Monday, January 01, 2007
I have 90 days till March 31 when I sponsor the incredible Amy Sigil and Unmata. Trying to decide on realistic goals to set for this....definitely have to do something, or Amy's signature "kick ass" workshops will literally kick my completely out of shape heinie to the floor.
Setting reasonable goals has never been a strong point of mine! I tend to set completely unreasonable goals for myself, thus jumping into the self-defeating cycle of setting myself up for failure.
Along the way, I have other events I can set as "mini" goals - Feb 2 my classes are performing at local Winterfest....Feb 10 the studio I lease space from is hosting a huge showcase and we're also dancing in that...I'm getting my troupe back up off the ground and we'll be dancing our butts off getting ready for the Unmata show as well...
Trying not to set myself up for failure....I am reminded of a therapy appt once, where he said "hmm, you seem to THINK alot about stuff you want to do...but do you actually get up and DO it Lisa?"
Heh. He had me there.
Sunday, December 31, 2006
"Even the best of us can be guilty of unknowingly hurting our own progress. Procrastination, lateness, being disorganized, pessimism, not being honest with yourself, severe self-criticism, downplaying achievements, focusing only on weaknesses while ignoring strengths, keeping goals a secret, demanding perfection, giving up after a small setback--these are all ways you can make it tough to be (and do) your best."
Sometimes I WISH i could point to someone else and say "it's YOUR fault!", but the reality is - I have a habit of taking the blame, for everyone and everthing. Yet, I didn't see I've been standing in my own way.
I'm a little afraid...I'm 42 years old, do I know how to get out of my own way? Can I learn?
Friday, December 29, 2006
I can read that two ways:
1. Even the boring mundane stuff I do makes a difference to my family, my job, my community.
2. Another reason to stop the perfectionism...doing even a small part of my weight loss routine is better than not doing anything at all. It all adds up to a healthier me.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
This is an interesting concept to me, since I've been thinking all my life "I can do anything" - apparently I've confused anything with EVERYTHING.
I realized a couple of years ago, I could not do every craft and hobby I wanted. I didn't have the time or the money. So I packed up the polymer clay, quilting, calligraphy, collage...and more. I decided that I would stick with two - bellydance (and all it's components of beading, sewing etc) and knitting.
Mostly I've been happy with that decision...tho sometimes I wistfully look at other crafts..
It's been the same with my weight loss ventures. I tried to do everything. Let's see, at 5 pounds from my highest weight ever....obviously not working.
What are my priorities - Exercise and not binging. HAve I been exercising? No. No time. How can I make that time? What has to go in my life to make room for that?
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Now that sounds intelligent, doesn't it? But....it's what I'm working on today.
I haven't been taking care of myself. I haven't been taking care of my body, my health, my mental health...I haven't been taking care of ME.
I don't want to be another "new years loser" - by that I mean someone who makes resolutions that last three days and then they are back to living the same old way.
My dad came for christmas day. He can't hardly walk. He was smelly and unkempt. He was a grumpy old man. He is on a permanent catheter. His diabetes is uncontrolled, as is his blood pressure.
I don't want to end up there. I'd like to think I wouldn't go the route of being a stinky old lady, lol...but I haven't been taking care of myself and if I don't get a grip on it....well, who knows, I could end up there.
I was so grateful it was Buffed Stuffed's page featured today...she is an incredible model.
I want to use this week to really think through my goals, and get them firmly in mind and written down. Plan for them...not idly say "oh I want to lose weight." More like "I want to gain LIFE."
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