Saturday, November 17, 2007
One of my goals this month is to stay in the top 20 for points in my favorite team, the Lesbian Cafe. This was not a easy goal...these women are ON it - they work hard and their points are amazing to show for it. I fell to below the 20th mark yesterday.
While an old part of me (the willing to give up so easy part!) only sees the failure, a newer more resolved part of me sees, 15 days of success!! In fact, had I not been ill last week, then ill AGAIN this week with a secondary infection, I am pretty confident I would have made it through the month. I may still get back up into the above 20 range and that's awesome, and I'm not going to quit trying now.
I've already decided next month I'd like to be in the top 15 - and I feel good about it!!
Now...it's Saturday, and I have to work since I missed so much time....boo. :)
Friday, November 16, 2007
Getting well after my cold/ear infection seems to be taking forever. I'm reminded that I'm 43 years old...and I don't bounce back quite as well as I used to.
Working on reminding myself, this is my LIFE now...not a diet. It won't be "over" when I lose the weight. After being sick, and eating waaaaay off my plan this week, I feel like utter CRAP - headaches...tired...no energy.. and my emotions are roller coastering all over the place...yeah, I could attribute some of that to being sick, but I think a large part is also due to not fueling my body with real nutrition...all the more reason to get back on the health bus...
Maybe I'll never lose all the weight. What then? Well, I can at least BE as healthy as possible and FEEL as healthy as possible. Good enough goals on their own, aye?
Realized, I am not doing nearly the cardio I thought I was....I'm not breaking a sweat, and for me, that is the necessary ingredient - sweat. So...I'm thinking about the ways I can break a sweat...and keep it sustained for at least 10 minutes. I can walk for an hour a day...and not much change happens, but if I SWEAT for a bit every day, much more noticeable changes happen. It's hard for me to get my heart rate up there...A doc told me once I have an excellent heart - "Like a horse" - which was funny cause I could tell he really wanted to add "considering how fat you are...." Probably years of dancing? I dunno, but I've got to work on getting the heart rate up there. So..I bought a fun CD of dance music remixed for cardio and that will be my insipration to do what it takes!! Here's to a MUCH better week next week!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I made my pilgrimage to the dance instructor I wrote about previously over the weekend...it was amazing. She taught a great workshop and then we played groupies and followed her to the three clubs she dances at on Saturday nights...She is a powerhouse - maintaining her body IS her day job and it was very inspiring for me.
Since I came home, I've had an ear infection, one of my troupers quit my dance troupe with pretty much no notice, I got a 24 hour notice to have my house inspected by the property management company (and after being sick all week and then gone all weekend, the house looks like H*ll) and I got chewed out at work for something I didn't do.
I find it rather karmic that I've been assigned to the LC Thanksgiving challenge "the appreciative" team. Making myself list 3 things I'm thankful for in the face of feeling like the last 24 hours have been sort of surreally effed up...well, it's a good thing.
While I was gone, I ate food I would not normally eat, drank alcohol...and my body is feeling like crud. Sluggish and yuck. So, I'm working very hard on getting back onto my 6 small meals of healthy proteins and good carbs...
It's a new day....another chance to work on getting it right.
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