Can't say how glad I am that the work week is over...seems like everyone had a cruddy week..crazy week...are you sure the moon's not full?
Nothing exciting this weekend...a lot of laundry, LOL. Still no weigh in this a.m. as one of the boys spent another night and they camped out in the living room and have full control of the Wii, LOL. But tomorrow....
I got several comments at the end of the week about "you look like you've lost some weight". Whether I have or not, it's nice to hear...and in the mirror yesterday it DID look like I was more compact..we'll see.
Goal wise, i've hit a couple that have been hard fo me - 5 fruits/vggies a day and exercising 5x in a week...so i feel good about that regardless of what the fickle scale will say.
Emotions runnng a lil high here at home...jodie still obviously in grief over losing her dad, she's feeling like the kids are lazy and don't respect her - whoever coined the term "blended family" is closer than they realize..I feel like I'm in a blender! she never had kids...and came from the south from a family that is very harsh discipline-wise on children...the smallest infraction gets ridiculous consequences. I've been parenting 24 years and I have a pretty different view point...so she thinks I'm too lax on them...throw in a 16 and 14 yo...and it spells conflict. sometimes I feel like I'm walking a tightrope.
I hear the same from other families - both gay and straight - and i tell myself the kids will only be home a few more years...and jodie has learned some compromise, just right now she doesn't have the patience to utilize it, LOL.
Yay. Washer's done. means i need to put in anther load...
the heat has shortened people's tempers...the kids are bickering and sick of each other...my partner is deeply grieving her dad's death...no word on how much it's going to cost to fix the car and I have no money to fix it anyway....and I feel exhausted and getting crabby myself.
So I'm pretty freakin' happy to see the end of this week roll in! I'm working my August goals - tho i'm tired and not feelin it really....i'm working the "just DO it" mantra a lot. Wanted to weigh in this a.m., but there are 15 year old boys in my living room from a sleep over playing X box and I don't care to waltz out in my nightgown and do my Wii weigh in with them, thank you....so it will have to be tomorrow.
I'm feeling that "is this worth it?" feeling...I'm working hard on my goals and I have quite a bit of fear that it's not going to pan out. This is a pretty reasonable fear, since i've been re-losing the same 5-10 pounds for the last couple months.
Today, I will carry on and eat my freakin' salad...do my dance class...and put one foot in front of the other.
I realized today that I am going to exceed my SparkAmerica goal...and that was a good feeling. I guesstimated and figured just over 5,300 minutes would be what I'd get this year...and I'm already less than 1000 from that now. I wondered about changing the goal...but decided to leave it and see how far above it I can get and that will give me a better idea of what to make my goal next year.
Reconnected with a friend from grade school through the miracle of social networking that is Facebook. Wow...brought back so many memories. She had some pictures she emailed me and in them I realized...I was not a heavy child at all...I wasn't heavy in middle school or high school. I think being overweight for the last 20 years and obese the last 10 of those 20...I began to think I've "always" been heavy. Skewed thinking yet again.
Someone said once they were still fat where it really counted, in between their ears...and that struck me as so true. I think fat...and in doing so I sometimes even change history in my mind to "always" being overweight. Interesting what we convince ourselves of isn't it?
For today - I'll be getting my 5 veggies in with little effort even...exercise will be at least 10 minutes of something, likely more because I usually just need to start..then I can keep going, then a reasonable amount of sleep, which has been sorely lacking this month. That's it. That's all I got today.
Friday was supposed to be the start of my weekend getaway with kids to water park in Washington State.. but started off with the car breaking down in the boonies, a 2+ hour wait for a tow, a $400 tow from the closest town back to my home town mechanic...renting a car and making it to Portland about 4 hours later than planned. The waterpark was fabulous and fun, the kids had a great time. Jodie came home from Louisiana...but was so busy moving her mom while there that she really didn't begin to grieve her dad's death and that is cropping up now...haven't heard from the mechanic yet if car is worth fixing...
This would all equal stress. Stress that in the past, i would have shoved down my throat with food to compensate. I've managed to not do that. Yeah, at the water park I had a burger and fries...and I had one ice cream. Not bad for a weekend getaway with more stress than I would have thought possible. Back on today with no hitches...good breakfast, healthy lunch...I'm rockin' it. I think. LOL.
1. Make goals so ridiculously do-able that I can't NOT do them.
2. I stayed in top 50 for LC cafe points wise in July....in August I'd like to stay in the top 40.
3. Lose 2 pounds by end of month.
4. Get my average steps up from 4-6K a day to 6K a day solid.
5. Exercise 5 x a week for at LEAST 10 minutes. I'm really good at exercising a lot on one day, then nothing for 3 days.
6. Get 5 fruits and veggies 6 days a week (currently running 4-5 days a week).
I'm really bad at planning ahead....and getting a lunch packed has been consistently....very inconsistent...to the point of rare. I'd buy the stuff...then be too tired to mess with it the night before and too rushed to do it in the morning...and that was that.
Then last weekend when I was looking in the kitchen aisle for something else, I noticed a salad bowl with fork and dressing container that snap into the lid...all contained. I thought...geez you are so bad at this, but let's give it a try....I went home and made sure I had all my favorite salad fixings, cut the ones that needed to be chopped up right then, and put in ziplocks...and one of those double packs of grilled chicken breast from Costco...and it takes me just a few minutes to throw my salad together and I'm done. I'm saving a LOT of money from eating out and I'm eating MUCH healthier at lunch....plus it's pretty much guaranteeing I'll get my 5 veggies in for the day...total win-win!
See...you can teach old dogs new tricks....
I tend to get bored easily, so I'm trying to think ahead about having different veggies to add for variety and making sure I have a couple of dressings on hand that I LIKE...the really nice thing about the dressing container? It only holds maybe 2 tbs tops...so I can't get carried away with the dressing!
Tomorrow Jodie will fly back into PDX...after being gone two weeks for her dad's funeral in Louisiana. It is also the start of a planned getaway (long before we knew her dad would pass) to Great Wolf - an indoor water park in Washington. So the kids and I will pick jodie up from PDX friday night, hit Powell's and Saturday Mkt in Portland, then head up to Great Wolf overnight and come home late sunday. There's definitely a lot of activity in there so I feel confident I'll have a good healthy weekend!