Friday, October 03, 2014
It's been a while.
Time to get back on track.
I have to admit, the last couple of months since my wedding has been pretty bad. Not sure what happened. I let loose on my honeymoon and it all went downhill after that. I don't regret anything about my honeymoon, but I just couldn't get a handle on my eating and exercising after being out of routine for a while. It's time to get myself together.
I am going to start today. I am planning on going for a walk (though it is a crisp -1 degrees celsius outside!), go through my fridge and clean it out, and get groceries for some new healthy meals and snacks this afternoon. I am going to re-start the T-25 schedule starting on Monday (following their calendar). I am going to again start using the Beachbody Shakeology for breakfast on the days that I work and making sure I get all of my servings of veggies, at MINIMUM on the days that I work. I am going to start drinking more water again. I can really tell the difference since I have been drinking less water. I am going to cut out fast food UNLESS it is the only way to eat a meal during a day (ie. if I am traveling), and if I do have to have fast food, I am going to try to choose smaller and healthier options and opt for the Subway or other healthier option if available. I am going to save splurges for some very specific reasons: celebrating close family members' and friends' birthdays or my own birthday, or major holidays (Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter). I also celebrate a girls' night with my friends and I am planning on splurging on every second meeting. Quite honestly, that gives me many chances to have my splurge days. I know that I have been successful in the past with giving myself "cheats" and giving myself rules, and I know I can do it and be objective about what I should and shouldn't eat in order to be healthy. And, most importantly, I am going to track EVERYTHING I eat on sparkpeople. Even on those cheat days, as painful as it is. Not tracking the food doesn't mean I didn't eat it and consum e those calories. After I am finished doing T-25 alpha and beta, I am going to continue with the next level of T-25 or get a gym membership again. I am going to stick with eating my lunches at work, and enjoy small snacks or birthday cakes in moderation when the days come along. I can still have a small piece of cake or half of a treat and not miss out on celebrating, but still stick to my plan.
Another person that can help me along with my journey is my new husband. I feel bad for him because he is so supportive, but he doesn't know how to handle it when I say DON'T LET ME EAT FAST FOOD and then the next evening say I DON'T CARE WE ARE GOING TO GET A BURGER. I need to remove him from being accountable for my choices. I don't want our relationship to suffer because he doesn't know how to interpret what I want. And even worse, I don't want it to suffer because I have no self esteem. One of the greatest things is that he has shown interest in exercising with me in the past. I think this may be harder to do in winter, since we have mostly enjoyed going for runs together outside, and it is starting to get quite cold to continue with that. However, a while ago he mentioned that our Christmas gift for ourselves should be a new treadmill. I think that would be so great! And I want to continue to run with him and hopefully next year I can have the best of both worlds and enter some races/runs along with him!
It is going to be difficult, especially because I feel like I am starting all over again. But I am starting RIGHT NOW and I am going to keep moving throughout all of the joys and stresses of life and take it as it comes.