Friday, November 30, 2007
I will be busy putting up the tree and doing family stuff tomorrow, so I'm recapping my month today.
My proudest achievement? I stayed in the top 20 points-wise on the LC until like the 15th, got sick and fell out of the top 20 but yesterday, I was back on again! This signifys CONSISTENCY - something I lack in a big way. I run around like an ADD kid from one thing to the next and never stay on anything. This month, I stayed on spark consistently and that is a big deal to me.
I had some ups and downs - part of life. I made it through them, and I did not let them derail me for long. I made better connections with more sparkers and that can only lead to being more involved and accountable.
I don't think I have weight loss to show for it...I've banished my scales. I do know I am down at least half an inch on my hips and around an inch on my waist, that I have a LOT more stamina and I've been teased at least once that the seat of my pants are all baggy all of a sudden. I FEEL better, that is the biggest plus there is.
After feeling like I really made it through November, I can face December - the Month Of Candy - a little more confidently.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
So, I wrote this really long post documenting what a really successful week this has been as far as tracking, working out hard enough to break a sweat, blah blah blah....
and when I tried to post it, it disappeared.
I'm feeling really good about my program right this minute, and CONSISTENCY is really starting to show, which is good. Guess that sums it all up...
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
woo boy. I just tracked the rest of my food for yesterday and it's really not pretty. Close to DOUBLE my calorie range.
I got triggered, I knew it and I just could not stop. The only good thing I can say is, at least it wasn't just handfuls of candy or whatever, it was dinner.
We're sitting at the table and we have a ritual of everyone saying what was the best part of their day and what was the worst. We get to my 11 yo son Mike, who has been having problems with anger management etc. He says the worst part of the day was when his "ex friend Jeremy blah blah blah"
I said, "why ex-friend? You and Jeremy get into an arguement?" I sort of expected it to be something along the lines of arguing about something Star Wars, lol. Mike is a SW NERDand if his friend wants to pretend something happened that didn't in the movies, well...he will get bent out of shape..it's happened before and that's what I expected...but no....
He says, "He said he's not my friend anymore. He figured out you were gay and he doesn't want to be my friend anymore".
Apparently, since Jodie was working nights and sleeping days, the few times Jeremy came over and heard about "Jodie" he assumed it was a man. He came over last week and met Jodie...and figured out Jodie is not a man, that in fact, Mike has two moms.
I began to eat....and I could not stop. I talked with him about how he felt about it, that part of it went okay...but I could not stop eating. Hurt me all you want....don't hurt my kid. :(
On a happier note, I realize I've been the most active on SP this month than I've ever been and that makes me really happy. It's a new day.
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Till 2008. I feel very good about yesterday...I tracked every bite I ate, even the 4 Hershey's kisses....usually...well, let's not talk about how I would have dealt with the kisses. By writing it down, I ate exactly what I wrote...rather than "sneaking" one, then 2...then 35. I wrote I would eat 4, I took 4 from the bag, got my book, went to bed..when the 4 were gone, turned out the light and went to sleep. Small victory, but a satisfying one.
I did strength and a good hour plus of cardio...we had dance rehersal and the sweat was running off me...and it felt great...sort of what I imagine runner's high is like...
We worked hard...and it all came together...I felt like jumping up and down I was happy. I started this troupe several years ago. I got a lot of flak about stuff..."that's too hard!!" "make it easier" and gradually...my dreams for it wilted. People have cycled in and out tho...and right now, I have a team of women who WORK for it..who WANT to do the hard stuff...who WANT to travel and compete...and I'm very happy. That translates into wanting to be in better shape and increase my stamina more...and today, I feel pretty good about the journey.
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