Monday, September 15, 2014
Well, I took my cat to the vet today for the nasal flush. Had high hopes this would be the ticket, but we all know what can happen with high hopes. Picked up my cat this evening, and he sounds just as bad as he did when I dropped him off this morning. Now I have to decide whether to subject the poor thing to surgery - in hopes that it will help - to the tune of $300. Oh, and today's vet visit was $276. (And the chiropractor was $115)
I hate being in a downward spiral like this. I know it has to end sooner or later, but sooner is not looking to come through for me. As I continue to fork money hand over fist, I can't help but think about everything that's looming. Christmas. My 10 year old car with 275,000 miles on it (and I drive 100 miles/day). 20 year old refrigerator, and heat/AC system. I'm sure I'm forgetting something, and it will probably break tomorrow!
If it does, it does. Fretting & worrying over it won't help. Just have to keep moving forward, or at least try not to fall back. Maybe I can make it through tomorrow without spending any money. Maybe?
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Life has been on the 'UGH' side lately. I feel a little guilty for feeling that way, though. I have enough perspective to step back, look at things objectively, and realize that it's mostly minor annoyances that I'm dealing with. Even minor annoyances, though, add up when there's enough of them.
Don't know if I've blogged about it, but my shoulder has been unwell for about a year and a half. A year ago May I went to my doctor, who gave me some exercises that didn't work, so he sent me to the orthopaedic guy who gave me a shot that didn't work, so he sent me to physical therapy. That worked, to a point, but I didn't have unlimited time to take off work & unlimited $$ for therapy, so I got myself to an acceptable level of motion and pain & stopped going. Didn't really have the equipment to continue the exercises, and over time my shoulder started getting worse again. Ignored it until I couldn't any more. Didn't want to go back to the ortho guy, as he was going to want to suggest surgery.
Did a little research and decided to try a chiropractor. I'd seen in my digging that acupuncture might help, and this chiropractor offers it. I've been going since mid-July, and I feel like I'm making progress, but slowly. And unfortunately, acupuncture is not a covered medical service per my insurance. So 3x a week for 3 weeks, and then 2x a week for 3 weeks, and now 2x a week for 2 weeks and then 1x a week for 2 weeks I'm paying $115 per session for my treatment. Anybody have an EXTRA $345 or $230 or even $115 per week? No? Me neither.
Then, one of my cats got sick. No biggie - off to the vet. Visit + antibiotic later and there goes $85. First antibiotic doesn't work, so we try another ($28), and that doesn't seem to be working plus the cat decides NO MORE PILLS. So back to the vet and now we have a nasal flush scheduled (requiring anesthesia and X-rays). Who knows how long the cat will have to stay at the vet, and of course, he will be discharged with additional meds. CHA-ching. Oh, and all four of them are due for regular visits & shots.
I was working from home the other day when I picked up the phone to call the vet (see above paragraph) only to find my phone wasn't working. Called my home phone from my cell, and it went straight to my 'I'm already on the line' voicemail. Only none of the phones in my house were off the hook. Had to have Verizon come out (of course I don't have the maintenance plan), and they were able to fix it, thank goodness.
Just seems here lately that my life is a series of problems. Some get solved and some drag on and on. I guess everyone's life is that, in some way or another. I'm just tired of it being all about me. Being married for all of my adult life, until my husband died 3 years ago - at least we could divide & conquer. I would deal with the stuff I was good at, and he would take what he was good at, and anything else we'd flip for or do together. It's not fun being the only responsible adult left standing!
The last several weeks/months have been a constant juggling act of work, doctor visits, vet visits, repair visits, household chores, etc, etc. Stop the world, I want to get off. But I can't. Have to keep plugging, plodding along - hoping it all works out eventually.
As an update - I decided not to go for the promotion. With all the other stress & clutter that my life has become, I decided I don't need to throw a question mark into the mix. No need to toss one stable, good thing in my life aside for a question mark!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Sometimes life gets interesting. Sometimes it's complicated. Sometimes it's confusing. Sometimes...all of the above!
A little over a year ago I took a leap of faith at work. Left the office & co-workers I'd been with for 22+ years and took a job in our home office. I knew the work would be way different. There were people there I knew, but it really was leaving (mostly) everything I knew, going to a location over an hour away from my previous job, betting that the new job would work out & I'd be good at it & like it and life would be good.
The bet paid off. I am so much happier. I like what I do. I love my co-workers. We have fun at work (imagine that!). I feel like I'm making a real contribution. Sound like a recipe for decision time? Well...it is.
One of my friends in my new location, but in a different unit, is retiring. She & one of her co-workers (also a friend, but I don't know nearly as well) were discussing who might be a suitable replacement when she retires, and guess who they came up with? Yep - me. (Neither of them is in charge of hiring this position, I might add, but the less known friend approached me today to try & talk me int applying for the position.)
Pros? It would be a promotion. I have 6 years left until I can retire, so leaving with the highest salary possible is a definite consideration, as my retirement is based on the highest 3 years compensation. This could make the difference between retiring on time (at 30 years but still pretty young), or having to work longer.
Cons? Maybe none...but I don't know. This job would be very different from what I'm doing now,and I don't know if I'd like it or not. I know the pressure would be greater. I like everyone in that unit (as far as I know), but I've not worked very closely with many of them. It's a great opportunity, but...the unknown.
I've never shied away from a challenge in the past. I will probably at least make application (who says I'd even GET the job?). In the back of my mind, though...6 years is a long time if I get the job & hate it. And it's really hard to leave a great situation (current job).
So...decisions, decisions. Whatever to do?
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Disappointments. They happen. Many times they make us mad, or sad, or frustrated with ourselves. This blog is not about that. Sometimes we get disappointed and we had nothing to do with it and there was nothing we could do to make it different.
I have three sisters, and we are very different from each other. We span a 16 year age gap, but we're pretty darned close I'd say. Even so, we rarely get a chance to be together. Years ago, and for several years running we would get together for weekends and go hiking. As different as we all were, this was something we all enjoyed, and we made time each year (many times twice a year) to get together - just us - and go hiking for a weekend. But times changed and life situations changed, and now it's been probably 5+ years since we got together.
This year we were going to change that. We were going to get together and do SOMETHING. Sisters - together again. We batted some times & locations around, and I ended up renting a house at the outer banks of NC. I was thrilled!
Didn't take long before something happened, and one sister had to bow out. I was disappointed, but understood given the situation. Time passed and the remaining three of us made our plans. The given week was right around the corner (Memorial Day week)! In addition to my sisters my Mom, MIL, sons, and some of their friends would be coming for portions of the week as well. Vacation - and an abundance of family!
Then this morning...and an email from the second sister advising she wouldn't be able to make it. This one hit hard, because I knew how much she had been looking forward to it. But it made me mad, too, as I knew (suspected) it was due to what I consider to be an unrequited loyalty to her job. The job that works her 60+ hours many, many weeks. The job she arrives early to, works through her lunch at, and leaves late from many days. The job that has decided - NO MORE comp time for overtime hours! The job she's killing herself for.
Disappointed, and angry. Not angry at my sister, really. Just angry. I know life is not fair, but damn it...this isn't fair. (Don't tell me to talk sense into her - she's way too hard headed and would just get mad at me.)
I will have fun on vacation, and I'll enjoy the family I have around me. Sisters weekend will have to wait. Hope I haven't seen the last one.
Thursday, May 01, 2014
Today I will take the following step toward my goal: I will understand that I control what goes into my mouth.
Pretty simple concept, huh? We all know that we ultimately control what goes into our mouths. But how many times do we give ourselves a pass? It's a celebration. It's my birthday. It's Christmas, or Easter, or the 4th of July.
My nemesis (of late) - it's bowling night. So of course, I'll drink (too many) beers and go over on calories. It's only once a week! And it's *special*.
But it doesn't have to happen that way. And tonight (bowling night), it didn't happen that way. Because I DO control what goes in my mouth. I can, at least. I proved it tonight.
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