Tuesday, November 06, 2012
Time has flown this last few weeks....
Dancing is up, walking is down. There is only so much time in the day and right now I'm getting paid for teaching dance, so that's where my priority lay. But, at least it's still movement and I'm breaking a good sweat.
Food is okay. Still struggling to get those fruits and veggies in on a daily basis - but for now (crossing fingers) no more gut pain from diverticulitis.
CPAP Streak: 13 days. Over the weekend I experimented with not using the Ambien....and discovered, it really is what makes the difference between keeping the mask on and ripping it off at 2 or 3 in the morning. So, Ambien it is.
Jodie had her job interview yesterday...and we are on pins and needles. Two positions, 9 people interviewed. It would mean a huge change for us - not scrabbling week to week on one paycheck, always one car problem or broken appliance away from disaster. She did the best she could, now it's out of our hands. Hoping and praying.
The upcoming holidays....I used to LOVE the holidays, I decorated, baked, made gifts...but working full time, less money to shift around....I've sort of stopped loving the holidays. I'm hoping to rekindle the love this year...regardless of our financial situation. Decorating, enjoying time with family, etc. Little seasonal depressing creeping around the edges...on top of the stress of life...well, I know it could swing either way. I could become blue and down and not interested in the holidays or view them as a burden. But for now, I choose to try to look forward to them, feel happy about them, and do the things I can do that I enjoy.
Our society is so material driven...we are bombarded constantly by advertising of things we should want. No wonder it's hard to find contentment. It takes work. It takes focus on what you really need vs focus on all the things they want you to buy to "make" you happy.
Well, that's another long blog post of its own and it's time to get in the shower. :) Have a fabulous day folks!
Saturday, November 03, 2012
Very grateful today is Saturday! Grateful the house is silent right now and I'm the only one up. Work was stressful and crazy this week, and my patience with people is stretched a bit thin. Hoping to stay home most of the weekend to recharge.
CPAP Streak: 11 days. Went for my follow up to my sleep study, found I'd still been having some snoring and hypoapneas (shallow breathing) on the previous pressure (8) and that was why they upped the pressure to 11. Respiratory therapist asked why I hadn't replaced my mask (6 years old), and I told him I haven't met my deductible, I'm the only one working, etc and I just haven't been able to scrape up extra money, especially with new medical bills from the diverticulitis attack and now another sleep study. He said, your mask is old, it's leaking and not providing the level of treatment you need, I'm going to send you home with a mask today, and it will be considered a "loaner". What a blessing! So I went home with a brand new mask, headgear and tubing. New mask is smaller and more lightweight than the old one and gets a much better seal, so no air leaks. I can't say I'm at the point of waking up refreshed in the morning, but I'm being compliant and that's 90% of the battle.
Weight seems stuck again. I'm dancing a lot, eating more fruits and veggies, and more worried about my health than specifically my weight, so I'm not down about it.
My partner has an interview Monday at the local Community College for a security position. This would solve so many, many problems for us. There are 2 positions and they are interviewing 10 people. She has experience as a corrections officer at a prison in Louisiana, among other excellent credentials, and it seems like she'd be a great fit for this job, but as we know too well, it's not in the bag. She has gotten to the top 2 candidates in job after job, and wasn't the one chosen, or worse yet, no interview at all. The job market here is sooooo stiff. So, we've got all our good thoughts pinned on Monday's interview.....
That's it for me. :) Have a terrific Saturday!
Friday, October 26, 2012
CPAP Streak - 3 days. Last night I dug out the sleep aid the sleep doc prescribed and with that, I actually slept til my alarm went of at 4:45. Usually I wake up around 3 a.m., rip the mask off and go back to sleep. Having a bit of difficulty this a.m, not feeling exactly wide awake yet, but 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep is pretty rare for me and I am sure it would be a good thing to have it more often!
No more tummy troubles, whew. Though I find myself obsessing about it. I'm doing well with the fiber, most days hitting 25 gm. Emphasis on the fiber has the secondary benefit of being in range for calories and all the components Spark tracks. Curious to see how it will affect my weight loss long term.
I taught two one-hour dance classes last night and by the end, I wasn't overly fatigued. I'd broke into a sweat both classes, kept the tempo going pretty well and didn't have the arthritis aches afterward or feel so tired I could curl up and die, which has been a factor in the past.
That, friends, is a success.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
CPAP Streak: 2 nights
I didn't want to put it on last night. I laid there...thinking, in a minute....then I remembered I had an appointment with the respiratory therapist next week and likely they will be downloading my info.
And I quickly got up and put on the mask, LOL.
Yesterday was a long day of tummy troubles. I don't know what I ate to cause them, but I have a strong suspicion it was too much processed food. I've been concentrating on fruits and veggies for fiber, so my processed food intake has gone way down...but Monday, I had quite a bit more than usual. Was I paying the price on Tuesday? I don't know. Was if a fluke that had nothing to do with that? Was it something else? I have no idea.
Again, I'm realizing how important my health is to me through all of this. Not feeling good all day, having to run to the bathroom repeatedly, that's not a great way to spend my life.
My weight continues to hover at 246-247. Right now...the focus on moving those numbers is not nearly as great as the focus on FEELING GOOD. Having vitality, excitement about life....not being obsessed with your digestive system and wondering how every bite you eat is going to affect it.
So....today's post is brought to you by a determination to again avoid processed foods, work the fiber in at every opportunity to prevent the diverticulitis/tummy troubles, and train myself to wear my CPAP nightly.
Because I'm too young to feel this old!
Monday, October 22, 2012
I had a good weekend...time off (where we stayed home instead of traveling), time with one of my daughters I don't get to see all the time, and rest. It was good!
This week starts on a less-than lovely note...Friday at work "stuff happened" and it was very, very tense. I felt I had to defend myself against accusations I had done something...that I didn't do. It wasn't a pretty day. It makes this morning a little difficult, wondering what I'm walking into. I don't have concern for my job, necessarily, but....I feel like one of the docs wants someone to blame for this thing happening...and Friday I felt like I was in the cross hairs.
No likey. All I can do is go in, do my job, and if, yet again approached on "was it you?" simply re-iterate, no, it wasn't, period.
This weekend was a REST weekend, I didn't workout - I rested and wow, did I need it. We'd been gone several weekends in a row, I had tons of commitments during the week...and wow was it good to sit on my duff and knit, or watch tv, or sleep!
Speaking of sleep, I'm re-starting my CPAP streak....I think I got to around 10 days or maybe 2 weeks, then I went off. So, back on. Let's see how far I can get this time, shall we?
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