 50 back. I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out of it.

Sure, fitness has fallen by the wayside as a myriad of issues had crept up: cancer, endometrial ablation, and other stuff...like today's knee injury. But it doesn't answer the rest of the days I've been healthy. I live in walking distance of the gym. I don't know why I don't just get my butt over there on a regular basis like I used to. Or get out the XBox Zumba game again. I need to regroup and get myself back on track.

And today...I'm taking the pledge...a 28 day one...to get myself back on target.

  
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CATIATM 10/23/2014 10:54AM

    emoticon You go, girl! I think the emotional toll of all those setbacks undermined your mojo a little. I've been there myself lately. What I decided was that being healthier and fitter would give me more energy to handle all those problems, so instead of waiting for the problems to be over - because they never are - I'm putting health and fitness at the top of the list and reordering everything else. Let's see if we're successful. emoticon emoticon

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GRACEOMALLEY 10/22/2014 5:09PM

    emoticon You are half-way there! You know what you need to do and you know how to make that happen. I give you my total support toward your success at accomplishing your goals!
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BA5454 10/22/2014 1:39PM

    Keep pushing, girlfriend...and I say that from my own slumpy-slump. We can do it--YOU can do it! P.S. Did you change your icon? Gorgeous!

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JUSTME29 10/21/2014 8:48AM

    i think I'm on the same slow train you have been, and the scenery just really isn't all that great. Good for you getting off the train, and back to your life.

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SVELTEWARRIOR 10/21/2014 12:09AM

    YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!

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JAMBABY0 10/20/2014 9:23PM

    you can this

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