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A champions tale

Sunday, September 28, 2014

June of 2011 I was scared into making some life changes. Each day since that day I have put all i have into becoming the healthiest me i could possibly be. During the past three years I have pushed, scarified, I have taught myself how to keep going. I have learned to take victory and defeat with the same grain of salt. In October of 2011 I walked my first humiliating 5k walk. I was over 300 pounds and didnt know anything so I walked it with very little training and honestly with the thought in my head I am just like anyone else. That was a self lie, I am not just like everyone else. I wasnt like everyone then and I am still not today. It took me 73 very painful minutes to walk that thing as tears flowed I thought for a moment you should stop all this you will never make it just quit .

Sept 27,2014 I wake up and all these thoughts enter my head. Do I want to really attempt this indoor triathlon ? You will never win ? What if I fall ? What if I tear my Achilles out ? What if i fail ? Can my ego take failure ? Then my Jon said You can do this I am with you !!! my son Said I am so proud to be your son just do your best that is all you are after !!!

I packed up flossy ( gym bag if you dont know ). And off we went to test our limits . I told myself the only way you fail today is if quit and don't finish . The indoor Triathlon is 150 meter swim, 10 mile spinning bike ride and two mile treadmill run. It is a competition and is treated like that . Everyone's attitude was to finish at the best time we could.

In swimming I went into the pool third and came out second. I would like to thank my friend Joann from spark people early on she put the thought in my head if you get tired just change strokes. I am much more efficient in the back stroke so when i got tired I would just flip and back stroke some. Out the water and into work out pants and top. Transition was a little difficult as i never have put dry clothes over my bathing suit but it can be done lets just not do it all the time lol. then off to the spinning room . Now people those bikes are not comfortable but i survived . I was second on the bike and I came off of third. Then off the treadmill.

Ahh the treadmill during practice it became apparent to me that this would in fact be my toughest part. The treadmill has a different drag on my foot than the ground. The treadmill also scares me as it is moving under me. My foot has to be babied and the treadmill doesnt do that. Right off the bat once started the issue was that my shoe was to loose but no time to fix that . Although I can run / jog at the track I can not on the treadmill. At 1.75 miles honestly this is where I wanted to quit . The Achilles had gotten tight and it was throbbing pain pulsating through my calf but I told myself you will not and i started counting down the tenths of mile . I only worried about the next tenth of a mile. I focused on that only . And I did finish.

I came off the treadmill 5th. My official time was 62:19 . This was continuous time as we didnt do split times. So my transition time is in there also.

I know i will never do the 70 mile triathlon, and I know some will not think that this is anything special . But for me it is vindication validation and a victory . I will at least in my mind for now on be a champion and athlete and not that poor little girl . I am strong I am beautiful I am confident and I am Champion . Not your ordinary Saturday at all .



I am third from the right .

  
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THINNYGINNY 9/30/2014 11:15PM

    AWESOME!!! You are a runner!! I'm proud of you too! How many times have I been convinced I would fail...only to realize that the real failure is to not even try. If you would have told me 2 years ago that I would be running and enjoying it (sometimes) I would have laughed... yesterday I did a push up...something i swore I could never do. So Keep on keeping on!!!

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    That is fantastic, congratulations!
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WIZKEY 9/28/2014 4:01PM

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You are a champion. Not only for the race, but for celebrating yourself and your wonderful accomplishments!



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SUSANSLIFE 9/28/2014 7:48AM

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What a wonderful outcome! I read about your training over the last few weeks, but I couldn't picture the actual event. Your blog today is such a marvelous story of goal-setting, faith in yourself, achieving what seems unattainable --- you are such a SUCCESS! You are absolutely correct: "I am strong I am beautiful I am confident and I am Champion." WOW!!!
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The day before !!!

Friday, September 26, 2014

Well it is the day before the Tryatlon. What does one do the day before something major? Me well i have declared it a day of rest . I have trained hard and now it is time to let the body chill for a bit before I push it to the extreme tomorrow.

It is also a day of reflection. This time three years ago my biggest fear was coming to pass I had become that nearly 400 pound person that was headed to something terrible. I have thought back to those first few months when tears flowed like rivers on daily basis. When I called on every ounce of strength I had with the vengeance that i can only describe as insanity. I refused to quit no matter what if i was going to die by god I was going to die on my terms. I am not blowing my horn. The truth of the matter is that there have been many days when i could have stopped and no one would have blamed me. There have been many great days in this process but there have been many days where you just cussed the very existence of fitness.

Tomorrow isnt about loosing weight. Tomorrow is about bringing forth the strong woman i am. Tomorrow is about endurance. It is about pushing that envelope . It is about every person who ever said you can not do that . It is the accumulation blood sweat and tears.

Never doubt I know I still have weight to loose but this is so far beyond weight. This is about those first days when i called on the force of Mark Ingram in my mind to pound the ground jut to will my feet to move. If you have never had debilitating pain, if you have never felt the fear of just stepping out bed, if your worst enemy has never been something that others take for granted then might not understand and that is alright I hope you never do.

I know no matter what happens tomorrow as long as i put on the best I got then I will never have any regrets but if i dont then i will always wonder what if . So here is to " Team Triple Threat " . We got this !!!!!

  
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KANOE10 9/27/2014 9:51AM

    emoticon Get some rest and have a great event. I am cheering for you.

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SUSANSLIFE 9/26/2014 10:18PM

    This is very exciting!! Best wishes for a fabulous experience and a wonderful outcome! You have come so far, you will be sitting on Cloud 9 for weeks!
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HAZELFRUIT 9/26/2014 9:09PM

    Good luck!
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NOWINGS2 9/26/2014 5:17PM

    All the best!! Know you'll do great tomorrow!

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Differing Perceptions

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Loose a pound gain two pounds loose three pounds gain five pounds no one ever said that this was not a roller coaster. Funny how people see you and see things differently.

I was told recently that if i had some sort of surgery with my fitness level that i would not suffer so much . That this process would be easier. Well first off for over 40 years I made bad choices that lead to my weight problem yes some of it is genetics but i promise there were no feeding tubes over feeding me. There was no medical interference with the fork or the snack box nope that was all me. Well when i think back the couch and lack of activity didnt help that either. Second I dont suffer I have come to love fitness. Do I hurt ? Do I get hurt ? Do I feel pain ? Read my blog and you will know that I do on a daily basis. Some of that pain is because of things that I can help like my feet. Some of it is from ignorance like when I didnt stretch properly . Some of it is emotional since i workout when my emotions are high or low. But I dont suffer. Third my mother died of colon cancer and it was made worst when they went into her stomach as air hit the cancer and allowed it to spread, so when you talk about cutting into my tummy i get really scared and I will not do anything that might hurt my tummy not going to happen. I have lost a hundred pounds by just changing my habits, my eating and working out so no offense there will be no gastric surgeries of any kind . And if i never make goal so what I am still healthier than most people I know. As you can see one person looks at me and sees that i suffer and that I am still fat in their eyes . Giggle here please.

Yesterday I did my Run training . Then I did my HIIT training . Then off to the gym for spin training and swimming as I prepare for my TRYATHLON on Saturday. As i was leaving the gym I stopped to talked to a few people I knew and at one point we got a new word for the vocabulary of this journey. This lady said to me " you are slimming down so much. " Wait, slimming that is one that no one has ever said to me. Slimming how wonderful is that . We have have come from You can do it !! Oh my goodness how much weight have you lost ? Are you loosing weight ? I need to know your secret to loosing weight ! To you are slimming down. Wow no mention of my weight at all in that statement. Just a perception of what my training is accomplishing in my opinion.

I dont slave to the scale but i weight every week. If you constantly worry over the weight then you forget that there is so much more to do. I have strength both physically and mentally. I have endurance both physically and mentally. I have courage to push past my last workout and obtain something i have never had before . I figured out some time ago that the scale is just a small amount of this. I have always said I was vain I really do worry about what I look like to others. I have never wanted to be any one but me however I have always wanted to be the best me that I could be. Sue me I take great pleasure when someone says something besides You have a wonderful smile.

As some know my friend and running coach Jon under went some serious test last week. They thought he had some sort of cancer and I am pleased to say that all test come back clear. It is hard to explain that relationship so I am not going to try just that he means the world to me. He is the one person in the world that I know always has my back is on my side and would never hurt me and believe me in my world that means a lot. Sometimes though he shocks me lol. I can do that today but yesterday well that was a different story. For the first time in Jon's life he is going to have weigh himself and track. He is going to have to track all of his food and drink and fitness . Well welcome to my world. Not because he is over weight as he is perfect shape but because he has lost weight. No i did not roll my eyes. I know for him and his doctor this is a serious problem but his reaction to what he is going to do shocked me. I thought after getting the news that he didnt have cancer that he would shouting from the roof top. But, no he was really down as he will have to weigh and track rigidly for a bit. I know that he would never do or say anything to hurt me or my feelings however it was a sting. I already do that stuff and it was like they had demeaned him in some way. I know that is not the case i remember when i first started tracking and weighing it was pain staking. Now it is jut part of life and i will gladly help him with no eye rolling. Funny thought my weighing and tracking i see as a tool of strength training and for him it is a tool of bother .

Just goes to show you that perception is the key . As Dr. Phil says Their perception is their reality.

  
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HAZELFRUIT 9/24/2014 10:17PM

    Thanks for sharing, Darlene. "You are slimming down" - awesome!

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"Crystallize your goals. Make a plan for achieving them and set yourself a deadline. Then, with supreme confidence, determination and disregard for obstacles and other people's criticisms, carry out your plan."
~ Paul J. Meyer ~


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KANOE10 9/24/2014 8:05AM

    I am glad your trainer is OK. It is funny about perception. My husband sees my spat tracker as obsessive as well as my devotion to steps. I see it as a tool of strength and staying healthy! You are doing a great job of staying fit and healthy. Your triathlon is exciting.

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WIZKEY 9/23/2014 6:39PM

    I'm glad your trainer is not sick and love to hear the compliments you are getting. "slimming down" is a great phrase - like "getting in shape" - which you already ARE!!

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SUSANSLIFE 9/23/2014 8:22AM

    Welcome to your world indeed -- Jon has a real champion to help him in what you are an expert, as he has been helping you with his expertise. Yes, perception is key -- we all thought tracking was a bother when we started but most of us are used to it now as a simple reality of our life. Perhaps Jon will begin to feel that way, BUT probably not, because he may simply see the tracking as a limited time thing that he will not do for the rest of his life. For us, it is an important part of our success to see it as something that we will do for the rest of our lives, such as laundry, vacuuming, or breathing!

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WHYNOTJ1 9/23/2014 7:56AM

    I'm happy that your friend has had such good news, even if he needs to make some lifestyle adjustments. I'm sure you'll be able to help him get through that.
Hugs!

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Back to it !!!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

The past week has been very stressful with lots of unanswered questions to running about. This is a catch you up blog.

When I started my 5K training my core began to hurt and well I chucked it up to implementing a new thing. I know my core god knows i have done enough work on it. Last Saturday I woke up and my entire core was hard as a brick and pained. Now step out of the core this was not muscle pain this was something else. I went to the clinic and they said that it could be any number of things and prescribed me something for the acid reflux associated with this. Sunday was better but I didnt work or train I just laid around as instructed. So we are all better right WRONG . I returned my work on Monday morning after the pain returned so off to see my doctor. More medicine and Labs / ultra sound are ordered for Thursday. The deduction after test is that I in fact had a gallbladder attack however through rest and medicine they have brought it back under control. I will resume training today as the TRYAHLON is a week from today. Yes I still plan on competing in it. I will take it easy and I will listen to my body and I will do this.

My special friend and running coach had a series of test this week that we are awaiting the results of but I am sure all is going to be alright with him as he is such great shape but it does go to show you that even the healthiest of people get sick also. You cant train yourself against genetics no matter how hard you try. So it is a matter of living the best life you can with all the people that love, care and support you.

So today I work then I train . What will you do today to make it a day that you will be proud of tomorrow ?

  
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WHYNOTJ1 9/22/2014 12:14PM

    I'm glad you followed up when things didn't feel right. Treat yourself kindly. I hope it does't flare up. And, if it does flare up and you can't do this Try safely or comfortably, please give yourself permission to skip it if you have to. You can find another one soon.
Sending hugs your way!

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HAZELFRUIT 9/20/2014 6:50PM

    Yikes,. hope it feels better!

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SUSANSLIFE 9/20/2014 10:25AM

    Yes, gallbladder attacks are awful! I'm so glad you followed up the clinic visit with one to your doctor. Now you know, and you can continue to train as you listened to your body and your doctor's advice. Best wishes!
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KANOE10 9/20/2014 7:09AM

    Gallbladder attacks are painful. I had them and then had surgery. Keeping away from high fat foods will help.

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RAPUNZEL53 9/20/2014 5:50AM

  Ready to go for my walk. Then I am going to spend the whole weekend canning the two bushels of tomatoes I bought. I will be working hard and will be proud of myself when all work is completed by tomorrow evening!

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Making The decision !!!

Sunday, September 14, 2014

After several days of debating and practice runs in the three events of running spinning and swimming. I can complete the given task in about 50 minutes with a moderate pain level to my feet which is nothing out of the normal. So what does this mean.

This means on September 27th I will be competing In the Tryathlon at the gym. It took so long to decide because like everything else I was scared of failing. And you know what I might fail that day however if I dont try right now then i will have already failed. For almost three years I have grown and learned and pushed past some unbelievable limits and here I stand at the cross roads of challenge and see how far I have come or dont and just keep on the same path.

I am scared but I was scared that day I decided to change my weight. So, I am going to give it a go. For the next two weeks I will add to my program and prepare for the event and do the best I can. But either way it goes I am already a winner because this time three years ago I couldnt even try.

I will keep you all posted on how the process is going.

  
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WHYNOTJ1 9/18/2014 9:54AM

    There is only WIN in this. I'm so proud of you for TRYing!

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SUSANSLIFE 9/15/2014 4:52PM

    This is so exciting! You're right at the starting gate after 3 years of peparations -- congratulations! Fear stops most of us from doing so many things, and that is the way we fail ourselves, our inner soul. Doing your best is always a winning decision.
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BERGBA7 9/15/2014 3:51PM

    Oh super duper! Go for it - it will be a lot of fun to participate!
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KANOE10 9/15/2014 6:16AM

    That is very exciting to do a triathalon. I think it is great that you believe in yourself and in your training. I know you will do well.

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GOODGETNBETR 9/14/2014 8:49PM

    If you finish what you started you've already succeeded.
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HAZELFRUIT 9/14/2014 7:53PM

    You can do it!
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POPSY190 9/14/2014 6:39PM

    You won't fail, whatever the official result, because you always give of your best.

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MOM_TO_AKI 9/14/2014 5:22PM

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POSITIVEHOPE 9/14/2014 5:03PM

    You won't fail, you will set your own personal best time. I have every faith in you!

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    emoticon emoticon You're already a winner in my book because you are giving it a try!

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