Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Well....I'm many things...Mother of four (20, 18, 12 and 10 yo). Partner to Jodie for 14 months and counting. Bellydance enthusiast, including teaching, promoting events, and being director of my own troupe - Sahara's Dream. Self described "craft ho"...I love all things crafty, especially knitting, embellishing costumes, polymer clay...and more.
I've been out for 8 years...I was married 14 years before I figured myself out, What can I say...I'm a late bloomer, lol. In a city where androgenous dykes abound...I firmly identify as femme. Course, can you imagine a butch bellydancing, lol?
I started this journey of weight loss and the search for health because both of my parents are falling apart - both have heart disease, diabetes, and my dad is probably 400 pounds. I don't wanna end up that way! I've tried so many things and have felt like such a failure that I decided to stop trying. But...here I am - I've joined Spark! For the first time ever, I'm being HONEST about what I eat...tracking every single effing bite! I'm in the Fast Break stage 1 arena...and I'm trying to lose my perfectionism along with the weight and unhealthy habits. So...I'm just working on writing down what I eat, no matter how "bad" it looks.
I have hope...maybe the first real hope I've ever had about losing weight. I gained weight when I got married...I was desperately unhappy, but couldn't figure out why...thought I needed to "try harder". Gained 80 more pounds with my first child, 21 years ago...and have been slowly creeping up ever since.