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Tuesday, November 04, 2008

I'm sick. Like sick, sick. Goopy sinuses, chest congestion and pain with cough...I couldn't figure out what was "wrong" with me all weekend...I was apparently getting sick.

I don't pay enough attention to myself to even figure out when I'm sick! Years of pushing down my feelings, needs, even physical aches and pains have left me clueless about my own body and health.

So well trained in "put yourself last" - I didn't even recognize I was sick! That's just really annoying me right this minute! I've made some good changes - but I'm so out of touch with my own body it's not funny.

Love yourself first. I need it tattooed on my forehead (in reverse so I can read it in the mirror!). In fact, I'm going to post it on a sticky on my monitor RIGHT NOW! I spend 8 hours a day here for work - I remind myself of appointments, to do stuff, I guess I need to remind myself to care for myself!

What have YOU done to care for the body you are in today?

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JIBBIE49 11/4/2008 2:54PM

    I ate a banana today to give me some potassium. emoticon

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DUBLWHAMI 11/4/2008 10:43AM

    I love that you end your blogs with a question! While your blog is about you, in the end you ask about others. This says a lot about you. emoticon

In answer to your question, I'll be tracking my food today (as much as that is a big time consumer for me) and committing to stay in my calorie goal. I'm also going to put on my sneakers and take my jiggly booty for a walk!

Do take care of yourself and think healing thoughts,

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Small changes

Monday, November 03, 2008

So far, today is a better day. A perfect day? Nope. But a better day than I've been having.

What will I do today about my health?
1. I will take my Rx meds AND I will take tylenol as necessary so the pain of my aching knee/joints doesn't get "ahead" of me.
2. I will eat 5 servings of fruits/veggies.
3. I will WORK during dance practice tonight and not just 'move through it'.

What I already did:
I got up, showered, did hair and makeup and came to work.
I ate breakfast.
I've posted here.

Whew. When you don't feel good, when you're blue, when life seems too hard...those things seem pretty durn big.

What did YOU do today for your health?? Enquiring minds want to know.....

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DUBLWHAMI 11/4/2008 9:21AM

    I kept pushing through my workout DVD. I couldn't finish all the reps, but I kept on moving until it was over.

If anyone could spy on me, jumping around the great room in my sports bra, they'd probably call 911 - "Hey there's a fat chick having a seizure!"

Ah, well, let's all try to keep moving as best we can! Remember, despite the sweat and agony - it's good for us!


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JIBBIE49 11/3/2008 11:06AM

    Well, yesterday, I did the P90X LEGS work out, and of course, I'm pathetic, but I did the best I could on each rep. I keep telling my MIND that I'm doing each rep and that I'm YOUNG and STRONG. (I don't think my MIND is buying it. ) emoticon

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Less than productive

Sunday, November 02, 2008

I am struggling with a difficult fall. Not any one thing i can pin it on....just odds and ends of "stuff" leaving me tired, unmotivated, achy etc.

I ache all the time - is it arthritis? I never knew I HAD arthritis before so I would shrug off the aches and pains, as the weather has gotten colder tho, it's almost impossible to do without tylenol. I hate taking meds so I put it off till I'm seriously hurting - probably not the best idea right now.

Some depression - missing my aunt who died this spring, old stuff. Financial stress (gee, who doesn't have THAT right now?). Just having a hard time pulling myself out of it.

Uninspired to dance, do art, do much of anything but sleep or hide in a book. I need to get motivated but all my usual ways aren't doin' the job!

Well, enough whining about what I HAVEN'T been doing! What HAVE I done? I've started the second sock of the pair I'm knitting. I have a serious problem not finishing things, so it was a pretty good deal to cast off the first sock and IMMEDIATELY cast on for the second!

I've been doing my makeup and hair every day for work. Sounds easy enough I know, but if you struggle with depression it can be a big deal, so that's a huge plus for me!

I've been getting most of my hours at work, also a big deal when you are depressed.

I'm on week 4 of a 6 week class session I'm teaching and I've made it through them so far. When I can't get excited about dance class, there's a problem. This term, just getting through it has meant success.

Okay, listing what I've done is much more helpful than listing the million things I'm not getting done or feel I stink at. sigh. I haven't worked on my goals last week or even really THOUGHT about them.

spark is a huge aide for me in goals, so I'll go back to listing them here and checking in on them.
1. Dance videos 3 x this week.
2. AT LEAST a walk 4 x this week, the gym if I can drag myself there.
3. Get my 5 fruits/veggies.

It's a start.

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JIBBIE49 11/2/2008 6:25PM

    That is a good start! emoticon

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Sugar season

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Yikes. Candy everywhere. Cookies, goodies...the office is FULL OF IT.

Sort of overwhelming.

Hanging in there...trying to exercise daily, and stop beating myself up that it's not enough or whatever. Food...not so much control there right now.

Stress...up. Work has been hellaciously busy...had a huge argument with my partner eariler in the week that has left home a little tense too.

But I'm here! I dragged myself out of bed and to work when all I wanted to do was hide under the covers, and I'm reading and logging in at spark and that has to be good enough for today.

If anyone reads this today and has a suggestion for a good fiction book, I could use it! I like specifically urban fantasy (vampires, etc) but I'll read almost shout out if you have a book/author recommendation! I have nothing to read and that JUST WON'T DO!!!

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    It sounds like you've been dealing with alot. You sound like a busy woman. Try to take one step at a time. The week is finally over and we can all start fresh again!

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JIBBIE49 10/29/2008 4:31PM

    The GOOD EARTH by Pearl Buck.

Olan is my favorite heroine, because her husband hated her because of her big feet, but it was her big feet working in the fields that made him a rich man.

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NOREGRET2010 10/29/2008 4:09PM

    I've not read the Carey series...thanks for the tip!

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JADEDINVASION 10/29/2008 3:56PM

    I think you would like the Kushiel's Legacy series by Jacqueline Carey. It's AWESOME. Technically it's labelled fantasy, but it's not. But be warned it can get a little explicit, and her style of writing can get "ostentatious" at times, but it's a totally addictive read.

It starts out with Kushiel's dart. Totally excellent.

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NOREGRET2010 10/29/2008 3:16PM

    Hey thanks Heather! Yep, read the Twilight Series...and Anne Rice too.

Love Kim Harrison, wish the next one would hurry up! Charlaine Harris...all those. Thanks for the ideas tho!! :)

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HEATHER.BITTNER 10/29/2008 2:32PM

    Have you read the Twilight series by Stephenie Meyer? They are excellent!! Or maybe Anne Rice's Vampire series?

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Made it to Tuesday...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Things at work are resolving, very slowly. I still have a mountain of responsibility and little appreciation for it...but I'm supposed to be getting the training I requested and less pressure from my superiors...and we'll see how that goes.

Dance is going full swing, classes back in session, troupe gearing up for a performance in Tacoma in January, and suddenly I have three new private students who want multiple lessons a week! Whew! Be careful what you wish for, you might get it, lol!

We had this huge trauma drama thing with our car...a week of hell with the only car we have not running right and bad parts and you name it. I think, THINK, it is over.

I'm really proud of my sweetie, she did all the mechanic work herself - it was especially frustrating to be a woman who knows what she is doing be dissed at the parts store by some macho jerk tho. She said, this (brand new out of the box) alternator is bad, to have the parts guy do the "you're a woman and must not know what you are talking about". At first, he even refused to test it! Then, when he did and it tested bad...he tested it TWO MORE TIMES because he was so sure it was good and she was a dumb woman who didn't know what she was talking about. I can tell you, we will not buy even a quart of oil from that store again....he was so rude and ugly.

Exercise? Just dancing dancing dancing. The knee just aches. I have surgery in a month to fix the torn meniscus...After the recuperation time, I am hoping to get back on the weight machines etc.

Food? Let's not talk about it. Stress = more food and I've been stressed. Just trying to make healthier choices than ice cream and sugar!

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JIBBIE49 10/21/2008 11:05PM

    Mmmmm...... ICE CREAM.............(sounding like Homer Simpson!) emoticon

Sugar is a strong addiction. I read the new edition of "SUGARBUSTERS" which is written by 3 doctors. It PAYS to avoid it as much as possible.

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MS.ELENI 10/21/2008 11:51AM

    Just wanted to comment on macho parts guy.I can relate so much to that.I can't count the times I have dealt with those kinds.One other kind is the car salesman. I never will forget the time my husband went with me to get a new vehicle.The salesman totally ignored me and was so intent on trying to sell to my husband.Finally my husband told him he was talking to wrong person and that he better start talking to me. I told him I would spend My money somewhere else. You should have heard him apologizing.
Unfortunately the macho male is not going away.I try to just laugh it off. Especially when the worse ones are the ones that know less than we do.

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DUBLWHAMI 10/21/2008 10:46AM

    I hear you - sugar is evil! Before you know it, Friday will roll around, you'll make it.

Best wishes to you,

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