Wednesday, December 17, 2014
So this week as part of the Biggest Loser Challenge that i'm participating in, we were given a "mini-challenge" to DECLUTTER OUR INNER SPACE...
The challenge included several daily activities, including:
- taking 15 minutes to breathe & meditate each day
- getting 6-8 hours of sleep each night
- walking 30 minutes per day
- going outside to get in touch w/ nature for 10 minutes
Along w/ those activities were the following assignments:
1. What is on your mind/weighing you down - honestly, I have a ton on my mind... from stressing out over how I let myself regain all of this weight again, to worrying about my hubby (who may have to have shoulder surgery) and my father (who does have to have hernia repair surgery as soon as I get back from Florida), to wondering how I'm gonna handle the holidays w/ everyone here for the first time in probably 5 yrs, to looking forward to my trip to Florida. Geez, not like I have anything on my mind whatsoever... LoL
2. Identify the essential: what is most important in your life, and what's most important for you to focus on right now - my family, my work, my health are all important in my life, and all of them require my constant focus... unfortunately recently, I dropped the focus on the "health" part, which I believe is how I regained my weight. So my task now is to figure out how to focus on all 3 equally.
3. What things are not essential? What can be eliminated? - recently I actually took it upon myself to eliminate some "extra" duties at work, as well as a committee that I was tied into here in my town, in order to make more time for myself, as I felt that I was being spread a bit too thin. So I believe that I've already taken care of this one and can now focus on the minimal responsibilities that I have left.
4. Last but not least: Do less - I decided this year that I did not need to bake for all of our neighbors, friends, co-workers, etc. I usually "kill" myself baking for hours upon hours to make goodie boxes for upwards of 20 people. This yr I decided that I will only do minimal baking, my family's favorite bread, for our Christmas get-together. I don't need the tempations around, and it will free up at least 2 days on my schedule (not to mention ease my grocery bill quite a bit as well).
So there you have it in a nutshell...
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Wow... 6 years... where has the time gone??? It's hard for me to believe that I have had SP in my life for that long!
Even though I haven't reached my goals in that time frame (completely my fault), I believe that I have received some irreplaceable gifts from Sparkpeople over the years:
1. First & foremost, I have discovered the errors of my way w/ my nutrition & fitness mindset. I now know that I have a huge tendency to be an emotional eater, which is never good. And then, when I feel like I have been "bad", I tend to undereat to attempt to "undo" the previous damage, which I now know just causes more damage. (my poor metabolism)
2. I have also learned the proper way of eating, not cutting too much of one thing out of my diet so that I eat healthy, balanced meals instead of following some of the "all or nothing" diets I have tried in the past.
3. Next I discovered that one of the biggest weapons I can have in my weight loss arsenal is encouragement, support & motivation, all of which keep me going much better than the self-hate and loathing that I used to give myself. SP really helps w/ this by providing me w/ challenges to keep me "honest", w/ not only my competitors, but myself. It's easy to avoid the scale and deny that you are straying from your plan when it's just you keeping track, but when you are being held accountable to others, you tend to stay a little more motivated (or at least I do)!
4. Finally, the most important thing that I have gained from SP over these years are all of YOU! My Sparkfriends, some of which who have spilled over into Facebook and even meeting in real life... Spark teammates, previous challenge competitors, readers of my blogs... all of you are the greatest gifts that I could ever receive.
So as I look back on my 6 years here, and I look forward to what the future holds (finally reaching my goals), I want to say "THANK YOU" to Sparkpeople for being here for me, and with me! Here's to another 6 years...
Monday, December 08, 2014
So the last couple of months have been a rough one for me... not only emotionally, but even more so on the scale. As I posted in my August blog, I had been on a roller coaster ride for the first 7 months of year... well, that coaster derailed, went off tracks, and I'm pretty sure is in the bottom of a lagoon right now!
Not only have I gained some weight, but I have completely UNDONE everything that I've accomplished over the past 6 yrs here on Sparkpeople... my total measurements are actually 0.75 inches higher now than they were when I started SP back in Dec 2008, though somehow my "restarting" weight is 2.6 lbs. less than that fateful day.
Here are the embarrassing numbers from this year:
Weight: 33.4 lbs. gained (269.4)
Body fat %: 5.4 % gained (43.5)
Upper arms: 1.25 in. gained (15.75)
Chest: 4 in. gained (50.25)
Waist: 4 in. gained (50)
Hips: 4.75 in. gained (54.5)
Thighs: 3 in. gained (29)
Calves: 1 in. gained (17.5)
TOTAL: 18 inches GAINED
So, before I do any more damage to my body, I absolutely MUST get back on the wagon and get this weight back off!
I've got to get back to what I know works...
1. Logging my food to help stay w/in my calorie range set by SP
2. 30 minutes of activity each day, including minimum of 2 gym visits per week
3. Weekly weigh-ins and monthly measurements to monitor my progress
4. Last... and most importantly, daily visits to Sparkpeople to check-in and stay accountable
I plan to go back to monthly blogs to document my progress, which seems to motivate me to stay on track... so I hope that ya'll will come along on my journey. I need all of the support, encouragement, and occasional booty kick that I can get!
Here's to a more successful 2015...
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
I think this picture is a perfect example of what my weight loss journey has been like (& many others that I know of as well)... an unending roller coaster filled w/ ups & downs, twists & turns, loops that toss your world upside down & inside out, and just when you think you might hit a plateau, here comes the next "bump in the road"!
I say "unending" because I have literally been fighting this "battle of the bulge" my entire adult life (and even a couple of my teen years as well)! I know that I'm not alone... and for this I am thankful, because it makes me feel like less of a loser (in the bad sense) because I haven't figured out how to be a successful "loser" (in the good sense). But then again, I wouldn't wish this type of struggle on even my worst enemies... okay, maybe that is a little white lie... remember that skinny little thing from high school who thought she was all that, made the "fat" girl's life a living hell, and could eat anything she wanted while still looking like a pixie stick in her clothes? It might give me a little private joy to see her struggle just once w/ the ongoing battle I've had for 25+ years. (I apologize if that offended anyone... just me bein "real")
I know that I have no one to blame for the weight that I carry but myself. My issues began while I was still in high school, and I believe were partially brought on because I turned to food as a comfort when my home life was not the best. But I don't blame my parents... because they weren't the ones buying the fast food and/or snacks from the convenience store & stuffing it in my face. That was all me! Sure I'm glad that I turned to food rather than other bad vices (i.e. alcohol, drugs, etc)... but I was still the one who made that choice.
I crossed the 200 lb. mark at my initial doctor's appointment for my first pregnancy. Can't blame being pregnant for the weigh gain... after all, 65 lbs. is not a "normal" amount of weight to gain during a pregnancy. I was the one who decided from day 1, that after several years of being on a perpetual diet, I finally had an excuse to eat whatever I wanted... after all, I was eating for two now, right? And I don't think I can get by w/ saying that I haven't lost the "baby weight" yet... my son will turn 25 this year, so I'm pretty sure I lost that excuse many years ago.
I've been thru multiple surgeries over the course of my lifetime (literally 19 surgeries since 1989) and each one came w/ their own recovery period, and new effects on my body, which in turn affected my ability to lose weight and/or caused me to gain weight. But I'm not the only one to have health issues in their life, and not everyone who does allows themselves to balloon up to almost 300 lbs. because of it.
And unlike many of my friends, who turn to stress eating when life throws "bumps" into their road, I seem to be the opposite... when I get stressed (like during my 2 divorces), I actually lost weight! However, on the flipside, when I am happy, I tend to gain weight... and gosh darn it, wouldn't you know that 3rd time would be a charm for me, and I have found a man who has made me extremely happy over the past 10+ years! Yep... EXTREMELY happy... back over 275 lbs. worth of happiness... that much happiness can't be good for anyone!
Don't get me wrong... I have been successful at various points in my weight loss journey... even making it into the much-desired "ONEderland" briefly back in 2010 after I joined Sparkpeople back in 2008. However, in true roller coaster fashion, I let a major surgery be the next "reason" that my weight piled back on, continuing to do so until I regained almost everything that I lost over those 2 yrs. I honestly think that I have probably lost & regained the same 50-some pounds at least 5 if not 10 times over the course of my weight loss journey. Just imagine what I would look like, feel like, be capable of, if I could've eliminated the "regain" part, and just done the "losing" part. (I'd probably be one of those skinny things I complained about in the beginning of this blog... LoL)
So... I've wrote all this down, and shared it with all of you... now what is the reason for all of this???
To make a statement: that as much as I love "thrill rides" in the amusement parks, I am tired of this particular roller coaster ride... so it is time to get off of it once and for all! As I said, I have been successful before, so obviously I know what works for my body... now I just need to do it. No more procrastinating... no more road blocks... no more excuses! And I wanted to share this blog to put it out there for all of you to read & hold me accountable. One of the major contributors to my weight loss success in the past has been the motivation I get from all of my Sparkfriends, as well as their support & encouragement.
For those of you who took the time to read my long-winded blog, I THANK YOU! I felt that in order to be successful this time, I needed to share this if for no other reason than to make myself accountable to the "excuses" that I have used in the past. If my "story" helps anyone else that happens to read it, then that's an added bonus!
It is now time to exit the ride...
Monday, March 03, 2014
I have had several people ask about the Squat & Push-up Challenge that I did in February, so here it is...
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