Sunday, September 28, 2014
June of 2011 I was scared into making some life changes. Each day since that day I have put all i have into becoming the healthiest me i could possibly be. During the past three years I have pushed, scarified, I have taught myself how to keep going. I have learned to take victory and defeat with the same grain of salt. In October of 2011 I walked my first humiliating 5k walk. I was over 300 pounds and didnt know anything so I walked it with very little training and honestly with the thought in my head I am just like anyone else. That was a self lie, I am not just like everyone else. I wasnt like everyone then and I am still not today. It took me 73 very painful minutes to walk that thing as tears flowed I thought for a moment you should stop all this you will never make it just quit .
Sept 27,2014 I wake up and all these thoughts enter my head. Do I want to really attempt this indoor triathlon ? You will never win ? What if I fall ? What if I tear my Achilles out ? What if i fail ? Can my ego take failure ? Then my Jon said You can do this I am with you !!! my son Said I am so proud to be your son just do your best that is all you are after !!!
I packed up flossy ( gym bag if you dont know ). And off we went to test our limits . I told myself the only way you fail today is if quit and don't finish . The indoor Triathlon is 150 meter swim, 10 mile spinning bike ride and two mile treadmill run. It is a competition and is treated like that . Everyone's attitude was to finish at the best time we could.
In swimming I went into the pool third and came out second. I would like to thank my friend Joann from spark people early on she put the thought in my head if you get tired just change strokes. I am much more efficient in the back stroke so when i got tired I would just flip and back stroke some. Out the water and into work out pants and top. Transition was a little difficult as i never have put dry clothes over my bathing suit but it can be done lets just not do it all the time lol. then off to the spinning room . Now people those bikes are not comfortable but i survived . I was second on the bike and I came off of third. Then off the treadmill.
Ahh the treadmill during practice it became apparent to me that this would in fact be my toughest part. The treadmill has a different drag on my foot than the ground. The treadmill also scares me as it is moving under me. My foot has to be babied and the treadmill doesnt do that. Right off the bat once started the issue was that my shoe was to loose but no time to fix that . Although I can run / jog at the track I can not on the treadmill. At 1.75 miles honestly this is where I wanted to quit . The Achilles had gotten tight and it was throbbing pain pulsating through my calf but I told myself you will not and i started counting down the tenths of mile . I only worried about the next tenth of a mile. I focused on that only . And I did finish.
I came off the treadmill 5th. My official time was 62:19 . This was continuous time as we didnt do split times. So my transition time is in there also.
I know i will never do the 70 mile triathlon, and I know some will not think that this is anything special . But for me it is vindication validation and a victory . I will at least in my mind for now on be a champion and athlete and not that poor little girl . I am strong I am beautiful I am confident and I am Champion . Not your ordinary Saturday at all .
I am third from the right .