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HUNGER!

Friday, October 24, 2014

My doctor has me on 2 separate steroids due to my ear infection. I finished one of them today and will be finishing the 2nd one in 4 days. I HATE this constant hunger. emoticon

I was wandering last night if I would ever feel full again. Don't get me wrong, I feel like I am so very bloated emoticon but my brain and saliva glands keep begging me to feed them more! emoticon

I know that I am suppose to be eating the non calorie foods to calm this feeling but why is it that the good stuff doesn't satisfy that hunger monster at times like this?!

I dread my next weight in because this time the hunger has been so intense! emoticon


  
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SMITHKRISTI 10/26/2014 7:40PM

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/25/2014 7:58AM

    I like what SUSANSLIFE said and I'm going to keep that in mind. Hope it helps you too! Hang in there!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 10/24/2014 12:39PM

    Steroids are a bear that way. At least the end is in sight.

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CINDHOLM 10/24/2014 11:12AM

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SUSANSLIFE 10/24/2014 10:34AM

    Debbie, if you are too young to remember the actor, James Coco, google him. Suffice to say that he was mostly a Broadway star but also made a number of movies, and was well-regarded in all. Jimmy was obese and in an effort to lose weight, which he did, from 305 down to 195, had turned to the famed Duke University which was having great success with their weight loss program for inpatients. I have his book which he wrote afterward, and in it I always remember him telling one thing he was told. Hunger is the sign that you are losing weight at that very moment. He said that any time he was hungry between meals, he reminded himself that he didn't want to NOT lose that bit of weight that was being burned up right then. It certainly worked for him, and I try to use the same self-talk, too.

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KESTRYLL 10/24/2014 9:10AM

    Good luck, my friend

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Good Intensions Become A Learning Experience

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Good Intensions become a learning experience ........

Breakfast Consisted of egg whites, mixed peppers, and onions. A half a cup each of LF cottage cheese and red grapefruit slices with 1 turkey breakfast sausage link......

grand total:
Egg Whites .25c = 30 cal + 0fat
Sausage 1 link = 33 c + 2.3 f
LF Cottage Cheese 0.5c = 90c + 1.5g f,
Grape Fruit 0.5c = 60c + 0 f
Peppers 0.25c = 6.3 c + 0 f
Veg. oil 1 tbp = 120 c + 14g f

= 339.3 Calories
= 17.8 Fat

I can see after I had breakfast that I should have added up the totals BEFORE not after because I would have made some changes if I had. It's a learning journey my friends emoticon

Just remember to always add the calories for the oils and other ingredients that you just don't think as having calories or fat. BIG eye opener with the veg. oil emoticon

I won't be posting every meal during this journey to a healthier me but I will from time to time just to keep myself honest with all of you AND myself..... emoticon

  
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SMITHKRISTI 10/23/2014 6:37AM

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FORMYDARLINGS 10/22/2014 7:02PM

    Try canola oil instead. It has as many calories but is a much healthier choice. You can do this. It was a great breakfast. Also. We bought a refillable spray bottle for oils and put our cooking oils in those. We spray the pan with the oil, which is enough for cooking but not nearly as many calories as 1 teaspoon. Ideas to cut the calories and fats. Have a great upcoming weekend friend.


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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/22/2014 5:55PM

    Other than the oil, that was a good breakfast! Hope your day has been a good one!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 10/22/2014 2:22PM

    Looks like a pretty good breakfast!

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CFODEL 10/22/2014 12:08PM

    We have all had those surprises I think. Good for you to follow through and make notes for yourself.

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KAREN608 10/22/2014 11:09AM

    So true about oil, or two many sprays of cooking spray. It all adds up! You were doing so good until the oil bomb! I like a muffin now and then so use applesauce and not oil, or bananas .... learning!

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CRUISEGAL55 10/22/2014 10:29AM

    Breakfast should be your biggest meal of the day. You have all day to burn it off. You'll pay closer attention to the size of your other meals.
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Day One

Sunday, October 19, 2014

I have decided to take a page from one of my friends and start over from the ground floor.

Here goes the first day of helping myself be healthy and HAPPY.....

  
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SMITHKRISTI 10/22/2014 7:11AM

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CFODEL 10/21/2014 7:52AM

    Yay for day one! emoticon

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PIXIE-LICIOUS 10/20/2014 8:03AM

    Congrats on your Fresh Start! Wishing you a great day and a healthy week!
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NEWBIRTH2014 10/19/2014 11:19PM

    One step at a time…you can and will complete this journey emoticon

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SUSANSLIFE 10/19/2014 9:12PM

    Wonderful decision and by doing so, you are holding yourself accountable!

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BE-THE-CHANGE 10/19/2014 2:56PM

    A fresh start can do a world of good!
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PFERG66 10/19/2014 2:24PM

    It really is up to us, isn't it?
Love your family; lean on us!
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ANGELFMABV 10/19/2014 11:32AM

    You have this girl! One day at a time!

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My Enablers

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

I came face to face with the realization that I am very close to my enablers. They live within my intimate circle of family members. I won't rat them out today because I love them dearly.......

If you do not believe the ones closest to you can be enablers then pay attention to the things going on around you. Last night I was doing ok. I did indulge on a couple of taco's from a local fast food place around 3:30 or 4:00 because I allowed my stress level to rocket through the roof of my truck but It was better than other things running through my mind. I knew that the tacos would fill the void until I could get control of my mind and nerves.

Then it was suggested that we order Spaghetti for dinner at a well known place for take home.....
That's one of my weak spots..... pasta!

I will do better today..... Never give up my friends..... and know that although we have enablers around us it's US that have to become strong enough to say NO! emoticon

  
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MICKEYMAX 10/17/2014 11:01PM

    I think you are an amazing woman!

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SMITHKRISTI 10/16/2014 9:07AM

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BLUEJAY1969 10/15/2014 4:40PM

    I have one supporter and one enabler in my close circle so I have both ends of the spectrum! I know how hard it can be! Strength young padawan!
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PFERG66 10/15/2014 3:48PM

    I hear you! My enablers love me so much; they want to love me to death emoticon .

When I am given two or three choices of where we should eat out (and it's not all that often) I pick the lesser of all the evils and, if possible go kiddie size!

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KAREN608 10/15/2014 1:27PM

    oh so true. and learning moderation with spaghetti is something i am working on. I can have my favorite foods but not in the giant portions of my past. It seems to be working, a good weigh in day again this week. Keep working the plan!

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SUSANSLIFE 10/15/2014 9:12AM

    You are soooo right!

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I'm Acting Out! >:[

Thursday, October 02, 2014

My body seems to function opposite of what all the weight loss experts say that it should. I think that's part of my problem, I try to make myself fit into the mold of what the weight loss coaches, doctors, and specialists say that I should. I do well eating 2 main meals with the occasional apple, banana, or orange with fresh ground peanuts when I FEEL hungry. My biggest failure is in the amount of food I allow myself to eat and the type of food I feed it. I could behave and eat what I am suppose to but that's the issue with me...... I tend to rebel when I am suppose to get started on these healthy eating plans. I know that IF I can get my head straight then the body will follow
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I do know that until I stop throwing temper tantrums, I stop acting like a spoiled child, I grow up and face this weight and brain issue, and get with the plan, I will NEVER accomplish the amazing goals that my friends have and will just continue to sit here stagnant and crying on weight in day because I gained instead of lost.

Who knows for sure what my body can or even will do until I stop acting out in rebellion?!

  
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SMITHKRISTI 10/27/2014 7:54AM

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JULIAMOONCHILD 10/14/2014 11:04PM

    I hear ya, Deb! It is tough to get with the plan and to stay with the plan ,,, UNLESS we figure out what is stopping us from continuing the plan once we're on it. That's where I am right now the figuring stage, but I've also discovered a new way of self discipline that might prove to be my life line, More on that to come.
In the meantime, I will share this - It has been brought home to me, so to speak, that we ALL need to have something to dream about- a special something along each step of the way that we look forward to doing- and then DOING IT. Something we do for OURSELVES. Something we enjoy just for OURSELVES. I have come to the realization that much of what has held me "stagnant and crying" (to borrow your words) is not having anything at all to dream about. Today I am working on creating small visions (dreams) of things I WILL do for myself in the very near future. Little things, perhaps, but rewarding things that will take me for a day (if not longer) out of my day-to-day routine. By dreaming and by fulfilling even the smallest of dreams and then creating even more, is spiritually renewing. I truly believe this. But Deb, like I said, it has been a very long time since I have entertained even the smallest of dreams. So, what would you dream of doing for yourself - as in short term dream goal, if you were feeling generous and kind to your spirit, no matter the reading on a scale?
Sometimes it can be as simple as taking yourself to a matinee, or away for one night to be ALONE with your own thoughts (and your laptop, of course) emoticon
But whatever a dream is, once it is realized, I truly think it empowers us and gives us reason to dream of more and to dream of bigger and better things. I have not been dreaming but have been like a near dead spirit ... and that is what must change in order for me to make the changes in my life that will be rewarding.
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KAREN608 10/9/2014 11:04PM

    I need a reset button for my brain when it comes to eating. I used to be a slim child so somewhere along the way I got my brain out of whack. Rebellion is a good word for it!

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SMITHKRISTI 10/3/2014 11:31AM

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DLYNN1113 10/2/2014 10:50PM

    Debbie, I can empathize with you, but they tell you to eat that way for a reason. Years of being a nighttime nurse and coming home at 10 am hitting the bed and sleeping till 5 leaving me only enought time to get up and ready for work again wreaked havoc on my metabolism. I went for days without eating except for snacking on chips or candy they had in the breakroom at work. I still to this day do not get hungry no matter how long it's been since I have eaten. I have to make myself eat otherwise I find I start craving junkfood. Not sure what all the nutritional reasons are for that...could just be the way I conditioned myself. I make myself eat breakfast (instant oatmeal, quick and simple plus healthy), sometimes lunch will just be some fruit and a fiber bar, then I eat dinner since I have to cook for my mom and brother. But I make myself do it not because my stomach says I'm hungry I want to eat, but because I know if I don't at about 3 pm I will not have eaten all day and I will be saying I want chips. And that is how I got to where I am. So there with you my dear sparkfriend, taking it one day at a time. emoticon

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PFERG66 10/2/2014 12:25PM

    Good morning. I read through all your friends' comments and I hope you see the same thing I did: One. Small. Step. At. A. Time.
Let us know which small step you choose and we will help you with accountability.
Throw that temper tantrum on the Emotional Eaters message board instead of at yourself.
You have already started by blogging this, right?
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Hey. We love you.

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FORMYDARLINGS 10/2/2014 11:54AM

    It's really hard to accept that when you eat properly, with the right balance of foods, that less will be enough. I started slowly by taking my regular amount but leaving a little of each food on my plate each meal. I would leave 1 bite of meat, 1 forkful of rice or potatoes and 1 piece of veggies, even though I know we can have the veggies. Slowly I got used to a little less every day. I also switched to a salad plate for all my meals and for dessert, if we were having or snacks, a dessert dish instead of a cereal bowl. Little mind games sort of but now I have no portion issues. Try a few things to see how you can be kind to yourself and still work your program. It' is very hard to get 'diet' out of your mind. I started a few years ago calling it a food plan. Never the word diet. It made it more comfortable for me.


Gini

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BLUEJAY1969 10/2/2014 11:16AM

    You can't bite off too big a chunk of your life to change at one time or you won't sustain the changes! Go with one small thing, make it a streak and when you feel you have it add another streak! I know with the diabetes you have to follow certain guidelines and that is hard in itself so don't keep whacking yourself over the head for not getting it all done at one time!
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SUSANSLIFE 10/2/2014 10:37AM

    Debbie, you can only change one thing at a time. Choose what you want to accomplish, such as no second helpings, or eat a protein-packed breakfast, or make an extra (one more than you usually do) roundtrip up and down the steps entering into your home each day. But only choose one. Be faithful and do it for a week before you ADD a second new habit, while continuing the first. A habit takes at least 28 days to settle in and be something you willingly do each day, so keep adding, not substituting. When at least a week has gone by, you add the next new habit, but you can take 2 weeks or whatever you feel you need on that one, before you add the next new one.

During these subtle changes forming new habits, let everything else just be the same. Most of us with a lot to lose simply cannot make too many changes at one time. Changing what and when we eat is very hard because those patterns are ingrained in us. Don't throw your body and mind into a tantrum and think that you can't do anything right. Be gentle with yourself and add just one new habit at a time. It works!


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DEWILL2 10/2/2014 10:22AM

    Now that you know that, don't beat yourself up. Take one step at a time and make a plan and stick to it. Some people can just jump in and do it but you may be different and need to accomplish things one thing at a time. Believe in yourself and know you can do it when you put your might to. Good luck.

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