Monday, February 18, 2013
This weekend was devoted mainly to one thing - beading the costume I'm wearing at a dance competition the first weekend in March.
Yes, in two weeks. It's not done. Every bead and sequin is sewn on by hand and it's a huge task and one I'm behind in. My goal was to have it complete by 14 days out from the event.
No go. I did get a long way on it this weekend, but that meant several hours of sitting on my butt to do it, so my fitbit stats are very, very sad.
I'm reminding myself I can do everything I want....but perhaps not at the same time. Aiming for 25 miles distance in a week is great if you have time to do it realistically. The next two weeks? It's not going to be realistic. The costume MUST be finished, and that's more sitting outside of work than I usually do. But there is an end in sight to it, it's only until the competition weekend.
Sigh. Working on health and wellness is a lot of work. A lot of time. Planning, executing, focusing on. With a full time job, a part time job of dance, and a family, I'm seeing so clearly how it was easy to push trying to be healthy aside because of all of the other demands of life.
But I won't BE there for that life if I don't deal with my health. This weekend, my stress and anxiety were probably the highest I've had in years. My risk factors are high for some kind of cardiac event and the last couple of days as I felt soooooo stressed, that was all I could think about. So, goals for this week - I need them. And, I need for them to be REASONABLE.
1. 5,000 steps a day. This is half of my usual daily goal, but about 1500 steps more than a day when I'm not trying to move. It's a reasonable goal.
2. CPAP. I've gotten to the point of avoidance here, again.
3. Medication compliance. Take yer freaking medicine!
4. Actively working on stress reduction.
5. Drink some water.
6. Eat 5 freggies a day.
That's it. Those are the only goals I'm working for this week. It's all I can handle. Once again, something is better than nothing. How about YOU? How do you handle really stressful weeks? Do you try to keep your full schedule up and running, or do you sometimes modify to attain goals at all?
Friday, February 15, 2013
That's been my big lesson with the Fitbit. Yes, I am crazy busy..and I fall into bed exhausted every night. For years, I have equated that with being active.
Nope. The Fitbit has shown me that despite all that "busy-ness" - I am typically fairly active about 2 hours a day. I am slightly active about an hour a day. And very active? once or twice a day - typically zumba and walks.
Yesterday was another 10K+ day, and again, it was noteworthy to me that to get over 10K required a "short class" of 20 min of zumba, two 15 min walks, a trip to the grocery store, and getting up and walking around a little every half hour. That doesn't sound like a lot, but piled into my day...it is.
The scale..it's teetering. I think I might have lost a half pound, but I don't have an electronic scale, so I only count what I know is true, and what was true yesterday was 244. Again. I do expect, by the shift in my clothes, there will be a drop soon. Last time I went down 7....up 3 and stayed there for a net loss of 4 pounds. For some reason, that's the way my body works. None of this a pound a week thing. It hangs on for 2 weeks, 3 weeks, maybe a month, then BOOM. 5-7 pound loss, then it wiggles up and down a little for a 2-4 pound "real" loss.
Learning this is helping me to be more patient.
Food? Well....much drama ensues from the south while Jodie's mom declines rapidly. Hospice said she won't make it til Jodie's planned trip end of March, so next week jodie is making a flying trip to Louisiana to say goodbye to her mom. Meanwhile, her sister calls 10x a day with increasing hysteria/drama. Seriously. 10x a day. As i said.....Drama ensues. Oy. So the food? yeah. It's not pretty. So, I'm focusing on movement...that's the best I can do right now.
And the best you can do....is the best you can do. Have a rockin' weekend folks!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
At first, when I actively logged my food with my fitbit I was undereating.
Now, since I'm carefully tracking again the last couple days - overeating.
It's emotional, stress-driven eating.
Lots of pressure right now - Jodie's health issues have suddenly come to the forefront. In 7 days we learned she has cataracts on both eyes (at 48!), beginnings of diabetic retinopathy, kidney function not as good as it could be, and she's developed a small abscess on her hip. And her mother is dying of cancer. She bought a ticket home to Louisiana at the end of the school term, but sister called last night saying hospice said her mom isn't likely going to make it through the month. That's just in the last week, and just Jodie's stress. Let's not start listing mine, or I might run to the fridge, LOL.
I'm trying to be aware. I'm trying to log every ugly bite, and I'm trying to keep on moving.
Wouldn't you think, when an obese apparently overly sedentary woman starts moving about an hour a day more than usual, there would be some weight loss, LOL?
I will say, despite the scale's stubborn refusal to budge one bit (tho perhaps I should be grateful it's not going the wrong way!), my clothes are fitting different. Definitely, with no reservation I can say my body IS changing due to the exercise. As always, it amazes me that the first places that begin to show change are the places I don't actually have a problem with in the first place - like my calves. Or my chest (please, I really don't need to lose one more inch there!). Wouldn't you think it'd come off the big areas first? The hips? The belly?
Mostly I'm hanging in there....but boy, can I feel the stress eating at me (and apparently, I'm a stress-induced eating machine, sigh). The movement of zumba, the walks on my breaks - those are definitely helping with the stress though. Sort of shudder to think where I'd be if I wasn't moving!
That's it, checked in for another installment of Lisa trying to get healthy. Have a great day folks, and keep moving!
Monday, February 11, 2013
No weight loss.
Adding zumba several times a week, adding walks on my break, moving my steps up from 3K a day to 8-12K a day.
Scale is stuck at 244.
no the scale is NOT the be all and end all of weight loss. But, really?
What shall I do then? Well, I shall keep doing it. Keep doing zumba, keep walking. last week my food tracking was not consistent - but I also didn't eat anything unusual. However, I willl track.
I will be patient.
Fitbit and Spark do say I can eat more food than I'm eating most days, when I have been careful about tracking. Perhaps, just as a lark, I will eat up a couple hundred more calories a day and see what that benefits me.
Not giving up, just whining. Everyone needs a little whine session now and again, eh?
Thursday, February 07, 2013
Well, I'm working it. Let's see, I think 10 days or so since I got the Fitbit. I'm averaging about 8000+ steps a day and three times I've been over 10,000. I've held my sedentary rate at around 83%, and it's still taking zumba several times a week and walking on both breaks to keep it there. My daughter and I hadn't weighed for a month and we did so Tuesday and I lost 5 pounds last month! Hot dog!
Sunday was the local dance guild showcase and I danced. Below is the picture. I think the word "horrified" would be pretty close to how I felt when I saw it. I could go on and on about how I usually wear a different kind of midriff cover that holds in all ...of..... THAT in a whole lot better. But the reality is I'm an obese woman with a short body and it has to go somewhere so it goes.....there.
I warred with myself about posting it. I'm not happy with it. But I'm still out there, living my life. I could wait to dance until I lost the weight. Well, I would have been waiting a very long time, wouldn't I? I choose to live today, even if I'm obese doing it. So, there you have it.
That said, today I went online and ordered the "power net" midriff cover I USUALLY wear, LOL. That new, "oh so soft, don't even know it's there" one? Not so much.
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