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A new name

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I've changed my User name. After 3 years on spark - I wanted a bit of a fresh start. There are other reasons....but the name says it all: No regret 2010.

I want 2010 to be a year of following through. A year of consistency.

I feel good about it - the name change and the coming year.

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LINIS_THIN 1/6/2010 10:49AM

    Thank you.... I was searching to find a way to change my name to Thin Lin!

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JMARKS40 12/31/2009 10:42AM

  Thanks NOREGRET2010. Have a great YEAR!

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NOREGRET2010 12/31/2009 9:59AM

    Jmarks40: Go to your start page. On the Left it will say Welcome Jmarks40! and under that is account settings - you can change it in there. :)

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JMARKS40 12/31/2009 9:33AM

  How did you change your user name?

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CHANJEN348 12/23/2009 10:17PM

    emoticon that's a positive way to start the new year!

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MARLEY415 12/23/2009 4:20PM

    A fresh start always sounds good. best of luck

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MARKDORENE 12/23/2009 3:52PM

    good luck

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Life does not stop while we're fat

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My dance life is a huge chunk of my time, my creativity, not to mention sweat and blood and tears! To toot my own horn, I direct an award-winning bellydance troupe out of podunk Bend, Oregon, that holds the current Belly Dancer USA troupe award for 2009. It's pretty freaking amazing considering I am morbidly obese. Bellydance, like most dance art forms, has it's internal critics - many of whom say overweight women should not dance in public. Don't get me wrong, there are a LOT of compassionate, supportive women...but there are also those who do not approve of what I do at my weight.

Most of the time, I can let that roll off me. If I waited till I lost weight, I wouldn't have a two-time BD USA troupe, I wouldn't have won numerous solo competitions, I wouldn't be teaching classes weekly to some of the most amazing and talented women, I wouldn't have made friends up and down the West coast, I wouldn't have sweated blood gettting certified level I in the Suhaila Salimpour format.

i would have missed out on more than you can imagine, if I had sat back and said, well, I'm fat and so I shouldn't dance/teach in public. Screw that attitude! Of course, do I LIKE the way I look in a costume right now? UH NO I DO NOT. The massive belly is all I can see.

But today, I got a Facebook friend request from someone I don't know who is local. Usually I don't friend people I don't at least recognize on the street, LOL. But this lady wrote me that she is also "voluptuous" and she had seen one of our videos on YouTube and wanted to just tell me that I inspired her.

THAT'S what it's all about folks. Pushing my own internal crap aside and having relationship with other women - inspiring them and believe me, being inspired by them.

So - While I'm working on my health, of which weight is a huge issue, I'm also taking time to remember that LIFE DOES NOT STOP WHILE I'M FAT. Hoo rah!

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SINABUNN 12/29/2009 10:27AM

    LOVE this! Love the attitude, love the message, all of it. I know that I personally have missed out on so many things just due to the fear of putting myself out there. My partner and I were just talking about Cancun and zip-lines and snorkeling... and my automatic internal response is "But I'm still so FAT." Ugh. If I wait to be unFAT, I'll spend the rest of my life right here in this chair! Screw that! lol Thanks for helping me spark a bit of my inner fire.

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A_BELLE 12/27/2009 8:30PM

    I love it! You are so right!

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 12/22/2009 8:46PM

    One of my friends commented on this. I love the title. It is very wonderful. I want that attitude too. I am so glad you shared. Congratulations on your accomplishments.

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DENRNAJ 12/22/2009 7:04PM

    From one woman to are beautiful.
I am a chunky runner, check the junk in the trunk as I go by!
Woo Hoo!!!!

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FITKAT2010 12/22/2009 6:36PM

    Hoo rah is right! You go girlfriend!

Remember: Everyone only sees their own issues in others.

Comment edited on: 12/22/2009 6:36:38 PM

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KAMINLENA 12/22/2009 12:45PM

    You are _SO!!_ right!! It's sad to think how often people let weight hold them back when they could be living!

I don't know much about the internal politics of American competition bellydancing... But, I do know Turkish bellydancing (I'm an amateur ethnomusicologist by hobby) -- and it's nothing like "bellydancing" it is here. Sure, they have the tourist dancers that fit the image, but the dances those dancers are doing, the ones we consider "exotic" or "erotic", are the same dances that everyone - man, woman, child, old, young, fat, thin - does when traditional music starts to play. It's not about anything other than being together and enjoying the music.

If you have the chance, I highly recommend a trip to Turkey... It's an eye opening experience on so many levels (and they love pudgy women!!)

And, I would tell any critic that if they think there's a weight limit, they're showing their ignorance of bellydancing's origins! But, that's just me and I have a big mouth!! =^)

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IFDEEVARUNS2 12/22/2009 12:11PM

    You go, girl! You're an inspiration. When I told my mother a few years ago that I was belly dancing, she was horrified. After looking at a few pictures, she said "Well, as long as you continue to look good...." I bit my tongue - she just didn't get it.
Belly dancing helped me get in touch with my long suppressed sensuality, and I'm ever so grateful for that. It also enabled me to make some marvelous friends with strong supportive women. And now to find the time to do it again.....

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WORKINGSTIFF 12/22/2009 11:35AM

    Time waits for no man (or woman), so they say.

I took up salsa dancing late last year. As a larger woman, I know where you're coming from. Life is to be lived and enjoyed-right now, now when the stars align and everything is "perfect."

Rock (or shimmy) on!

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PRYDEQUEEN 12/22/2009 10:51AM

    You are amazing! Thank you for your inspiring blog!

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PRYDEQUEEN 12/22/2009 10:51AM

    You are amazing! Thank you for your inspiring blog!

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The Green-Eyed Monster....

Monday, December 21, 2009

Work is very, very slow. Painfully slow. So I've been perusing quilting blogs.

It made me very envious - Envious of women with TIME. Yes, yes I know...some of those women work three jobs and tend the feilds and cook everything from scratch and STILL have time to knit, sew and quilt. Granted. But there are a few who don't work...who have no children...and they have the luxury of time that I don't have.

Yes, I could change my life around. But work is a necessity, the part-time dance teaching is necessity (for creativity and survival), and school is the only way to the future. So there isn't a whole lot of time left over. I could certainly manage what little time I have better, but it still wouldn't amount to the kind of time some of these women have.

Truly, I'm okay with it....mostly. But I had such a moment of overwhelming envy, and frustration...that I decided it would be better to write about it than to tuck my feelings away with some of the fudge decorating the office. So there's a success in the face of my frustration!

Good grief, I have a hard time finding time to EXERCISE, much less to do artsy craftsy sh!t. No wonder so many of those ladies down at the quilt shops are older, LOL, that's when you have TIME!

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FITKAT2010 12/21/2009 7:29PM

    It is good to view your thoughts-especially the "negative" ones. Then, let them go-don't give them credibility. Don't react, don't judge. Just let them be.

No matter what life one has, they always want something else. ALWAYS



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Magic Monday

Monday, December 21, 2009

This is a short week for me, for once I took the day before Christmas off, so I have a 4 day weekend. I NEVER do it's something pretty special! Besides, with the work stress lately, wow it will be good to have 4 days off in a row!

I plan on sewing, reading, and generally enjoying time at HOME, mixed in with some dance stuff and working out on the Wii.

I ran reports on SparkPeople again today, and was much more pleasantly surprised than when I did so a couple of weeks ago. Now I can see consistency starting to happen. Notice I didn't say perfection, but consistency. 2 weeks of 4 workouts, 1 week of 3 workouts. Not perfect, but way better than the nothing I was doing before! I also noted I'm consistently about 200 cal under what I'm aiming at burning so I'm going to work on increasing my workouts by a few minutes a day and really striving for that 4 x a week or popping in an extra when possible. I'm pleased that rather than feeling "I'm such a failure" - my usual response - I'm able to see what I'm doing well and feel good about working harder to make it even more consistent.

As for the holidays, I'm trying to enjoy what I can and let the rest go. Some moments are easier than others. Here's to the most healthy Christmas week in most of my adult life, if nothing else!

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WHITEDOVE22 12/21/2009 1:25PM

    Keep up the good work! And enjoy your day off before Christmas! And hats off to consistency. It's always good to see some sort of results that make us feel better. I know for me it's a huge hurdle to take lunch to work everyday, so I congradulate you on your consistency! Enjoy this small victory, and enjoy your good days, learn from the rest!


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Stress relief....

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I'm recognizing my stress load is increasing to a danger zone again. Work, financial issues, holidays, and dealing with this being the first Christmas since my dad died are adding to my usual stressers and I'm feeling the tension riding me.

Things I can do:
1) Continue to eat healthy - binging will not make the stress go away.
2) Get some exercise every day to release some of the stress.
3) Reach out to others.
4) Do something I enjoy every day.
5) Make sure I get alone time - I get really crabby if I don't have a little time to myself.

Other suggestions to stay sane? I'm all ears...

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FITKAT2010 12/16/2009 7:14PM

    Write your dad a letter.

Write out your feelings and let them be. Don't act them out-write them out.

Feelings need to be recognized, not judged. Judging is what the problem is. Then we feel guilty, etc. Then we punish through self-sabotage.

Don't overdo-even at work. Tell people no!

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FLUENTFROG 12/16/2009 6:08PM

    Your list seems to cover the balance of bases, hang in there, keep up the positive, pro-active attitude!

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A_BELLE 12/16/2009 5:23PM

    Hang in there, girl!

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782298 12/16/2009 5:18PM

    I know you already said get some exercise everyday but I find yoga to be an excellent stress reliever for me. Just remember to relax when you can and good luck. emoticon

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JULIEIRENE 12/16/2009 5:17PM

    I think that's a great list! Very manageable and all very healthy and positive. Maybe you can pick a particular feel-good song to listen to when you need a pick me up! Good luck! I'll be cheering you on!

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