Monday, February 18, 2008
You know...I'm pretty well diet educated. I've been in nutrition classes, I've had the calories in vs calories out discussions, I "get" it. I really do. If you eat more calories than you burn over a period of time, it will be stored as fat. If you burn more calories than you eat over a period of time, it will result in weight loss. I understand the roles of fat, carbs, protein, sodium etc in our diet and the effect they have on our weight loss efforts. What cardio and strength training help our bodies accomplish. Our need for fluids and sleep. I really do "get" it.
Except, it doesn't always work so simply. My body does not want to give up this fat. Let's take the example:
I went from eating unrestrictedly - anything I damn well wanted I put in my mouth. 3,000+ calories a day, probably a LOT more than that on some days when I was binging - coupled with little to no cardio and no strength training. It is no wonder, no suprise that I'm tipping 250 on the scale (give or take 10 pounds depending on how hard I've been working at losing weight). I drank a large fat/sugar laden Dutch Freeze 5x a week, along with my McDonald's Sausage Egg McMuffin. I snacked on candy throughout the day, ate greasy fast food again for lunch, and half the time, yet AGAIN for dinner.
From there...I cut the Dutch Freeze, and replaced it with coffee from home, losing 200+ calories and who knows how much fat. I stopped eating at McD's for breakfast, switching to Oatmeal, again saving myself 200+ calories and loads of fat. I stopped eating candy - and god knows how much that was adding up to. I started doing cardio a minimum of 30 min 3 x a week for a month. Through blood, sweat and tears, I lost 7 pounds.
It doesn't add up. Really. It's like when I went from drinking a 6 pack PLUS a day of regular Pepsi to NO SODA, not diet, not anything just no cal water or crystal light...and I lost no weight. I did not replace it with an equally high calorie beverage...but I still lost NO WEIGHT.
My body does not want to give up it's fat storage. Do I feel better? Hell yeah! I feel a LOT better. Am I increasing my life span? You betcha! Decreasing my odds for heart attack and stroke? YES!!
But I'm not really losing weight according to the formulas that tell me I SHOULD be. Have I given it my ALL? Yes. YES I have.
Am I giving up? No. Hell NO. But I am going to be kinder to myself. I'm going to stop saying to myself, You must not be trying hard enough. YES, YES I AM trying hard enough. For whatever reason, it's just not happening the way the textbooks say it should. So be it. I'm not giving up...but I'm not going to beat myself up either.
Here's to a new week.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I wrote a looong post here yesterday, which SP promptly "ate". I was so annoyed, I just logged off.
The scale continues to dance at 240...never *quite* getting under. I've been doing a LOT of exercise, so that is not the problem. My food is good during the week, not so good during the weekend, but I'm not sure that is even the problem.
I'm really thinking part of it is exhaustion (not enough sleep - around 5 hours a night) and not enough water. So, I'm working on changing that this week.
While the scale may not be changing, my body definitely is. I can see it...other people are commenting on it. Of course, it is always interesting to me that we don't lose inches or weight where we WANT to lose them. Where is the most noticeable area on my body?
My arm pits. No I'm not kidding. They are hallowing out, where before there was a bulgy fat pad there. Gee great. Don't get me wrong, happy to see ANY of it go...but ... my arm pits? Please.
The other interesting thing is my belly. I have had a very FIRM fat belly. Firmly packed with FAT. Now....my upper abdomen is still pretty firm and rounded....but my lower abdomen is getting very flabby and is not firm at all any more. And frankly, it looks weird! To have the lower belly saggy and softy jello like.....and the upper is still bulging and firm...It just looks nasty.
But, beggars cannot be choosers. I will take the weight loss wherever it chooses to land and try to trust in the process that the areas I long to lose - the fat upper ab, the thighs, the upper arms...will come in their own time.
Lastly, before SP eats this getting long post...I'm off the boards/challenges everything right now, due to no time. I'm workig full time, teaching apxl 10 hours of dance on top of it, working out 5+ hours a week, and still trying to be a parent ...I log in once a day and that is about it. So, no, I haven't dropped out...I'm just too busy to log in!
Friday, February 01, 2008
As I did my cardio last night...I had the fleeting thought "geez this is hard. Is it worth it?" Instantly, I banished the thought because I know YES, it IS worth it.
Well this a.m., it was worth every sweaty minute...I am wearing pants I've never worn! Jodie got me a pair of pants MONTHS ago...and they have never fit. I could not come close to even zipping them, much less buttoning them.
I'm wearing them! It was a fluke I even tried them on - I was simply out of clean pants, lol. There they hung....and I thought oh they are not going to fit (cause I tried them as recently as a few weeks ago and it was definitely a no go)....and when I pulled them on I could FEEL the difference...they just slid right up...and I thought...yeah, but will you zip for me you rotten pants???
Easy as you please as a matter of fact! AND buttoned - and no pain, lol. Ever FORCED a pair of pants to button and zip? Hurts doesn't it? not these...they fit. They really fit!
Yep, worth every minute. :) Happy Friday Spark Friends!
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Do I sound happy? Upbeat?
That would be due to weighing in this a.m. at (drumroll pleeeeeese) ......
240. Lowest weight since May 2007, and as I've said before, that lasted about a day or two.
That makes 7 pounds since New Years. My challenge goal is to lose 20 pounds by June 15. I'm getting excited...not only is that a very real possibility to me right now...I can even imagine...more.
Definitely has me motivated!!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Hmm, guess I'm dating myself with that title aren't I?? LOL
I'm ready to take on the world this Monday! Woo hoo!
I'm a little nervous that I didn't get my 2.5 hours teaching dance class in last night - I had to cancel due to weather. I'm tellimg myself that just means I need to take it up a notch this week and make sure I get my cardio in every single day and try for a little extra here and there.....
Also found having Jodie home during the weekend meant more food than I'm used to on a daily basis...But again, I'm just going forward. Today is a new day...the weekend is over and I can beat myself up over what I ate and the exercise I didn't get, but that's not going to help or change anything. Boy does that perfectionism raise it's ugly head..."not perfect, not good enough, just give up"
I don't THINK so!!!! So, here's to Monday Morning Motivation!
Today's Plan: Take the stairs at work as often as possible, keep to my food plan, do my 30 min cardio DVD.
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