Monday, December 09, 2013
Saturday morning I check my blood glucose and it was almost 100 points higher than what I am accustomed to seeing. A couple hours I started choking and ended up with petechiae all over my face. (Just call me Spot) The experience left me exhausted and I spent most of the day recovering. I didn't get much done.
Sunday, my blood glucose was only 90 points higher. What is going on with my body, it something wrong with my meter. No, nothing was wrong with the meter. Put another stressor on my body was in play. Kidney stone. Thank heavens it was a short lived episode, but again another day lost.
This morning my blood glucose dropped another 50 points. Sleep has been my friend and so had the bit of ice out on the roads. I'm hoping that all will be well and things will get back to normal.
So I have been feeling a bit sorry for myself. Can a girl get a break here?
No breaks...so I just need to take care of myself and make the best of it.
I am planning out the days until Christmas. Meals, errands and appointments all listed.
Christmas Eve dinner is all planned out. Christmas Day dinner is more low key for us and still needs to be planned.
But my biggest distraction... is awaiting the arrival of my new grandson. His due date is Christmas. Yet every time the phone now rings, my heart jumps. My granddaughter arrived two weeks early.
There will always be distractions, both good and bad, but I still need to stay the course and take care of me.
Thursday, December 05, 2013
That is my excuse for not moving forward right now on my journey toward a healthier lifestyle. Yesterday I received a dreaded scheduled phone call from the dietitian. Oh crap this is going to be a waste of time and make me feel lousy about not being perfect with my eating over Thanksgiving.
Instead I found her focusing on my successes over the weekend and since we last spoke. Then she talked about what next steps I wanted to address. (But it's the holidays, I thought to myself. How can I add to what I am already doing!)
My problem area continues to be nighttime eating.
It seems that as I start to unwind emotions and stress floods in. So to sugar and carbs I go to help me ease the anxiousness and give me that feel good sugar high. Whether good or bad... stress still rears it's ugly head to make my blood glucose rise and sends me searching for carbs.
She had quite a number of suggestions to help me stay on track and not succumb to emotional eating. Listening to music, get a book, meditate, do a puzzle...
My favorite suggestion was for me to make a cup a fragrant herbal tea and write in a stress journal.
For the tea, I have many options: during the day I love a Jasmine Green tea that makes me think I am drinking delicate flowers. An Apple Cinnamon tea would be nice for the evening.
While the tea is steeping, I can gather my thoughts and enter them into the journal. It can just be a TO DO list for tomorrow, planning out my time or listing concerns.
One concern I have is that my Daughter-in-law is nesting and uncomfortable. I do not think she will make it to the due date of Christmas. Every time the phone rings I jump with a bit of anticipation.
What the dietitian offered me was something that would be beneficial, ease my stress, something that I could look forward to. What a wonderful gift she gave me.
Tuesday, December 03, 2013
My blogging has fallen by the wayside. With so much to do, choices needed to be made as to which I would temporarily let go of.
Finding balance is challenge but one that can be managed. Setting priorities helped me decide where I could cut back.
Healthy eating- No, Need to keep this in focus
Exercise - a bit, but not much
Mediation - need this for sanity
Coming to SP to visit and support my SP friends = need this too.
Blog - ah reflection, that is needed but can be put on hold.
Now that Thanksgiving has past, I'm still busy, but need to make time for me. I am a priority. One thought that has stuck in my head over this past weekend was....
to be a friend to myself.
It is okay to be a friend to me. A bit of kindness is a good thing. Treating myself as I would treat a friend, what a wonderful concept! After years and years of giving and not to myself, I am giving myself the gift of my friendship is holiday season. This will be challenging and I will have to post reminders. I have scheduled my exercise, meditation and planned my menu. I will put an alarm reminder about my gift on my cell so I do not forget to be kind to me.
Taking time for me... what a novel concept. :) But I am soooo worth it.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Ah, it is that time of year for great expectations. It would be very easy to say I am not stressing, but that is no true. I'm learning to let go and not stress, but old habits die hard.
On the upside I have been honoring my commitment to doing Classical Stretch and meditating.
I think both have helped curb some of my stress eating.
Granted I'm no spring chicken, but I ain't dead yet. What has surprised me was I was able to wipe down my walls with ease. Fluid movement was present as I reached high and low. Wow that stretching is paying off. What a gift it is to have freedom of movement and no weekend warrior type pain afterward.
Great news, after two months we finally have a new dishwasher. Hubby decided to install it himself. Breathe deeply... it only took two days for him to do that. Don't you just love projects like that just before hosting an event.
Oh well! Yes it messed up my plans, but what's a girl to do and besides it is a quiet dishwasher, Getting angry about it would do me any good so all I can do is adjust and move forward. (See the Beck and meditation is paying off too.)
I cannot wait to see my beautiful granddaughter. It is wonderful to see her grow and develop, She reminds me that I too can grow and develop.
There are so many things that I am thankful for this holiday season among them is having such wise, supportive friends here like you.
Since the hosting of Turkey Day fell to me, I have been working on changing the menu and expectations. Just because the Turkey was stuffed does not mean we have to be stuffed and succumb to a carb stupor. More does not always mean better. Having a more healthful Thanksgiving is my goal, as I love my family and want them to be around for may years to come.
Shifting my expectations and my main focus from the hosting and the food, to the family is my goal.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
That is the first thing I saw in my email after I decided to skip my workout today. What??? It is some sort of cosmic plot... how was it known that I was going to blow off my exercise before even I did.
"Should You Skip Your Workout Today?"
Imagine my shock upon seeing that subject line. I felt like a reprimanded child. Even the mediation for today was about intention. "I create my reality."
My workout is part of my healthy lifestyle, it is a priority. I need to make it happen. Other things can go by the wayside, but not my health. I'm off to create my reality and workout.
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