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"Decluttering" Challenge...

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

So this week as part of the Biggest Loser Challenge that i'm participating in, we were given a "mini-challenge" to DECLUTTER OUR INNER SPACE...

The challenge included several daily activities, including:
- taking 15 minutes to breathe & meditate each day
- getting 6-8 hours of sleep each night
- walking 30 minutes per day
- going outside to get in touch w/ nature for 10 minutes

Along w/ those activities were the following assignments:

1. What is on your mind/weighing you down - honestly, I have a ton on my mind... from stressing out over how I let myself regain all of this weight again, to worrying about my hubby (who may have to have shoulder surgery) and my father (who does have to have hernia repair surgery as soon as I get back from Florida), to wondering how I'm gonna handle the holidays w/ everyone here for the first time in probably 5 yrs, to looking forward to my trip to Florida. Geez, not like I have anything on my mind whatsoever... LoL

2. Identify the essential: what is most important in your life, and what's most important for you to focus on right now - my family, my work, my health are all important in my life, and all of them require my constant focus... unfortunately recently, I dropped the focus on the "health" part, which I believe is how I regained my weight. So my task now is to figure out how to focus on all 3 equally.

3. What things are not essential? What can be eliminated? - recently I actually took it upon myself to eliminate some "extra" duties at work, as well as a committee that I was tied into here in my town, in order to make more time for myself, as I felt that I was being spread a bit too thin. So I believe that I've already taken care of this one and can now focus on the minimal responsibilities that I have left.

4. Last but not least: Do less - I decided this year that I did not need to bake for all of our neighbors, friends, co-workers, etc. I usually "kill" myself baking for hours upon hours to make goodie boxes for upwards of 20 people. This yr I decided that I will only do minimal baking, my family's favorite bread, for our Christmas get-together. I don't need the tempations around, and it will free up at least 2 days on my schedule (not to mention ease my grocery bill quite a bit as well).

So there you have it in a nutshell...

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WALNUTT1961 12/17/2014 4:17PM

    Great blog! I need to do the same thing!

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    Great job identifying your baggage and eliminating extras and focusing on yourself and your health! emoticon

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CHANCE04 12/17/2014 10:13AM

    Great job eliminating the non-essential already :)
Breath in, breath out... FL will be here before you know it.

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STILLMENEWBODY 12/17/2014 9:52AM

    I wish you well Sonja. I know you have had a long hard go of it and I am truly wishing you the brightest and most joyful days in 2015.! Today is a day to go forward and appreciate the here and now. You are aware of what is and what has to be do it girl! JUST DO IT!

Hugs to you..... emoticon

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GOLFGMA 12/17/2014 6:05AM

    You have it figured out already! emoticon

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Happy Sparkversary to me...

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Wow... 6 years... where has the time gone??? It's hard for me to believe that I have had SP in my life for that long!

Even though I haven't reached my goals in that time frame (completely my fault), I believe that I have received some irreplaceable gifts from Sparkpeople over the years:

1. First & foremost, I have discovered the errors of my way w/ my nutrition & fitness mindset. I now know that I have a huge tendency to be an emotional eater, which is never good. And then, when I feel like I have been "bad", I tend to undereat to attempt to "undo" the previous damage, which I now know just causes more damage. (my poor metabolism)

2. I have also learned the proper way of eating, not cutting too much of one thing out of my diet so that I eat healthy, balanced meals instead of following some of the "all or nothing" diets I have tried in the past.

3. Next I discovered that one of the biggest weapons I can have in my weight loss arsenal is encouragement, support & motivation, all of which keep me going much better than the self-hate and loathing that I used to give myself. SP really helps w/ this by providing me w/ challenges to keep me "honest", w/ not only my competitors, but myself. It's easy to avoid the scale and deny that you are straying from your plan when it's just you keeping track, but when you are being held accountable to others, you tend to stay a little more motivated (or at least I do)!

4. Finally, the most important thing that I have gained from SP over these years are all of YOU! My Sparkfriends, some of which who have spilled over into Facebook and even meeting in real life... Spark teammates, previous challenge competitors, readers of my blogs... all of you are the greatest gifts that I could ever receive.

So as I look back on my 6 years here, and I look forward to what the future holds (finally reaching my goals), I want to say "THANK YOU" to Sparkpeople for being here for me, and with me! Here's to another 6 years...

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GRLTAZ 12/16/2014 7:42PM

    Well said ! Congrats !!

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CBRINKLEY401 12/15/2014 1:31PM

    You are making changes and moving towards your goals. I know you will eventually make it. Never give up!!
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When I first joined, I expected to reach my goal by the end of that first year. emoticon emoticon A totally attainable goal. Needless to say, it hasn't happened. Not that year, or the next, or this one either. Maybe next year???? I've stopped obsessing over a specific timetable and am just trying to keep making progress towards that goal. emoticon Whether it is the scale, or just incorporating more healthy habits and replacing the bad habits that got me here in the first place.
Others may be moving at lightning speed towards their goal. emoticon emoticon I have to accept that my body is determined to change at a snail's pace at this time in my life and I'll get there when I get there. emoticon (snail is hiding inside his shell at the moment). I just have to never give up and keep trying. emoticon

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WALNUTT1961 12/14/2014 7:49PM

    Congrats! emoticon

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    emoticon and happy to be getting to know you on the Grey Wolves team emoticon

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CHANCE04 12/14/2014 7:05PM


Happy Anniversary!!!! Keep on truckin emoticon

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BERGBA7 12/14/2014 4:56PM

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Time to start anew... (& 2014 recap)

Monday, December 08, 2014

So the last couple of months have been a rough one for me... not only emotionally, but even more so on the scale. As I posted in my August blog, I had been on a roller coaster ride for the first 7 months of year... well, that coaster derailed, went off tracks, and I'm pretty sure is in the bottom of a lagoon right now!

Not only have I gained some weight, but I have completely UNDONE everything that I've accomplished over the past 6 yrs here on Sparkpeople... my total measurements are actually 0.75 inches higher now than they were when I started SP back in Dec 2008, though somehow my "restarting" weight is 2.6 lbs. less than that fateful day.

Here are the embarrassing numbers from this year:

Weight: 33.4 lbs. gained (269.4)

Body fat %: 5.4 % gained (43.5)

Upper arms: 1.25 in. gained (15.75)

Chest: 4 in. gained (50.25)

Waist: 4 in. gained (50)

Hips: 4.75 in. gained (54.5)

Thighs: 3 in. gained (29)

Calves: 1 in. gained (17.5)

TOTAL: 18 inches GAINED

So, before I do any more damage to my body, I absolutely MUST get back on the wagon and get this weight back off!

I've got to get back to what I know works...

1. Logging my food to help stay w/in my calorie range set by SP

2. 30 minutes of activity each day, including minimum of 2 gym visits per week

3. Weekly weigh-ins and monthly measurements to monitor my progress

4. Last... and most importantly, daily visits to Sparkpeople to check-in and stay accountable

I plan to go back to monthly blogs to document my progress, which seems to motivate me to stay on track... so I hope that ya'll will come along on my journey. I need all of the support, encouragement, and occasional booty kick that I can get!

Here's to a more successful 2015...

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WINDYCITYCYNDEE 12/14/2014 12:49AM

    Honest reflection is the first step to success. Good job! emoticon

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ARMATTHAEI 12/10/2014 7:33AM

    Great to recommit to your goals!

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DAVENPLK 12/9/2014 10:15PM

  I am so glad that we are on the same team. I am here for you. We can get this done together!!!

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DEANNATN 12/9/2014 9:00PM

    I'm right there with you. I've gained everything back plus some.

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GRLTAZ 12/9/2014 2:52PM

    Why do you want this ? What do you want, specifically ? What will help you stick to healthy even when life happens ? These are things I asked myself when I started and sometimes I need to re- ask myself. You will do what you need to do when you are truly ready. Until then, fake it until you make it works for some. emoticon emoticon

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WALNUTT1961 12/8/2014 10:20PM

    Yep, I'm there with you! I need some motivation! Too many holiday goodies around me and I want them. I started back on track yesterday. You can do it!

I might need a kick in the pants too! emoticon

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TROOPER1961 12/8/2014 5:09PM

    emoticon Sonja!! You are strong and I know you can back on track!! emoticon

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The Ultimate Roller Coaster Ride...

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

I think this picture is a perfect example of what my weight loss journey has been like (& many others that I know of as well)... an unending roller coaster filled w/ ups & downs, twists & turns, loops that toss your world upside down & inside out, and just when you think you might hit a plateau, here comes the next "bump in the road"!

I say "unending" because I have literally been fighting this "battle of the bulge" my entire adult life (and even a couple of my teen years as well)! I know that I'm not alone... and for this I am thankful, because it makes me feel like less of a loser (in the bad sense) because I haven't figured out how to be a successful "loser" (in the good sense). But then again, I wouldn't wish this type of struggle on even my worst enemies... okay, maybe that is a little white lie... remember that skinny little thing from high school who thought she was all that, made the "fat" girl's life a living hell, and could eat anything she wanted while still looking like a pixie stick in her clothes? It might give me a little private joy to see her struggle just once w/ the ongoing battle I've had for 25+ years. (I apologize if that offended anyone... just me bein "real")

I know that I have no one to blame for the weight that I carry but myself. My issues began while I was still in high school, and I believe were partially brought on because I turned to food as a comfort when my home life was not the best. But I don't blame my parents... because they weren't the ones buying the fast food and/or snacks from the convenience store & stuffing it in my face. That was all me! Sure I'm glad that I turned to food rather than other bad vices (i.e. alcohol, drugs, etc)... but I was still the one who made that choice.

I crossed the 200 lb. mark at my initial doctor's appointment for my first pregnancy. Can't blame being pregnant for the weigh gain... after all, 65 lbs. is not a "normal" amount of weight to gain during a pregnancy. I was the one who decided from day 1, that after several years of being on a perpetual diet, I finally had an excuse to eat whatever I wanted... after all, I was eating for two now, right? And I don't think I can get by w/ saying that I haven't lost the "baby weight" yet... my son will turn 25 this year, so I'm pretty sure I lost that excuse many years ago.

I've been thru multiple surgeries over the course of my lifetime (literally 19 surgeries since 1989) and each one came w/ their own recovery period, and new effects on my body, which in turn affected my ability to lose weight and/or caused me to gain weight. But I'm not the only one to have health issues in their life, and not everyone who does allows themselves to balloon up to almost 300 lbs. because of it.

And unlike many of my friends, who turn to stress eating when life throws "bumps" into their road, I seem to be the opposite... when I get stressed (like during my 2 divorces), I actually lost weight! However, on the flipside, when I am happy, I tend to gain weight... and gosh darn it, wouldn't you know that 3rd time would be a charm for me, and I have found a man who has made me extremely happy over the past 10+ years! Yep... EXTREMELY happy... back over 275 lbs. worth of happiness... that much happiness can't be good for anyone!

Don't get me wrong... I have been successful at various points in my weight loss journey... even making it into the much-desired "ONEderland" briefly back in 2010 after I joined Sparkpeople back in 2008. However, in true roller coaster fashion, I let a major surgery be the next "reason" that my weight piled back on, continuing to do so until I regained almost everything that I lost over those 2 yrs. I honestly think that I have probably lost & regained the same 50-some pounds at least 5 if not 10 times over the course of my weight loss journey. Just imagine what I would look like, feel like, be capable of, if I could've eliminated the "regain" part, and just done the "losing" part. (I'd probably be one of those skinny things I complained about in the beginning of this blog... LoL)

So... I've wrote all this down, and shared it with all of you... now what is the reason for all of this???

To make a statement: that as much as I love "thrill rides" in the amusement parks, I am tired of this particular roller coaster ride... so it is time to get off of it once and for all! As I said, I have been successful before, so obviously I know what works for my body... now I just need to do it. No more procrastinating... no more road blocks... no more excuses! And I wanted to share this blog to put it out there for all of you to read & hold me accountable. One of the major contributors to my weight loss success in the past has been the motivation I get from all of my Sparkfriends, as well as their support & encouragement.

For those of you who took the time to read my long-winded blog, I THANK YOU! I felt that in order to be successful this time, I needed to share this if for no other reason than to make myself accountable to the "excuses" that I have used in the past. If my "story" helps anyone else that happens to read it, then that's an added bonus!

It is now time to exit the ride...

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WINDYCITYCYNDEE 12/14/2014 12:47AM

    I also tend to gain weight when I'm happy! especially in a relationship kind of happy! I totally understand. Good luck to you finding a steady path! emoticon

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SUNSHINE5268 9/2/2014 12:18AM

    Fantastic blog! wow!

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MUMMY22BOYS 8/20/2014 1:30AM

    Wow I could have written this myself. Between multiple surgeries, quitting smoking twice over the past few years and life's general stress I hit my highest weight ever. I want to make this fall the best. Come summer I want to be proud enough of my body to wear shorts in public!! Let's do this together :)

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KKLIONESS013 8/13/2014 1:06PM

    THANK YOU for sharing your journey with us! It sounds like we have been on similar rides...I agree--it's time to get off this ride, and get back in the normal sized seat version that exists only at theme parks! emoticon

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ARMATTHAEI 8/13/2014 9:53AM

    Thanks for sharing this. I am hoping that it helped others realize that they are not alone in this roller coater ride that is a life long process. I have heard that those with eating disorders like bulemia and anorexia face daily challenges with their diseases whenever they chose to eat or not eat. We emotional eaters are the same. I say we here because some people eat when they are happy, as you mentioned; others eat when they are stressed, sad, angry, etc.

Hope that you continue with SP and look forward to supporting you on your journey.

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    I am on the rollercoaster with you. I am a stress eater and a happy celebrating. I love your blog.

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TWESTEN1 8/12/2014 11:53AM

    Woohoo - sounds like you are ready to get back on the "losing" train! I had to laugh as I also hit the 200 when I was pregnant with my first - I remember being absolutely mortified. Let me tell you how I felt 16 years later, last September when I stepped on the scale and saw 295. Yup - it hurts!!!

I am glad that you've got yourself an awesome man & it sounds like he makes you happy, which is wonderful. And you've lost the weight before so obviously you can do it again! You've got this... and we've got your back :)

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STILLMENEWBODY 8/12/2014 10:13AM

    Thank you for giving us a little background information about your journey. 19, I am sorry to hear that and hope that whatever they were helped improve your life.
What I really like about your blog is that you are being accountable, You are admitting that YOU are responsible for your eating habits. It doesn't matter what others have said or done that may have affected us in a negative way. WE STILL are the ones responsible for how we dealt with that.
I recently wrote a blog about some things that had affected me and that I ate myself back up to 50+ pounds. What I did not say or acknowledge is....I was responsible for the choices I made. At least I don't think I!
I am happy for you that you have found the man you want to share your world with. I also understand the roller coaster that so many of us have been on. I am surprised we have never crossed paths lol!
I don't know you but honestly....when I look at your photo and read your posts all I feel is positive energy. YOU DEFINITELY HAVE HOPE! You can do look the look, we talk the talk now let's enjoy the walk to great health and happiness!
HIGH FIVE for your openness today! emoticon

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TROOPER1961 8/12/2014 9:55AM

    Great blog! I think alot of us are on this roller coaster ride and for a very long time. It is time to find a new ride so I will commit with you. Lets make fall the best ever!! emoticon

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GRLTAZ 8/12/2014 9:43AM

    Wow ! Now that is a roller coaster ride. Sounds like you have made up your mind, now just do it ! :) We all know you can do this and do it for the rest of your life because you are worth it !

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LWILKINS60 8/12/2014 7:02AM

    Great blog post! You can do it!

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TJOHNOCONNOR 8/12/2014 5:20AM

    I enjoyed the read very much. Success is not an unobstructed linear line that is traveled. It is a bunch of squiggly lines that go on and off of the desired path we seek. It has been said that one cannot learn anything from another person, if they are in total agreement with them on everything. So I guess it would be safe to assume that you cant learn anything from life, if we don't stumble from time to time. I hope all the best for you. emoticon

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RAPUNZEL53 8/12/2014 5:11AM

  Good Luck!

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Squat & Push-up Challenge...

Monday, March 03, 2014

I have had several people ask about the Squat & Push-up Challenge that I did in February, so here it is...

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SOON2BCOURTNEY 3/6/2014 11:24PM

    Thanks for sharing. I am nursing a sore wrist after a nasty fall on the ice but I can at least do the squats.

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BSTMAMAS 3/4/2014 12:02PM

    I'd love to try this but my left knee gives me lots of trouble. Good luck to you!!

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AVONWITHJENN 3/4/2014 12:50AM

    Thank you for sharing!

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DEANNATN 3/3/2014 11:01PM

    Thanks for sharing!! I started a squat challenge the 1st. Was wanting to add something else the pushups would be good

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