Monday, January 14, 2013
Here we are, day one of the Primal Blueprint 21-day Challenge hosted by the Primal Lifestyle team.
Not sure where I am weight wise. It has been all over the last week. Down 7 (wha?), up 5, down 2, up 3. I haven't measured in awhile, and that's scheduled. Tomorrow (Tuesday) is what I think of as my "official" weigh in day, so we'll wait to see what the scale says until then.
I'm working it. At 27 carbs/474 calories so far -likely because I haven't been terribly hungry today AND I've been trying to wait to eat until my stomach growls a little. I'm so in the HABIT of eating. It's "time" to eat, so I eat, whether I'm hungry or not.
I'm trying to break that. If you aren't hungry...why are you eating? Am I afraid there might not be food later? (no). Is it a habit? (probably). Am I bored and eating gives me something to focus on? (probably).
The breaking of the french vanilla creamer habit has been so-so. Has it been 100% eliminated? Not yet. I have had days with out it, and I have had days with half the amount I used to use.
It's one big learning curve, this learning to eat primal/paleo/low carb whatever it is. I spoke with someone in the breakroom today who is on day 1 of their Medifast program. It only reinforced for me...I'm not doing that ever again. Kudos to him, good luck to him, whatever, but I'm not doing it.
So what's going right on this first day of the challenge (besides still having carbs/calories left to eat today, lol?)
* Used CPAP/Ambien last night and had good sleep.
* Feel good - no afternoon sleepiness/eating to stay awake.
* No cravings - despite the fact that this weekend I ate wheat and sugar (sometimes it happens- life. Figured it fell into the 20% of follow it as best you can 80% of time and don't freak out about one meal in a week).
That's it. Happy Monday!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
I started getting serious about this weight loss effort mid November. The scale went up and down over the same 4 pounds...up and down, up and down and up and again, down. I started following Mark Sisson's Primal Blueprint the last week of December.
The scale refused to move. It was like it was stuck there at 248 and had no other reading but that. Again and again, in the last 3 weeks, I'd get on the scale and it would say.....248.
Today I got on the scale and about fell off. 7 pounds lost.
This has been a very typical thing for me since I passed my 45th birthday. Losing any weight has meant doggedly sticking to it and waiting. and waiting....and waiting. And then, one day boom 4 or 5 pounds would be gone.
Typically after that, it would bounce up and down a pound or two for a couple weeks, maybe even three or four weeks before another big (for me) loss of 4 or 5 pounds.
So do I expect to step on the scale again in a day or two and see it's still 7 pounds gone? Not so much. I know that my weight loss is usually very much the "two steps forward, one step back" variety.
But am I happy? Relieved? Feeling vindicated for all the things I didn't eat? All the good choices I made even when the scale refused to budge? YOU BETCHA!
Weight: 241 (-7).
Waist: 47.5 (Last measured 1/4 I think)
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Ever since I began my weight loss journey, there were two things that were pretty much impossible for me to give up. I had a baaaaad attitude about giving them up, and I would try to find any way to work around it - convincing myself I could have my cake and ....lose weight too.
Those items were wheat products and sugar/french vanilla creamer in my coffee.
I stopped putting sugar in my coffee several months ago. I increased the creamer a little to compensate, but let's be frank here....I was still consuming about 140 cal/10 carb for one cup of coffee....and I typically had two cups a day and sometimes more (because they also have it on hand at my work, as well)
When I cut sugar...I kept the full-sugar version of the creamer. I couldn't let go. Wouldn't let go. Until after examining the last 10 days so carefully, and seeing that some days I would have 30 carbs/420 calories going to....coffee.
I felt guilty. But I didn't wanna give it up.
Maybe I'll just go to one cup a day, I reasoned with myself. But I know the truth. I will cave on it and have 2 or more cups more times than not. This week, it began to gnaw at me. What if that was the ONE THING that was preventing me from losing weight, would it STILL be worth it? Really? If the answer is yes....well, that's because there's addiction talking there. I didn't like that answer at all.
So, last night I went and got the sugar-free version and tried it in my coffee this a.m.
Blech. Totally nasty. I warred with myself. "Can't I have ONE vice left?" and I went through the "maybes" again. Maybe I could just have one really good cup of coffee a day....
Feeling sorry for myself I came to work and when it came time to pour my second cup of the day, instead of reaching for the full-sugar version, I reached for the plain half-and-half and added a packet of Splenda.
Not too bad. Seriously much more do-able than the SF creamer. Perhaps I've found my replacement.
Because you know what? It's NOT worth it. Feeding that addiction is not worth it. It's not worth the calorie/carb effect, it's not worth the hit to my self esteem when I think " I'm willing to stay unhealthy, unhappy, and morbidly obese because I refuse to give up my addiction, even if it was the only thing standing between me and losing weight".
Good-bye, Nestle French Vanilla Creamer. I truly loved you. In fact, I think I loved you so much, I was addicted to you. You aren't worth it to me any more.
Monday, January 07, 2013
I've been off the last week. At home with the family. No routine.
While it's been a lovely break....it's very hard for me in some respects with eating. There's been some stress - mix two teenagers off school for two weeks, a partner who was terribly ill for most of that time and is getting better, but crabby, and I found myself struggling with ......dum dum dum.....
I had a couple wins there - like when the stress got high and folks at home were driving me off my rocker, once I took a hot bath and read instead of eating and another time when I wanted to treat myself and food was the first thing that came to mind, instead of indulging in food I took myself off for a much-needed brow wax. So, yeah there were successes in the emotional eating department and then there was also an incident with a box of Junior Mints.
During this week off, my carbs averaged 151 gm a day. I have to remind myself that before the last week of December they were averaging 268 gm a day. I have tracked every bite that went into my mouth, including those Junior Mints, so I could know this. So that when confronted with more stress (because I return to work today and that's a different kind of stress!), I will not say to myself -"Well, you know last week I ate those junior mints and basically ruined my entire month anyway. What will XYZ hurt when I've so obviously blown everything already and I'm going to be fat forever anyways, so ...."
Because yes, in times of stress I DO sometimes think that way. Now, at the least, I'll know exactly where I am and I know what eating that box of candy did to my carbs/calories/self esteem that day. Because if I'd chosen NOT to eat that box of candy, my carbs would have been an average of 131 a day, not 151.
Next week, I'd like my carbs to be lower than an average of 151 a day. That's my goal.
Now, what went right this week? Well, I ate a variety of veggies. Instead of corn and potatoes (LOL, yes, that was my "veggie" list previously), I ate broccoli, brussel sprouts, green beans and one sweet potato- all fresh. I cooked dinner (or Jodie did) 5 out of 7 nights instead of eating take out (or crap) most nights and cooking 1 or 2 nights. I don't recall that I ate any wheat - outside of perhaps an incidental ingestion (as in, "that has wheat in it? no way!") rather than "oh look, BREAD!!". I ate a variety of meat, rather than just hamburger, including chicken, steak, and shrimp one night. I also cut back on the dairy. I didn't cut it out...but I noticed when I did eat it that I was having some "gastrointestinal" issues. So I cut back.
It was a week. There was good, there was not so good. This is a new week. I need to make sure I pack the foods I can eat for work. That is a BIG issue. Sometimes I procrastinate - a sure-fire way to fail at getting food packed then I'm scrambling to find things I can eat and it's all no good.
So, that's that. A good enough week off, now it's time to go back to the day-to-day work thing. Happy Monday!
Sunday, January 06, 2013
Oh....the joys of all or nothing thinking.
Yesterday had some good points, for example some yummy salmon and broccoli for brunch....that diverged from the no-grain path at a late lunch/early dinner of chicken fajitas that included some corn tortillas....that ended in a Dairy Queen Blizzard.
l am reminding myself of Sisson's 80/20 rule, working on not getting all guiltified over the blizzard, and moving forward today.
But, I found myself last night and this a.m. going through the all or nothings. "Wow, those 3 corn tortillas and the blizzard - yeah right, Lisa. Way to go. Now you REALLY won't lose any weight. You're going to be obese forever..."
Whew. Let's smack that thinking DOWN! What did I say the other day? This isn't a marathon to finish in 8 hours (if you're me, LOL) and go back to the old way of eating tomorrow. This is life. Life does occassionally include corn tortillas and a blizzard.
Just not every day. Or even, every week.
I've made huge changes. I will continue to make changes. The scale WILL move in the downward direction. I've cut my carbs in HALF over the last week. That's HUGE!!
Breathe in, breathe out. Go scramble some eggs and eat some broccoli. This too shall pass.
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