Tuesday, March 05, 2013
This is my dance partner and I performing this weekend at a bellydance competition in the troupe/duet category:
This is me on the far right with a big smile, because we WON! 1st place out of five groups!
This competition has been my major focus for three months, and the last three weeks I have done nothing but work and bead that costume. The last week, I did no zumba or other exercise, I beaded, LOL.
Whew. Glad to have a good result for all that time!
The other amazing thing? I was the largest woman in that category. Some of them were tiny barbie dolls, a couple were more curvy, but I was the largest. And yet, we won.
That is a success for every fat chick, in my book.
Now...back to zumba. Back to walking. Back to eating clean. I remain, believe it or not, at 244. Despite having eaten whatever I really wanted the last two weeks due to intense stress (lot more than the competition going on, sadly, in that regard).
Today when I stepped on the scale, I thought really?? 244, still? I'm beginning to think it's broken, LOL. I was asked more than once this weekend tho, how much weight I've lost. That means those measurements don't lie. I HAVE lost some inches.
Back to regular posting and the pursuit of health, as of today. :)
Thursday, February 28, 2013
I've been MIA....beading, beading and more beading. Costume is finally done, aside of a bit of finishing work. I'll try to post pics of the complete costume soon, but below are some in progress pics from last week. I spent literally 18 hours last weekend, and up to 3 hours a day on weekdays the last two weeks.
Cardio, steps, exercise, all have suffered. I tell people - you can do everything you want, just not at the same time. In this case, the exercise had to take a back seat to finishing this costume on time.
Every bead and every sequin....hand sewn. I think, no kidding, I passed the 120 hours mark sometime mid week - I lost count. At LEAST 120 hours. Possibly closer to 150 hours.
Competition is this weekend in Tacoma, Washington. Finally feel ready to go and have some FUN. I'd like to place in the competition, but more than anything I'm looking forward to having some fun and seeing old friends. Back to the business of steps, cardio and health on Monday.
I signed up for a 10K on Labor Day. I haven't done more than a 5K in many years, so it's a good "next step". :)
Monday, February 18, 2013
This weekend was devoted mainly to one thing - beading the costume I'm wearing at a dance competition the first weekend in March.
Yes, in two weeks. It's not done. Every bead and sequin is sewn on by hand and it's a huge task and one I'm behind in. My goal was to have it complete by 14 days out from the event.
No go. I did get a long way on it this weekend, but that meant several hours of sitting on my butt to do it, so my fitbit stats are very, very sad.
I'm reminding myself I can do everything I want....but perhaps not at the same time. Aiming for 25 miles distance in a week is great if you have time to do it realistically. The next two weeks? It's not going to be realistic. The costume MUST be finished, and that's more sitting outside of work than I usually do. But there is an end in sight to it, it's only until the competition weekend.
Sigh. Working on health and wellness is a lot of work. A lot of time. Planning, executing, focusing on. With a full time job, a part time job of dance, and a family, I'm seeing so clearly how it was easy to push trying to be healthy aside because of all of the other demands of life.
But I won't BE there for that life if I don't deal with my health. This weekend, my stress and anxiety were probably the highest I've had in years. My risk factors are high for some kind of cardiac event and the last couple of days as I felt soooooo stressed, that was all I could think about. So, goals for this week - I need them. And, I need for them to be REASONABLE.
1. 5,000 steps a day. This is half of my usual daily goal, but about 1500 steps more than a day when I'm not trying to move. It's a reasonable goal.
2. CPAP. I've gotten to the point of avoidance here, again.
3. Medication compliance. Take yer freaking medicine!
4. Actively working on stress reduction.
5. Drink some water.
6. Eat 5 freggies a day.
That's it. Those are the only goals I'm working for this week. It's all I can handle. Once again, something is better than nothing. How about YOU? How do you handle really stressful weeks? Do you try to keep your full schedule up and running, or do you sometimes modify to attain goals at all?
Friday, February 15, 2013
That's been my big lesson with the Fitbit. Yes, I am crazy busy..and I fall into bed exhausted every night. For years, I have equated that with being active.
Nope. The Fitbit has shown me that despite all that "busy-ness" - I am typically fairly active about 2 hours a day. I am slightly active about an hour a day. And very active? once or twice a day - typically zumba and walks.
Yesterday was another 10K+ day, and again, it was noteworthy to me that to get over 10K required a "short class" of 20 min of zumba, two 15 min walks, a trip to the grocery store, and getting up and walking around a little every half hour. That doesn't sound like a lot, but piled into my day...it is.
The scale..it's teetering. I think I might have lost a half pound, but I don't have an electronic scale, so I only count what I know is true, and what was true yesterday was 244. Again. I do expect, by the shift in my clothes, there will be a drop soon. Last time I went down 7....up 3 and stayed there for a net loss of 4 pounds. For some reason, that's the way my body works. None of this a pound a week thing. It hangs on for 2 weeks, 3 weeks, maybe a month, then BOOM. 5-7 pound loss, then it wiggles up and down a little for a 2-4 pound "real" loss.
Learning this is helping me to be more patient.
Food? Well....much drama ensues from the south while Jodie's mom declines rapidly. Hospice said she won't make it til Jodie's planned trip end of March, so next week jodie is making a flying trip to Louisiana to say goodbye to her mom. Meanwhile, her sister calls 10x a day with increasing hysteria/drama. Seriously. 10x a day. As i said.....Drama ensues. Oy. So the food? yeah. It's not pretty. So, I'm focusing on movement...that's the best I can do right now.
And the best you can do....is the best you can do. Have a rockin' weekend folks!
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
At first, when I actively logged my food with my fitbit I was undereating.
Now, since I'm carefully tracking again the last couple days - overeating.
It's emotional, stress-driven eating.
Lots of pressure right now - Jodie's health issues have suddenly come to the forefront. In 7 days we learned she has cataracts on both eyes (at 48!), beginnings of diabetic retinopathy, kidney function not as good as it could be, and she's developed a small abscess on her hip. And her mother is dying of cancer. She bought a ticket home to Louisiana at the end of the school term, but sister called last night saying hospice said her mom isn't likely going to make it through the month. That's just in the last week, and just Jodie's stress. Let's not start listing mine, or I might run to the fridge, LOL.
I'm trying to be aware. I'm trying to log every ugly bite, and I'm trying to keep on moving.
Wouldn't you think, when an obese apparently overly sedentary woman starts moving about an hour a day more than usual, there would be some weight loss, LOL?
I will say, despite the scale's stubborn refusal to budge one bit (tho perhaps I should be grateful it's not going the wrong way!), my clothes are fitting different. Definitely, with no reservation I can say my body IS changing due to the exercise. As always, it amazes me that the first places that begin to show change are the places I don't actually have a problem with in the first place - like my calves. Or my chest (please, I really don't need to lose one more inch there!). Wouldn't you think it'd come off the big areas first? The hips? The belly?
Mostly I'm hanging in there....but boy, can I feel the stress eating at me (and apparently, I'm a stress-induced eating machine, sigh). The movement of zumba, the walks on my breaks - those are definitely helping with the stress though. Sort of shudder to think where I'd be if I wasn't moving!
That's it, checked in for another installment of Lisa trying to get healthy. Have a great day folks, and keep moving!
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