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Friday, January 11, 2008

Boy Howdy. I'm happy it's Friday! What a week...Partner wrecked the car - she wasn't hurt but it sure was (to the tune of $500 I didn't have), one car and one person working nights and the other days got ugly. Just a stinkin' long week.

My exercise is not where I want it, period. Part of that is flat exhaustion. Either I would have jodie take the car and be trapped at home with no car (which makes me crazy) or get up at 12 and go get her. Even on the nights I stayed home, I'm not used to her working nights again and I didn't get to sleep well. I've gotten an average of 4-5 hours a night sleep, and that is not good enough. My car came out of the shop last night, so that will be one hurdle down - so next week's goals have to include at LEAST 6 hours of sleep a night so I can muster the energy to get up and exercise.

One thing I can say on reflecting on this past week, I've cut my sugar consumption at LEAST by half. The only "obvious" sugar is my morning coffee, limited to 2 cups with a 2 tsp each. No other sugar added, no candy, no apple pies from McDs, no ice cream. All week. I kept sugar-free jello on hand at work and home for the sweet tooth and that really sufficed. At night, my biggest sugar attack time, I "treated" myself to cool whip lite on my jello. Not sugar free, but a good start at reducing fat/sugar in regular cool whip and it made me FEEL like I was getting a huge treat, so the emotional boost was well worth it.

I sneaked on the scale wednesday and had lost nothing...and immediately my mind started its chatter about this is too hard and blah blah and I said...

Actually, seemed to work pretty well. I should tell myself to shut up more often, lol.

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READYCANADIAN 1/13/2008 4:08PM

    You will see results - of that I am confident. Kicking the sugar habit it a huge step - good for you!!!!!! :)

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NANDINI/PATTI 1/11/2008 4:22PM

    Here, I'm gonna help you - SHUT UP! Sahara's gonna do this!

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A_PRESENCE 1/11/2008 12:13PM

    Way to tell yourself to Shut up!

Hope things are better next week.

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LCHARVON 1/11/2008 11:18AM

    I SO hear you! I am constantly telling people that the part of my body that needs the most work is that three pound organ between my ears! I'm constantly telling myself negative messages.

Maybe you and I should start a thread to encourage folks to replace their negative "tapes" with some positive "mantras"!!

Stay with it! I'm encouraged by the folks on this team who have lost SO much weight!!

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That's what I get!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

I am so annoyed at myself I cannot stand it.

Becoming a fan of Biggest Loser, I checked out their website. Of course, you can't see anything unless you join...I read it carefully, and decided, what the hell? For $19.95 for one month I can check it out and see what it's about. I could blow $20 at the yarn store or wherever in a heart beat so, why not?

Firstly, I SWEAR I checked the ONE month subscription...but when the receipt came up, it was for THREE months, a $59 total. I SWEAR I read and understood one month, not three.

SEcondly, it's certainly no better than I see I've plunked down $60 dollars (that's a lot of yarn dammit) for something I get BETTER for free. I've written their help department to ask if I can get it down to what I THOUGHT I was asking for...but who knows.

THat's what I get for thinking the grass might be greener on the other side. I love spark...but I was tempted and now I'm really MAD at myself. grrrrr.

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NANDINI/PATTI 1/10/2008 7:42PM

    Oooh - hey - I just read one of the responses further down. You can be our spy! LOL (Just trying to make a bad situation feel better.) Been there and done it. Want to know what I think about

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A_PRESENCE 1/10/2008 3:34PM

    Let us know if they reimburse you!

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PWROFNOW 1/10/2008 11:40AM

    Hey Sahara, $60 is a lot and I'd be angry too. On the other hand, you never what you might pick up over there at Biggest Loser. Sometimes truth sneaks up on us in the guise of accidents. Though I have done similar things and it is infuriating to KNOW you were thinking straight! Until the help dept/customer service works it out for you, why not plunge into that web content and see if there's anything in it for you that might help compensate for your expense? I hope you post what you learn if you do find a gem in there, I bet it turns to be something "just for you!"

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"What have you done today to make you feel proud"

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Last night's Biggest Loser was great! The part where they had to watch themselves describe what they regularly eat, and then are shown how much fat/calories they are racking up each year was very powerful.

I would not want to hear how much sugar I've been eating in a year. Uh uh.

Following the BL theme, what did I do yesterday to make ME feel proud and know I am on program?

1. I worked out - Did the 20 minute cardio 1 part of the BL cardio video I have. Let me be honest. It's sorta hard. It's 20 minutes. I really didn't wanna do it. "I thought, Hmmmmmm....I'll try the cardio 2, it's only 10 minutes!!" (is this "diseased thinking" or what??). Ahem, yeah, I got about 45 seconds into it and humbly turned back to the 20 minute cardio 1 and did every minute of it.

2. I ate no fast food. I can't express how remarkable this is. I DID eat at Subway for lunch, but made very good choices, so I'm not counting that as fast food - tho some might argue the point. It's not fast food to ME, so there you have it.

I'd like to say I ate within my calorie range, but I was over by about 400 calories. Too many snacks (healthy tho they were) and what really killed me was that I had a second slice of garlic bread at dinner. I should have looked that one up BEFORE I ate it!

Lesson learned.


My version of 9 1/2 weeks....

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

No, not the movie (or anything remotely like it, LOL)...but my next BIG goal:

In 9.5 weeks, the weekend of March 15, my dance troupe will drive 8 or so hours to the biggest bellydance festival on the West coast, Rakkasah. I took the leap and got us a dance will will be sharing the stage with literally bellydancers from all over the WORLD...Germany, Japan, not to mention many US dancers.

I'm asking myself, what can I change in the next 9 1/2 weeks to be the best I can possibly be when we step onto that stage? I've a mini streak going now of moderate food consumption and working out. I want to continue that and:

1. Make sure I am getting strength training in a minimum of 2 x a week.
2. Really look at the NUTRITION in the food I eat, not just the taste or comfort factors.
3. Get enough sleep - I don't want to run myself ragged and be exhausted when we get there!

More than anything, I would REALLY like to have a better profile than in the pic above...that BELLY....OMG. If some of that belly could go down....well...I'd be a happy camper.

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AMANDANCES 1/10/2008 11:30AM

    Oh I'm SO jealous!! I Want to go to Rakassah!!!!! You'll be great and GORGEOUS!!! That is so cool. :)

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    What belly? :o) You can & will do this!

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ARROW37 1/8/2008 8:00PM

    All I can say is "You go Girl!" :) Your goals sound right in line of what you want. You can do! Please keep us updated on how things go. Here's to 9.5 weeks for you!

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NANDINI/PATTI 1/8/2008 4:25PM

    Oooh - I've wanted to do Rakkasah! Lucky you! Keep us posted on the progress and let the dancers here know if you need any encouragement or anything else at all. Okay????

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Not the start I wanted....

Friday, January 04, 2008

I developed a cold New Year's Eve and I've been sick since. Missed time from work (that I can't afford) and all my excitement about the new year has evaporated. I think I have that I've-been-sick-and-now-I'm-depressed thing going on...I have no energy whatsoever and yet I need to be at work or financially I'm in trouble. I took Wed off, tried to come back yesterday but only was here a couple hours before I had to go home and go to bed. I feel better than that today, but not much. I've been too sick to exercise and ..... I'm feeling sorry for myself in the extreme.

I'm working on the "be gentle with myself" idea my coach gave me...but my, that is so much easier to say than DO right now. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted, and it's 7:15 a.m.

I've tracked my food. I read articles this a.m. specifically dealing with being sick and self care.

My dance classes start their next 6 week session Sunday, and I've been too ill to prepare. The children are still home for the holiday and are at each other's throats......Did I mention I feel exhausted and overwhelmed?

"God...grant the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can..and the wisdom to know the difference."

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ARROW37 1/5/2008 10:58AM

    Sending another *hug* your way. I too agree with your coach - Be ever so gentle with yourself. You ARE worth it! :) One hint for you about the "doing" aspect of this is to just imagine that you are being gentle with yourself, try to apply the "be gentle to yourself" thoughts. If you find yourself getting frustrated with that, try again...eventually it will become second nature. You can do it! I have a feeling that after some rest and a good night's sleep last night, you are feeling better already. Talk to your children, can they help with your planning? Do they have things that they can focus on before going back to school? I'm sure they would be willing to help if you ask. Good luck and take care of yourself. :)

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READYCANADIAN 1/4/2008 11:16AM

    Sending you a *hug*. I agree with your coach - be gentle with yourself. In one short week's time everything will feel better (your cold will be better, the kids will be back to school, dancing will be underway) - this is just a short-term blip.

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