Sunday, January 24, 2010
This last week has been a long one. I've worked the last 2 weekends in a row by necessity (we are short staffed) and I won't have a whole day off till this coming Saturday, so it will be 3 weeks off total before a whole day off. Sundays I teach a 2 hour dance class and by the time I prep it, drive there, teach it and drive home, I've tkane up a good 4-5 hours of my day. so while it's not as stressful as work, it's still being responsible and having to BE somewhere and be On, if you know what I mean. i'm tired!
i've been so busy I've barely been on SP, I haven't gotten all of my planned exercise, but at least half of it. I'm having problems with the software for my on-line math class and little help from the instructor over it, which means I'm going to YouTube to find out how to find the least common multiple, LOL. It all adds up to STRESS.
I have read some about adrenal failure...how modern medicine says "rare, unusual" and more Eastern thought practictioners say not so! and wonder about the effect of constant stress and little relaxation I have on a regular basis. So today, besides homework and teaching dance class and getting laundry done so I can have clean clothes, i will spend some time alone - as an introvert I really NEED it and I don't always get it. I will do something relaxing and fun for ME.
if i've been less than responsive or not as present commenting on blogs or emails, see above. Know that I am here and that next week it won't be so bad. keep talking to me, LOL, cause I am listening, I'm just not responding much. Best of all, tell me what YOU do to relax and de-stress, I need suggestions!
Monday, January 18, 2010
In the last two weeks, I have upped my exercise by oh......4-5x what I was doing. My eating has been pretty clean all things considered.
and the scale this a.m. said I've gained 2 pounds.
Truthfully, I'm not terribly bent out of shape about it despite my catchy blog title. I'm able to say "whatever!" about it, because I can SEE the difference in my body. My belly is flatter (which is a good and not so good thing....when an obese person starts to lose their Santa belly, it doesn't stick out so much...as it begins to hang low, LOL - not a pretty sight! But one of progress nonetheless). I can feel it in my clothes and I know I am building muscles because freaking yoga is killing me and my muscles hurt after every work out - both water aerobics and yoga.
I know I'm doing the hard work and I know it's working - despite the fickle claims of the scale.
Yeah yeah, we all know muscle weighs more than fat - this is true, tho I know for many years I used this as an excuse when I didn't lose weight for months on end, LOL. Was I really gaining muscle? No, I was lying to myself. Today, I know full well I AM gaining muscle. I'm also having some swelling in my joints due to arthritis and I imagine that could be factoring in to some gain as well.
Truthfully, I'm just not all that torqued about it, but I wanted to post not only for myself, but my steadfast Spark Buds who also walk (run, swim and lift) this journey with me. When you're really DOING it...and the scale is too fickle to tell....keep on. My tale is just another reminder that the scale is a tool. Sometimes tools are not reliable measures of success.
My aching muscles, hanging belly and loose pants are all tools to judge my success against as well, and I'm going in their favor today rather than the scale!
Happy Monday....well, as happy as a Monday can be...
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I'm tired. Really tired. This morning I wondered, what the h*ll was I thinking taking two PE classes this term? On top of dance Wed/Fri/Sun. I know it's the first week of full classes and that's part of my fatigue, dealing with the anniversary of Dad's death, and other stress is adding to it...but wow, I'm tired.
One thing I realized when I logged my exercise for yesterday, with the two PE classes, I'm way above my projected goal for exercise. I'd been ignoring the little "you are significantly above your expected exercise minutes and should adjust your calories" message thinking "Oh whatever". But this morning I paid attention, clicked the link and when I adjusted my exercise minutes, gained 300+ more calories a day, bumping me up to 2300 cal a day. That's really quite a bit.
Now, I haven't been tracking perfectly and I haven't been eating perfectly, but I can tell you I've not been eating THAT many calories. So that may also be why I'm dog tired. I also have been off my supplements - multivitamin, glucosamine/chondrotin, etc.
Why? uh....cause I'm crappy at taking pills. I don't like the vitamin taste I burp sometimes, I get heartburn, blah blah blah. I have a hard time remembering my allergy pill 2x a day and my antidepressant. Anything I remember over that is gravy, LOL. However, with as exhausted as I'm feeling right now - big hint to start taking my multivitamin again whether I enjoy it or not.
What good is all this exercise if I'm too tired to enjoy the benefits? this, too, will pass and I'll be glad I did it. In the meantime, I need to pay attention to some of those little details I put off....until I'm miserable.
One of these days, I might learn. You know, when I'm not so tired....
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Yeah, yeah, I felt great afterward....all loose and relaxed. But doing it? uh, freaking hard.
Worth it? Well, yeah...but geez I hope it gets easier!
Work stress is down, Hoo-rah. However, this week is the anniversary of my dad's death and I'm feelin' my feelin's from that. Just a reminder that there really is always something...and if I give in and eat over stuff, I could find a "reason" every day of the week.
Since my dad died, I've lost about 18 pounds and made some good changes in the way I eat and the amount I move. None of it is all perfect now of course, but you know, it's better. I've made some good changes and I am proud of what I've done so far and feel capable of doing more as it comes.
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