Thursday, August 23, 2012
Yesterday's post - the longing for a quick fix - has me once again evaluating my mindset.
The BodyBugg is an awesome tool, and I'd really love one. The tool isn't the issue, the fat between my ears is the issue!
The looking for the magic pill mentality. Thinking if I use this or that tool, magic will happen and I'll finally lose weight. that if I had a bodybugg or whatever other tool, I would start conforming to my calorie restrictions.
Reality? the tool would tell me I was eating too many calories. LOL. Just like the calorie tracker tells me on SP.
I have to continue working on losing the "fat between my ears" - the quick fix mentality - before lasting weight loss is going to happen. I have to do the work, not just think about doing the work.
I do that a lot. I think about doing the work....then I don't DO the work.
Many good changes have happened, and I can recognize them. I'm walking several times a week now, I'm paying a lot more attention to my calorie intake, probably more than I've ever done. It's a slow process of change.
In the iconic words of Nike, I need to "Just DO it". I'm getting there, I'm getting there.
And I might put a bodybugg on my christmas list, LOL.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
We've all done it.
We get tired of doing the hard work of weight loss. We look for a fix and it doesn't even have to be a quick fix, just a fix! something to make us feel better.
We join a gym (we know we won't use), purchase equipment (we've never used and then discover we dislike), set unreasonable goals. You know it. We've all done it in someway or another.
Today, the idea that scrolled across my mind was:
"I bet if I had one of those Bodybugg gizmos, THEN I would lose weight!"
Where did this come from? Well, for one, that tracking my calories (besides being a pain in the butt) often seems like a guessing game. Finding the exact thing you need on there, or taking the time to enter something not in there (or a whole recipe), takes time and I often wonder if I'm consuming what the tracker says...or more...or less? Same with exercise. Really? You mean to tell me the sweat rolling down my face workout for 35 minutes REALLY only burned 100 calores?
The Bodybugg is supposed to (within 90% accuracy) tell you what calories are going in and what calories are being burned. So I want one.
Then I said to myself, "Self....you are looking for a fix again. You are looking to avoid doing the hard work. Stop it. It's going to take work. It's going to take time and the changing of habits. Just stop all this..."
and I did.
but we all have those moments, don't we? It's what we decide to DO with it that counts.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Yep. This article pins it right down.
I've often lied to myself, thinking "well, this XYZ that I'm eating doesn't count, because I'm working out!"
Yes....but....if the XYZ is 500 calories and I work out and burn say 200 calories....that doesn't cancel out that XYZ, now does it?
But that's how I've acted for years. Doh.
That's why, when tracking I am always so let down by my exercise tracking. "That's all? for 30 minutes of ****, that's all I burned?" Part of why I wanted to run! To increase the calories burned. But, that's not to be for right now, so......
That means calories have to be paid attention to. Close attention to.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
I've overscheduled myself for....years. Just be quiet and do...nothing? No can do. My head gets swirling with stuff - typically negative, depressing, or stressful stuff at that - and I go downhill. So I typically have a book and/or knitting with me all the time.
Yesterday, we went to hear a friend play guitar and sing at a local coffee place. It was a beautiful day, we sat on the patio and listened and laughed (the friend is quite funny to boot). I worked on my knitting project and was quite happy...
til I finished the knit project.
Then I immediately noticed I was restless. Hard time concentrating on the music and just sitting there no longer felt relaxing but difficlt.
I recognize some things in myself after all the testing we've put into my son. Anxiety? ADHD? Hmm. As they say, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. For awhile, thinking about these things and my inability to sit still and enjoy the music without something in my hands....I felt down on myself. Then I reminded myself that I am who I am...and that's okay.
Yep, there's some stuff in my life that lead me to this point...and I learned how to cope. For a long time, I coped....by using food. I cooked, I baked and I ate the product of that effort. It soothed me and it worked, but it - combined with some other things - left me in a 250 pound body on a 5 foot frame.
Sometimes, I think my partner is a bit irritated that I take my knitting with me and do it while we're visiting folks or waiting for an event to start etc. yep, I've tried to explain, but she can't help it, she thinks I'm being rude. Now, I don't work on complex stuff that I have to have a chart and silence and not talk. I work on projects I can do pretty much with no thinking and put away/pick up at the drop of a hat. If the choice is knit or be a jumble of nerves in my seat - miserable and wanting to leave - then I choose to knit!
Knitting is calorie free. Knitting engages that restless monkey in my head and allows me to participate and enjoy in whatever is going on around me. Coping without food is a good thing.
However, I am noticing that I constantly fill my time, and sometimes I multitask when I could do less. When being busy helps me cope with stress/anxiety/depression well, I'll call that good. When it won't allow me to sit still and enjoy my family on Christmas morning for example, not so good.
Balance. I'd like to find balance here. That continues to be another work in progress.
PS I realize I incorrectly stated the SparkCoach program to be $2.99 a month. Nope, it's $7.99 a month, my bad. And still totally worth it in my opinion - I'm signing up!
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Wow am i pleased to see the weekend roll in!
So, a success! Yesterday, my partner said yep, she'd go walking with me in the evening. Evening came, she didn't feel good - I went anyway (that's a success in itself if you've ever had your significant other "hint strongly" you should stay home with them, LOL).
I took myself out to the fitness trails at a local park. I'd glanced at the map online, and read that the trail was a 1 mile loop. By the time I got to the park it was 8:11 p.m. I thought, well - it's getting dark I'll just do half the loop (the parking lot is in the middle of the loop, making this doable). I hit the trail and walked and walked and walked. It got darker and darker. I thought well, push on, you can do this and started around the second half of the loop went out into the brush and the pines and by now, it was getting DARK, so I turned around and backtracked and went back to the car. When i got home and went to map it, I realized the loop was a 2 mile loop, not 1 mile, and by backtracking I'd done almost the whole 2 miles anyway!
It was a good feeling. It was also sobering to see how few calories it burns compared to how it FEELS. One of the reasons i started trying to do C25K, I wanted more calorie burn and I wanted more miles under my belt for the time I invested.
Alas, my knees say No, No, and NO to the running, at least right now. So, okay, I'll walk. It is what it is.
A little money has come in, so i can stop living off of carbs, WHEW. I've felt absolutely ICK the last week, but when it's eat what you have or don't eat, you aren't so picky!
Feeling good, feeling positive!! Woo hoo!
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