Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Last night I was going to run out to the video store for the next installment of True Blood. My 14-year-old son said he'd like to go along so off we went. We were on the way home when he said, "I have something I want to say to you and I don't want you to get mad at me."
Several things flitted through my head...he's lost something....he had a fight with his sister and thinks she should be grounded for life....and I said, "Okay, shoot."
"I'm not saying this to be mean, I'm saying it because I'm your son and you're my mom and I love you. You need to be eating more healthy and exercising, because I don't want you to die. I know you've been trying...but I've only had you for 14 years and I need you mom, I don't want you to die."
Can I just tell you.....I felt like I'd been struck by lightning.
I talked to him about the things I've been doing, we talked a bit about it took me a long time to get this way and it wasn't going to change over night, and he offered to walk or bike with me to encourage me to exercise.
Since I've had pretty similar conversations with myself for the last 18 months since my dad died, it wasn't as painful or as shocking as it could have been...but to hear him say how afraid he was that I would die and how much he needed me...well, yeah, I'm sure you can imagine.
Needless to say, it's another (huge) incentive to keep on keeping on...to keep moving, to work on building my health.
1) Water...why is this so hard? Getting a little better, but it's always WORK to get it in...
2) Move - I'm taking my son up on his offer and will bike with him this evening...
3) Meds - I've not been taking my meds/supplements as I should...and my arthritis is telling me about it.
Just do it....just do it. day in and day out...Just do it.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
You know, it's always something.
something is going to happen...and my first instinct is to curl up and hide. Not do my cardio...eat fatty, sugary food...and just stay in a holding pattern till I "feel" like working on my health.
If i wait till I feel like it...I might be too old, too ill or too dead to do it. So today when i didn't really wanna climb on my bike and open the garage door, i did it anyway. When i wanted to take the shorter route...I made myself pedal on to the planned route instead.
I often hear from people around me how impressed they are at how hard I work on things....and I can say in honesty, I do..I give whatever it is my best.
Except me. I have never consistently given myself my best....and wow is my weight an indicator of that.
I'm in week 4 of the 10 minute challenge and all I see when I look at it is "I didn't measure up"....okay, so no, I haven't had consistency there yet...but the key word is YET. I can't, won't give up on myself. I'll keep striving for that 10 minutes 5 x a week. On dance days, i blow that 10 minute goal out of the water, often by 120 minutes. The problem is, I don't do that 5 x a week! that is 1 or maybe 2 x a week...and the rest of the week....i procrastinate or talk myself out of it. that's why I started the 10 min challenge and why I bought the bike.
That's why, even tho I'll teach a one hour dance class tonight, and i could have counted that as completing my 10 minute goal...I dragged my tired butt out and hit the garage door opener when I really wans't into it.
because I can do this. I WILL do this. I will do this.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Fabulous because it's half way to the weekend...in which we are celebrating our 5 year anniversary (of being a couple, married for 3) by taking a long weekend to Portland...so come on Friday!
Fabulous because since my last weigh in 9 days ago, I've lost 3 pounds...and my only goal weight wise was 2 pounds this MONTH, so I'm ridiculously pleased.
Fabulous because I finished my biggest quilt project to date the baby quilt pictured above and will gift it to someone special to me who has wanted a baby very badly and is only a few short weeks away from having that baby....
All in all, an excellent Wednesday by my account. Hope it's the same for you....
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