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New week, new focus

Sunday, January 24, 2010

This last week has been a long one. I've worked the last 2 weekends in a row by necessity (we are short staffed) and I won't have a whole day off till this coming Saturday, so it will be 3 weeks off total before a whole day off. Sundays I teach a 2 hour dance class and by the time I prep it, drive there, teach it and drive home, I've tkane up a good 4-5 hours of my day. so while it's not as stressful as work, it's still being responsible and having to BE somewhere and be On, if you know what I mean. i'm tired!

i've been so busy I've barely been on SP, I haven't gotten all of my planned exercise, but at least half of it. I'm having problems with the software for my on-line math class and little help from the instructor over it, which means I'm going to YouTube to find out how to find the least common multiple, LOL. It all adds up to STRESS.

I have read some about adrenal modern medicine says "rare, unusual" and more Eastern thought practictioners say not so! and wonder about the effect of constant stress and little relaxation I have on a regular basis. So today, besides homework and teaching dance class and getting laundry done so I can have clean clothes, i will spend some time alone - as an introvert I really NEED it and I don't always get it. I will do something relaxing and fun for ME.

if i've been less than responsive or not as present commenting on blogs or emails, see above. Know that I am here and that next week it won't be so bad. keep talking to me, LOL, cause I am listening, I'm just not responding much. Best of all, tell me what YOU do to relax and de-stress, I need suggestions!

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A_BELLE 1/27/2010 8:59AM

    Girl, I can SYMPATHIZE. Can you believe I am also taking an online math class? BRUTAL!!!! Ugh. Don't even get me started on it....or the fact that the scale isn't budging. Stress=bad for weight loss :( GOOD LUCK!

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JULIEIRENE 1/25/2010 10:24AM

    I hope you got your alone time yesterday because you certainly deserve it. I think adrenal exhaustion is a very real thing and more common than "modern medicine" might indicate. I'm proud of you for coming back even after a challenging week. Keep it up, you. You can do it!

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JANIELEE54 1/24/2010 12:26PM

    I am anxious to see responses as I too am stressed beyond capacity this past week. I vowed to take 2 minutes a couple times a day to breathe deeply and stand up and stretch. Maybe only remembered to do that one/two days.

I will find says to relax this week. Morning and afternon move away from my work and stretch or breathe deeply. Find a mantra and breathe deeply while focusing on my mantra. In fact my mantra will be "breathe in peace, breathe out stress".

Good luck! We all need it!

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PRYDEQUEEN 1/24/2010 12:12PM

    I am glad you are finding some alone time and taking care of yourself! I take small "moments" throughout the day and just stop, clear my mind, and breathe. At work, I usually do this in the bathroom.

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The scale is evil and must be destroyed....

Monday, January 18, 2010

In the last two weeks, I have upped my exercise by oh......4-5x what I was doing. My eating has been pretty clean all things considered.

and the scale this a.m. said I've gained 2 pounds.

Truthfully, I'm not terribly bent out of shape about it despite my catchy blog title. I'm able to say "whatever!" about it, because I can SEE the difference in my body. My belly is flatter (which is a good and not so good thing....when an obese person starts to lose their Santa belly, it doesn't stick out so it begins to hang low, LOL - not a pretty sight! But one of progress nonetheless). I can feel it in my clothes and I know I am building muscles because freaking yoga is killing me and my muscles hurt after every work out - both water aerobics and yoga.

I know I'm doing the hard work and I know it's working - despite the fickle claims of the scale.

Yeah yeah, we all know muscle weighs more than fat - this is true, tho I know for many years I used this as an excuse when I didn't lose weight for months on end, LOL. Was I really gaining muscle? No, I was lying to myself. Today, I know full well I AM gaining muscle. I'm also having some swelling in my joints due to arthritis and I imagine that could be factoring in to some gain as well.

Truthfully, I'm just not all that torqued about it, but I wanted to post not only for myself, but my steadfast Spark Buds who also walk (run, swim and lift) this journey with me. When you're really DOING it...and the scale is too fickle to tell....keep on. My tale is just another reminder that the scale is a tool. Sometimes tools are not reliable measures of success.

My aching muscles, hanging belly and loose pants are all tools to judge my success against as well, and I'm going in their favor today rather than the scale!

Happy Monday....well, as happy as a Monday can be...

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JULIEIRENE 1/19/2010 11:05AM

    Hey, I just read this Daily Spark Blog and thought you might be interested!:

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JULIEIRENE 1/18/2010 6:46PM

    Amen, Sister! Thanks for sharing! You know I'm struggling with this too. It's so great to have companions on this journey! Keep up the awesome work!

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PRYDEQUEEN 1/18/2010 12:02PM

    I say we need to have a "Put your Scale Away" month! I'm with you - it is truly about how you feel, how your clothes feel, and what your body tells you.

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WONDERLANDFND 1/18/2010 10:30AM

    I don't know why that stupid number means so much when everything else shows us how far we've come. Thanks for the reminder!

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    My scales can sometimes be evil as well...I wait for the days when they are nice. emoticon

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Well that was....gross

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Yesterday, my coworker brought me my favorite drive through coffee drink a Dutch Brothers Dutch Freeze. I haven't had one in, well, probably 6 weeks or more. I didn't really want it, but she's standing there smiling at me with it trying to be I thanked her and took a sip....and had a hard time not gagging.

It was terrible! so incredibly sweet it was gross!

Now if you only knew...this is an incredible thing. Sugar is my drug of choice. I love sugar. You know how people take a bite of pecan pie or cheesecake and say "oh, that's so rich, I can't eat it all!" I never understood that until about 2 years ago. I could sit down with a pecan pie and a spoon and the rest would be history. "too" sweet? I thought there was something wrong with you, LOL. Once I began battling my sugar demon and cutting it...I discovered what "too rich" meant. I became physically ill from eating too much sugar for the first time in my life.

Today I am not sugar free by any stretch of the imagination....but that favorite drink of mine being absolutely disgusting to me and being unable to drink it? THAT is fabulous. Truly fabulous.

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MRSLEENY 1/17/2010 12:53PM

    Boy can I relate to the pecan and spoon comment! Just like salt, when I cut that back, everything was tasting too salty. Good luck with the sugar demons!! Your doing great. emoticon

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WORKINGSTIFF 1/14/2010 10:01AM

    It is true that once you back away from sugar, some things just taste way too sweet. Same way with salt.

Keep up the good work!

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JULIEIRENE 1/14/2010 9:54AM

    Ha! I was almost scared to read this blog with that title! Haha!

I am SO proud of you!!!! I can really relate to this entry and I am so excited for you that you are experiencing that and feeling that difference. Way to go Mama! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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A_BELLE 1/14/2010 9:01AM

    That IS fabulous! I had lost a bunch of weight in college with diet & exercise and naturally that included cutting my sugar. Eventually I didn't even crave sugar and when I did - I couldn't have very much. I LOVED that feeling! I need to get that feeling back! HA!

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Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I'm tired. Really tired. This morning I wondered, what the h*ll was I thinking taking two PE classes this term? On top of dance Wed/Fri/Sun. I know it's the first week of full classes and that's part of my fatigue, dealing with the anniversary of Dad's death, and other stress is adding to it...but wow, I'm tired.

One thing I realized when I logged my exercise for yesterday, with the two PE classes, I'm way above my projected goal for exercise. I'd been ignoring the little "you are significantly above your expected exercise minutes and should adjust your calories" message thinking "Oh whatever". But this morning I paid attention, clicked the link and when I adjusted my exercise minutes, gained 300+ more calories a day, bumping me up to 2300 cal a day. That's really quite a bit.

Now, I haven't been tracking perfectly and I haven't been eating perfectly, but I can tell you I've not been eating THAT many calories. So that may also be why I'm dog tired. I also have been off my supplements - multivitamin, glucosamine/chondrotin, etc.

Why? uh....cause I'm crappy at taking pills. I don't like the vitamin taste I burp sometimes, I get heartburn, blah blah blah. I have a hard time remembering my allergy pill 2x a day and my antidepressant. Anything I remember over that is gravy, LOL. However, with as exhausted as I'm feeling right now - big hint to start taking my multivitamin again whether I enjoy it or not.

What good is all this exercise if I'm too tired to enjoy the benefits? this, too, will pass and I'll be glad I did it. In the meantime, I need to pay attention to some of those little details I put off....until I'm miserable.

One of these days, I might learn. You know, when I'm not so tired....


Yoga is hard

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Yeah, yeah, I felt great afterward....all loose and relaxed. But doing it? uh, freaking hard.

Worth it? Well, yeah...but geez I hope it gets easier!

Work stress is down, Hoo-rah. However, this week is the anniversary of my dad's death and I'm feelin' my feelin's from that. Just a reminder that there really is always something...and if I give in and eat over stuff, I could find a "reason" every day of the week.

Since my dad died, I've lost about 18 pounds and made some good changes in the way I eat and the amount I move. None of it is all perfect now of course, but you know, it's better. I've made some good changes and I am proud of what I've done so far and feel capable of doing more as it comes.

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JULIEIRENE 1/12/2010 4:27PM

    I'm proud of you for the continued positive changes. And I hear ya on the yoga! They make it look so easy!!!! I do love it though!

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POOHLA711 1/12/2010 1:45PM

    I want to take a yoga class so bad! But I can't find one around here that fits my schedule. Keep with it! I hear it is awesome for you and I'm sure it will get easier as you get used to it.
I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my mom in 2008 and I think I miss her more now than I did the day that she passed. Stay strong and try to remember the good times. Whenever I feel sad about my mom, I always tell a funny story about her or think of one of my favorite memories of her. Then I usually end up smiling.
Have a great day!

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FLUBBERS 1/12/2010 12:42PM

    Congrats on you your weight loss! And I am sorry to hear about your Dad. Just try to remember why you are trying to get healthy when that feeling to eat comes back. I struggle with it too. It's a challenge we must face everyday. But learning and growing are how we move past it.
I am starting Yoga tonight. Finally found a beginners DVD since there are no classes near me that I can take. I have seen it have great results with other people though.

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