Monday, April 07, 2014
I am not one to compare myself to others because I do not like how it makes me feel.. You do not know what these people go through and it causes a lot of self doubt in myself. That being said, Over the weekend, I went to the pool with my fiancÚ and a few friends. I have a two piece tankini so it covers my stomach... My problem area. I live in South Florida so it is ALWAYS hot...I was having a good time and not letting my issues get to me when a few girls come over in a group who have tube top looking bikini tops on and thong bottoms in a community apartment pool.
I couldn't help but think first off, how horrible it is to dress like that in a community area with young children all around but second off, it really makes you consider body image and how you look vs. how you feel.
When you see skinnier people then yourself, do you think about how they got there? Do you think about how you would look if you looked like that? Do you think about how hard they work to look like that? I know, I do not!
I try really hard to look at what I ate that day or that week, I look at how hard I worked out that week and if I deserve that body or if I am wishing for that body... It was a huge reality check for me. I ate like crap last week and didn't work out a lot. Did I deserve that body that I was good looking or do I need to kick my own ass into logging food and working out?
I look at the hard work I need to put in to get that body and really look at myself and use it as motivation. Do not deprive yourself of what you want but be smart and do not judge...Motivate!