Monday, June 24, 2013
I've been "eyeballing" my food portions. Yes, I admit it. For...too long.
Yesterday, I weighed or measured my food. Startling reminder of why that's important.
I know what to do. I've been on SP since, ahem, 2006. I just....didn't wanna do it. Or, I'd do it a little while and then fall away. But after all that time, all those articles, doing spark coach for awhile, believe me, it's not that I don't know HOW to do this.
It's the actual, uh, DOING. You know? The denial? The emotional eating. eh.
So, another go round.
I remind myself yet again of why I don't want to do the medifast route (among the many including cost, nasty "food", continuous feeling of deprivation, and re-gain that is so prevalent when folks return to real food) - the whole "now, don't exercise too much in the beginning because it's just going to make you hungrier". Something about that just does not sit well with me. Besides the fact I'm signed up for a 5K in a couple weeks and I enjoy walking, I enjoy training, I enjoy trying to get to 10K steps a day.
So, if the alternative is chopping veggies, dirtying more dishes cooking and measuring, and writing down what I'm eating, I'd rather do that, thank you.
That's it this morning. Off to work and real life. :)
Sunday, June 23, 2013
I ran into an acquaintance yesterday and was flabbergasted at her weight loss. She said 51 pounds, it looked more like 80 to me. Seriously. I said so how'd you do it? She said...medifast.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about this since I ran into her. The various "well, I could..." to "you have done a supervised fast before, it was horribly expensive and hard, do you really wanna do that again?".
I've doubled my activity. Easily. I may not always make 10K a day, but since January I've doubled my activity level by tracking with my Fitbit.
No weight loss. Maybe even a gain of 2 or 3 pounds.
What does that tell me, dear reader? It tells me my food is out of control. Do I track? no. Do I eat pretty much what I want ....yes.
(that doesn't mean I'm binging or eating ice cream for breakfast, LOL, just that I'm having carbs, seconds at dinner, etc)
Out of control.
Time to refocus.
Out. Of. Control.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Yesterday, my partner graduated with her Associate's Degree in Criminal Justice.
Friday, she got a job (after literally years of no job/under employed).
I feel like a 1000 pound weight has been lifted off my shoulders of being the sole support for our family for so long. I feel hope.
Jodie will likely continue on to get her bachelor's in CJ online, which is wonderful but the job? oh yes....income! Benefits for her! Woo hoo!!
10K steps a day continues to be a challenge. Having the last couple days off I varied rather wildly from 12K to 5K, but again I realized my job sitting on my heinie at a computer for 8 hours a day is a huge culprit of my weight gain.
Today I plan on dragging my bike out of the garage and taking just a short spin....getting back on it, working it into my routine and maybe, just maybe working up to riding to work now that school is out....wish me luck, LOL.
Sunday, June 09, 2013
You know when you work so hard for an event, planning, details etc and then it's over and you feel sort of lost and maybe a little blue?
That's how I feel today.
But I'm reminding myself exactly what it is - I worked really hard last week on getting prepped for daughter's graduation, now it's over and it's time to refocus.
I finally figured out what I need to refocus on this morning. There are a lot of options, not the smallest of which could be my partner's graduation party this Saturday for earning her Associate's Degree...but what I really need to focus on is..
I've gotten in the habit of putting myself last again. You know, that's okay occasionally - but it's become "the norm" the last couple of months. Time to shift some focus back on my health, my art, my happiness.
Being an adult is so full of responsibility...and unfortunately, I have a little problem with being too responsible. If others can't do it all, I pick up their slack. The problem is - that becomes "normal". Suddenly, I'm not only responsible for myself, I'm responsible for others stuff too - I see this in myself at work especially but also at home. When you do too much for others, there is no time to do for yourself.
This requires some gentle but firm reshuffling of responsibility. Yes, I'm talking to myself here, LOL.
So today is back to refocusing on my own life and health, my happiness, my self.
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