Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Oh man. Spring has sprung (in our hearts if not the weather) - and my workplace is full of dieting women....complete with "my way is the best way" attitudes and comparison/competition in full swing.
A large contingence is doing Atkins. Not of fan of Atkins, personally. Watching them tons of cheese, hardboiled eggs and bacon has been interesting to say the least. I don't give my opinions - if anyone asks I'll tell them I think it's just a much too high fat diet (the way they are doing it anyway) for me, thanks.
then there's the South Beach gals. I feel so deprived on SB it's not funny and I end up binging. Is that my failure or the diet's failure? Doesn't matter to me, because I am not successful with it.
I'm behind these women making healthy choices and I've mentioned spark people then let it go. If Atkins/SB works for them, I'm really pleased for them. I just know it's not for me. SP has given me the tools I need and when I use the tools I lose weight. Good enough.
Monday, April 05, 2010
This was the theme of a recent SP email I received, with the following quote:
Our lives are a sum total of the choices we have made.
- Wayne Dyer
Particularly apt as I am looking back to a weekend of choices I made - some good, some not so much. I made the decisions to eat what I ate - good and "bad" - I made the choices to work out - or not workout - and owning those choices and decisions is the only path for me to success in weight loss.
On Easter's past...I would have eaten and binged on candy until I exploded, basically. This year? Nope. In fact, we did't "do" a dinner. We had a regular meal and that was it. Did I have some chocolate? Yep, Yep I did. But it was in moderation and not binging and I am content with my choices.
That being said, I'm faced again right away on Monday with food at work that is not remotely on my plan, anxiety i'm struggling to control, and it would be so easy to not own my choices and say "I'm having a crappy day. I'll eat what I want today and start fresh tomorrow".
The problem with starting fresh with tomorrow is this: It is a lost day. What is a day in a life? Likely not much - but it's more than I want to sacrifice to my health. How many "tomorrows" or "next weeks" have stolen time off my life in obesity and lack of health?
So today, even tho I'd like to hide in bed, eat chocolate and read trashy novels , I choose to remain on my food plan. I choose to drink the water. I choose to sweat. I choose to remain present in my body and in the moment.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Finally, a spring-like day! We usually have 300+ days of sunshine a year....this year? Not so much. Rain, cloud cover and snow have been the hallmarks of the weather. So I'm really glad to see the sky and the sun!
Yesterday I did indeed manage to stay in my guidelines - slightly over in carbs by a few grams, but I'm not going to be legalistic and shoot myself down over it, period. Got the water in to boot! So, today I'm feeling strong and capable and just aiming for more of the same.
Tried to go to Zumba last night...but the instructor "forgot". yay. That was sort of annoying - especially when we dragged ourselves out into the weather to get there - hail and crazy rain/wind. But, we will persevere and go back tonight and see if it works out.
Scale says -1.1 pounds for this week so far. Not bad eh? Gee, keeping in your calorie limits and drinking water and you lose a little weight. who knew.....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I stayed within ALL my nutritional goals yesterday for the first time in a really long time. Wasn't too hard all in all and felt pretty darn good this morning when I ran the analyze report etc. Typically for me, something will be off. Too high or too low. Actually, according to what I entered i think I was 33 calories under, but like that $1.23 you can't make balance in your checkbook - I figured not enough to worry about, LOL.
It's also the first day in a really long time I've been honest about every bite that went in my mouth THAT, friends, is the success. Typically, I begin to enter my food enthusiastically, but then either I get freaked out how fast my calories are going (which is perception, really - fear of not having enough) and I either quit tracking all together or conveniently leave off stuff and then I'm afraid, so I don't want to finish tracking for the day.
At least I know what I'm up to, eh? Oh, I know. Believe me, I know. I know myself well. So to know that I tracked every bite and was within all my goals is a big reward.
I don't honestly think I made my water goal however - try as I can, I can't remember drinking more than 6. I'll add some renewed vigor to that effort today along with again tracking every bite.
fear of failure is a crazy thing. I have that one. I also have fear of success- which is a really crazy thing, LOL. if you are afraid of both failure and success...you just can't win or lose, now can you? Working on that. I've worked on it and conquered various forms of it before, but it is insidious - and here I am again. So, celebrating even one day of success is a very good thing.
For me, success (in weight loss and health gaining) is doing many tiny things right, over and over, no matter what the scale says.
What is success (in weight loss and health gaining) to you?
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Not happy with my weigh in. I had some things to eat last week that were certainly not on my plan and they made that known today when I stepped on the scale. A small bump in the road, no more - no less.
My goal today is to get the water down. Why that is so hard for me, I do not know. So, I'm making it today's priority - followed only by staying within my calorie range. If I can manage BOTH on the same day, I'll be a happy camper.
Longing for a little road trip. Portland...and Powell's City of Books. A city block and mmm five? stories of book goodness - new and used all together. I could (and have) spent an entire day there. If you are a book lover, well, it's nirvana to me. Locally, we have a Barnes and Noble, a couple of independants and a few used. I've tried to frequent the independants because I BELIEVE in books - but they are so small and I read so much, they rarely have anything I want. I DO try to order from them tho when I can't find something I'm dying for. I'm spoiled by Powell's tho, and I haven't been for months - and as I recall the last time we were in a hurry. Hurry + bookstore is not my way.
I was reading Shealuna's page (http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=
SHEALUNA) about her writing and discovered we like the same authors and that prompts me to ask - what do YOU read? I pretty much exclusively read Urban Fantasy. I read Mysteries for about 10 years and I'm sorta burned out on those, LOL. I also like self-help/improvement stuff. No romance. UGH. Some biographies, that kinda thing. Favorite author, hands down, Kim Harrison for her Hallows series. Best. Series. EVAH. Quickly followed by Rachel Caine, Kelly Armstrong, CE Murphy...and the list goes on.
What do YOU read? Do tell.
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