Thursday, October 02, 2014
My husband has finally realized that he's the only one of his group of friends without kids and is ready to try. I have been ready forever it seems. This month I really thought I was pregnant and even had 4 of my co-workers ask if I was. I was told I had "that" glow. Unfortunately, I'm not.
I am trying very hard to stay positive. It's giving me a chance to get back into real exercise and give me time to get away from sugar. Plus, I'd much rather have my current weight be my baby weight. At this point I don't want to gain a pound with pregnancy. So time to buckle down.
My goal, which is stupid to have when trying to conceive, is to be pregnant before my mom has surgery around 3 months from now. I guess it would be better to say it's my dream. My mom is 74 and I am her only chance of being a grandma so I'd really like to give her something to look forward to.
I don't ever ask for anything, but I'm going to now. If you are so inclined, would you please pray for me? Thank you, Sarah
Saturday, July 19, 2014
I know I am getting stronger. A few months ago I struggled with any amount of jogging. I couldn't handle 30 seconds at 4 mph. Since then I have completed the walking 5k your way program. I have done the elliptical for 20 straight minutes - first time on it I struggled to last 5. This week I started the couch to 5k program. The first week involves walking for 4 minutes then jogging for 1. This is done 4 times for a total of 20 minutes. Granted, I've only completed 2 out of the three days, but yesterday the walking part was 3.5 mph and the jogging was 4 mph.
It wasn't as hard as I expected. It went quickly and actually felt good. I may become a runner after all!
Now the downfalls. I am consistently gaining weight instead of losing. I know I shouldn't focus on the scale, but I also haven't noticed any change in how my clothes fit. I know exactly what the issue is though.
I started eating sugar, processed GF food, and drinking diet pop. Why? Good question. The answer: because I don't sleep worth beans. I drag at work so I decide I need caffeine. Caffeine leads to low blood sugar. Low blood sugar leads to eating sugar. The eating the crap GF food is from joining a GF group on Facebook where many of the conversations involve the great finds people are getting. I haven't wanted cookies in forever so why did I buy a package of GF cookies last week? Because I could apparently.
Back to the sleep issue. Why don't I sleep? Easy, I can't shut my brain off. Why not? Because I'm thinking about cleaning and organizing everything. I have never been a clean freak, but now it's all I think about. I bought a binder and recipe box to organize my recipes. Now I'm freaking out because I can't find one of my folders with recipes. I want to get the bedroom better organized as well as just about everything else. I feel like I have no time to get everything done so I am considering taking a day off work just to clean. I have plenty of PTO to do it. Maybe then I would feel more in control.
Yesterday I decide to give up diet drinks and told myself after 30 days I will get a new pancake pan. I had one a couple years ago, but it broke. I have been trying to get the banana/egg pancakes just right and realized last weekend how nice a new pan would be. Maybe I should cut out sugar instead or as well. That will be harder, even though today was hard enough not touching the diet coke staring at me.
At least I know what needs to get fixed. Now I just need to fix it.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
I just realized that Friday was my 2 year sparkiversary. Wow, two years and I'm still here. Have I met my goals? Nope, not even close. Is that ok? It sure is!
I may not have reached my goal weight, in fact I think I am currently at pretty much the same weight I was when I started. I guess it's good that I haven't gained. Sure, I wish I weighed less, but that doesn't mean I haven't improved.
When I first started I was afraid of vegetables. Not all, but most. Especially cooked. Today I made tacos with chopped mushrooms mixed with the meat. I also had my tacos on butter lettuce leaves instead of taco shells - and loved it! I can't wait for summer to get here so I can have zucchini. I've started using spaghetti squash for my spaghetti noodles and could probably eat a whole head of cauliflower popcorn.
When I first started I was sick. I had horrible stomach pains and felt bad almost everyday. I discovered I most likely have celiac disease. Lots of people think that when you go gluten free you will lose weight. For some this is true. I started losing weight until I started eating the specialty GF bread products. I was dealing with being depressed over what I couldn't eat and tried to replace what I thought I'd lost with high calorie, carbohydrate filled substitutions. They never tasted as good and always left me wanting more, yet I ate them.
I would join the weight-loss contests at work and lose weight, even winning last time. Yet I always went back to my old ways. It was easy to blame it on the weather. The moving to a new apartment. Starting a new job. There was always an excuse.
Then I started noticing how I felt better when I didn't eat the GF stuff. I realized I liked getting on the treadmill. I started feeling better when I did something on the weekends instead of watching movies all day.
So I've been here for two years, but haven't embraced it like I could have. This weekend I didn't let my husband buy me Doritos. This weekend I bought two types of
lettuce for lettuce wraps and chicken breasts for a healthy lunch. I made double batches of quinoa egg muffins and oopsie rolls so I have my freezer stocked with healthy GF options so I don't rely on the more expensive frozen entrees when I have to work late.
My husband says this week he'll start going on the treadmill with me. We'll see. Either way I plan on getting my exercise in. Tuesday and Thursday I plan on using our treadmill since I like them more than the ones at work. Monday, Wednesday, and Friday will be the exercise bike/elliptical at work. I figure Monday and Friday I will be more tempted to skip a workout so if I do it before coming home it will be easier. Plus a mile walk on my break when the weather cooperates.
I have a plan. Now I need to follow through.
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