Wednesday, September 26, 2012
For awhile now, I've had some abdominal pain. I thought it was tied to wheat/gluten. Seemed like when I would have wheat after not having it for awhile, I'd have pain.
Since Monday though, the pain had really ramped up. Monday night, I felt ill...almost like I was coming down with the flu. I took ibuprofen all day Tuesday, and that took care of the flu-like symptoms, but the pain in my stomach wasn't going away. Last night, I came down with a 102 fever and chills even with the ibuprofen and I knew that as much as I wanted to avoid it, it was time to go into the ER.
Everything seemed to point to appendicitis but the surgeon wanted a CT just to see what we were getting into (and I strongly suspect partially due to my weight - that pain was under many layers of adipose tissue). The CT showed pretty extensive diverticulitis.
Well, no wonder my gut hurt! Now on two different antibiotics and percocet. Should be feeling better soon.
Good thing, because Disneyland is 6 days away, LOL! That was all i could think of in ER at midnight last night...I've paid for this trip and now they're talking surgery....crap!
Supposed to be improved within 24 hours, if not, I have to go back in to make sure nothing has abscessed/ruptured.
Health continues to be fleeting for me lately. But, perhaps when we get a hold on this, I'll feel much better overall.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
CPAP Streak: 14 days
Countdown to Disneyland: 7 DAYS!
Last night's dance practice kicked me to the curb. Every muscle in my body hurt when we were done - so much so that I went to sleep wondering if I was coming down with the flu! Thankfully, I'm fine this a.m. It's been several months since we've all been together and it was wonderful to have my friends together, laughing and sweating up a storm.
Fall is definitely making it's presence known here in Central Oregon..the trees are changing, the weather's cooled and there's a quality to the sunshine...more golden - that I always associate with fall.
Jodie started back at classes yesterday, she is 12 credits from her associates degree in Criminal Justice. She loves school and it was good to see her happy last night.
Work's been a bit of a bear lately, but that's GOOD. We'd been so slow it was causing some anxiety for folks and I'm frankly happier when we're busy!
Noticing some seasonal depression creeping round....but reminding myself, that's exactly what it is - seasonal. While fall is my favorite time of year, it apparently messes with me too.
Reminding myself of all I'm grateful for makes a huge difference for me - so again today, my gratitudes are:
A loving partner, healthy happy kids, a little dog that makes me smile every day, a car that runs, a job, health insurance, dance, friends.
Life is good.
Monday, September 24, 2012
CPAP streak: 13 days
Weekend's over, back to work!
Eight days till Disneyland!
I got nervous last night, and researched weight limits for rides. Whew. All I read, from people a good 50-100 pounds heavier than me - said they all fit, with one exception due to their particular body style. That was reassuring. Not that I'm a huge rollercoaster fan, LOL. Not so much. But if I want to go on a ride and I can't because of my weight, it would be better to know about it than to wait in line and then be humiliated by not fitting!
Last week at work we were short one person all week due to a vacation and it was hard to keep up - so this week looks like a piece of cake since we'll be fully staffed.
Funny how something so simple can make me happy. Which leads to....gratitude. Definitely been working the gratitude factor. Grateful for a job, and a very good one at that in this economy. Grateful we at least have one car - and who cares it's a dinged up lil Mazda from the 80s? Grateful my kids are all well and relatively happy, LOL. Grateful to be loved and have someone to love.
Grateful to be on the "right side of the grass" and having another day to work on getting it right....
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Woke up to rain, but this is GOOD - we've had a couple of huge forest fires burning for over a week close by. Hopefully it will knock down the fire...and I know it will help knock the smoke out of the air, air quality has been baaaad.
CPAP streak: 12 days, and another 7+ hour sleep last night, woo hoo.
I've actually been back on the CPAP wagon about three weeks, but I'd miss a night here and there - just having a hard time making myself put on the darn mask. So that's where the streak comes in.
Busy week ahead...and NINE days till Disneyland! The only nagging concern I have about the trip is the airplane ride. After my trip in November on a tiny plane where I felt overflowing in the seat (and my seatmate was rude as all get out)...it makes me a little anxious. However, I remind myself I have my partner as my seatmate on the small plane and on the big plane let's hope there's just a bit more room! I'm a little nervous about the rides at Disneyland, will I fit? But overall I'm trying to just look forward to it and not stress out.
My partner is FINALLY getting over the shingles. May I say, I don't wish that on my worst enemy. So very painful.
That's it for today....
Saturday, September 22, 2012
CPAP Streak: 11 days (and last night for the first night in literally months, I slept over 6 hours - 7.25!)
I looked at my weight goal report this a.m., and decided to reset it.
According to my previous goal - I would have to be at 236 right now to be on track. Needless to say, I'm not. I'm at 248 - that's 12 pounds behind and it's not motivating me, it's discouraging me so...I reset.
When I look at my reports, I'm constantly gaining and losing the same five to seven pounds. Literally, the SAME five to seven pounds.
I need to have a goal...some kind of goal....and I considered that getting to and staying at 240 has been impossible the last year, much less getting UNDER it?
So..I made the simplest goal I could - to get to 240. Yep, that's "only" 8 pounds. But it's past the 242 mark, which is the lowest I've been able to get to - and was only at a day or two before it comes up again.
I look at what I've accomplished this summer and I've done well. I've added a LOT of fitness into my week, I've made some good food changes, and I've started using my CPAP nightly. My body has changed, I've lost a good six inches.
And my weight has stayed within that same 247-254 range.
Maybe what's needed here is a small goal - eight pounds - something so close I can almost taste it, rather than something so far away I can't imagine it. So....we shall see what we shall see.
Last night was troupe night, and I had been so worried I wouldn't get the same workout as my walk. Wow. No worry. I was literally soaked in sweat - my hair was drenched, my clothes were damp, I had sweat running down my face.
The other thing I've noticed recently? A SIGNIFICANT decrease in appetite over the last two weeks. Coincidentally to my using the CPAP? i dunno. But enough that my partner has been looking at me suspiciously and saying "you aren't eating all your food...are you trying to starve yourself?"
LOL. nope. Just getting full really fast lately - well, really fast compared to "usual".
TEN DAYS TILL DISNEYLAND!
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